Cupid winks

Looking at the petals, the life of a flower is so short, and the edges of the petals have turned yellow.I said again: "It seems to be dry."

Ye Haowen said: "Giving roses to others will leave a lingering fragrance in your hands."

He put his hand in front of me, and I sniffed hard and sneezed.He wanted to touch me, but I avoided it. He smelled his hands and said, "It doesn't smell good anymore."

I leaned over to smell it, but within a few seconds, there was really no scent on his hands.Nothing.Ye Haowen's hands only smell of Ye Haowen.

A little later, I went to Yang Hongmei's English training class on Renmin Road in the old city. It was a small classroom in the basement with a dozen people. There were either primary school students or middle school students. They were very serious in class. We studied IELTS together.During the break at noon, I took out my mobile phone and looked at it. Both Xiaobao and Manager Fan came to ask me if I was going to the funeral home in the afternoon.I said, the person was cremated the day before yesterday.Manager Fan replied: Let's have a meal at Tianxing tonight.

We made an appointment to go to Tianxing for supper at ten o'clock in the evening.

In the afternoon, I accompanied Hehe's mother to the First Affiliated Hospital for chemotherapy and physical examination.I met Director Zhou in the elevator. When Director Zhou saw me, he came to shake hands with a smile, but then he stopped smiling and asked me: "The hospital is not a good place, why do you keep coming in and out here? You Is mom okay?"

He looked at the wheelchair I was pushing. Hehe's mother was sitting in the wheelchair, wearing a mask and a hat. Director Zhou didn't recognize her as a female snitch.When she saw Director Zhou, she was a little timid, covered her mask, and lowered her head.

I said, "She's fine, thank you Director Zhou for your concern."

Director Zhou nodded, looked at me, and asked, "Whose mother is this?"

I said, "This is Xiaoye's mother."

When I ran up and down with Hehe's mother for the physical examination, Ye Haowen was still by my side.He's in the elevator.He was taken aback when he heard my words, and then smiled at Director Zhou.Director Zhou sized him up before he was about to speak. The elevator door opened, and I pushed Hehema out, followed by Ye Haowen.Hehe's mother took off the mask and got angry with me: "Why did you randomly identify relatives for Xiaoye?"

I said, "Then you didn't deny it just now?"

Hehe's mother put on the mask again, sighed sullenly, and said, "Oh, I feel a little ashamed to see Director Zhou..."

Ye Haowen squeezed her shoulder and said, "It's okay, it doesn't matter."

I said: "If Xiaoye becomes your son, you will have money for surgery. After the surgery, you can get a fake breast, which is much better than me and Xiaobao." Xiao Yuqiang."

Hehe's mother held down the wheel of the wheelchair and said, "I'll go in by myself."

I saw that she had arrived at the door of her attending doctor's office. She looked at me, then at Ye Haowen, her eyes were cloudy, she waved at us, and said, "Go down and wait for me, I will find you myself."

I said, "We're at the flower stand under the inpatient department."

She pushed the wheelchair in by herself and closed the door.I walked towards the elevator, Ye Haowen scolded me: "How can you talk like that?"

I said, "Hehe will not come back."

He said, "Wouldn't it be nice to have a little hope?"

I said, "With hope, how can I make my current situation even more desperate? It's not necessary."

He said, "Not everyone is like you..."

He paused, thought for a long time, and said, "Cheek."

I smiled and didn't answer.

After a while, he added a few words: "Think about it, think about it thoroughly."

He added: "Many people still have dreams and fantasies."

We went to smoke under the flower stand, and the flower stand was full of black vines. It looked very fragile, like a lot of powder gathered, and it might fall apart when touched.The weather was cold, I smoked, Ye Haowen went to buy hot coffee.From time to time, other people came to smoke. I met a man who was 35 and six. He walked under the flower stand, took one look at me first, and after lighting a cigarette, he took a second look at me.I smiled at him.He doesn't look annoying.

The man came up to me and asked me, "Did I see you somewhere?"

I said: "Which child are you the father of? Yang Hongmei English training class? You took over the child?"

He smiled and asked: "Are you the training class teacher?"

I knew it when he smiled. He might be the father of some child, but he wouldn't pick it up.He may not even know that his own child is in English class.He then asked: "Do you usually do live broadcast part-time?"

I also laugh, smoke, and spit smoke.The man asked: "Add a WeChat?"

I don't dislike his voice, his size, the way he approaches people either.I exchanged WeChat messages with him while smoking a cigarette.Adding friends, he pressed his phone and sent a message: Rongjiang Xiaoxuehua?

