Back to 1993 through time travel

What does it feel like to be in a long distance relationship?

It makes me miss my heart and scratch my lungs!

How does it feel to not be able to see each other even though they are in the same city less than [-] kilometers apart?

It can only make people miss it even more heart-scratching!

Xia Tian was naked to the waist, lying on the bed, the quilt was rolled aside by him, as if he could pretend that there was someone beside him.

To say that the first generation of smartphones has already been released, it is a pity that the network has not yet developed enough to make instant video calls, otherwise, he should be able to see Gao Jianfeng at this moment, rolling on the bed in exactly the same posture, with eyes There is still a little grievance that can't be said.

Fortunately, I couldn't see it, otherwise Xia Tian would have rushed over immediately, throwing people down on the couch recklessly.

However, thinking of the possible price to pay, Xia Tian wilted on the spot again, impulsiveness is the devil, and he must endure loneliness at this moment.

Although Li Yanan and Gao Zhiyuan had already become his allies, they would let Lao Gao in every day as soon as he fell asleep.But life is so unexpected, and for some reason that day, Lao Gao, who had already gone upstairs, suddenly came downstairs in his pajamas, he walked silently until he was standing in the living room, Gao Zhiyuan saw him, and was startled Big jump.

"Dad, what are you doing?"

Lao Gao took it for granted, said that he was looking for something, and then walked towards the kitchen with straight eyebrows, but Xiao Gao outside couldn't stop him at all.

The two people in the kitchen looked at each other with black lines on their heads - actually it's ridiculous to think about it, so what if they bump into each other?It's not a big deal to just come over for a chat, and have a supper by the way, but I can't stand the words "guilty of a thief", Xia Tian quickly hid on the balcony, and found a shelter between the pockets of Chinese cabbage and rice noodles.

Lao Gao just wandered around, entered the kitchen and simply forgot what he was looking for earlier, watched his son cooking noodles, and did not forget to tell Gao Jianfeng to eat less at night, horses have no night grass and are not fat, be careful to grow back fat......

Xia Tian, ​​who was so close away, was in a cold sweat, and felt that life was quite unreal.

Of course, this is in someone else's house, and Lao Gao has the freedom of action.Xia Tian had no choice but to turn his face around and use the excuse of being overly frightened to toss Gao Jianfeng for half a night, so that Gao Jianfeng didn't say anything about his neck, especially the hardest-hit area. Yue Tianli put on a turtleneck, sat in the living room and pretended to have breakfast, and got Li Yanan's blind look, and Gao Zhiyuan's blatant schadenfreude!

It's not impossible to go on like this. To be honest, the process can be called thrilling and exciting, and sometimes it will give people the illusion of having an affair, which really adds to the fun.I'm afraid that Lao Gao's memory will suddenly recover one day. After bumping into him, what if he doesn't want to drive and then bursts his blood vessels?

That scene, just thinking about it in Xia Tian makes my legs weak.

So the rendezvous was changed to once every two or three days, Mr. Xia had no choice but to find all kinds of excuses for himself, whether it was socializing or exercising, anyway, he pretended that his life was extremely fulfilling, it seemed that only in this way could he forget that his lover was not by his side fact.

The so-called faults are actually habitual.

He had been separated from Gao Jianfeng for up to four years. At that time, he hadn't tasted any sweetness yet. He didn't even know whether this person would like him in the future or promise him.Just relying on a persistent unrequited love, I can still think about it with relish, but now that I know the taste, I have a deeper and deeper understanding of what it means to be dissatisfied with desire.

Taking advantage of the dead of night, Xia Tian reflected on himself, how could he still look like a seventeen-year-old boy in his thirties?Is the stable city outside all pretending?Once the lover is not around, the whole person will be helpless?

If it is purely idle, it should increase the workload!

Thinking wildly, the phone screen suddenly lit up.

【Well? ] Gao Jianfeng's text message popped up.

In Xia Tian, ​​his career ambition was gradually raised, and he was exiled to the sky, and turned into a foolish young man in love in seconds.

【Miss you………】

Gao Jianfeng looked at the phone on the pillow and couldn't help smiling.

