Cupid winks

Senior brother gnaws apples, senior brother eats chestnuts, senior brother gnaws me, eats me, senior brother’s lips are always moving, rolling out a lot of waves; senior brother’s fingers are pressed on his lips.

Lie.

Love should be beautiful.

The birthmark on my brother's face is so ugly.But senior brother still looks good.How can there be such contradictory things in the world?I really don't understand.

I can't think about my brother anymore, I have to catch my breath.I lit a cigarette, turned around and looked at the half-destroyed wall behind me. I couldn't remember what it looked like before, so I asked Shuxue, "Is this a small supermarket or a lottery ticket seller?"

Shuxue said, "It looks like a noodle shop."

Ye Haowen said, "Is it a bakery?"

Shu Xue snorted: "Bakery? Where can there be such a foreign style in the old city?"

Ye Haowen said, "Isn't there a Hollyland, Starbucks in the old city?"

Shuxue said: "That's the Western style, not the Western style."

Ye Haowen smoked and stopped talking.I watch them laugh and I think they will be together for a long time.I relax a little. S came to our side, and he said: "It sells roasted seeds and nuts, dried fruits or something."

I asked again: "Then what will become of it?"

Shu Xue said, "Starbucks."

Ye Haowen grabbed his hair, laughed, and puffed smoke.I laughed too, scratched the center of my eyebrows, and said, "Let's go to a milk tea shop."

I said, "I heard that the gangsters in Taiwan have switched to selling milk tea now."

S laughed, and said to us: "Don't tell Hebox what happened today."

I blew the whistle: "Then we must be able to contact him as a missing person!"

S also smiled and sat on the other side of me.For a while, no one spoke, and everyone was just smoking. I vaguely saw a peacock walking on the dark street next to Tianxing. I hurriedly asked S: "Is there any good movie recently?"

s shook his head.

S and He He often go to the movies together, walk together, eat together, and go in and out together.One time, I went back to the dormitory, went back to the room, and saw the two of them lying together, they were both fully clothed, and another time, I rushed back to the dormitory to pee, and as soon as I went into the toilet, I saw the two of them soaking in the bathtub and smoking , with no clothes on.I don't think they had sex, not once.

I asked Shuxue: "Have you read any good books recently?"

Shu Xue pointed at Ye Haowen, Ye Haowen was taken aback, touched the bridge of his nose, and said, "I haven't read a book for a long time."

Shuxue looked at me and said, "Everyone is a book."

I laughed: "Then what kind of book is it?"

Shu Xue pointed behind us: "Everyone reads it differently, and it's just a cemetery of our own memories."

S said: "The presence of a cemetery means that there are still people who will come to mourn."

Shu Xue added: "It can't be said to be a cemetery. In fact, memories are ongoing. Every memory is updated every time."

I yawned, touched my belly, looked in the direction of Tianxing, and asked, "Shall we still eat?"

S said: "The dishes are cold."

Shu Xue asked him: "Who is Manager Fan talking on the phone for so long?"

S shrugged, I squinted my eyes and looked: "Is Lao Fan crying?"

I wiped the corners of my eyes: "I've never seen him cry, it makes me want to cry too."

At this time, Manager Fan hung up the phone, stopped crying, stood on the road, looked around, and ran towards us.He handed the phone to S and said, "Are you still eating? If you don't, I'll go in and pack it."

I said, "I want fried chicken."

Manager Fan gave me a blank look, and trotted back into Tianxing. s called and turned on the loudspeaker to order KFC takeaway. He ordered two beer fried chicken super meals, and Shu Xue added a bowl of preserved egg and lean pork porridge. I want Coke and egg tarts. The operator said, add French fries Let's make another set meal, Ye Haowen said, let's add French fries.

The four of us sat on the road opposite the Star and waited to eat meat.

The peacock did not come out of the darkness.I recovered, and as soon as my nerves relaxed, my stomach became even more hungry, and I growled. S said to me: "It's almost delivered."

I was very embarrassed, rubbed my belly and said, "Oh, I stayed in the temple for too long before, and now I'm so hungry that I haven't eaten a bite of meat for half a day." I laughed twice, "No, it's because I'm so hungry."

Everyone laughed.

In fact, I stayed in Yunyuan Temple for five years as a monk. When I was fourteen or about fifteen, my parents came to the temple to take me home for a while.It was Monk Heyin who asked them to come. After they came, the three of them were talking in Monk Heyin's room. I wanted to eavesdrop, but Dongming grabbed my ear and dragged me to the Hall of the King of Hell to copy the Diamond Sutra for punishment.I copied half an article, He Yin came in, I looked outside the house, my parents were talking together, my mother lowered her head and kept wiping her eyes, my father was smoking, one after another.I looked at He Yin, He Yin closed the door, and said to me: "Chen Yun, practice is in the heart, not in the body, the heart is in the Buddha, no matter where you are, it is practice. When you go home, you can't stop practicing. "

I said: "Master, Chen Yun will never steal steamed buns from the kitchen again, and he will never be lazy on the ground again. Chen Yun washes the hair, feet, and teeth of the masters of the king of hell every day, and drags the Daxiong Palace ten times a day to serve Guanyin well." Master, I guarantee that Master Guanyin will never suffer from periarthritis of the shoulder again, and the shoulder pain will come from a dream!"

