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The days continued to slip away peacefully, and it was already winter in a blink of an eye.The only difference is that after persuading Han Luo to go home many times to no avail, I moved to my room and let him live in my room.

I remember seeing a sentence, "We get along day and night, we really only get along in the morning and afternoon." Now we are getting along day and night, and in this day and night, he always seems to be waiting for me to ask about our past.However, I instinctively escaped, escaped from my past self, escaped from past memories, escaped from everything in the past... In this way, a deadlock was formed between us, a deadlock that was difficult to break.

But such a stalemate did not hinder his care for me, let alone reduce his love for me.

Every morning, he served me a bowl full of millet porridge made by himself, watched me smile and drank the cool porridge in his own bowl after eating.In the evening, he would pick me up and buy the dishes I wanted to eat that night on the way home. After I got home, I washed and he cooked.He would gently wrap his arms around my waist from behind while I was washing the dishes, whispering touching words of love in my ear.

On weekends, we would wash clothes together, bask in the warm winter sun on the balcony, drink tea, talk about current affairs, and talk about work. Occasionally, he would tell me the little stories we had between us.

What is happiness?Occasionally think about such a plain and warm day, isn't it what I have been pursuing this year, the happiness I yearn for?

But how long can I have such days?half a year?a year?several years?decades?Or when I woke up one morning, such happiness slipped away in my sleep, without preparation, let alone saying goodbye, it just disappeared.At that time, what should I do?

"Xiaoxiao, what are you thinking, so preoccupied?" Han Luochao handed me a sliced ​​apple and looked at me with a smile. Under the sunlight, his smile was shining.Together with his people, it shines brightly.

He took the apple, smiled and whispered, "I won't tell you..."

At this moment, I clearly heard my heartbeat, thump, thump, thump... It seemed that in the next second, it would break through my chest and jump out.

I know, I've fallen...

Or, I, woke up...

"Fool." The slightly cool big palm gently rubbed my hair.

Pound, pound, pound!Pound, pound, pound!Pound, pound, pound!

"Han Luo..."

"Ah."

"I...I want another piece of apple." Let's be together, just stay together like this...

"Fool." With a doting smile, he continued to peel apples for me.

I'm tempted, how about you, do you like me now?

I dare not ask, I am afraid, because I know, the result is no.

"Liao Xiaofan", you have everything you have in the past 20 years, so now, can you lend me your Han Luo, and lend it to me who has nothing, okay?If, if he still can't let you go in the end, I'll leave and give him back to you, okay?

I don't know if stealing the happiness of my former self is considered stealing, but I really can't bear to let go.

"Good evening, brother Han, good evening, lady boss."

Just after lunch, Han Luo told me that he had to go home for a few days. I didn't ask why, and I didn't want to know.He offered to let me come to the bar to help him if I had nothing to do.

What can a person who knows nothing do to help him?This is just a way for him to change the subject and cover up his embarrassment, but who knows.

However, he still brought me here, saying that he would let me get acquainted with the environment and let the guys get acquainted with me.

But now it seems that these guys all know me;

"Xiaoxiao, after I go back, you have to take good care of yourself, just come and have a look here when you have time. Don't tire yourself out." Han Luo took my hand and looked at me and said seriously, "I promise, at most one I'll be back in a week, a week at most."

"Yeah." I lowered my head, avoiding his eager gaze.

Han Luo hugged me tightly, rubbing against my shoulders like a puppy.

"Han Luo..."

"Ok?"

"Let's go down and have a look." I'll wait for you to come back.

"Ah."

Loosen the arms that tightly wrapped around me, took my hand, and walked downstairs step by step.

It was the first time I looked at this place carefully, only to find that the feeling here is so ambiguous, so that it is easy to relax.

In such an environment, it is really good to meet a warm-hearted person.

"Han Luo, how did we meet?" Suddenly, I really wanted to know what kind of romantic beginning this relationship that Han Luo had engraved into his bones and blood had.

"We met here." With a smile on the corner of his mouth, Han Luo pulled me to sit down in front of the bar, making coffee seriously by himself.

"That day, I was here to mix drinks for the guests. After you walked around the whole bar, you sat where you are sitting tiredly, looked at me with a smile and said, 'Please give me a cup of coffee'..."

"Please give me a cup of coffee, thank you." A beautiful young man in front of me said with a smile.

"Um, handsome guy, we don't sell coffee here." A drop of cold sweat ran across Han Luo's forehead.

"I know." The beautiful man still had a warm smile, "So, a cup of coffee, thank you."