【With your dad...】

Talking out of breath, typing like tenosynovitis, what's wrong, it's not good to finish talking in one breath!

[Just think about me, don't think about my dad, he just had a rest.Speaking of being a bit chaotic today, he suddenly asked me when I would go back to the army. 】

Gao Jianfeng's tone was calm, probably because of this kind of crossing, which happened more and more frequently recently.Sometimes Lao Gao can even mispronounce the address of his home, and he is easy to argue, especially since he always feels that others are coaxing him, and only what he says is the truth.

Thinking of this, Xia Tian really worried for Gao Jianfeng.

Hyperbaric oxygen has been used for more than a month, and the best depression medicine on the market has also been used as adjuvant therapy for several months, but irreversible is irreversible. Everyone has to accept the reality in the disappointment again and again, but I am afraid that only Xia Tian and Li Yanan feel the worst. It is clear that Lao Gao will lose the ability to take care of himself due to brain atrophy in the future, and this time will not exceed ten years.

The other end stopped talking, and Gao Jianfeng had a tacit feeling of what Xia Tian was thinking.If there is anything between the lovers, it is natural to take care of it together, but for Lao Gao, Gao Jianfeng can think of the result, so he doesn't want to work too hard in the summer.He will try his best to take care of him, and he has already done a good job in psychological construction. As for this question, it actually involves how people should live in this life.

The first half of Lao Gao's life was worth it!

When I was young, I was happy, reckless, trying my best, and the process was hearty.In his later years, he suffered a serious illness, in the final analysis, it was also related to his temper and living habits, no wonder others.

Gao Jianfeng felt that what he could do was to try his best to protect Lao Gao and let him live with dignity as much as possible, so that was enough.

Sadness can be kept to himself, he doesn't want to add any obstacles to his deep-hearted lover.

[Speaking of Lao Gao, Brother Tian, ​​there is some good news. The Ministry organizes veteran cadres to go to Haicheng for recuperation. They will leave next month and return at the end of August. In three months, we... 】

We can finally meet every day! !

After the end of the puppy love teenager's infidelity mode, the two quickly began to think about which place to go for vacation.

Thinking leaps across the Eurasian continent, and circled around South America, which is worthy of doing a brain tour around the world.Speaking of these years, the two of them have often flown around, and the places they haven’t been to are really limited. The key is that the holidays are also limited, so they come and go, and finally choose the nearest neighboring country, the quiet and quiet Kyoto.

Gao Jianfeng is not very interested in soaking in hot springs, even those with excellent privacy, but he never tires of feeding pigeons and watching dry mountains and rivers.The two walked around in the clean and quiet ancient temple, and when they were tired, they sat on the bench to rest, often for an hour at a time.

During this period, they can not speak a word for a long time, but they still feel very comfortable with each other. Sometimes when Xia Tian looks back, Gao Jianfeng happens to be looking at him, and the two of them look at each other and smile. The freehand taste of the same dust.

The youthful vigor of the past has dissipated. Fortunately, it is not polished by the time of the world, but the peace and tranquility born from within.

Xia Tian asked himself that he couldn't do it, and when he returned to his room at night, he would still happily eat people up and wipe them clean, leaving traces of love on every skin, even in many secret places, to satisfy his heart. An indescribable desire to possess and conquer.

So, in the pace of evolution, he admits that he has slowed down a bit, even if he rides a rocket, he can't catch up with Gao Jianfeng's speed.

Gao Jianfeng told him when they were satisfied with each other, and Xia Tian fell into the aftertaste. Looking up at the ceiling, he planned to hand over the company to professional managers, wait for dividends every year, no longer participate in any actual management, and then report to XX Research Institute— ——That was the place where his teacher was rehired after his retirement. It was a well-known unit with the national prefix. It was obvious that he went there to work as a researcher, but in fact his real identity was the so-called Hongke.

Xia Tian was not surprised. He listened quietly and nodded quietly. Gao Jianfeng was quite surprised by this reaction.

"Don't you think this decision is capricious?"

"I don't think so, it's expected." Xia Tian smiled, "Don't you just like challenges and novelty, of course it doesn't mean that you are immature, but the most important thing is that you lack enthusiasm for material desires and wealth .The current choice can satisfy your desire for challenge and innovation.”

