bad luck in love

After returning to school, Shen Yu finally returned to the busy campus life. At least on the surface, the relationship with Wei Chen changed back to the questioning and answering from a long time ago, as if everything had never happened before.This is pretty good. After all, in the relationship between youth, everyone is "either dead or hurt", and there are very few relationships that can take a step forward and take a step back. I am depressed and even a little thankful that Wei Chen didn't get too distracted.With the beginning of the new semester, the number of dreams at night also decreased, as if he finally got rid of Qi Nianzhi's heart-piercing questioning in the dream.From the end of last semester until the end of the vacation, Shen Yu repeatedly dreamed of Qi Nianzhi questioning why he abandoned him without hesitation.He was very curious, the one who was betrayed was obviously himself, but in the dream, it seemed that he was the sinner who started messing up and abandoned him until the end.

The protagonist in the gloomy dream was gradually replaced by another person. He once thought that person was Wei Chen. After all, all the stressors during the holiday came from Wei Chen.But Shen Yu in the dream clearly confirmed that the back was not Wei Chen's, it was a thin and small figure, like a child who hadn't fully opened up in junior high school, that back had been walking slowly in front of Shen Yu, slowly changing. It became the straight figure of an adult man.After having this dream twice, Shen Yu began to doubt whether the immature child was himself, but judging from his adult figure, that person was taller than himself.Shen Yu kept thinking of this dream before going to bed, trying to dream about the other party again, and catch up to get a glimpse of the true face.But that person always walked in front of him, maintaining a fixed distance with ease and ease, as if waiting for him to catch up, but also didn't seem to want him to catch up.Finally, one time, Shen Yu chased that person, he saw a sad mask, and then fell from his dream and woke up startled.

In the second month of school, Wei Chen asked Chen Lu to have dinner with Shen Yu, but after being rejected twice, Wei Chen didn't ask for trouble anymore.It just so happened that the school's list of supporting teachers was approved, and Shen Yu was recommended by both the Poetry Club and the Chinese Department to go to the mountain village to support teaching with students from other colleges and departments.As far as Shen Yu is concerned, his purpose of signing up to support teaching is not because he is so caring, nor is he trying to escape from anyone, he is just happy to see his life full of changes.Give yourself a chance to see what the other face of the world looks like.

This time, there is a boy from the Faculty of Science named Zhang Qi in the supporting teaching team.Because the teaching support team randomly combines students with excellent grades from the Faculty of Arts, Science, Social Sciences, Art and other colleges, divides them into three groups, and then goes to fixed teaching locations in turn.Each batch of students goes once a semester, often for a month at a time.Even though they come from different colleges, the topics they get together are always inseparable from the study. This school not only gathers geniuses from all corners of the country, but also ordinary people who can excel by working hard day and night. .Zhang Qi is an exception among this group of teaching supporters. He is always talking about literature, movies, paintings, and poetry with Shen Yu and his alumni from the School of Art, making everyone tease whether he is transferred to the School of Science.Shen Yu took a deep look at Zhang Qi who was sitting next to him. This person separates his major from his life. No matter what major he studies, it will not affect his enjoyment of life.Rather than saying that Zhang Qi is interested in literature and art, it is better to say that he is full of enthusiasm for life.That kind of enthusiasm is like a fire, illuminating everyone around.

Shen Yu refused several dinner parties, and after he completely lost track of Wei Chen's world, he went directly to Shen Yu's dormitory to block people without saying a word.Wei Chen was not at all surprised that depression would slowly disappear in his life, he knew from the very beginning that this person had this kind of "killing" calculation in his heart.Wang Zi took all kinds of snacks that Wei Chen brought, and asked him with a look of surprise: "Brother Yu went to teach, didn't he tell you? Did you quarrel?".

Wei Chen forgot how he answered Wang Zi at that time, so he took a taxi back to his school in a daze.He knows better than anyone how difficult it is to take that step during the holiday, and he doesn't want to go back more than anyone else.Although he knew in his heart that to Shen Yu, he was just an okay man who met the other party's standards, and he was no different from other okay men.Maybe there is still a little disadvantage, after all, my surname is Wei, which can be called a "disaster" in terms of feelings.And he was lucky enough to have more than friends with Shen Yu, it was only because Shen Yu happened to be single and interested in men, that's all.