That's my nickname for the live broadcast. Manager Fan gave it to each of us. Xiaobao is called Chuncheng Xiaobao, and Hehe is Nancun Yizhimei. S doesn't do live broadcasts, but we get together to help He also had a nickname: Domineering and ruthless president online training.

Ye Haowen is back.He called me, "Your friend?"

The man looked at him, I looked at the man, and blinked at him.The man showed a knowing smile, put away his phone, and left.

Ye Haowen sat down, looked up at me, lit a cigarette, looked up at me again, and said, "What's the difference between this and that black king kong? Next time, find someone so dark and strong, it doesn't look good. "

I didn't like his naked eyes, and I was annoyed for a while, and said, "You don't care, do you?"

He drank a cigarette in one hand and a paper coffee cup in the other, and said, "Yeah, I don't care." His eyes gradually descended, and his voice gradually became lower and lower, "Anyway, it doesn't matter to you, you can do anything..."

I flicked the ashes and said, "Abin broke up with me. He said that I am good at heart, but in fact I am bad at heart."

I made myself sound like a joke.

Ye Haowen snorted: "He is not much better."

I said, "Are you about the same?" I looked at him and asked him, "Is the new front desk of the Friendship Hotel okay?"

He looked at me and said, "You don't have the money to pay for learning English, and you don't have the money to take the tour guide exam? Do you earn more from live streaming or offline transactions?"

We both stared at each other without blinking or moving.My eyes were a little sore, but I didn't want to admit defeat, not to be outdone, so I asked him again: "Sun Yu likes you, you know that?"

He blinked, I sat down, smiled, and chased after the victory: "He and Xiuxiu, who do you like more?"

He rubbed his eyebrows, put his elbows on his knees, smoked, and said, "Why do you all like to ask this question, don't you think this question is strange? Can love be measured, can it be measured? How to measure, how to measure? I Love them all the same."

I said: "It's the same for everyone, isn't it the same as being indifferent to everyone? Don't argue with me, we are with each other."

He looked at me with sharp eyes and said, "How could this be the same?"

"Why is it different?"

He said: "You don't give anything, no one will give, I will give...I will give everything..."

This is very funny and easy to refute, I said: "I don't give anything, well, then everyone has zeros in their hands, and they are all empty. If you give everything, you give the same amount. They are all one hundred, all are full, one hundred is one hundred, is it different from empty ones and empty ones? There is no difference between yes and no, there is no difference at all.”

I said: "I was born, I came into this world alone, and I will die alone, and you are the same, everyone is the same, in the end there will be nothing."

Ye Haowen didn't speak, his mobile phone rang, took it out to look at it, and said to me: "The courier has arrived. I bought a box of puzzles." He whispered, "Didn't you say you want to do it?"

I was surprised: "I bought it myself, and it should be delivered today."

Also helpless.We really don't have a tacit understanding at all.How could I have thought that he would buy me a puzzle?

I said, "You can keep fighting for yourself."

He held the phone and said nothing.

I said: "I may not be born like this, and my essence is not like this, but step by step, I am like this now."

I emphasized: "That's what I am now."

Ye Haowen said: "Sun Yu always asks me for something," he asked, "Don't you want me to answer it?"

I said, "It doesn't matter."

He lowered his head and was very angry again: "Sun Yu said that he didn't want to become ugly with me, and didn't want me to forget him. I was very strange, and I couldn't understand it for a while, and I told him, how could it be, I never I think those people I liked were hideous, and I have never forgotten anyone. But I really want to forget you. For a while, after graduating from college, working, and getting married, I completely forgot about you."

I said, "Yeah, of course you want to forget that you ruined more than one life by mistake."

He said: "There is a little bit of this factor in it."

He said, "I'm sorry."

He said: "The other reason is... I want to forget you very much. Forget that you were smoking outside the auditorium 10 minutes ago, making out with a man, and your clothes were all messed up. After 10 minutes, you stood in front of the podium as an outstanding student representative." , the shirt is tucked into the trousers, the belt is buttoned up tightly, the buttons are buttoned to the top, and you look at people with your chin up, your gaze is high, very high."

He lowered his head: "I hated you before I knew you. I don't know if it's okay... Do you know how hideous you are?"

I said, "I don't know."

I took out my cell phone and flipped through my diary, trying to find the time when I was ugly and dig out the reasons why I was ugly.Ah Bin said he loves me, but he thinks I'm hateful.Do I look hateful in his eyes?Did I try to forget anyone?

Ye Haowen said: "I took your photo, I don't know why I took it, and what I did it for, I still don't know