nameless flower

5.

Tang Shanhai lay on the table for a long time before waiting for the stomachache to go away. His head also hurt, his eyes were swollen, and he even had a little fever.Opening the bottom drawer, he found a bunch of pills. He didn't pick them carefully, just found some painkillers and anti-inflammatory drugs, and swallowed them in one gulp with the cold tea on the table.

Maybe it's time to make a decision.

He was never the stalker type.I don't know if it's just this personality, or it has gradually become this personality after staying with Chen Shen for so many years.

There has never been anything worth hesitating between two men, and even too many times, it is better to have no feelings.This circle has always been like this.

Physical fit is more than spiritual resonance.

What's more, there is no spiritual communication.

There is no more emotion, and even sexual aspects have other outlets.

The relationship between the two has come to an end.

It was time for him to leave.

During the four years with Chen Shen, they were not as indifferent at the beginning as they are now.They also had phases of being in love, maybe.

They hang out together every day, and when they are not together, Chen Shen will call him every less than an hour, even if he just scolds him for being an idiot, he is happy.

The period when we first lived together was also good, he even remembered Chen Shen saying...

Chen Shen said that from today onwards, this is our home, and we don't need to be separated anymore.

All this seemed to have happened only a few days ago, but today, someone came to tell him that Chen Shen asked him to leave.

Get him out of the place that used to be called home for two.

Because someone else wants to live in it.

Chen Shen also asked Pei Shangxuan to say this in order not to tear his face. He has always been so considerate, even if it is a breakup, he is unwilling to speak up by himself. He would rather let the other party say the breakup first, so as to prove that he is not cold-hearted man.

It really deserves to be a good player.

After sorting out all these entanglements, he also felt tired, so tired that he couldn't even open his eyes.But he still insisted on picking up the handset and making a call.

"Qin Ming..."

"No bro."

"Would you like me to stay with you for a while?"

"I will find a house as soon as possible, and it won't trouble you for long."

"Okay, thank you, bro."

When I got off work that day, it started to rain heavily in Longfan.

It's already early winter, and it's really strange that it's still raining.

Tang Shanhai stood in the lobby of the office building for a long time, seeing that the rain showed no signs of stopping.

The colleagues next to him left one by one, and it seemed that the lights of the whole building were about to go out. He took a deep breath and rushed into the rain.

When I got home, I couldn't avoid the drowned look.

Seeing Chen Shen running around looking for something, seeing him at first glance, he took two steps back in shock.

"it's raining outside?"

He nodded, and looked sideways at the full-length mirror standing in front of the entrance. He looked really miserable, not only because of the wet clothes and hair, but also because of the lifeless face, which added to this look. A bit of a faded color.

"Give me a call, I'll pick you up in a car. Seeing you drenched like this..." Chen Shen wanted to come up to touch his face, but Tang Shanhai gently moved away.

"What are you looking for?" He asked to change the subject.

"Passport and Hong Kong and Macau Exit Permit," Chen Shen said, "Tomorrow I'm going to Beijing for a business trip, maybe in a week, and I might go to Hong Kong once more, this time the case is pretty big," he said, looking back at Tang Shanhai, "Would you like it?" What can I bring you back?"

He twitched the corners of his mouth, put the briefcase that was almost drenched in the entrance, and shook his head while untying his tie: "No, just see what you need. I..." He raised his eyelids, wanting to tell Chen Shen said something, and quickly gave up, "I'm going to take a shower first."

When he came out of the bathroom to dry his hair, Chen Shen's luggage was almost packed, except for small items such as razors at the end.

While wiping his hair, he stood outside the bedroom and looked at Chen Shen's back:

"It's cold in Beijing, why don't you bring your down jacket and woolen pants too."

Chen Shen seemed to be stunned for a while, and then turned around to look at him after a while:

"Are you talking to me?"

Tang Shanhai nodded, and went directly to the wardrobe, found out the down jacket and woolen pants, and handed them to Chen Shen.Chen Shen accepted it with a flattered expression, and seeing him ready to leave, suddenly reached out and grabbed his sleeve.

"Shanhai," he said, "do you... have anything you want to tell me?"

Tang Shanhai looked at him for a long time, as if he wanted to engrave Chen Shen's face into his mind, but he still didn't say anything special.

He just said: "Beijing is cold, take care of yourself, don't catch a cold. You have a bad trachea, and you cough when you catch a cold. Bring an extra scarf." After finishing speaking, he left the bedroom.

Speaking of which, the two of them have slept in separate rooms for a long time.Tang Shanhai smiled silently, pushed away the study and walked in.

The next day, Chen Shen went out very early, presumably it was an early flight.

It didn't make a lot of noise, but Tang Shanhai still woke up.He didn't open the door to see him, but after the door lock was closed, he stuck his head out of the window and looked in the direction of the gate of the community.

Maybe this is the last look, Tang Shanhai thought with a smile, fortunately, fortunately, the last conversation was peaceful.

They have never quarreled, and they seldom even speak loudly, and he has always thought that this is the best way to get along.

But after watching Qin Ming and Lin Tao get along for a year, he realized that maybe what he thought to be right in the past so many years was wrong.

Where in this world can there be a couple without conflicts at all?

Some are just the one who is constantly enduring.

Just wait until one day, when the endurance is exhausted, it will be completely gone.

Maybe he and Chen Shen are like this.

He watched Chen Shen's back dragging the box slowly disappear at the entrance of the community, and turned his head to look at the house where he had lived in for two years.

This is the house he once thought he could live in forever.

The strange thing is that he didn't feel any sadness.

Sometimes he himself wonders if there is something wrong with the emotional regulation system, and he hardly has any emotional changes.No matter what Chen Shen did or said, his feeling was just—ah, here we go again.But is he Chen Shen? No wonder.

Perhaps it was because of this that Chen Shen also felt bored.

He started to pack things, which were actually not too many.He is not a person who likes to buy things. The most common thing is that suits and books take up more space, while other things are pitifully small.

Lin Tao drove the car and brought Qin Ming to move him.After loading several cardboard boxes into the car, Qin Ming and Lin Tao had already gone downstairs to wait for him in the car. He was standing in front of the dining table with a pen and paper, wanting to leave something behind, but he didn't know what to leave.

In the end, I only wrote one sentence, take care of yourself, goodbye.

I stopped writing.

Before leaving, he took the house key off the keychain with difficulty and pressed it on the note.

At this time, he found that his tears fell on the paper.

He touched his face in surprise and found, really, his tears.

Turn around and leave.

Never looked back.

This may be the first time the two have slept together since they were born.

But very reassuring.

Qin Ming held Tang Shanhai in his arms, and gently stroked his head, the two of them were chatting alternately.

"I really love him." Tang Shanhai said with a smile, "I have loved him for eight years."

"Before him, I didn't know what love was, and after him, I couldn't love anymore."

This is the truth that can only be spoken to his only blood relative in this world.

[Lin Tao, who went to pick up the baby to go to work in the morning, found the scene where the two babies were hugging each other and fell asleep, and shed nosebleed suspiciously and shamefully. 】