Wei Chen knew that he couldn't make any vows to Shen Yu, and he didn't even put everything down to pursue the other party's qualifications. He felt that he was like a child in this relationship, and he wanted to give him a little bit of warmth that was different from others. .But after all, I am a person who is forced by my parents to go on a blind date, and even has a prospective girlfriend. Although I have no interest in that woman, I just do what my parents want me to do.Routine contacts, routine phone calls, and routine appointments, just like work, cannot give Wei Chen psychological and emotional comfort, so he selfishly yearns for gloomy love.He thoroughly understood what it means to know the taste of the marrow, and the disappearance of depression directly took away his interest in life.What the predecessors said is right, it is painful to never have it, but the feeling of losing it despite having it is worse than death.Sometimes a lot of dangerous thoughts pop up in his mind, how can he tie up the depression and trap him at home, force that person to only see himself, force him to only love himself.If possible, Wei Chen felt that he could really do such a thing, especially when he heard Wang Zi say that Shen Yu followed a group of people to a ghostly place where there was no signal to teach.

Although he knows that there is generally no danger in supporting education, he still can't help but think of bad weather, bad road conditions, and even any bad jokes from God.He was afraid, afraid that the depression would go away like this, afraid that the other party would disappear without a trace in his own world.For the first time, Wei Chen regretted his derailment and impulsiveness during the winter vacation. He said those words that only added to Depression's psychological burden, and he still entangled Depression endlessly with these messy relationships.If they were just friends, Shen Yu might discuss it with him, and he could blatantly care, and he could pretend to be mature and exhort.Wei Chen really disliked his own childishness, and lost contact with the crematorium because of his ambiguous flirtation.Although their relationship is unclear now, but in such a capacity, it is even more impossible to say those words of concern.Why is he?In what capacity?He couldn't give Shen Yu an identity, and it was impossible for Shen Yu to give it to him.Wei Chen was so uncomfortable with these emotions, he covered his face in his palm, thinking to himself, who can blame this, it's not self-inflicted.

The bus drove for too long and was too bumpy, and when he was depressed on the bus, he started to feel sick. He resisted the urge to vomit all the way, until the moment the bus stopped, he still felt his stomach heaving in the bumps, and he calmed down for a while It gradually eased down.Fortunately, the dinner prepared in the village was relatively light. Although Shen Yu was still struggling with his stomach, he ate a little politely.During this period, he felt that Zhang Qi had been watching him secretly, probably because his complexion was too bad.After dinner, Shen Yu greeted the people in the village and the alumni of the supporting education group, and hurried back to the room.As soon as he entered the room, before he even had time to see what the assigned bedroom looked like, he rushed to the toilet and vomited up all the food he ate.When he returned to the bed after rinsing his mouth and washing his face, the first thing that rushed into his nasal cavity was the musty smell that permeated the bed.Shen Yu rubbed his nose, didn't pay much attention to it, didn't take off his clothes, and fell asleep while lying on the bed wrapped in a quilt, so Zhang Qi knocked on the door hard but didn't wake him up.

Zhang Qi could tell that Shen Yu's expression was wrong in the car, and now he was even more worried about whether something happened to Shen Yu in the house.He stood in front of the bumpy wooden door, took out his mobile phone and called Shen Yu over and over again, even outside the door he could hear the vibrating sound of Shen Yu's mobile phone, but the people inside remained silent.Zhang Qi was really worried, so he briefly explained the situation to the villagers, and after getting permission, he kicked the door lock.These small bungalows should be built by the villagers themselves, and the so-called door locks are just small bolts.It is said that the villagers knew that the teaching support group was coming, and worried that the teachers in the city were more particular, so they drove the only grain truck in the village to buy bolts and locks in faraway counties.As soon as it was installed, Zhang Qi kicked the screw out of the wood, and fell to the ground in a mess. He looked at the villagers behind him embarrassedly.

"It's okay, Mr. Zhang, the lock is not broken but the screw is open. Later, if Mr. Shen needs it, we can install it again." Although the villagers were also anxious, they were still embarrassed to go in and look at Shen Yu, so they urged Zhang Qi hurried in to have a look.He cleared his throat: "Mr. Shen, I'm going in."Shen Yu wrapped himself in the quilt as if passed out, Zhang Qi approached, and was relieved only after confirming the sound of breathing.He reached out his hand to probe Shen Yu's head, and found that Shen Yu was running a fever, so he hurriedly asked the villagers waiting at the door for antipyretic medicine and water, then went to greet the alumni of the teaching support group, changed shifts with others, and relieved Shen Yu and My class was transferred to the day after tomorrow, and then I went back to the room and blocked the door with a chair.

Depressed and in a trance, he felt that someone was giving him medicine, and he didn't know if he called someone's name in a daze, and then fell asleep in a daze.Zhang Qi frowned. Although he guessed early on that the person in front of him must have someone, he still couldn't help but take a few more glances.Shen Yu's face was pale due to illness, and he was still frowning slightly when he fell asleep, lying quietly in this dilapidated room.He was like a prince who fell into this shabby room from nowhere, making Zhang Qi distracted.Immediately, sleepiness slowly surfaced, he sat on the ground without paying attention, and fell asleep lying on the side of the gloomy bed.