chasing deer

"Take a shower first, you can make do with this set of pajamas."

Lin Shen handed the clothes to Yao Lu and said, "There are shampoo, body wash, and facial cleanser. This set of toothbrushes and towels are all new. I put them here for you."

Yao Lu nodded slightly, hugged his pajamas, and stood at the door of the bathroom without moving.

"Go and wash?" Lin Shen urged, "You don't want me to wash it for you, do you?"

Yao Lu shook his head, turned around and went into the bathroom, closed the door, but it wasn't locked.

Lin Shenchu ​​stood at the door of the bathroom, listening carefully with his ears up, and soon heard the sound of running water. After 20 minutes, the sound of the water stopped, but after a while, he heard the sound of Yao Lu rinsing his mouth.

"Lulu?" Lin Shen knocked on the door and asked, "Is it ready? Can I go in?"

The door was opened, and Yao Lu stood in front of Lin Shen with wet hair, his pajamas were covered in fat and fat, which was very funny, his mouth was still stained with toothpaste foam, he stared at Lin Shen, and whispered: "It's finished. "

Lin Shen wiped his mouth clean and blamed him, "Hair is too wet." Then he picked up a towel and wiped it, then took out a hair dryer to dry it, then hugged him and smelled it, and said with a smile, "It smells so good! Go to bed wait for me."

Yao Lu immediately looked up at Lin Shen with doubts on his face.

"Hey, there is ambiguity." Lin Shen laughed a few times, and explained: "What I mean is, you go to bed and lie down first, and I'll take a shower to find you."

Yao Lu: "..."

"What's going on! Why can't I explain it clearly?" Lin Shen said madly, "I want to say that we both sleep in the master bedroom today, and I hug you to sleep, and nothing else is okay? If you disagree, I'll just sleep in the guest room."

"No, yes." Yao Lu whispered, Lin Shen rubbed his hair, and ordered: "Then go and lie down, you're exhausted."

Yao Lu nodded and left the bathroom. Lin Shen quickly took a shower, dried his hair, put on new pajamas, and entered the room.

The main light in the bedroom was not turned on, leaving only one bedside lamp. Yao Lu lay quietly on the bed, with his face pressed against the pillow, his soft forehead hair drooping over his brows, as if he had fallen asleep. Lin Shen lay down carefully. Okay, look at the back of his head for a while, and finally stretch out his arms, and even the quilt leads him into his arms from the side.

With the sweetheart in his arms, Lin Shen had mixed feelings. He never dreamed that such a day would come. Because of this reason, Yao Lu and him slept on the same bed.

The person in his arms moved, and Lin Shen came to his senses, worried that he would wake him up, so he withdrew his hand, but after a while, Yao Lu turned over, faced Lin Shen, and then leaned against him.

Lin Shen: "???"

After a short hesitation, Lin Shen put his hand back, and Yao Lu moved towards him again, and finally slipped into his arms.

"Lulu?" Lin Shen whispered.

Yao Lu didn't make a sound, just arched into Lin Shen's arms, and stretched out his arms to hug his waist. Lin Shen instantly understood that this had nothing to do with lust, but was just seeking comfort from himself, so he sighed and hugged him. Looking at him, fingers kept running through his hair, rubbing his scalp, hoping to make him fall asleep as soon as possible.

Buried in Lin Shen's arms, Yao Lu's thoughts surged. He felt Lin Shen's fingers brushing over and over again, with the same strength and rhythm, just like coaxing him to take a nap when he was in school. Yao Lu thought so, the gears of time Reversal, only for a moment, he seemed to travel back to that distant past.

"Didn't I just take a nap with you and nothing else?"

Lin Shen kissed his lips, sucked for a while, and then lazily said: "Nothing else, just kiss you."

"No, Auntie is still outside." Yao Lu tilted his head back, blushing and said, "Sleep."

"The door is locked, my mother won't come." Lin Shen kissed him and said in a low voice, "It seems that I can't kiss you enough, I really want to hold you and kiss you forever."

Yao Lu had no choice but to put his hands on his chest, trying to stop him from kissing continuously.

"Aren't you sleepy?"

"Well, a little sleepy."

"Then sleep, don't kiss anymore." Yao Lu begged softly, Lin Shen rubbed his hair and said with a smile: "Okay, then sleep."

10 minutes passed.

Lin Shen was already sleepy, and his consciousness gradually blurred. Just when he was about to fall asleep, Yao Lu suddenly sat up. Lin Shen was startled, opened his eyes in confusion, and asked in a hoarse voice, "Lu Lu, what's wrong?"

"I can't sleep, I'm going to do the papers." Yao Lu said and was about to get out of bed, Lin Shen immediately grabbed his waist, pushed him back on the bed domineeringly, and coaxed: "Don't go, we will have a rest, I will coax you You sleep."

Yao Lu had no choice but to lie down again. Lin Shen held him in his arms, ran his slender fingers through his hair, and stroked his scalp.

