chasing deer

Lin Shen carried Yao Lu into the bedroom, put him gently on the bed, and then covered himself up.

20 minutes passed.

Lin Shen buckled the lubricating cover and threw it aside. He got up and wanted to kiss his lips to comfort him to relax, but he saw a miserable situation in the world at a glance.

Yao Lu's eyes were closed tightly, his lips were bitten out of blood due to the pain and discomfort, and two lines of tears flowed from the slits of his eyes. He trembled all over, but remained motionless, lying on his back on the bed as if offering sacrifices.

Lin Shen frowned immediately, kissed his lips, and said softly: "Lulu? Good Lulu? Can you look at me?"

Yao Lu was like a piece of wood, his whole body was stiff, lying there, he didn't respond to Lin Shen's words.

"Lulu, don't do this." Lin Shen buried himself in his chest and said sadly, "I didn't force you this time, it was your own will. You just agreed, so why don't you do this?"

Yao Lu couldn't hear any sound at this time, and he couldn't help but want him to eat it in his mind. After eating it, he wouldn't miss it, and he completely gave up. Maybe he would want him after eating it, or maybe he would eat it in the end. He will let himself go, no matter what, he won't resist this time, just let him go.

Such two people with their own thoughts, lying on the large double bed, the charming atmosphere hovered in the bedroom, one was extremely lustful, and the other was broken.

It was Lin Shen who finally surrendered. From the past to the present, no matter when he was compared with Yao Lu, he was always the one who lost.

Lin Shen thought that if he did it today, what should he do in the future?In the future, they will have to spend their entire lives hand in hand, so how should they face this disgraceful first time?Do we have to bring this up and flog the corpse every time we quarrel in the future?

No!It's not what he wants, it's so imperfect!It is simply a stain on their love.

Thinking of this, Lin Shen stopped his movements, then sighed heavily, got up from Yao Lu, covered him with a quilt, and sat aside, taking a deep breath to extinguish the fire.

After a while, the anger finally subsided, Lin Shen took the quilt into his arms, kept rubbing his scalp, and coaxed softly: "Don't be afraid, baby, don't do it, I know if you don't want it, we Don't do it, okay? Don't be afraid, I won't hurt you, never will."

Yao Lu seemed to move, but didn't make a sound, his eyes were closed tightly, but the tears flowed more fiercely.

Seeing it, Lin Shen regretted and felt distressed, so he continued to massage his scalp, coaxing softly: "Don't cry, my dear Lulu, I really don't want to do this, and I'll take you home later, okay? Be good, Do not cry."

After coaxing like this for a long time, until Lin Shen's arm became numb and his mouth was dry, Yao Lu finally slowly opened his eyes, looked at Lin Shen for a moment, and then burst into tears.

"Hey, don't cry." Lin Shen said, "Let's go home in a while, go home and find mom, okay? Don't cry, baby, don't cry."

Lin Shen couldn't hug and comfort him like this, Yao Lu's bitter crying gradually turned into sobs, and finally fell silent, and he leaned weakly in Lin Shen's arms, his nose rubbing against his chest.

"I'll take you back in a while, okay?" Lin Shen rubbed his hair and asked, "Are you going back today?"

Yao Lu nodded, and said in a hoarse voice, Lin Shen asked him to rest for a while, so as not to hurt his face by the cold wind when he went out.

After a long time, Lin Shen checked that the time was almost up. He cleaned him up first, then picked up the scattered clothes, dressed him carefully, then dressed himself, helped him downstairs, and drove to Tuanjie district.

At the door of the unit, Lin Shen helped him put away the collar of his coat, and said, "I won't look for you for a few days, lest you find me annoying, we all need a period of time to calm down and think about the future of the two of you." .” Yao Lu hummed.

"I don't understand, why did things become like this?" Lin Shen said sadly, "It's like the sand in your hand, the more you try to hold it tightly, the more it leaks faster, I deliberately want to get back to the time when we fell in love. I know it's too much, but I still can't control it."