The person who knows me is simply the person in front of me.

Gao Jianfeng smiled, but retorted without pain or itching: "I lack enthusiasm for wealth? No way, I think I like money quite a bit. Do you have any misunderstanding about me?"

"There is no misunderstanding. You wanted to make money back then because you wanted to be independent, and you wanted to fight against your father. Later, you realized it, so there is no need to rebel." Xia Tian analyzed clearly, "Now that this goal is gone, money is right. To you, it’s just a number, not to mention that the one who can really make money must be someone like me, who wakes up every morning and thinks about today’s sales figures.”

If you want to say that, it is true that there is no such thing. While Gao Jianfeng admires it, he can't help but feel tired and flustered for Xia Tian, ​​and after thinking about it for a while, he feels that something is wrong.

"I'm the first thing you think of when you open your eyes every day, isn't it me?" There was actually a little coquettish grievance in the voice.

Xia Tian laughed straight after hearing this, stretched out his hand to lick his shorts, and his hair was a little prickly, "You are the person who appears in my dreams every night, you can be regarded as the real dream lover."

Gao Jianfeng clicked his tongue lightly, and his old face turned slightly red, which was of course far less dazzling than the trace of love on his chest.

"However, your reaction is still too calm. Do you know that as soon as I finish speaking, all the shareholders over there will be blown up?"

How should I put it, Xia Tian looked at him with a smile, and said in his heart that I had already guessed that there would be such a day.In addition to the lack of material desires, fame and fortune, love of play, idleness, and laziness, Gao Jianfeng's certain complexes are deeply engraved in his blood, so deep that he may not even realize it.

Xia Tian remembered the chat with Gao Zhiyuan in the room of the Bincheng Nursing Home many years ago.The little boy predicted that day that sooner or later Gao Jianfeng would choose to follow in the footsteps of Lao Gao, even if he did not take the same path, but the father and son would eventually reach the same goal by different routes.

The one who really inherited Lao Gao's mantle, in the end, was really the eldest son whom he had placed high hopes on.

"Have you told Dad, he must be very happy." Thinking of this, Xia Tian asked with a smile.

Gao Jianfeng nodded: "I haven't said it yet, but I should be happy. Doesn't he always think that I have become a capitalist, and I just do some unreliable business."

"You are really filial." Xia Tian smiled, feeling sincerely.

"You can't say that. I'm also doing it for my own comfort. It's what I want to do. If I don't want to, no one can force me." Gao Jianfeng smiled, "No one can do it except you."

Knowing how to make up a love sentence, Xia Tian also smiled: "When have I ever forced you, I will never force you."

This is true, even in the so-called process of breaking him, Xia Tian never had any persecution, the two of them stared at each other, talking about love as if they didn't need money, they were full of true feelings, and the atmosphere seemed particularly lingering.

"You really don't blame him at all?"

After a long time, Xia Tian suddenly asked nonchalantly, he could never forget Gao Jianfeng's sarcasm towards his father, after all, it is rare for an open-minded, open-minded person to go too far, enough to make people never forget.

"It's been a long time, I don't complain anymore." Gao Jianfeng replied, "When I was young, I blamed my mother for something, but when I grow up, I know she will never regret it, so forget it. , how tired of resentment, I am lazy."

Sighing lightly, the corners of his mouth curled into a gentle arc, "Brother Tian, ​​the only emotion I can persevere in my life is loving you. I have limited energy, so I'll just focus on this one thing."

That's right, Xia Tian nodded, listening to Gao Jianfeng's voice getting lower and lower, his breathing getting more and more even, but he couldn't fall asleep.Resentment is too tiring... Is that so?I have everything, even the "love" that I couldn't ask for is filled by Gao Jianfeng, so what is there to resent?

There are some things that you can’t help thinking about. Soon there will be an industry development research conference, and the location just happens to be in Weicheng, which is developing rapidly and changing its appearance. Seeing that it can’t be avoided, taking advantage of the weekend, Xia Tian simply packed Gao Jianfeng with him. Revisiting, he tried to let his lover feel the place where he once lived.

