Cupid winks

When he grows up, he will not dream day and night that he is being dragged to feed the fish, and he will not dream of beating someone with a ruler. "

The man visibly trembled, and whispered: "I don't know... how would I know..."

He said, "I'm sorry..."

I frowned and said viciously, "What's the use of apologizing to me?"

Not only is it useless to apologize to me, his apology is useless at all, and no one can foresee the future.I'm just venting.I need to vent my depression, my unhappiness, and he, he needs to apologize.

I watched the man take a puff of cigarette, the man's eyes were full of light, the rain had stopped, it wasn't the raindrops reflected on the glass, and the light reflected in his eyes.

I asked, "Then why did you leave?"

The man said: "After a producer knew that I was gay, he tried to rape me. When I resisted, he threatened me, saying that if I spoke out, he would guarantee that I would never have a foothold in Taiwan. I beat him up. Afterwards, it was hidden by the record company, and life was very difficult. I went to work, and Xiao Fan helped me take care of the children. During that time, I was very tired. Xiaoying’s health was not very good, and she was hospitalized with pneumonia. There is no way at all, Xiao Fan said, go to Brother Hua, I said, no. He secretly went to A Hua by himself. Fumiko followed, she pitied the child and wanted to adopt him. I didn’t know at that time that I could still Can't get better, I know they can give him a better life. At least he will go to school in the future, he has a father and a mother. You know, this is very important, otherwise you go to school, everyone says you are no one wants My child, as time goes by, you will feel that you are really no one wants. Once someone treats you better, you will follow him wholeheartedly. This is not good, you can’t give too much love to one person at once, otherwise others will share everything No. Not even yourself.”

I scratched my hair, and I doubted the man's authenticity again.I traveled thousands of miles to Sri Lanka, and when I walked into such a secluded and deserted small bar, I met this man whose experience was so similar to mine, and his experience overlapped so much with mine.is he realAm I real?What time is it now, what year and what date?I've grown old like him... Could it be that I'll be alone when I grow old, and I can only reminisce with my younger self at night?

I called out to the bartender, and the bartender turned to look at me. I gestured and said, "Two glasses of whiskey, two people."

The bartender nodded and brought two glasses of wine, one for me and one for the man.I breathed a sigh of relief.

The man asked me: "Did you go to his funeral? It was grand, right?"

I shook my head and said, "No, but it's really grand."

S’s eldest brother did not go, he believed in God, followed a Catholic funeral, and insisted that the deceased should bid farewell to the Lord in the church before they could die in peace. S’s second brother and younger brother went, walking in the funeral procession, I watched the video , a mighty group of men in white clothes walked on the road following S who was holding a photo of his remains.

According to his father's will, S was assigned to an old house in Rongshi, and also inherited his father's positions in all companies.His father also specifically enjoined him in the will, asking him to take good care of Kasang and his older brothers.His dad wrote: "They all spoiled me, now you are the head of the family, you have to take responsibility."

The man said, "I couldn't stay in Taiwan any longer, so I went to the mainland."

"Ah Hua came to see me. He was so angry that he said, what the hell do you live in! Xiao Fan said, Brother Hua, there is a bus stop and a vegetable market when you go out, don't be too convenient!"

"He bought a big house for us to live in, and Xiao Fan and I paid him the rent. The house was too big for the two of us to live in, and it seemed empty. One day, we passed by Four Seasons Plaza...is Four Seasons Plaza still there? "

I said, "It's still there, but it will be demolished soon."

"I don't know what happened to those cats and dogs." The man asked in a low voice.

I said, "Manager Fan is pretty good, he's always full of energy."

The man smiled, and he said with a smile: "I miss Xiaoying very much. I want him to grow up quickly, to be happy soon, to learn to love someone quickly, and to be loved by someone well. I also want him not to grow up so fast. So quickly realizing the many misfortunes in the world, what kind of adult has Xiaoying become now?"

He looks at me.I'm a little confused, I don't quite understand, I told him so many things about s when he was a child, about s and me, about s' every move, every word and deed, about s...

I hiccupped, covered my mouth, and looked at the man again, he was still looking at me with puzzled eyes, I suddenly understood, what I said was always s. s, a code name, an abbreviation, a letter that can be used to refer to anyone.

I asked, "Are you talking about Lu Ying?"

I said, "He..."

Let me think about it carefully, what do I really know about Lu Ying?

