Cupid winks

There are cocoons all over the place, and I don’t want to hear it anymore. You hate it, you hate it, you feel sick when you think of it, and you feel sick when you think of me. When you talk about it, you think I have become Mrs. Xianglin, and when you talk about it, you start to scold me. : There are many miserable people in the world, how old are you?

"I fell in love with an associate professor in the school, and someone found out. The associate professor lost his job, and I dropped out of school. That's it, and there is nothing to regret." I said.

Sun Yu said: "Maybe it's not a bad thing. If you hadn't dropped out, maybe you wouldn't be sitting here, maybe we wouldn't have met."

"Do you think meeting me is a good thing?" I asked Sun Yu.

Ye Haowen said, "I'm going out to smoke a cigarette."

Xiuxiu called him to stop, and asked with a smile: "The dishes are all served, do you want to add something?"

Ye Haowen shook his head with a smile, he gave me a wink before leaving, I understood it, and was about to find an excuse to leave too.Xiuxiu suddenly put my mobile phone back to me and said, "There are calls coming in all the time. You are staying at the Friendship Hotel."

Because I was watching the performance, my mobile phone was turned on silent, and I never turned it back. After I checked, it was indeed the Friendship Hotel that made three calls.

I said: "It's my customer, looking for me to buy something."

Xiuxiu folded her hands, put them on the table, looked at me lightly, and said in a manly voice: "You are so mysterious, you have so many secrets, every time I see you, I feel like I am making a puzzle."

I stood up with my mobile phone and said, "Go ahead, eat. This client has called three times. He should be in a hurry. I'm leaving first."

Xiuxiu pulled me reluctantly: "I'm leaving now? You just met my cousin, right? You haven't seen Awen for a long time, right? The last time I saw you was a month ago, right? It’s not convenient, was it at the Friendship Hotel last time?”

I got goosebumps, Xiuxiu held my hand tightly, looked up at me, and continued to speak softly and gently, her red lips opened, closed, and opened again: "Ah Wen knows this client of yours ?"

I shook my head.

"Then do I know you?"

I still shake my head.Xiuxiu said: "It's so late, doesn't this client need to go home? Won't his wife and children wait for him?"

There were many needles hidden in her words, and they stabbed me one after another.I feel like I've turned into a hedgehog.I said: "Work overtime, maybe."

Xiuxiu stared at me, smiled, and said, "I found that men like to use overtime as an excuse to escape. What problems can escape solve?"

Sun Yu laughed: "I testify that Ah Wen has been working overtime in the company recently."

Xiuxiu didn't look at him, she fiddled with her chopsticks, put one to the left of the other, then moved that one back to the right, over and over again, never tired of it.

The Friendship Hotel called again, I answered it, and said, "I'll be right there."

Xiuxiu looked at me with a cold smile.I slept with a married man, I committed a heinous crime, she is the husband's wife, she has the right to sentence me to death.

Xiuxiu said: "Have fun and earn more money."

I let out a sigh of relief, I wanted to leave, but I sat down again, I had something to say, and I said, "I don't know this person Ye Haowen."

I looked at Sun Yu and said to Xiuxiu, "You don't know him either."

The hot pot soup was boiling very hot, there were many dishes on the table, no one moved their chopsticks, Sun Yu only drank water, Xiuxiu looked at the boiling soup.

I said: "It's normal for people to have some secrets about themselves? Who can guarantee that there are no secrets among friends, family members, and lovers? Maybe everyone knows too much about me and thinks I still have secrets. How is it possible? It’s not normal, it shouldn’t be. It’s like a person who can often take off his clothes, and his job may be to take off his clothes. Over time, everyone will be surprised when they see him and see him wearing clothes. I would think, why is this man wearing clothes? So he still knows shame?"

Xiuxiu was still fiddling with her chopsticks, she said nothing, her ears were red.

Sun Yu said: "I swear I really don't know anything about you."

I nodded, I believed him, and I said to him: "I returned home after I dropped out of school. My family didn't accept me and felt that I had humiliated them. In our family, my grandfather and father are both doctors, so naturally Well, I was trained as a doctor since I was a child, but I failed to fulfill the expectations of my family. Not only that, but I also became a scandal and a laughing stock in the university. My grandfather used to teach in that university, and my dad was also in that university. Graduated from college, many of my teachers know him, my mother kicked me out of the house, they cut off relations with me." I looked at Xiuxiu, "You know, my experience, you know that I am so So many things, how can I miss this paragraph? I live on the street, homeless, and I walk to the river near my home. When I was young, I liked swimming there the most in summer and skating on it in winter. I want to be in Suicide there. But because I was too timid, I failed to commit suicide, so I followed others to run the boat. One day, I watched the news and saw that the associate professor I was in love with committed suicide by jumping into the river. I knew it was not my fault. Definitely not, I looked for him, and I still want to be with him, but he said that there is no possibility for us, and told me not to force him, okay, then I will go, I will not force him. I did not force him to death.