Still smiling.Although Han Luo saw indescribable tiredness on this young man's face, the smile was still bright and heart-warming.At that moment, Han Luo's heart, Han Luo's gaze, seemed to be firmly stuck to the warm and beautiful boy in front of him with super glue, and could never be torn away.

"What happened next?" I picked up a spoon on one side and stirred the mellow coffee in my hand, sniffed gently with my nose, stirred again, and sniffed again...

"Hahaha, then I made you the coffee in the office, and then you are like this... It's really a habit I can't get rid of." Han Luo scratched my nose, "It's so cute."

"Ah, long time no see Boss Han." A man sat down beside me.

The visitor was about 30 years old, with a beige sweater, blue jeans, and a glass of wine in his hand. As for his appearance, he could only be accurately identified as having a Chinese-character face, and his appearance was probably not annoying.

As if feeling my sight, the man turned his head and looked at me in surprise, "Liao Xiaofan! You are not, you are not in a car accident... dead... gone? Why, why..."

"Guo Ming, Xiaoxiao is fine, the accident is over, Xiaoxiao's younger brother..."

The man was still staring at me, the excitement when he first saw Han Luo was gone, there was only doubt and surprise.There is also a complex expression in his eyes that I can't understand.

"Then what, I still have something to do, I'll talk to you guys another day, goodbye." The man ran away, leaving me puzzled and continuing to sniff my cold coffee.

"Xiaoxiao, are you okay? I didn't know someone would mention it...I..."

"I'm fine." Continue sniffing the coffee in my hand...

Why do these people think of my death first when they bring up the car accident?Is it because of poor news?Or was it me who was going to be destroyed in this car accident?If it's the latter, then mine's gone, the innocent's gone... gone...

My heart hurts so much, as if there are countless needles pricking in sequence, it hurts...

"Xiaoxiao, Xiaoxiao! What's wrong with you?" Han Luo looked at me anxiously and asked anxiously.

I covered my aching heart with one hand, and firmly grasped his hand with the other, like a drowning man grasping a piece of driftwood.

Han Luo grabbed me firmly with his backhand, "Xiaoxiao, what's wrong with you?"

"It's over, it's over, Han Luo...it's mine..."

The field of vision became smaller and smaller, and finally fixed on Han Luo's anxious face, and then there was nothing.

"Why did he do this?" Han Luo asked calmly.

"Neither the dynamic electrocardiogram nor the MRI scan found any abnormalities. His condition may be related to his emotions. This is the first time he has developed an illness, and he needs to continue to observe."

"That is to say, he may commit another crime in this situation?"

"not sure."

"I have to go back in two days, and it will take about a week to come back. Will it happen during this period?"

"You'd better stay with him. No one can tell about this kind of thing."

"What if I have to go back?"

"It's better to have someone by his side. Old Han, we have been friends for so many years. Let me tell you the truth, if there is only one person next time he gets sick, it will be very dangerous..."

"I will arrange..."

Han Luo......

I feel like something is missing in my heart, empty, uncomfortable...

"Are you still suffering in a dream?" Weiliang's hand caressed my brow, "Xiaoxiao..."

The dream is not uncomfortable at all, the uncomfortable thing is that the dream will wake up.

Han Luo, if I pretend to be asleep, can I not wake up from my dream?

Han Luo, Han Luo, Han Luo...

Han Luo's hand was still stroking my forehead, and the clothes accidentally brushed against my ears, itching and numb, I couldn't help it, wanted to reach out and scratch.

"Xiaoxiao, you're awake!" Well, well, I've already stretched out my hand to scratch.Sure enough, even if I tried to pretend to be asleep, I would still wake up in the end...

"Han Luo..."

"Well, I'm here." A deep, slightly hoarse voice lingered in my ears.

"I'm hungry..." Do I really have to go back?Can't you delay for a few days?

"Yeah. But I just woke up, so I can only eat some light food." Han Luo turned around and prepared to sell food.

"Han Luo, I want to go home." I felt a deep sense of suffocation attacking me, and I feared this place for no reason.It's like after meeting Han Luo for the first time, I didn't care about his attitude towards me for no reason.

"Let's go back tomorrow, okay?" Han Luo put down the coat he was holding in his hand, and sat down in front of me. "It's cold in the middle of the night, and you'll catch a cold from the wind. Do you want to feel sorry for me?"

"I'm not sick, I want to go home..." My disease is called greed, and there is no cure for this syndrome.

In the end, Han Luo couldn't hold me back and took me home in the cold night.I didn't ask him to prepare food for me, but I held his hand and fell asleep restlessly in exhaustion.

Go to sleep today with "happiness" in your hands, and wake up tomorrow with no hope...