keep you worry-free

"Ann! Nothing! Worry!"

"Sorry, I won't go out in the rain casually next time."

"Not only that, let me tell you, I reminded you that if you get along with Wang Xianghui for a long time, sooner or later something will go wrong. If he didn't have a trace of conscience today, no one knows what will happen next!"

"... Please, don't do anything to him. No matter what, he is kind to me."

"Hehe." A contemptuous sneer came from the other end of the phone. "It's not up to me to decide. You also know that I'm just a mediator about you. The real decision is always "her". Didn't I tell you how indifferent she was when she went crazy a while ago? Do you think you are poor? What about the senior?"

"..."

"Hey! An Wuyou." Tsukimiya rested his forehead with his fingers, and sighed, "Is it necessary to continue like this? She suffers, and so do you. What year is this year? To fall in love, you must torture the other party to death. .”

"... Tsukimiya, find me a job. If I don't change the focus of my life, I don't know what to do." The tone was faintly painful.

"... I actually thought about it before, but it was immediately rejected by your family... She is really reluctant to let you suffer, and I am afraid that you will feel the pressure of incompetence because of those eyes. I discussed it with her. She only needs to You eat well and sleep well, and then she will bring you whatever you want... Fuck you, An Wuyou, when I heard it, I just thought: You are only one orange away from the holy pig of the Yimin Festival."

"……Is not funny."

"Okay, okay, I'm afraid you're under too much pressure, so tell me a joke! Seriously, I have thought of a compromise, so that you don't have any pressure, but you can live a more fulfilling life."

"What is it?"

"I said you, go to the Medical University Affiliated to be a volunteer! Talk to the patients over there and chat."

The Affiliated Hospital of M University is one of the best teaching hospitals in T City. People come and go all year round without a moment of leisure. Even if the outpatient clinic is closed on Sundays, the [-]-hour emergency department is still overcrowded; Unconsciously, it makes people's heart shrink, as if a major accident just happened in front of them, and they begin to imagine the tragic scene of bloody flesh on the white car.

Lele's one-year roadblock clerk and one-year intern stayed at the Affiliated Hospital of M University, so he is quite familiar with these giant white towers.Of course, as an undergraduate student of Chinese medicine, I am more friendly to the building of the Chinese medicine department hidden near the park. The automatic door is opened, and a burst of Chinese medicine aroma hits. At the corner of the stairs, there is a bronze acupuncture figure, dull golden, with an expressionless face. Twelve meridians and acupuncture points are woven into a complex but orderly map of the human body.On the third floor is the Acupuncture Department. One of the offices belongs to Lin Wen, who is doing quite well in the hospital. Lin Wen had a strong interest in acupuncture when he was in school, and later developed into this field as he wished.

When Lele appeared in Lin Wen's office for the first time, Lin Wen was so frightened that he took three steps back and pointed at her with trembling fingers, "You u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u u..." After rubbing her for a while, she hugged her and cried loudly, finally stopped, knowing that Lele was blind, which was very serious and might not be cured for the rest of her life, so she hugged her distressedly and continued to cry.Lele was helpless. The victim was not as excited as she was, but she could feel the endless heat while holding the other party's hand. Although she couldn't see it, her heart was very warm.

With Lin Wen covering her, plus eight out of ten doctors in the hospital are senior sisters, younger siblings, or classmates, Lele is quite free in the hospital.But even so, after all, there are so many people in the big hospital, and everyone is so busy that they don't have time to look after her. At most, Lin Wen threw away his white coat during his lunch break and carried a whole bag of high-calorie And super unnutritious hand-cranked drinks come to chat with Lele; more often, Lele wears a volunteer vest issued by the hospital, holding the well-behaved Rhyme, and seeing if there is anyone in each department who can do it. place to help.

After working as a volunteer for a few days, Lele was surprised to find that even in the same hospital, she had two completely different feelings from when she was studying here.I used to be too busy. When I first entered the clinic, I internalized all the old news and knowledge while practicing the practice. I wished to grow my superhuman brain and develop ten times more brain areas to fully collect the boundless medical knowledge.At that time, the pressure was great. I once saw a senior academic bully being severely humiliated by the big boss in the morning meeting because he neglected the small details of a patient's condition. The report went to the window and threw it down, asking the senior who was about to burst into tears to pick it up before he hit the ground.So Lele and the other students looked down at the senior running down the fifteenth floor like a breeze from the corner of their eyes. From then on, as long as there was a desire to be lazy, they would be immediately awakened by this terrifying memory.

