bad luck in love

These years, Shen Yu and Wei Chen clearly had nothing to do with each other, but both of them were vaguely pulled by an invisible thread.All along, they seem to be escaping, and the thread of escaping will be broken one day.The farewell of the boyhood made people so sad, dreaming back at midnight, Wei Chen still had the lingering warmth of that kiss in his heart.Over the years, it's not that he doesn't want to see depression, but he has more important things to do before that.If those things can't be resolved, he and Shen Yu won't be able to start over.He forced himself not to think that even if all obstacles were cleared, the opportunity to fall in love had already been missed.Only when they were teenagers can they love each other so desperately.It's a pity that behind the bravery and fearlessness of young people, there is no support of strength and experience, let alone the so-called "right to choose", and they are easily squeezed to pieces by the world of adults.

"It's very rare for you to be in your current state. What happened?" Wei Chen consciously or unconsciously talked to Shen Yu beside him while paying attention to the road conditions.His gloomy forearm was propped on one side of the car window, dragging his overly good-looking chin, and there was a hint of impatience and anxiety in his brows and eyes.

"What can happen in a PARTY? We haven't seen each other for so many years, maybe I have changed. Maybe my current state of impatience is normal." Shen Yu is not in the mood to talk to Wei Chen about what happened just now, after all, this person is uncertain What trouble do you have to find yourself?

Wei Chen could hear the displeasure in the other party's tone, and he smiled casually, "Your state is really not suitable for communication."

"Afraid that I might say something nasty?"

"Not really, I haven't heard any bad words? I'm afraid you'll say something I don't want to hear"

"People in their 30s, don't be so cowardly"

"Haha, after all, I still want to pretend that I have a boyfriend, even if it's an AI in WeChat." Hearing Wei Chen say this, Shen Yu suddenly laughed, "AI?", showing familiar canine teeth.

"Well, AI Shen." Wei Chen parked the car in the garage, staring at the person in front of him with flickering eyes: "Shen Yu, shall we start over again? Like you said, maybe we have changed after not seeing each other for so many years, try How about getting to know each other again? Just treat it as a blind date, give me or us a chance, trust me."

Shen Yu retracted the corners of his mouth and frowned slightly. He shook his head slightly: "Seeing me this time", Shen Yu pointed to himself: "I am like this, are you sure you still think so? Or just think that there were too many Unfortunately, the missing piece must be made up?".

"The reason is not important, but the reason I want to see you is simply to be with you"

"This may not be important to me, but it is very important to yourself. We must at least dare to face the truth in our hearts."

Wei Chen unbuckled his seat belt, finished his speech calmly, and immediately kissed him without waiting for the other party's reaction.Whether they want to admit it or not, both the two of them, and the state and feel of the relationship, have literally changed.Even Wei Chen's kiss was no longer as passionate as it used to be, and he felt the other party's forbearance, temptation and cautiousness.Those memories that he thought he had forgotten long ago and had been sleeping for many years suddenly woke up and flowed into his limbs in an instant.Sullen pushed Wei Chen away fiercely like a reflex, and punched him casually.The moment he saw the blood, he was sure that he really didn't have any lover-like feelings for Wei Chen.

"This is my truth, but you don't believe it?" Wei Chen's tone was contemptuous, he didn't know which one captured his heart first, despair or anger. Pressing down on the seat, he kissed again frantically and hastily.Shen Yu didn't have the slightest thought of kissing the other party, and even the patience he used to treat his lover disappeared completely.Facing the crazy Wei Chen, Shen Yu also resisted too desperately, which made the forced kiss not go smoothly, even a little embarrassed, until Shen Yu accidentally saw the scar on Wei Chen's hand.

The shocking scar was like a charm, piercing into the gloomy eyes without warning, sealing all his movements.That scar was an absolute proof of its real existence and inevitability. It remained on Wei Chen's body in a way that was so cruel that it was almost hideous, until the body was reduced to ashes.Feeling the gloomy and momentary silence, Wei Chen's movements intensified, and he left a series of clear hickey marks around the other's collarbone.Even in the past, when their relationship was the best, Shen Yu would never allow the other party to do this.

Hearing Shen Yu's slightly imperceptible sigh, Wei Chen ruthlessly bit his teeth marks on his collarbone, and seeing that the other party still didn't make a sound, let alone cried out for pain, he stopped his almost tyrannical actions.Wei Chen buried his head in Shen Yu's shoulder for a while, and then gradually returned to normal.

"I actually thought of this early in the morning, when I left your house that summer. But I stubbornly went to do those things later, wishful self-deception. It seems that only one day I can solve these messy things , get single again, even if we fulfill our previous promise, we may be able to be together again. Only by thinking this way can I persist until now, and I can still feel that I have something with you in some form of willingness or unwillingness associated.