Although this secret cannot be revealed.

After two days of meetings, Gao Jianfeng went to meet local friends again because the content of the discussion was a bit tasteless, so Xia Tian escaped for a stroll without hailing a car, and just walked aimlessly through the streets, with words flooding his mind. There is a desolate taste, such as what the vicissitudes of life are, where are the old friends, and the return of the young and old.

Some scenes and memories overlap, while others are completely different.It must be a parallel world. In short, he firmly believed that the original summer would not reappear here. Those mixed feelings gradually calmed down, and when he looked up again, he found that he had walked to the gate of the former middle school.

Before school was over, there were a few parents standing in front of the door. At this moment, the text message rang.

【where? ] Gao Jianfeng asked.

Xia Tian said the school address.

[Middle school, then I'm pretty close to you, now I'm going to find you. 】

Feel the breath of youth together?Xia Tian smiled, a while ago he accompanied Gao Jianfeng to a university to find a teacher, and he really saw a different world, the ivory tower was relatively pure, stopped for a while on the playground, and saw two boys shoulder to shoulder, each with a Afterwards, they didn't know what they heard, the two suddenly looked at each other and smiled.

That smile was incomparably brilliant, and immediately made people feel a gust of breeze blowing on their face.

The iron-clad campus, the flowing youth, every once in a while someone will stage the bridge that the predecessors have experienced.Witnessing youthful splendor, there are memories of the past hidden in the bits and pieces, but three points are nostalgic and seven points are satisfied, because the best person is always by his side.

Xia Tian pulled his lips and smiled, but two seconds later, the smile suddenly froze on the corner of his lips.

A woman stepped out of a private car on the side of the road, wearing a windbreaker and a long skirt, with a graceful figure, clearly completely different from what she remembered, but her facial features were exactly the same.

The woman was obviously here to pick up the child. She was waiting at the door with a calm and relaxed expression.

After a while, probably feeling the steadfast gaze beside her, the woman turned her face away.

Xia Tian didn't take back his attention, it was too late, and he didn't want to.

He knew that his behavior was very abrupt, even very disrespectful, but being stared at by a stranger like this, the woman frowned and warned that it didn't work, and immediately felt uncomfortable.

"Hi, do we know each other?" The woman walked towards him with a cold but polite attitude.

no the same!People in his memory would never speak in such a tone and tone. Xia Tian suppressed all kinds of turbulence in his body. After all, he had cultivated for so many years. He calmly reminded himself and smiled slightly: "I don't know, sorry, I just saw you and thought you looked a lot like someone I knew."

The woman raised her eyebrows imperceptibly, and looked at the man in front of her who was about the same age as her, or should be younger than her, and found that this man was handsome and handsome, and his brows were even more upright, so upright that even this kind of unreliable The strike-up of the spectrum can also be quite credible by him.

Moreover, it is clearly very kind!

Xia Tian knew that the other party did not believe his explanation just now, but who could actually believe it?

He had fantasized about the reunion countless times, imagining simple and rude slaps in the face, cold and arrogant sarcasm, even provocation and humiliation, or just ignoring them like nothing, but he never imagined that it would be on such an occasion, It was surprisingly peaceful.

——Because he forgot that, to a woman, he was now a complete stranger.

"I'm sorry," he said suddenly, "I couldn't control it just now. I didn't mean anything else. You really look like my...my mother."

When he said those two words, he got stuck for a moment.

The woman was also obviously taken aback, and couldn't help laughing, how could someone use "you look like my mother" to strike up a conversation with a girl, isn't it just looking for a fight?

She smiled again, revealing a pair of extremely shallow dimples.

"This statement is quite unique."

Xia Tian shook his head, at this moment he suddenly just wanted to keep the woman and say a few more words, so he slipped out the wallet from his pocket like grasping at a straw, opened it under the woman's puzzled gaze, and pulled out the money hidden inside. A black and white photo.

The person in the photo is Chen Jin, who was taken before leaving home at the age of 16. He has short hair, clean and fresh, and his eyebrows are elegant and picturesque.

The woman looked at it for a moment, her expression changed from alert to suspicious to surprised, and then she raised her eyes and smiled and asked, "This is your mother? Don't say it, it really looks like it."