I said, "I don't want to go home."

He Yin asked me: "Chenyun, where is your pain?"

I shook my head: "I don't feel any pain, it's all nonsense. I fell by myself. You see, there was a cut in my leg, so the monk's robe was stained with blood."

He Yin glanced at me, looked up to see King Yama who was sitting in the Hall of the King of Yama, watched for a while, and He Yin beckoned me to go over, I walked to him, and He Yin closed his eyes, clasped his hands, and recited something ,I can not hear clearly.I looked at him, he stood really straight, he was so thin, like a strong wooden staff.

He Yin read for a long time before talking to me again.He said: "In the "Diamond Sutra", Subhuti heard the Buddha's scriptures, and his heart felt enlightened. It was written in the scriptures that he realized that Bodhisattvas should leave all appearances, send out the heart of Anuttara-samyak-sambodhi, and should not live in color and life. The heart should not live in the sound, smell and touch the law to give birth to the heart, but should give birth to the heart of no place to live.

"Chen Yun, color is form, color is desire, color is all the lovely and hateful things in the world, color is appearance. You are in the dark right now, and you see nothing. When you come to the bright place, everything in the dark place will be fully exposed, and your original heart will be shaken, but the light and darkness do not depend on you. When you are cute, you have nothing to live in, and when you are hateful, you have nothing to live in. , this is you. In the rebirth of life, you will be confused for a while, and you will be clear for a while, and you will be confused and clear.

I couldn't understand He Yin's words, but for some reason, I remembered every word and every word very firmly.

My parents led me back to Spring City.I practiced at home, and my hair started to grow, first flat, then bangs, until it reached my ears, I still couldn't go to school, my mother didn't even let me go out.Once, an aunt in the family came to visit, saw me, touched my growing hair, and said that I was cute, like a little girl doll.Since then, my mother never let my hair grow long again, and I have a blue head all day long.We have no relatives at home.

I eat vegetarian food at home, chant Buddhist scriptures, copy Buddhist scriptures, burn incense, kowtow to Buddha, and clean the Buddhist altars at home.My dad eats meat, gnaws roast chicken, gnaws pork ribs, my mother also eats meat, drinks broth, and eats meatballs. I see only the two of them every day, with their shiny mouths, and hear only the two of them. There are weak voices, one is always crying, and the other is always miserable.I said I wanted to go back to Yunyuan Temple. My father slapped me. My mother said that there is nothing good in the temple. There are poisonous snakes in the temple. If you are bitten by a poisonous snake, you will die. , why don't you remember the pain?"

I said, "What poisonous snake, there are no poisonous snakes in the temple."

I got angry: "You have poisonous snakes in your heart, everything you see is a poisonous snake!"

They were also angry, but they just kept saying that the snakes in the temple were very poisonous.They repeatedly asked me not to think about things in the temple anymore, never to think about it again.They don't explain it clearly, and they may not know what the poison is. They may think that if they don't talk about it or think about it, the poisonous snake will disappear by itself.But snakes will hide in the grass, conceal themselves, and cover themselves.The snake is always there.

I miss my brother.

I often take out the wheel-running king that my brother carved for me.The tip of the wheel-running king's nose has been touched like a garlic nose by me, and it still glows.

One night, while my parents were asleep, I took 50 yuan from my mother's wallet, slipped out, took the evening bus, took the bus to the bus station, and bought a ticket to go up to the mountain.

I went back to Yunyuan Temple alone.I didn't dare to go in through the main entrance ostentatiously. I was afraid that He Yin would inform my parents if he saw it. In a room piled with colorful Buddha statues.I am waiting.I am waiting to give my brother a surprise, I miss him, and I think he also misses me.He will miss me too.I am waiting.

When someone came in, I took a sneak peek. The first one came in was a young monk, about ten years old, handsome, cute, and ignorant. After he came in, the senior brother followed.

Brother closed the door.

The brother pressed his fingers to his lips.

Lie.

This is the secret of senior brother and Zibai.

The brother's hand reached into the monk's robe of little monk Zibai.The senior brother said: "Zibai likes to watch the peacocks spread their tails, right? Brother, I will wait for you to watch it at night, okay?"

At that moment, I saw my brother's hands turned into ten poisonous snakes.I thought I had misread it, so I wiped my eyes and looked again, the brother's hand was still a poisonous snake.

It's not that I have a poisonous snake in my heart, it's