Before I met you this time, I also thought about it seriously and hesitated. I thought about it, otherwise I would disappear. It’s good to continue this kind of sick relationship until I grow old.After all, as long as I see you, I won't be able to deceive myself anymore." Wei Chen smiled self-deprecatingly, and continued, "But one day, someone will hold your heart in your arms. I can't bear the thought of it.Ha, but probably everyone can do better than me in the past.You have suffered so many injuries, and it is easy to be moved by other people. As long as the other party persists a little longer, you may laugh for him, cry for him, or even give everything for him.But if that person is me now, even if I do better than everyone in the world, I won’t be able to warm your heart, I know all of this.”

Shen Yu didn't know why Wei Chen came up with these thoughts, and what kind of misunderstanding he had about himself. He hesitated for a moment, and then said to the person in front of him with determination: "I am not as sensitive as you said, nor have I become sensitive. , I want to be loved. On the contrary, after these years, I like the life of a person more and more. It should be like this. I once felt that I would end up alone or go to Buddhism. Compared with the past, my temper is now It's not bad, but he used himself very strangely. Just like before, he still belongs to the type that others say is not easy to get along with.

In recent years, many people have indeed taken a fancy to this skin, wanting to please or own it.Those people came into contact with me with various intentions, but the closer they got, the more they realized that I was not only a weird person, but also a kind of sharp-edged and thorny person. This contrast made them extremely unhappy.They believe that at this age, there is no need to make yourself unhappy.It's better not to be a duplicity like me.Don't say that I'm just ordinary good-looking, even if I'm shockingly beautiful, there's basically no grass growing around me.So, you really overestimated me.

Until someone stepped on the bottom line I had established over the years and suddenly appeared.It was no different at the beginning, he also boasted of this beauty like those before him, but he didn't mention a word about his heart that was stabbed with blood by the sharp and angular me.And at first I thought that this young man was just trying to be fresh, but I never thought that he had already made complete preparations, whether it would make me happy or make him unhappy.He has been waiting for a reunion, he doesn't even know if this waiting will end, and he doesn't know what kind of face he is waiting for.But for these "uncertainties", he bet his youth and future.You said, if there is such a person, is it worth my love? "

Wei Chen smiled wryly and said, "So you didn't want to see me, but you agreed to see me so that you can face others wholeheartedly in the future?".

"I came to see you for myself, or that sentence, at least be honest with yourself"

"You are really cruel to me. Forget it, can you stay with me today? I will do nothing, just like when I was with you in college." Seeing that Shen Yu didn't speak, Wei Chen continued: "It's the last It's an arbitrary request."

That day Wei Chen was indeed very honest, he didn't try to do anything about Shen Yu anymore, after all he was in his early 30s, even if he still had impulsiveness, he wouldn't let himself be as embarrassed and hysterical as he was when he was a boy.Wei Chen was so tired in his heart that it even reflected in his body. He thought he would suffer from insomnia all night, but he fell asleep in a heavy hug.

"Xiao Yu, are you leaving?"

Wei Chen woke up early, and wanted to buy morning tea for Shen Yu himself, but when he came back, he found that he had already left.He sat on the edge of the bed, felt the remaining warmth in the quilt through his fingertips, and felt empty in his heart.Ignoring his impeccably ironed suit, Wei Chen lay down in the place where he had slept somberly just now, until the remaining bit of warmth was consumed.When did Depression wake up?Or sleepless nights at all?After thinking wildly, he still couldn't help sending the other party a WeChat message.

When he received the message notification, Shen Yu was resting his eyes in the taxi with his eyes closed. He knew that Wei Chen must be looking for him, so he deliberately didn't look at his phone.It wasn't until I got out of the taxi and walked into the hotel lobby that I took a deep breath and quickly replied, "Mmm."

"I wanted to have morning tea together." Wei Chen typed, deleted and deleted, repeated countless times, and finally sent it by accident.

"It's not necessary, you said it last night, the last willful request" It's really unnecessary, let's keep torturing each other.

"I kind of regret seeing you yesterday"

"I'm sorry." Shen Yu said these three words quickly. He didn't want to hear Wei Chen say these words to himself again, so he simply said them first. The words "I'm sorry" are mutual and the only footnote in their relationship.

Wei Chen looked at the three clearly familiar Chinese characters on the screen of the phone, but they were so unfamiliar that he didn't recognize them.He thought about his little thoughts and the tenderness that the other party had given him, but they were ruthlessly consumed in the end.After so many years, Shen Yu finally did it, turned around lightly, and walked firmly to the world without himself.Wei Chen didn't know what would have happened if he had stayed by his side back then.Maybe they will overcome those difficulties and spend the rest of their lives happily; maybe there will be another character like Wei Qiming's lover in this world; maybe they will jump from a tall building like their own mother.