bad luck in love

Shen Yu was hurriedly dragged into the house by Qi Nianzhi all the way. Shen Yu opened his mouth to ask if there were any extra slippers at home, but was pushed to the wall by the door and blocked his lips with a kiss. He couldn't utter a single word. Both hands were plundering on him.On weekdays, depression is mostly indifferent and deserted, and others rarely see his emotions fluctuating due to external influences.Even when he was fighting, he couldn't tell if this person was angry or how angry. The most that could be read from his expression was impatience.Although the rumors of gloomy fights were all the rage in school, in fact he himself was seldom really angry because of his own affairs, let alone go to war with others.When fighting each other, it is basically the opponent who makes the first move.And what can really provoke anger and depression is mostly because of the things around people.

But now, even for Qi Nianzhi, he is very different.The current Shen Yu seems to be much more bullying than usual, his gestures are so disturbing, Qi Nianzhi put his hands on Shen Yu's side: "I can't hold back, you are too tempting".

Sullenly turned his head awkwardly, biting the lips that were reddened by Qi Nianzhi's kiss: "Maybe the dirty rain is too tempting, you ate it all in your mouth."It's okay when you're making out, but once your senses come back, you can't help being depressed and embarrassed.He couldn't imagine that one day he would be judged "seductive" by a man against the wall.

Qi Nianzhi originally wanted to let him take a bath first, but seeing his slightly reddened and watery eyes after being drenched in the rain, the conscience he had just grown was instantly wiped out.He stared at those eyes, and couldn't help kissing them, not letting go of the cheeks, the corners of the lips, the ears, and the neck.The discomfort and embarrassment that was just about to spread in Sullen's heart was suppressed by the other party's too scorching breath in an instant.He was so tortured by Qi Nianzhi that he couldn't bear it, so he had to raise his head slightly and breathe rapidly, his cool fingers slid over the hot skin on the other's waist, and landed where they shouldn't have landed.

The temperature of Shen Yu's skin made Qi Nianzhi feel comfortable, he took a deep breath, and gently bit Shen Yu's neck: "You are very courageous."The temperature on Shen Yu's body was too low, and he even suppressed the scorching heat that had risen up in his head just now, and he hugged Shen Yu: "Okay, don't bother. Your body is wet, if you sweat again, you should catch a cold .Will you take a shower first?"Even though he said that, he was reluctant to let go of the person in his arms. After all, Shen Yu was a fairly tall boy, and there was no way a princess would hug him, otherwise he really wanted to carry him directly to the bathroom.

Qi Nianzhi opened and closed the door with one hand. During the period, Shen Yu not only didn't help, but also took the opportunity to bite his Adam's apple, causing his blood to surge up, and he wished he could throw him on the bed.Seeing that he couldn't take it anymore, Qi Nianzhi was willing to push the depression away a little: "Do you take it off yourself or should I take it off for you?".

Shen Yu laughed particularly badly: "Don't bother the senior, I can do it myself."Qi Nianzhi dared to deliberately bully him, so naturally he is not a cheap lamp.

Shen Yu took off his sticky rain-stained clothes neatly and went to the shower, leaving Qi Nianzhi with a back view that makes people imagine: this person's hair is very black and soft, his complexion is fair, and his body is full of hair. The lines are straight and smooth.Qi Nianzhi thinks he has a higher eye for seeing people, but he is still unable to take his eyes off his gloomy figure.

When Qi Nianzhi passed by, Shen Yu had already adjusted the water temperature. He took a deep look at the other's pectoral and abdominal muscles, touched them all over with his hands, and complained that it was too disgusting when it was done.Qi Nianzhi smiled and made the shampoo into foam in the palm of his hand, rubbing it on Shen Yu's soft hair: "It hurts you, my fault, my fault."

Shen let out a depressed "tsk", and said dissatisfiedly: "Hey, I practiced hard and only got 6 yuan at most."

Qi Nianzhi didn't take it seriously: "Your body is still too thin, it's not easy to gain muscle, good-looking is enough."He conveniently adjusted the position of the shower, and pressed the gloomy head so that the water poured straight down from the top of the other's head.The sudden water forced Su Yu to close his eyes quickly to prevent the shampoo from flowing into his eyes, cursing the murderous man in front of him.

The corner of Qi Nianzhi's mouth curled up into a smile, seeing that the foam was almost flushed, he used some strength with one hand, and pressed Shen Yu against the glass door: "Don't move."The bathroom space is not big, and I want to push the person in front of me like a gloomy conditioned reflex, but I am worried that I can't control my strength and hurt the other person, so I have to be pressed against the glass door obediently and not move.

Seeing that the other party didn't intend to push him away, Qi Nianzhi smiled even wider, bowed his head and whispered in Shen Yu's ear, "Very good, very good."The water was still pouring down from the top of Su Yu's head, he was forced to have difficulty breathing, and opened his mouth involuntarily.Qi Nianzhi put his index finger into Shen Yu's mouth, gently teasing the other's tongue.He tilted his head and admired for a while the beauty who was trapped by him on the glass door and was struggling to breathe. Seeing that the skin under the pinned shoulders of the other party began to turn red, he raised his hand to change the position of the shower.

