Cupid winks

I can't explain clearly, you can explain everything clearly, you can think clearly..."

I said, "Are your grades poor and you envy me for studying well?"

He chuckled: "Come on, I'm not bad either."

I said: "You should also keep a diary. I will reflect on myself three times a day, so that I can understand many things."

I flipped through my diary: "Even if you can't figure it out for a while, but write things down and look back, you will definitely find the answer yourself."

I believe that there must be clues in the diary that allow me to understand all the things that happened around me, all my actions, and all actions.

The diary contains my experiences and lessons, my comprehension, and my summary.I will learn a lot from the diary.

Ye Haowen said: "It's enough to keep a diary? You can understand why I love you? Why don't I love you completely like others? Sometimes I don't just want to give you a hundred, I want to give you two hundred, three hundred, sometimes I still want to give you a negative one hundred, I want to tie you up, lock you up, my head is full of dark thoughts, I feel terrible, love is not very bright, very positive, how can it be possible to love someone? Hate him? How can it be so dark? Sometimes I really don’t want to see you, I don’t want to think about you anymore, I don’t want to be so scary anymore, but I think about you, many times.”

I didn't have time to argue with him, I read the diary seriously, I searched, searched and searched.I don't want to hear him say sorry and say I love you, they're gross and disgusting and unrealistic, that's what I think, I know it, but he says sorry and say I love you.I'm not angry.

I thought I understood a lot of truths, I thought I had a lot of experiences, and I wrote them all in my diary so that I would never forget them, and I could learn from them and learn from them.

However, I still can't learn not to pretend, not to whitewash.Not fancy.

Ye Haowen asked me: "Don't play cards anymore?"

I looked at the phone and said, "Maybe my essence is really good, but many things have happened, Ye Haowen, I don't love you. I won't."

Ye Haowen said: "I may not know it at all, I don't understand."

He was typing on his mobile phone, I looked at it, and he searched: what is love.

What jumped out was a song, the theme song of an idol drama.We looked at each other, smoked cigarettes, and laughed.

At [-]:[-] in the evening, Ye Haowen and I arrived at Tianxing. s is back.Seeing him, I was both surprised and happy, sat next to him, and asked him, "Did He He look for you?"

He said, "Hehe came to Taiwan, then left, and is now in Sri Lanka." He said, "He will send me postcards."

He asked me, "Is Hehe's mother okay?"

He saw Ye Haowen, and Ye Haowen replied: "Fortunately, it's still conservative treatment, I don't want to have surgery."

S smiled, her gaze shifted to me, I laughed too, poured tea, drank it, rubbed her fingers on a tissue, and said, "She really wants a box."

S nodded and said: "He made his own choice, he is a person who has the ability and courage to bear the consequences."

I drank tea and called Ah Ming over to order food.

After ordering, Xiaobao and Manager Fan came in one after the other. Xiaobao exclaimed when he saw S, ran over and hugged him, and looked around: "Where is Hehe?"

I said, "He's in Sri Lanka."

Xiao Bao asked, "Where is Sri Lanka?"

Manager Fan knocked him on the head: "Read more books!"

Xiao Bao touched his head and stuck out his tongue.Seeing me, he yelled at Manager Fan: "Manager Fan! Why don't you say you can bring your family? Then I'll call Xiao Zhuo here, so that he won't ask questions!"

Manager Fan said again, "Who is your manager? Who is your manager?"

I looked at Manager Fan, who sat down, cleared his throat, and said, "The house is donated."

S said: "I'll go through some formalities when I come back, and the house will belong to the Cultural Relics Bureau in the future."

Xiaobao opened his mouth, didn't speak, sat down, took a sip of tea, put his hands on the table, bent over, and suddenly said: "Then come again...it's gone?"

No one answered.There were other customers in the shop, talking, clinking glasses, laughing, and cursing under their breath.

I poured tea for Xiaobao, looked at everyone, and said, "I ordered Maggi chicken wings, pork ribs with cold melon, fried rice noodles, stir-fried emperor, and a steamed eel. Do you want to add anything?"

Shaking his head, Manager Fan scraped the teacup back and forth with his fingers for a long time, and said, "Drink some wine."

We added a half dozen beers.

Halfway through the dishes, Xiaobao answered the phone and went outside to talk on the phone.I smoked a cigarette from the pack, S lit it for me, and I lit him too, but he still smoked Marlboros.I looked at his cigarette case, and the two of us lifted the cigarettes in our hands to each other.

At this time, a man wearing a hood came out from the direction of the kitchen. He walked quickly and with big steps. He walked straight to S. His profile flashed in front of my eyes, and his hand was put into his coat Pulled out a gun and aimed it at S's temple.

I see a scar under my eye.It's Xiao Zhuo.