Because of being so busy and under such pressure, even though Lele is actually very caring and enthusiastic about the patients, and is willing to help them, but under such circumstances, she is a little too busy to take care of herself, and it is difficult for her to do much for the patients besides the physical pain. Consider other.In the school's medical ethics class, the professors repeatedly urged that "the doctor not only heals the disease, but also heals the heart." Ideals can be unreasonable, but in reality various factors lead to Lele often being unable to do what he wants.Now that she has taken off her white robe, without that layer of professional constraints, she feels that she is closer to the patient's heart.

Lele once met a talkative old lady in the rehabilitation ward. While eating the food that the hospital felt was not enough to eat, she chirped and revealed all her wealth. The foreign nurse who was feeding kept staring at her, afraid She was choking; Lele also met a big boy who was hospitalized with an emergency pneumothorax. After he was dealt with, he continued to play online games with a face of indifference, and was thundered by his teammates. The loud swearing could be heard clearly from outside the ward door.In the pediatric ward, I played board games with children who didn’t understand the rules and fought a few times. Tired of playing, the children crowded beside her, listening to Lele’s folk fairy tales that I couldn’t remember clearly and were full of logical loopholes; In the hospice ward, I saw a breast cancer patient in her early forties, her long black hair fell out due to chemotherapy. Her husband was holding a five-year-old boy with a baby girl on his back. The man's eyes were sad and melancholy, while the children stared at Lying on the hospital bed with a look of bewilderment and ignorance.

One story after another is staged every day in this small space.There are hopes and joys of new life and recovery, as well as death and bodies covered with white cloth sent to the mortuary. Patients are no longer just complicated technical terms interpreted by standardized indices on paper. They have their own emotions and experiences, laughing and cursing, Life and death; Lele can't see, can't see the appearance of the patients, can't see the treatment of them by the doctors and nurses, she gets to know a person from the conversation, to understand a person, the real thing is not a bacterial virus or a loss of yin and yang, qi and blood ──living people.

Lele is blind, so she is not threatening in itself. The patients feel sympathy for her when they see her. She has been a volunteer in the hospital for a period of time and has received very good praise. Patients who have been hospitalized for a long time get along very well with her, " The voices of "Le ㄚ head", "Le Le" and "Sister Le Le" come and go, everyone likes to chat with her, the content is unscrupulous and unscrupulous; there are even stubborn patients who can't communicate with anyone , as soon as he met Lele, he became amiable, obedient as if he had split his dual personality.Lin Wen often joked with Lele recently that she would dominate the entire M University Affiliated Doctor with just one mouth without relying on medical skills. Lele just smiled slightly, stroking Rhyme who was lying on the ground with big amber eyes and kept observing the master. Not a word.

No one knows how deep emotions and regrets are buried under that gentle and delicate smiling face after hearing the stories of so many people.

Lele, who had just visited a pancreatic cancer patient in the hospice ward, was very sad, and walked slowly back to her exclusive small office—I don’t know where Lin Wen got it for her—as soon as she entered the door , the keen perception of the blind man made her realize that there were other people inside, and her body stiffened unconsciously.

"You are back, worry-free! Here is a patient with...uh mild depression, I hope I can chat with you." Xiaomei, the nurse, said to Lele, and then she came over and helped Lele to the chair to confirm After finishing everything, he opened the door and left by himself.

There were only Lele and the depressed patient across the table left in the room. She didn't speak, and Lele couldn't find anything to talk about for a while, so she fell into a rather embarrassing predicament.Lele thought for a while, she put down Rhyme's leash, tentatively reached out to him, and showed what she thought was the most gentle and harmless smile. "...Um, hello, my name is An Wuyou, a volunteer at the hospital, nice to meet you."

To her surprise, the other party responded quickly, holding her gently with a callused hand.

"Hi, nice to meet you too."

The blunt and strange mechanical female voice made Lele stunned for a few seconds.The other party quickly said: "I'm sorry, but I can't really talk. I use the tablet to help when I talk to others. I hope this will not cause you any discomfort."

"So that's how it is." Lele murmured, "...Why are you uncomfortable? You are willing to chat with me, I am very happy."

"I am marriage."

"...It's a very special title."

"I am a person who suffers from marriage."

"If you don't mind, would Miss Marriage want to share your story with me?"

"I have someone who I love very much. We are childhood sweethearts. We have walked hand in hand for dozens of springs and autumns. After some twists and turns, we are finally together."

