doomed [last days]

"How could I blame you..."

Lin Shen, who came back to reality from the memory, murmured that her originally straight spine bent down, and she leaned on the back of the chair as if she had no strength.The straight left arm twitched back, but it didn't leave Shi Yiran's palm.

The fingers were clenched by two slightly cool hands, and the only thumb that was free was hard against the table.

Lin Shen trembled his lips, "Obviously I was the one who forced it."

"No, I pushed you away..."

Shi Yiran held Lin Shen's fingers tightly, as if he was afraid that this person would go away if he let go.Obviously she was cowardly, she was afraid, but in the end Lin Shen felt that she had forced herself.

How could someone be so stupid...

At the beginning, relying on Lin Shen's liking, she stayed by Lin Shen's side and absorbed her warmth, but she was so timid that she never dared to express her liking.

She likes to stay by Lin Shen's side, even in those few months, they didn't even make small gestures between ordinary girlfriends.But she likes to listen to Lin Shen talking, likes to see her shining eyes when sharing memories with herself, and also likes her unreserved friendship when she looks at her.

Then she pushed those likes away with her own hands.

Just because of her own cowardice.

Tears fell down again, Shi Yiran felt that her eyes were wet, but she was still holding Lin Shen's fingers tightly, even if she let go of one hand to wipe away the tears, she was unwilling.

Lin Shen felt her heart tremble when she heard her words in a strong nasal voice.

She suddenly remembered what Shi Yiran had said.

"It's a photo taken by someone I like very much."

"Because the person I like said before, I want an off-road vehicle, so I bought it."

……

She licked her lips, but raised her head and looked straight at Shi Yiran. Seeing her tears streaming down her face, she asked, "You like me, don't you?"

Lin Shen was beating a drum in his heart, as if confessing his love face to face, he just felt that the blood all over his body was rushing to his face.

But when he saw that Shi Yiran, who had always been indifferent, besides the red nose tip, also blushed on his cheeks, Lin Shen knew the answer.

"Then I will blame you."

The satisfaction that had been delayed for so many years flooded back into her heart in an instant, Lin Shen only felt her heart swell, as if she suddenly gained strength again, and gently rubbed Shi Yiran's knuckles with her thumb.

Seeing the person sitting opposite tremble slightly, Lin Shen said hoarsely, "Don't you believe in love at first sight?"

So how could he fall in love with her later?

"Lin Shen," Shi Yiran cried, "Do you know when I fell in love with you?"

She bent her mouth, and tears fell on the table as if she didn't want money.In this life, there has never been a time like this when Shi Yiran seemed to have exhausted all her strength to say this sentence, and she finally decided to analyze her heart to Lin Shen.

"when……"

Lin Shen seemed to be talking to herself. She tried hard to recall when Shi Yiran's attitude towards her began to change during those few months.

Although Shi Yiran couldn't see, she seemed to think of Lin Shen frowning and thinking hard.Turning tears into laughter, she sniffed softly, and murmured: "Idiot."

Her cry made Lin Shen's bones crumble, but when he heard Shi Yiran's next words, he froze there.

"Do you remember, you went to a nursing home as a volunteer in the first semester of your freshman year?"

Unlike himself, who is introverted, Lin Shen was destined to be an eye-catching existence from the beginning of school, and even she was attracted without exception.From the first class meeting, she noticed this girl who was smiling all day long.

Sunny, happy, nothing like her.

Shi Yiran liked to secretly watch her and her friends laughing and playing, but she never got to the bottom of it, until she saw Lin Shen who was volunteering in the nursing home next to her community.

Under the sun, Lin Shen was wearing a volunteer uniform and sweeping the floor with a broom.She just focused on that piece of land, and she stood at the gate of the nursing home and looked at her intently.

Although she hadn't communicated much, Shi Yiran suddenly felt that her heart was filled with Lin Shen at that moment.

How nice it would be to be with such a sunny and serious person...

Feeling her fingers curled up, Shi Yiran tightened her grip again, and said, "My home is in the community next to the old people's home."

Lin Shen blurted out: "Are you the girl whose grandparents in the nursing home said she doesn't like to talk, but always goes to the nursing home to help?"

She is almost 30 years old, and suddenly she is called a "girl" by someone she likes. Shi Yiran can only feel the heat on her face, but when she hears the next sentence, she feels hot all over. up.

"You won't... You started to like me at that time, didn't you?"

Lin Shen's tone was a little uncertain, but her heart was about to jump out.

Hearing the person who put it in his heart but couldn't ask for it said that he not only likes himself, but also started earlier than his own liking.

What could be more exciting than knowing this?