When he said this, his throat felt a little congested, and he really didn't want to say any more, so he had to say a few words of humility to Yao Lu, and then let people go upstairs.

For the next few days, Lin Shen never looked for Yao Lu, nor did he send him a message or make a phone call.

The accounts that Yao Lu helped sort out were basically finished, and Lin Shen handed them back to Accountant Xie. Accountant Xie saw that his nymphomaniac boss looked decadent, and dared not say or ask, but just took it with a smile, and quickly finished it. Finance to Mr. Wang.

During the period, Xu Ze saw that the two were not right, so he called Lin Shen to inquire, and wanted to take the opportunity to tease him, but when he heard Lin Shen's hoarse voice, Xu Ze knew that something serious must have happened, so he repeated the mocking words. Swallowing it down, comforting him with good words for a long time.

On December 12th, Christmas Eve, when the lights come on, cartoon pictures of Santa Claus driving a deer cart are posted everywhere, and the streets and alleys are full of "Jingle Bells", and the whole city is very lively on this night.

The apartment on Xinhua Road was pitch black, only the floor lamp next to the sofa gave off a dim yellow light. Lin Shen was lying on the sofa, holding a small box, and was looking at a pair of platinum rings in the box with ecstasy in the dim light.

The ring didn't have any style, no pattern, just two plain circles with engraved words, LS and YL, which were the initials of his and Yao Lu's names. He bought them last month and planned to confess his love on Christmas Eve. It was used at the time, but it is no longer needed.

Lin Shen misses Yao Lu in his heart, and wonders if his mood has improved and if he has forgiven himself. Even though he missed Christmas, Lin Shen is optimistic in his heart. Maybe the ring can be given out during the Spring Festival. It's not a perfect ending.

While thinking wildly, the phone rang, Lin Shenyan got up, picked it up, took a look, saw that it was Xu Ze, and immediately connected.

"What are you looking for me for?"

"Fuck! Where the hell are you?"

"At home." Lin Shen said, "What are you doing? I'm in a hurry, what happened?"

"Something has happened!" Xu Ze said anxiously, "Hurry up, clean up and get up!"

"Can you make your words clear?" Lin Shen scolded, "Like a headless chicken."

"Yao Lu's father had an accident." Xu Ze said, "Yao Lu called me just now, saying that his father had a second stroke and was sent to the hospital for emergency treatment. He asked me for leave and said he didn't know when he would be able to go to work. I have already approved it." , Tell him to come anytime, you hurry to see it!"

"What?" Lin Shen was taken aback, and asked, "Where is it? Where did you send it?"

"The First Hospital, ICU!" Xu Ze replied, "It should be, he spoke too hastily just now."

Lin Shen immediately asked again: "How is Lulu feeling? Did he cry?"

Xu Ze thought for a while and said, "That's not true, it's just a little low, oops! You'll know if you go and have a look?"

Lin Shen said, "I'll go there, what is his mother doing?"

"How do I know what to do?" Xu Ze was speechless and said, "You go first and then we'll talk."

"You're right." Lin Shen got up and said, "I'll go over and see the situation first, so I won't talk about it."

After hanging up the phone, Lin Shen quickly changed his clothes, grabbed the car keys, and drove all the way to the No. [-] Hospital. After seeing the diagnostic map on the first floor, he climbed the stairs to the ICU.

At the entrance of the stairs, he first carefully pawed at the wall and glanced at the door of the ICU. At a glance, he saw Yao Lu sitting alone on the rest chair, with his elbows on his knees, his back bowed and his head bowed. Under the dim light of the hospital, It seemed extremely sad and lonely.

Lin Shen looked around again. There were few people at the entrance of the ICU. Some were sitting and standing, and some were lying on the ground sleeping. He didn't see anyone suspected of being Yao Lu's mother. After hesitating for a while, he walked over and stood there Beside Yao Lu, he called softly: "Lu Lu."