"However, no one thought that after an accident, she would forget me." Lele felt her hand tightened, "She wants me to leave, but how could I be willing...I can only travel from afar. Looking at her, watching her smile, wondering if she really likes her life now? I always feel that she smiles more every day, but she is getting thinner every day. I really want to go up and hug her, Touch her face, take her home, don't let her suffer any more...Miss Wuyou, what do you think I should do?"

It was a cold voice with no ups and downs, but Lele could feel the struggle and pain in the words; her thumb gently rubbed the back of the opponent's hand, intending to give a little comfort. "Miss Marriage, maybe the person you love has her own difficulties! If she really loves you, she might be reluctant to see you sacrifice your freedom and waste your good years to take care of her who is disabled after an accident...Miss Marriage, Some fate is over, it can only be a pity, don't cling to someone who is not worth waiting for, think about it, and then let it go..."

"Do you say that to everyone who comes to chat with you?"

"...Because I can feel, Miss Marriage, you are very, very sad. You must be a very, very good person, no one, not even me who is blind, would be willing to see you like this."

"...Miss Worry-free, I'm sorry, I still have a meeting to hold later. Excuse me, can I still come to chat with you later?"

"It's an honor." Lele smiled slightly.

Before the other party left, he suddenly pulled Lele into his arms.The other party was a little taller than her. She buried her face in Lele's neck. Lele hesitated for a moment, stretched out her hand to hug her back, and gently patted her trembling body. "...I just want to tell her that I love her more than anything else. If she doesn't come back, I will wait for her for one year, two years, ten years, 20 years... I can't wait in this life, but I will in the next life." Waiting." The flat female voice finally left this sentence.

"...you are such an infatuated fool."

Lele was left alone. She touched the area around her neck, which was moist.Lower your head, open your dull eyes, wipe away a drop of tear that is falling quickly, come again, continue to wipe, wipe and wipe, the water is too flooded, and you can’t wipe it clean, so you let go of all your pretense, and cry to your heart’s content , Cried so hard that my lungs and heart were torn apart, and my intestines were broken.

"Sister Yun, Sister Yun... woo... I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." She cried out, out of breath.

How could it be possible to lose memory, how could it be possible to forget the unforgettable bits and pieces?The sound of Sister Yun's footsteps, the faint fragrance of verbena on her body, the location of calluses on her palms, every trace of palm print...everything, there is nothing that is not deeply imprinted in her mind, and she will never forget it until her death.Marriage, voice actor, wrote "rhyme" tens of thousands of times, how could you not know the meaning of your alias!

But how dare I continue to love you?The doctor said that my eyes were seriously injured. If there is no miracle, I will be blind for the rest of my life.Sister Yun, you are so perfect, and you are in such a high position. If I hadn't been a doctor before and could have such a proud career, I would feel inferior in front of you and feel that I am not worthy of you.But now I have nothing left, a pair of blind eyes will only drag you down, distracting you from taking care of me, a useless person, and not giving you happiness, but making you have to sink with me.

Sister Yun, I really love you too.I love you so much that I am willing to let go, even if I lose you, I have nothing, even if letting you go is like stabbing a knife in my heart, I still have to smile and say it doesn't hurt.

Because I really, really love you...

The author has something to say:

Small nonsense popular science in this chapter:

"Righteous People's Day": Righteous people can be traced back to the Qing Dynasty in Taiwan. Because there were many civil disturbances, those who sacrificed their lives to help put down the chaos would be named righteous people.

It is mainly an activity of the Hakka people (the descendants from the coast of Guangdong). On the [-]th day of the seventh lunar month, it will be held at the Yimin Temple in Hsinchu.The most exciting thing is probably the "pig race", that is, each household takes out the largest pig it raises for a competition, and the biggest and heaviest is the "sacred pig". Bite into an orange or other fruit.After seeing the picture, Ling would think "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)... Later, some people said that the breeders were forced to force-feed them, it was too cruel and inhumane, so the animal protection groups in protest.Press the button, anyway, when I was a child, Ling was often teased by her uncle with oranges ==

I am very grateful to the two big mines of "Immortal" and "Back to Happiness". They are really a great encouragement!But the next time I leave a message, Ling is very touched~~~ I also thank Zhang Zhang for leaving a comment, and all the little angels who silently supported! (A few days ago was definitely Ling’s lucky day ahhh)

I wish the little angels all the best~~~Meme 333