"Is this comfortable?"

"Well, comfortable."

"Go to sleep, dear."

Lin Shen's hand kept on like this, Yao Lu gradually felt drowsy, curled up in his arms and fell asleep, Lin Shen also fell asleep, but left a nerve in his brain for his left hand, and massaged Yao Lu's scalp persistently.

From then on, every time he took a nap, Lin Shen would tirelessly massage him and lull him to sleep just like that day, just like now, although Lin Shen was already very sleepy, one hand didn't stop mechanically, and the time was intertwined. , The past overlapped with the reality, Yao Lu hugged Lin Shen tightly, breathing in the familiar smell of him, tears flowed out silently in an instant.

After a long time, Lin Shen faintly heard the voice of the person in his arms, and immediately woke up, asking, "What's wrong? Lulu?"

"Lin Shen, I..." Yao Lu muffled a word.

"What? Lulu?" Lin Shen asked in a low voice.

"Lin Shen," Yao Lu said after a short pause, "I like you."

"What?" Lin Shen asked in surprise, "What did you say? Like me?"

Yao Lu came out of Lin Shen's arms, raised his head slightly, his face was full of tears, stared at him, and said softly, "I said, I like you."

"Why, suddenly want to say this?"

"I just wanted to say it suddenly." Yao Lu choked up, "I have always liked you. I didn't say it before because I was afraid that you would treat me. It was just my obsession when I was in school. I was afraid that you would not want me if you succeeded, so I I dare not say it, and I don’t want to say it.”

Lin Shen's eye circles turned red instantly, and he said, "You idiot, how could that be? How could I not want you? How could you think of me like this?"

"You say I'm playing hard to get, but I'm actually very guilty." Yao Lu said, "I also understand that I really mean that, but I don't want to admit it. Seeing you and Xiaoxi together makes me very sad and a little bit jealous , You said that there are many people, so I'm afraid that you treat me differently than before."

Hearing this, Lin Shen felt guilty for a while, and couldn't help but regret it. Only now did he realize that what he had done before had caused Yao Lu so much trouble, and it had also become an obstacle between them. .

"It's my fault." Lin Shen said, "I shouldn't have said those words and done those things before, so that you can't trust me."

"You didn't come to see me these days, I miss you very much." Yao Lu cried and said, "I have seriously thought about how you treated me, I think I only think about myself, and I am out of vanity, afraid that I will speak first , you lose."

"Just now you helped me get my pajamas, waited for me at the door, helped me dry my hair, put me to sleep, I know, I can feel it, you are sincere to me, I think too much."

Hearing Yao Lu's heartfelt confession, Lin Shen was so moved that he hugged him tightly, and his inner emotions beat his soul like a stormy sea.

"Lulu, I was the one who was wrong." Lin Shen said softly, "I always force you to wait for you to say that you like me before I dare to confess to you. If you don't tell me, I want to get yours first." Man, I thought that was your confession to me, that's why I did so many goddamn things to you."

"My obsession is not to get you. My obsession is to mind why you didn't want me in the first place. I have never been able to get over this hurdle. At that time, you changed your mind and dumped me, leaving a big shadow on me. I'm afraid that one day in the future, you will treat me like that again."

"So I forced you, forced you, all to prove that you like me and love me now, so that I can forget all the past and start over with you. I just want to forget that you once abandoned me. I think your heart will always belong to me."

When Lin Shen said this, he suddenly collapsed. He buried his head on Yao Lu, unable to control his emotions any longer, and started to cry bitterly. Yao Lu immediately hugged him back, feeling extremely sad in his heart.

Yao Lu had never seen Lin Shen cry before, and he even thought that Lin Shen would never cry, but at this moment, the man he thought would never cry, trembled all over, hugged himself and cried bitterly.

After a while, Lin Shen restrained his emotions, choked up and said, "Lulu, I like you. From eight years ago to now, it has never changed. I miss you so much."

In an instant, they seemed to be connected with each other. They both felt each other's true feelings and were moved by each other's confession. They hugged each other emotionally. , but the key to unlocking the shackles in Lin Shen's heart.

"There is something I want to tell you." Yao Lu said.

"What's the matter?" Lin Shen asked.

"You have to promise me first." Yao Lu said, "After hearing this, you can't be angry, you can't get angry, and you are not allowed to vent your anger on others."

Lin Shen looked confused, not knowing what he wanted to say, but Yao Lu just said no, so Lin Shen had no choice but to agree.

Yao Lu pondered for a moment, and said, "It's been a long time since this matter happened. No one is right or wrong about the parties involved in this matter. Everyone is right, but their positions are different."

"The reason why I told you is because of your obsession. I want you to let go of the burden completely. If it weren't for this, I would never say it for the rest of my life. Do you understand?"

Seeing Yao Lu's serious face, even though Lin Shen couldn't guess what he wanted to say, he knew that it should be a very important matter, so he promised him again that he would not be angry and would not settle accounts with anyone.