Yao Lu raised his head slowly, seeing that it was Lin Shen, his eyes turned red instantly, his mouth opened, and finally he whispered: "Lin Shen..."

Lin Shen's heart twitched, his heart ached, and he immediately stepped forward, took him into his arms, and comforted him softly: "Lu Lu, don't be afraid!"

Yao Lu hugged Lin Shen's waist tightly and didn't let go for a long time. Lin Shen rubbed his hair and sat down beside him.

"How's the situation?" Lin Shen asked, "Where's your mother?"

"My mother, she..."

Yao Lu's voice was a little choked, so he had to take a deep breath first, and said: "When it was first delivered, the doctor said that my father was in a very dangerous condition, and my mother fainted from crying. Later, when her mood stabilized, I sent her home. The doctor won't let her stay here, saying that she is afraid of being stimulated and causing accidents."

"How is your father?" Lin Shen asked again, "What did the doctor say?"

"Still being rescued." Yao Lu said sadly, "I don't know if I can be rescued, I can only wait..."

Lin Shen nodded, knowing that there was nothing he could do for a while, so he said a few more words of comfort, hugged him, and the two of them sat at the door of the ICU and waited.

After two hours of this, the door of the ICU opened, and a nurse came out with a sheet in her hand.

"The family members of bed 13, are the family members of bed 13 there?"

"I'm bed number 13." Yao Lu immediately stood up and said.

"Is that Yao Gang?" the nurse asked, "Who are you?"

"It's Yao Gang, and I'm his son."

"No, the notice of critical illness." The nurse handed over the form and a pen, and said, "The patient's condition is very bad and he is still being rescued. The family members should sign and leave someone here to wait."

Yao Lu took the list tremblingly, and asked, "My dad... can he be saved?"

"We can't say for sure." The nurse said numbly, "All the equipment that should be installed, and all the available medicines have been used. Whether it can be saved depends on the patient himself. Let's sign first." After speaking, he asked : "You stay here tonight, right?"

Yao Lu hummed, signed the form tremblingly, and handed the form back to the nurse. The nurse repeatedly told her not to go far, and if there was something urgent that needed to be notified to the family as soon as possible, Yao Lu nodded and said she understood.

"Don't be afraid, Lulu." Lin Shen reassured.

"No, I'm not afraid." Yao Lu exhaled heavily, and said, "I'm just a little panicked. The incident happened suddenly, and I wasn't mentally prepared at all."

After 2 o'clock in the middle of the night, the door of the ICU opened again.

"Is the family member on bed 13 here?" the nurse shouted.

"Yes, I am." Yao Lu stood up and asked, "Nurse, how is my father?"

The nurse looked down at the list and said, "I am temporarily out of danger, but I am still in a coma. The situation is not optimistic. Now I rely on machines to maintain my basic vital signs. Please discuss with your family members whether to continue or give up the treatment. If you give up, you must sign a statement." Book."

"Go on! Go on!" Yao Lu hurriedly said, "We won't give up! No matter how many days you stay or how much you spend, go on!"

The nurse nodded, said she got it, and then said: "Go back first, you don't have to wait at the door, there can't be too many people standing at the door of the ICU. The contact information you left when you were admitted to the hospital is your own, right?"

"It's my phone number." Yao Lu replied, and then asked again: "When can I see my dad?"

The nurse said the daily visit time, and explained that if the patient's condition relapsed, Yao Lu would be notified immediately. Yao Lu hummed, and the nurse turned around and entered the ICU.

Lin Shen got up at this moment and said, "Lu Lu, you can't help if you stand here, it's almost 3 o'clock, go back and have a rest." Yao Lu numbly nodded.

"Will you go to my place?" Lin Shen tentatively said, "Going home at this time will wake up your mother and stimulate her, go to my house to sleep for a while, send her a message or call tomorrow, and talk to her in the afternoon." Let's go see your dad together, okay?"

Yao Lu numbly nodded again, so Lin Shen took him downstairs and drove back to the apartment on Xinhua Road.