"I have been sailing for nearly ten years. Didn't it mean that time can smooth everything? Didn't it mean that blood is thicker than water in my family? I thought I could go home. I went back to my hometown. My family moved away. I found Other relatives were either rejected or scolded bloody. They said that I ruined my father's future, ruined the rest of my mother's life, and ruined my brother's life. In their circle of life, I was gay. I killed an associate professor. I have committed a heinous crime. They will never be able to lift their heads. I still found their new home. I hid in the garden downstairs. I saw my younger brother visiting relatives with his wife and children. I'm four years old, I can walk, I secretly slipped him a lollipop, and I left. I never want to go back. I went to the bar to drink, stole the full moon photos of other people's children, and I kept my own Old phone, keep my old number, pretend I still have family, pretend I'm part of a family, pretend they still think of me, call me. I sleep with a lot of people, a lot of people, I Not love them, where do I get so much love, who of you have so much love to give so many people? No, I just don't want to be alone, don't want to think about love, I used to think about it too much Yes, I pay too much attention to it, too purposeful, after knowing that there is love in the world, I feel that I also want to experience it, love and love, but there are people in the world who have 500 million, have villas, and Ferraris, but I just don’t have it. I won't have it. Of course I'll have nightmares where I'm drowning in slobber, what a disgusting way to die, and being strangled, raped, dismembered, dismembered. I'm going to see That guy, he's not married, no wife and kids, we've known each other for a while, he said he likes me, maybe, I'm happy with him, he doesn't have to give me money. That's all I have, yours Puzzle solved?

"I can't even put together my own puzzle, I can't find my own pieces, and I always lose everything. If you didn't remind me, there are some things that I may never remember, and I may never want to think of them again."

I took a big sip of water and finally said to her: "I'm sorry, I'm very bad, I'm sorry, you should come to me, I'm the one who hurt you."

I am leaving.

Ye Haowen was smoking outside the hot pot restaurant. When he saw me, he turned into an alley, and I followed him.Walking into the alley, without waiting for him to ask, I said first: "I fell down the stairs that day, she was the one who registered me and accompanied me to see a doctor. She said she was a volunteer of the Red Cross."

Ye Haowen became impatient: "You believe what she says? Why didn't I know that you are so naive and easy to deceive?"

How strange, he never lied to me, how did he know that I was not easy to cheat?He never shy away from the fact that he is married, he is a sex hunter, he went to the same school as me, and knows about my scandals.

"If she is a liar, she can't lie to me. I have no money." I said.

"It's not about cheating your money!"

"Cheat my feelings? It's not enough..." I was amused by myself when I said this sentence.Ye Haowen became even angrier, stared at me and said, "Are you still laughing?"

I said: "People can't control their expressions in extreme situations."

He clicked his tongue, squinted at me, still looking distraught, and picked at me: "Why are you wearing this dress today?"

"That's all I have."

Ye Haowen raised his voice: "You don't remember?"

Did he tell me his wife's name, did he show me a picture of her?I should know that his wife's name is Zhong Lingxiu. Is Sun Yu his wife's cousin?

Forget it, it's all my fault.People's lives are counted on me, and all the evils are counted on my head, not bad for these small debts and small mistakes.

I said, "Sorry, I don't remember, maybe when you mentioned it to me I didn't..."

He stopped me: "Stop talking, stop talking."

Not only was he baffled, he was making trouble out of no reason, but he stopped talking and smoked one after another.If Xiaobao was here, he would no longer feel melancholy when he was silent. This meal might have stimulated him too much, and he seemed hysterical even when he was silent.

I pointed to the outside of the alley, what I meant was that I'll go first, Ye Haowen frowned, and said between smoking: "I'm not talking about Xiuxiu, I'm talking about your clothes."

"my clothes?"

I thought for a long time before I realized that Ye Haowen received a call from Sun Yu that day, that day he and I went to the toilet of Tianxing Xiaochao to change clothes, and he changed the clothes I was wearing.