Yao Lu nodded, and then said: "At the beginning, I didn't change my mind and dump you."

Hearing this, Lin Shen frowned immediately, with a look of disbelief on his face. After a brief pause, Yao Lu told the truth about the past.

"Why didn't you tell me at that time?" After listening to Lin Shen, he immediately questioned: "If you told me, the matter would never have ended later. We were lucky enough to meet again and fall in love again, but do you know how big it is?" Maybe, we will always be strangers, never getting in touch with each other forever?"

Yao Lu shook his head. At that time, he was only 19 years old. He was a person who had never been out of the province. He never watched TV or went out to play. He only read books. His father would lose his job. Said it was as big as the sky, he didn't dare to go one step further, how could he dare to tell Lin Shen.

"But if you tell me, we can think of other ways." Lin Shen said, "We can pretend to break up and find a chance to meet secretly, or we can get together after we finish college. They can't control it! They can also hire a middleman For example, Xu Ze, there are many ways to let him pass the message in the middle, and any one of them is much better than your stupid breakup."

"Yes, I took the stupidest path." Yao Lu said dejectedly, "I was timid and ignorant at that time, I thought that only breaking up would not hurt my family. After a lot of experience, I started to regret it, but it didn't help."

"I used to think that I would always be so lonely, I couldn't like girls, and I didn't like other boys, they were not you! I thought I could forget everything, but I couldn't! I used to return to that afternoon in my dreams again and again , tell you the truth of the matter with your own mouth, and then you tell me not to be afraid, but you will wake up in a dream, and every time I wake up, I regret it very much, regretting why I was so stupid in the first place."

"When I was with you, you treated me well, and I enjoyed it very much. After we broke up, I realized how precious the things you did for me and the feelings you gave to me. I often think , Maybe I will never meet someone who loves me so much in my life, but I have already missed him."

"Fortunately, I met you again. You are...still waiting for me at the same place. I am so lucky..."

Hearing this, Lin Shen immediately hugged Yao Lu into his arms. The following words were blocked in his chest for an instant. He didn't want to listen anymore. What Yao Lu said before was enough for him, and he didn't want Yao Lu to Continue to recall these painful pasts.

In the past seven years, during the countless sleepless nights when he missed Yao Lu, Lin Shen had to rely on the good memories of the past to support himself. All along, Lin Shen thought that he was the only one who remembered the past, and that he was the only one who felt that life was gloomy. However, today, after listening to Yao Lu's innermost thoughts, he finally knew that Yao Lu had been suffering day and night just like him these years.

The thorn of Yao Lu's change of heart has always been stuck in his heart, and it is a hurdle that he has been unable to overcome for a long time. Now that he knows the truth, Lin Shen feels that he is finally relieved, but on the other hand, he feels a lingering fear. If they hadn't been in the old house on the 19th floor If they met by chance, he would not go to the class reunion, so he and Yao Lu would continue to waste time.

Some people, even if they live in the same building, go out every day, one to the left and one to the right, maybe until one of them moves away, they don’t know each other’s existence, let alone a city with a vast sea of ​​people, it’s not easy to meet each other, The same is true for him and Yao Lu. If it is not for the blessing of fate, they may never see each other again when they are old.

Maybe I will meet again when I get old, Lin Shen thought, the two old men met at the corner, talked about the past, and cried, although imagining it now, I think the scene is very funny, but for the two parties, It is not an exaggeration to say that it is a human tragedy.

Fortunately, these hypotheses don’t exist. They met and got back together again. It doesn’t matter if there are many more. He doesn’t want to discuss these horrible scenes with Yao Lu. He hopes that Yao Lu can be less troubled. Can live happily.

"I'm a little sleepy." Yao Lu whispered, "I want to sleep, can I?"

Lin Shen kissed his lips and said, "Sleep, I'll sleep with you in my arms."

Yao Lu nodded, closed his eyes wearily, and opened them suddenly after a while, as if he remembered something.

"I'm still worried." Yao Lu said.

"What are you worried about?" Lin Shen asked.

Yao Lu said seriously: "Promise me that you won't quarrel with your parents because of this matter, and don't question them."

Lin Shen: "..."

Just 1 minute ago, Lin Shen was still planning to go to his parents to question what happened back then after sending Yao Lu home tomorrow. Because of Yao Lu's words, he suddenly felt a little guilty.

Yao Lu narrowed his eyes, looked at him for a moment, and noticed that his expression was strange, so he could only comfort him again and again. Parents are always parents. Neither good.

Of course, Lin Shen also understood this truth, but it was difficult to calm down for a while. Seeing that Yao Lu was so concerned about this matter, he had to promise that even if this matter was changed, he would not bring it up again.

Only then did Yao Lu feel relieved, closed his eyes, and muttered in a low voice, "I'm really sleepy, I'm so tired, go to sleep, I have to visit my dad this afternoon..."

Lin Shen hummed, and pulled the man into his arms. After a while, Yao Lu fell asleep in his arms.