Mo Ming Zhou Zhou

When I recovered from my illness, I went back to school. I didn't expect Xiaohai's family to be really scary. They easily sealed up my affairs, even Yufei and the others didn't know about it.But from then on I really stopped looking for Yi and them, but Yi and Xiaohai went to find me alternately, very frequently.But the two of them rarely come together, I really don't know what's going on, could it be that I'm jealous?hehe.

Not long after, I realized that it wasn't two people who were trying to argue over me, but that they both studied me as gay at the same time, me, me, me... I didn't fully understand until Xiaohai carefully asked me to see a doctor , but at this time it is beyond debate.Injustice, almost killed again.

On the way to see a psychiatrist, I didn't look at Xiao Hai, not because I was afraid, but because I wasn't used to it.Imagine that you still don't know that the handsome guy in front of you, should be said gentle man, really likes you, but not the kind of liking you think at this time.At this time, most narcissistic men will have a bit of extra shyness like a woman, just like some super characterless nympho waving a handkerchief to the handsome man who pursues her, wanting to refuse: "It's annoying, I haven't thought about it yet." Alright!" Although I'm not that perverted, I still can't help but pretend to be a serious gentleman without any excesses, it's really tiring!But there is nothing wrong with a certain protagonist. In such a small car, the atmosphere is ambiguous, and he still doesn't say a word. His natural expression makes people want to beat him up, and he roars in his heart: Is it because you like me? I still like you!

However, after seeing the legendary psychiatrist, I was startled and sweated profusely. It was even more unbelievable than the moon being inhabited, because as I was talking, I found that the person who was supposed to cure my childhood shadow went off topic and went to a man. Relationships with men, friendship, because I have been sick and weak since I was a child, my character is weak and needs protection from others, and I have lived with my father for a long time and lack of maternal love, which leads to prejudice and misunderstanding of women.Hey hey hey, the more I listen to it, the more wrong it becomes. Even if I commit suicide, it seems to have nothing to do with whether my spiritual gender is male or female. Besides, why should I be called a hot-blooded young man (well, cold-blooded) by you? A protective and feminine personality due to physical reasons?Also, when do I need protection from others?

Finally, I caught sight of a book on his desk that was too obvious, Gay?Damn, after talking so much, I turned out to be gay.At that moment, I was so angry that I laughed back, and my heart was no longer irritable. This person who was supposed to enlighten Xin Xiaohai came to talk to me. There must be a big misunderstanding in it, so I must be calm, I must be calm.If you randomly arrested a person in a mental hospital and asked him, but he denied that he was a lunatic, would you believe it?I'm afraid I will lock him up for a few more days. For the same reason, what the other party said is so logical and well-founded. I wish I could expose all my past life. It seems that there are ghosts in my heart and I dare not take responsibility.Forget it, the lesser of the two evils, it is better to cooperate and ask what is going on.

Seeing my pensive look, the old man guessed that I was seriously pondering his analysis, and waited quietly for me to think.But what I think about is not at all the old millet and rotten sesame seeds that have long since vanished into thin air, but every little bit of getting along with Xiaohai: his concern and tolerance for himself in the hospital; his pursuit of the hut and freedom just like myself; After playing pranks with me, I was so angry and helpless; when I was playing basketball, my eyes drifted in my direction from time to time; when I drank water, I always asked myself if I was thirsty first; when I ate, I also fed myself first; Can't get angry, his expression is richer than the sum of the past ten years; when you meet him on campus, you must carry him to death and not allow you to walk, even though you are close to the dormitory, you can use crawling; compared to the number of times you pull him, he is more I habitually hold my own fingers; declare without hesitation in front of Yufei and the others that I want to protect me; when there is thunder and rain, I will shout out the window: Mo Ming, it’s raining and I’m collecting my clothes!Although I mean more, but there is always a little bit of pride in it; when I was camping in the wild, I leaned on my shoulders and acted like a baby, except for the time when I was drunk, so the amount of information that is obviously going to explode can’t be proved. He, Xin Xiaohai, should see a doctor!Why is it that the guy who cares about others and physically harasses himself after watching a movie for the first time is sitting outside now, while he is being looked at with questioning eyes by those who come and go?Even if I have too much heart and no one cares about it, can anyone tell me, who and what will be used to prove that Zhou Moming is gay!Just relying on those ridiculous childhood experiences in the past and my physical reasons, there is nothing wrong with wanting to commit a crime!

So, all my questions can be summed up in one sentence:

"How did you find out, and when did you know?" Of course, it wasn't the old man who asked, and he also knew that I was concerned about another person.

Seeing that I cooperated so quickly, his wrinkled face was slowly smoothed away by a smile, and he gently told me the cause and effect.Although I heard the same things, but after being told in another version, my shock was no different from seeing a ghost in broad daylight, and I really understood what a thousand audiences and a million Hamlets are.

The story started from the first time I saw someone taking a bath, to frequent visits to Italian dormitories, to blushing when being held hands in public (that’s why everyone eats hot pot together, okay!) to hugging each other tightly when sitting in the back seat of Xiaohai (Damn, didn’t you fall to your death with your arms around me? It’s not bad for me not to hug me, it’s because his waist is too, too thick!) When I went to bed when I was camping, I saw that I hugged someone tightly in his arms The sleeping scene, (fuck, I even talked about this, is there any humanity, that sleeping bag is so small, try to squeeze it) the obvious allergic symptoms to gay words during the drinking, (huh? How can it be, listen Xiaohai said that homosexuality is rejected, if Yi wants to marry me, she won’t come to drink wedding wine, I suddenly remembered that I went to buy wine without buying wine, how can I be angry?) Also I don’t know when I wrote some love letters, and I just broke in Then I tore it up (Where is this again, oh! Damn, I remembered, it was written on the paper comparing Xiaohai in various aspects, it was too childish to let me read it, what, what, and lovelorn? It's all bullshit , How could I ever be broken in love! That’s because Xiao Hai is too good to be in a bad mood because of low self-esteem!) In the end, I almost rushed forward and strangled the old man. Faced with Xiaohai's departure, I chose to commit suicide. Damn it, I don't have to commit suicide this time, I'm so mad at you all.

I admit that it was because of Xiao Hai's departure that I caused the old troubles accumulated over the years, but it was not because I couldn't get someone's love, it seemed because someone's love was too heavy and small, so I couldn't afford it. !God!I deliberately told all my failed love experiences in high school, and even gave the old man with iron proof: the most convincing reason why I was indifferent to that girl was——I didn’t care at all. like women!