After a pause, she asked again with gentle eyes: "Then she now..."

"It's gone." Xia Tian looked at her and paused every word, "I... miss her very much."

The woman seemed sympathetic: "I'm sorry."

After she finished speaking, she was sensitively aware of the shock of the strange man in front of her.

Knowing what these three words were referring to, Xia Tian still couldn't move his face, "I'm sorry", a word that couldn't be simpler, but it made his heart beat wildly and his throat tighten.

Probably just because he has waited so long for two lifetimes.

The woman looked at him a little strangely, and didn't know if she should just say goodbye and leave. At this moment, a man got off the car in the slant, and jumped to the woman's side in a few steps.

"What's the matter? Who is this?" The man looked wary and grabbed the woman's waist.

Xia Tian didn't speak, and he couldn't find this man's face in his memory. Although he wasn't handsome, he was very upright, from appearance to demeanor.

"Don't be so impolite, why are you bluffing?" The woman waved her hands and held up the photo to the man. "This is the gentleman's mother, how is it? It looks very similar. If I didn't see it with my own eyes, I wouldn't believe it." There will be people like me in this world, and when I get home later, I have to ask my mother if she has a sister who has been lost for many years, and she never told me."

The man's expression was relieved, and he extended his hand generously, "I'm sorry, I thought you wanted to strike up a conversation."

Xia Tian held it up, feeling that those hands were very strong, and the man's eyes were also very decent, so he smiled: "It's okay."

Not far away, the students had come out one after another, the man looked back a few times, "I'll go and see if the little one came out."

The woman nodded, and returned the photo to Xia Tian with both hands: "Then, I'll go first, and we will meet again by fate."

Seeing you again by fate, Xia Tian didn't know what else to say, followed by, he heard the man call, "Wanzhen, let's go."

It's been a long time since I heard it, so long that he has almost completely forgotten that those two words were originally the name of Sixth Sister.

Wanzhen, Xia Wanzhen, graceful and quiet, is the expectation given by her parents. Now she has achieved it, and now he has witnessed it with his own eyes.

In another time and space, another way of life was changed.

Xia Zhi did not go to see if the boy was completely different, it didn't matter, he looked at the backs of the family of three until they got into the car, Xia Wanzhen rolled down the window and waved to him, the car turned and he could no longer be seen, he Finally, he laughed silently, and immediately a tear fell from the corner of his eye, he reached out to catch it, and the hot liquid seemed to melt into his fingertips in an instant.

Goodbye... Mom.

When Gao Jianfeng arrived at the place, he saw that Xia Tian was like petrification, he didn't move for a long time, and he didn't respond after calling several times.

"What's wrong?" Gao Jianfeng was taken aback. Since when did the iron-blooded President Xia have a new problem of crying against the wind?

Mr. Xia suddenly turned around and hugged him so tightly that he was almost breathless. It didn't look like being lingering in the street, or looking for comfort after being stimulated. Xia Tian's chin rested on his shoulder, The exhaled breath was hot, with a little relief and excitement after the dust settled.

It wasn't until the body was completely relaxed that Xia Tian turned his head and smiled at him: "It's okay."

fine?Then what was the meaning of being so excited just now?

"I ate a very delicious noodle shop, it's just around the corner, can I take you there?" Xia Tian smiled without distraction.

I made a special trip to escape to eat the local specialties of Weicheng. Mr. Xia is still very good at playing in his busy schedule, so the excitement just now is because the noodles are so delicious?

Anyway, although Gao Jianfeng felt a little strange, he still nodded cooperatively.

Then, he was brazenly hugged by Xia Tian in the street, and he was covered all the way to the small noodle shop with the attitude that Weicheng is Lao Tzu's territory, and Lao Tzu is covering you.

Gao Jianfeng intuited that his lover was in a particularly good mood today, and the brows and corners of his eyes were full of smiles, which was very similar to the feeling after he opened his heart knot in his youth, but there were a little more fine lines in the corners of his eyes, which are not very noticeable if you don’t look carefully. .

However, each of the lines should be the evidence of real life and true feeling of happiness.