I know that Lu Ying was born on December 91, 12, winter, the end of a year, very close to a new beginning.Lu Ying's father, Lu Nianhua, had been an artilleryman for three years. After he recovered, he formed a happy streak with a group of brothers from other provinces. They fought for territory and competition in Taipei, and entered Taipei City from Taipei County. Underground casinos, money houses, and sneaky money earned enough money. He switched to trade, developed real estate, went to Vietnam, Cambodia, and Sri Lanka to invest in casinos, and did high-seas cruise projects, blatantly earning black money.Lu Nianhua left his hometown when he was 31 years old, and returned to the countryside of Tainan when he was 16 years old. He invested in the construction of the Happy Park playground, where he built a temple for the king of hell, and erected a statue for Guan Gong. Huarong Road, every spring, there is a parade of the three knots in Taoyuan. Many red-faced Guan Yu and many black-faced Zhang Fei walk around in the amusement park, scaring the children to cry.He has also invested in movies, martial arts movies, gangster movies, and love movies. One of the actresses in one of the love movies is Lu Ying's mother Fumiko Kato.Fumiko fled from Japan to Taiwan at the age of 50 to avoid her enemies. Her childhood dream was to write novels. Her favorite Japanese author is Yasunari Kawabata, and her favorite Japanese novel is "Snow Snow".She used to be a model under the Star Entertainment Company in Taipei. She had filmed shampoo commercials and stockings commercials. Two years after she met Lu Nianhua, they got married, and she and Xingxing terminated their contract.After marriage, she starred in that love movie.Originally, the role was not hers. One night, the director came to Lu’s house for dinner, and Fumiko received him in a kimono. The director said, Mrs. Lu is very suitable for one of our roles. She is Japanese and a lady. Would Boss Lu want his wife to play the role?

At that time, Fumiko gave birth to her eldest son Kazuo.She took the show job.After the film was released, she received other film contracts one after another, and she did not act in any film again.She said that if she plays again, she will grow old. It is so uncomfortable to be watched by so many people to grow old little by little.

A boy was kidnapped by Lu Nianhua's enemies when he was five years old. After being rescued, he was sent to the United States. Three years later, his second son Jiro was born. His family treated him very strictly. He was followed by bodyguards when he went to the bathroom. As long as someone said a word to Jiro, that person would be investigated carefully. Jiro gradually learned to keep company with books, cats, dogs, pet mice, and flowers and plants in the yard.Lu Nianhua and Fumiko's third child is Lu Ying.I now know that Lu Ying's biological mother is not Fumiko, but her biological father is Lu Nianhua.But he doesn't know yet.For so many years, he has always believed that he does not belong to that big family. In order to become a part of the family, he tried his best to imitate and blend in.He is the most suitable person to tell the origin of the idiom "pulling seedlings to encourage growth".Lu Ying also has a younger brother, who is about the same age as him. Their parents treat them equally. They always have two sets of toys. The scale of the birthday party is exactly the same, and they are never favored.This deprived Lu Ying of her sense of security.He said that he felt that this was a kind of equality deliberately given by his parents.

He trembled at any affection from his parents.A little joy is replaced by panic.Over time, he didn't understand happiness anymore, and he also wanted to regain the feeling of happiness. He heard people say that smoking would make him happy. He learned to smoke, but he was not happy at all. Drinking, but I don't think there is any joy in it, and some people say that being in love makes people happy.He just falls in love, loves women, can't fall in love, loves men, a little excited, when the man takes off his clothes, he seems to be able to see a ruler waving on the man's naked buttocks.

He is 16 years old. He found that the pain of others can bring him great happiness. As long as he can take the initiative to give others pain, he will no longer be so panic.He felt relaxed for a long time.But the man says he loves him, and he gets nervous again.Love makes him tense, sex makes him loose, they have to be separated, there can be no overlap.His life is so clear-cut.

Lu Nianhua often said to him, third child, when we do things, we just say that one is one, and one is the same!What we do is to be rewarded and punished!

The man asked, "What did you think of?"

His voice drew me back to the little bar, and I said, "Thinking of a lot."

"How tall is he?"

"1.8 meters five, looks like eight six."

"How's it going?"

"Like his dad."

The man smiled: "What's the sound like?"

"Simply, sometimes it sounds a bit childish, and it sounds like you will never be angry with him."

"He's really not that old."

"Not old, just young, very good age." I said.

"What does he like to eat?"

"Large intestine wrapped with small intestine, braised pork rice, Japanese food."

"Is it spicy?"

I shake my head.The man said: "Taiwanese stomach."

"He usually likes to do some