It took only a few seconds for Shen Yu to regain his breath as if he had been pardoned, Qi Nianzhi's aura enveloped him overwhelmingly, and as the two kissed harder, Shen Yu's whole body turned red.After a few minutes, he couldn't stand Qi Nianzhi's more and more excessive teasing, he couldn't breathe, so he had to lower his head to Qi Nianzhi's neck and gasped for breath.Shen Yu originally wanted to bite this person hard, but when he realized that he couldn't use much strength around him, he didn't bother to think so much, and let himself sink into the other person's arms.

Qi Nianzhi had had enough trouble, he lowered his head and saw a pair of fox-like eyes staring at him quietly, making him lose his mind for a moment, almost losing the initiative he had finally grasped: "Your eyes make me feel that you are giving I'm playing tricks."

Hearing what he said, Shen Yu lowered his head and smiled into his neck: "So, have you been hit?".

"What do you think?" Qi Nianzhi stared at the person "doing evil" in front of his eyes.

"You promised yourself"

"What did I promise?"

"Compromise once, have you forgotten? One time counts as one time, I'm not greedy." Shen Yu stretched out his hand and gestured with a 1: "Senior, those who know current affairs are outstanding."

Qi Nianzhi coughed wildly, remembering the sinkhole he dug for himself a few days ago: "Wait, wait, let's fight".

Shen Yu raised his eyebrows, as if threatening: "It's late, are you kidding me?".

Qi Nianzhi was completely helpless, what he said, he had to swallow blood in his stomach.Fortunately, he has done a lot of ideological work for himself, thinking that since the other party is depressed, it doesn't seem to be a big deal to indulge him once. "I didn't trick you." As soon as Qi Nianzhi finished speaking, the two fell silent again. After 1 minute, he completely fell in love with the gloomy eyes: "All right, all right, I promise, you can do whatever you want."

On this day, both of them made compromises and concessions for each other. For Shen Yu and Qi Nianzhi, the two steadfast No. [-]s, the sacrifice was too great.The state after that day allowed them to deeply understand the meaning of the word "battle damage" from body to mind.Shen Yu turned over and looked into Qi Nianzhi's eyes: "You said I was your first love? Why don't I believe it."

"I've met such a gloomy person before, what is it if it's not first love?" Qi Nianzhi stretched out his hand and pulled him into his arms: "To be honest, I only gradually understood this kind of me after I was with you." .

During the whole month of summer vacation, apart from occasionally calling Chen Lu, Zhang Yang, and Wei Chen to play ball or have dinner together, Shen Yu and Qi Nianzhi just raced against each other, as if they were racing against time.With getting along more and more frequently and getting to know him better, Qi Nianzhi discovered that Shen Yu doesn't confide in him, or that this person doesn't confide in anyone at all.Depression almost indulged everything about him, but suppressed everything about himself.Just like what he felt when he was in school, this person never seemed to have any negative emotions in front of him, as long as he said something, it must be a good thing, and the last thing was irrelevant.Qi Nianzhi sighed in his heart, this is not yet a long-distance relationship, a certain person has already reported good news but not bad news, is it because he is too untrustworthy?

Sometimes, Qi Nianzhi would turn a corner at Chen Lu or Wang Mofan to inquire about depression.But when Shen Yu faced his problem, his rhetoric was basically "it's not a big deal, it will be fine after a while" or "it's useless to tell you, it will only annoy you too".Qi Nianzhi didn't know if Shen Yu was like this because he cherished him too much, or because he was unwilling to give his heart to him after all?But what he was sure of was that no matter how depressed and sad he was, he would never say "no" to him.

I remember that before the college entrance examination, I was in a very bad mood for a while. When I was by his side, I could naturally feel his tension and worry.That was the only time in Qi Nianzhi's memory that he truly felt the other party's negative emotions.From panic about the separation that is not long in the future, to worry about a future that is out of control.

For a child like Shen Yu who is born with ease, there are not many situations out of control.Faced with such a situation, he would be even more at a loss and uneasy, and Qi Nianzhi understood that feeling.Before he encountered depression, he didn't understand the emotion of "caring".In fact, "caring" means that even if this person is in front of my eyes every day, as long as I feel the other person's uneasiness, I will worry about it.This feeling has nothing to do with distance and time, but only with love and possession.

Except for that time, Shen Yu has never expressed that kind of anxiety to Qi Nianzhi, the kind of anxiety that needs to be plundered and possessed by the other party to be filled.It seems that only in that way can I prove that my relationship with the other party is different from other people in this world.He didn't know whether he had figured out the depression, or if he had concealed it better. Those emotions seemed to have evaporated in the summer.Until one day during the summer vacation, Qi Nianzhi suddenly had the idea of ​​torturing the other party, wanting to hear him say no, wanting to hear him refuse, and wanting him to pour out all the bitterness that he has endured.That day, Qi Nianzhi bullied Shen Yu ruthlessly, but Shen Yu gritted his teeth from beginning to end, endured the pain until his eyes turned red, and still didn't say a word "no".

It was only then that Qi Nianzhi realized that his own existence was the source of the other person's sense of security, no matter whether it was love, pain or scars, as long as it was given by him, Depression would feel safe and even happy.But if one day, the distance destroys this sense of security, will it be possible for the melancholy at that time, the self who cannot stay by his side, the self who cannot give him love and pain, and the self who cannot leave evidence of existence by his side Is it the same as not existing?Qi Nianzhi was very afraid, afraid that if he carried on these unhuman thoughts in a gloomy manner, one day, he would disappear.