I looked outside, outside the sky, Xiaobao was facing us, facing the direction of the road, he seemed to be waiting for someone.

S didn't move, Manager Fan jumped up, and Xiao Zhuo pulled the trigger.Ye Haowen held my hand.

At that moment, my mind went blank.At that moment, I trembled, and I felt Ye Haowen tremble too.

The gun didn't go off, Xiao Zhuo fired it a few more times, but it still didn't go off, he took a rest, smoked, took a look at Xiao Zhuo, took out a gun from his suit jacket and put it on the table.Manager Fan hurriedly threw a napkin over to cover the pistol.Xiao Zhuo trembled, and fled away.Ah Ming walked towards us and asked, "What's the matter? What's the matter?"

The whole store was looking at us.

I took out my phone.

Ye Haowen said: "Wait, don't call the police, if the police come, find his gun..."

I deleted all diaries.

I just relaxed.

This moment, this very moment.I don't know what year, month and day, what time and what time.I, Ye Haowen, s, Manager Fan are in Tianxing. The table is full of hot dishes and half a dozen beers, and I only start eating and drinking.There is a gun on the table.

What am I going to do now?What should I do?I looked at Ye Haowen, and he was also looking at me."I thought we were going to die together," he said.

I thought so too, but we're not dead, we're still alive, it's just that my past has become a blank, I can't recall it anymore, I can't look for it anymore.Some experiences, some truths I no longer understand, I no longer understand, and they can no longer confuse me.I deleted them, lost them.

I want to learn from scratch, from babbling, I want to re-understand the world, every person, every flower, every tree, starting from the people around me.

I saw Ye Haowen sitting beside me, and I saw that we were still holding hands.Ye Haowen's hands are warm, I don't know if they will be warmer, I don't know when he will let go of my hands.

A high-pitched horn sounded from outside.

I went out, and a construction vehicle stopped at the gate of Tianxing, with its lights shining on the road, and Xiaobao sat in the middle of the road, hugging someone.I stepped on a sneaker, I picked it up and put it away on the side of the road.There was some blood on the ground, and behind Xiaobao was a wall that had been demolished in half.

The person who appeared to be the driver stood by the car and called, and we called, calling an ambulance.I looked at Xiaobao, and I remembered that one time, Xiaobao, Hehe, and S, we got together for a drink and somehow discussed dreams.Xiaobao raised his hand and said, "I know! Shuxue's dream is to buy a house!"

He is right, I have been saving money, I have always wanted to have my own house, I also want to have leather sofas, glass coffee tables, 4-inch [-]k TVs, game consoles, DVD players, stereos, toasters, ovens, pressure cookers, Popcorn machine, I want something that probably won't be useful.I want to spend the rest of my life with these things in my own house.They also accompany me.

He He's dream is to travel around the world. He wants to immigrate, and he wants to have a passport that doesn't require a visa every time he goes to any country. s, s said nothing.He is always very silent.Xiaobao thought for a long time, but he couldn't figure it out.After a while, Xiaobao and I watched a movie in the dormitory. Tsui Hark's "Green Snake" was broadcast on the movie station. After the movie was finished, Xiaobao told me excitedly that he had a dream.His dream is to meet a Fahai. He said that he has met so many monks, but he has never seen a Fahai. He wants to be a green snake, and he wants to touch Fahai's smooth head in the water.He is also going to start saving money.Save money to go to Hangzhou and find Fahai.

"Shuxue?" Ye Haowen called me, and I was startled. When I saw him, I saw a young man wearing a policeman's clothes. The policeman looked at me and raised an eyebrow: "Shuxue? Take out your ID card." .”

I nodded and said, "Yes, Shu in the Kingdom of Shu, it's snowing snow."

I nodded vigorously again: "It's me."

I gave him my ID card.

Xiaobao was still sitting on the ground, but the person in his arms was gone, and on Xiaobao's hand...

Let Xiaobao tell his own story.

Xiaobao

1.

When Shu Xue quietly told me: "Xiaobao, Xiao Zhuo shot at S, but the gun didn't go off." When my mind actually came up with the old horse's face.

The old horse is bigger than me, much bigger.Lao Ma is bigger than Manager Fan.Much bigger.Lao Ma never mentioned to me how old he is, nor did I ask him. Judging by his appearance, I guess he is in his fifties. He is neither fat nor thin. He is about 1.7 meters five and always tidy. Very energetic and elegant. When wearing a shirt, there is no wrinkle on the shirt, the collar is crisp, and the material of the shirt is still very soft. Under the shirt, jeans or cropped trousers with light fabrics are worn, with some ankles exposed, and leather shoes are worn. A flat hat must be worn with a polo shirt, and the trousers are either light-colored linen or snow-white cotton, with casual shoes.