But while he was overjoyed, Lin Shen had mixed feelings in his heart.No wonder, no wonder people like Shi Yiran are still willing to let her approach after seeing her confession letter.It turned out that she wasn't rejecting herself tactfully at all, she really confided her heart to herself in that letter, but she didn't say the word "like".

Seeing Shi Yiran's flushed face with tears on it, Lin Shen was suddenly speechless.

Who is to blame?

There was such a large period of time empty among them, and it would be a lie to say that they have no regrets.Shi Yiran had kept it a secret for so many years, but she couldn't wait patiently enough.

She regretted it, but she knew that Shi Yiran regretted it too.

She pursed her lips, obviously she had stopped her tears, but Lin Shen still felt her nose sore, she squeezed Shi Yiran's hand slightly with her thumb, and asked, "Then you still..."

Just halfway through the conversation, Lin Shen stopped talking by himself.

From the time she woke up until now, she couldn't react to the news one by one, her mind seemed to be muddy, and she was stupid.

But Shi Yiran immediately understood the half of the question she asked, and feeling the strength from her hands, she muttered: "I like you, Lin Shen. Do you still like me?"

The soft words were like a gust of wind, and Lin Shen's mind cleared up.

Her ears were red, and she raised her eyes to look at Shi Yiran's cautious appearance, and there seemed to be some expectation in those gloomy eyes.

Instead of answering Shi Yiran's question, Lin Shen said in a nasal voice: "Aren't you worried now? Are you not afraid of making promises but not being able to keep them?"

It's like a child who didn't ask for candy, and now the adults are finally willing to give her the candy. He is obviously willing to give her the candy, but he still has to ask "why didn't he give it at the beginning".

Shi Yiran couldn't see the awkwardness on Lin Shen's face.

But when she heard this question, her heart tightened for a moment, but after a while she smiled unreservedly at Lin Shen.

"I'm afraid," but she regretted it, "so are you still willing to work hard with me?"

"Don't be friends, but be lovers, okay?"

After she finished speaking uneasily, under the hanging hair, her hot little ears were red, but she still tried her best to catch the sound.

In the quiet room, the deliberately suppressed swallowing sound rang in Shi Yiran's ears as if it had been amplified.The hand that had been clenched all this time was suddenly pulled away, and the air rushed into the palm of her hand, dissipating all the heat she had accumulated with great difficulty.

However, before the heart could fall to the ground, Shi Yiran's right hand was surrounded by someone in the next second.

"I, I will reluctantly promise you."

Lin Shen blushed, but his left hand held Shi Yiran's right hand tightly.

Like two twigs of ivy entwined, separated, and they meet again.

She was embarrassed to look at Shi Yiran, but Lin Shen, who couldn't wait for Shi Yiran's answer for a long time, raised his head, and saw the beauty streaming down her face.

She couldn't see people cry, let alone a good-looking woman, especially Shi Yiran.But the tears fell on the table as if they didn't want money.

But there was a small dining table between the two of them.

Lin Shen was nervous, and said indiscriminately: "You, why are you crying again...Don't cry, cry again, and I won't agree if you cry again!"

As soon as she said this, Shi Yiran tightly pursed the corners of her mouth, and wiped her face with her free hand in a panic.But the tears fell more and more fiercely, falling into Lin Shen's eyes, he was really wronged.

She also knew that she had said something wrong, but before she could be upset, Lin Shen let go of her hand, stood up, and walked behind Shi Yiran in a few strides.

"Okay, don't cry, it's my fault." Bending over, wrapping his arms around Shi Yiran's shoulders through the back of the chair, Lin Shen whispered in her ear, "I shouldn't have said that, Don't cry."

The person hugged by her shook his head, but turned around hard, wrapped his arms around Lin Shen's neck, and buried his head in the hollow of her shoulder.

Shi Yiran suddenly remembered that old song.However, she is far luckier than the person in the song.

Five years ago, she and Lin Shen missed each other, and she pushed Lin Shen away.Then she spent five years, grieving, regretting, and healing, but finally understood the love that does not need to look forward and backward.But Lin Shen went too far, and she couldn't catch up.

Later, Lin Shen came back.

"Lin Shen." She hugged her neck and called softly.

"Well, I'm here."

The simple three words made Shi Yiran's eyes blurred again with the tears she had finally stopped.

She straightened up, leaned into Lin Shen's ear, and said the most beautiful words.

"Lin Shen, it seems like we both fell in love at first sight, but I still don't believe it. But we met again. So you said, this is destined, right?"

Someone rubbed the side of her ear, and Shi Yiran heard the word she wanted to hear the most.

"Correct."