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Recently, Nanxi is very strange, I can't explain it, it's not different from usual when you look carefully, but it just feels different, and he doesn't say anything when you ask him, he can only pretend that it's okay.

Since entering the third year of high school, the few people in the dormitory seldom eat in the cafeteria. Most of the time they buy back to the dormitory and eat together. The division of labor and cooperation can save some time.A few people sat around two tables, each of them was eating with a small box of lunch, looked at each other from time to time, and then looked at Nan Yi who was dragging his chin in a daze, Wu Tong bumped Xi Yu with his elbow, he understood He called out to Nanqin and asked, "Why don't you eat?"

Nan Yi came back to his senses, picked up his chopsticks, mixed the rice in the bibimbap box, and was stunned again.Ever since the meal that day, Nan Yi has been thinking about a question: whether to confront his parents or not.Although Su Zhen said that he was not in a hurry at this moment, he still couldn't help thinking about these issues.Namjoon suddenly sighed and rubbed his temples.

My head hurts, when can I stop thinking about these troublesome things.Nan Yi thought about it and lay on his lap, burying his face in the crook of his arms.

Seeing his sudden depression, Liu Qinghua asked worriedly: "A'nan, are you okay?" The other party didn't respond, so he went over and patted Nan's shoulder, and asked again: "What's the matter, are you uncomfortable?"

"Where's Susu?" Nan Yu asked abruptly.

"Here." Su Zhen's voice came from behind him, he put down the thermos, came over and squatted in front of Nan Mo, and asked, "What's the matter?" Nan Mo raised his head a little, rubbed against him, Su Zhen took advantage of the situation to help him stand up, and said to several people: "I'll take him to the infirmary, Qing Hua, you can tell him when the teacher comes later."

Liu Qinghua nodded, and Su Zhen dragged Nan Mo out.

Taking his temperature in the infirmary, it was determined that Nan Mo had a fever. After taking the medicine, Su Zhen brought him back; when he arrived in front of the dormitory, Nan Mo stopped suddenly and grabbed Su Zhen's clothes in a daze. corner, said: "I don't want to go back to the dormitory."

Su Zhen looked at him and said softly, "Wait here, I'll go up." Then he entered the dormitory.

Five minutes later, Su Zhen came down and took two commuter certificates, so the two successfully left the school under the pretext of seeing a doctor; Su Zhen found a room in the nearest hotel and took Nan Mo up. , as soon as he entered the room, Nan Yi lay on the bed, frowning and looking a little uncomfortable, Su Zhen helped him cover the quilt, touched his head, and said in his ear: "Go to sleep first, I will Ask Qinghua to ask for leave for you."

Nan Yi let out a dazed "um", wondering if it was because of the effect of the medicine, he soon fell asleep.

When he opened his eyes again, Nan Mo saw the fiery red sunset outside the window, and then saw Su Zhen standing by the bed, on the phone; Nan Mo opened his mouth, but there was no sound for a while, he cleared his throat, Then he called out hoarsely: "Susu."

Hearing the sound, Su Zhen immediately hung up the phone, walked over to help him up, fed him some water, and then tried his temperature again - it dropped a little, but it hadn't completely subsided yet.

After drinking some water, Nan Yu felt that his throat was much better. He moved back, leaned against the head of the bed, and asked, "Who are you calling?"

"My cousin, I told you before." Su Zhen replied.He went to the bed and said, "Are you hungry, let me order something to eat."

Nan Yi nodded, and Su Zhen went to call room service.After a while, she came back and sat aside, looked at Nan Yi, touched his hair for a while, and rubbed his cheeks for a while, which made Nan Yi very embarrassed. It felt like he was petting a kitten.

"Do you want to see my sister?" Su Zhen asked suddenly.

"Why?" Namjoon tilted his head with a puzzled expression on his face.

"She wants to see you." Su Zhen replied, and then talked about his sister to himself.

"I used to be with her when I was young. Later, her family immigrated to the United States and took refuge in capitalism. I just came back this year. I haven't seen her for a long time. I almost didn't recognize her when I saw her that day. However, although her appearance has changed, His personality has not changed, how should I put it...very lively, in short, he is a good person."

Nan Mo thought for a while, and then asked, "Can your family accept this? I mean... homosexuality."

At this time, there was a knock on the door, and Su Zhen went to the door to bring some food, put it on the table, and replied: "You also know about my dad, they naturally couldn't accept it at first, but they gradually got used to it." .” Said, filled a bowl of porridge for Nan Yu, and handed it to him.Nan Yi took it, sipped it, and fell into a long silence.

While Nan Mo was drinking porridge, Su Zhen said again: "Recently, have you been too tired?" I am already tired enough, if I fall ill like this again, it will not be worth the loss."

Nan Mo lowered his head and still didn't speak, Su Zhen sighed, lifted his face forcefully, and said seriously: "Don't think I'm hitting you again, I want to tell you, even my family members may not Accept you, just like your parents choose a girlfriend for you, will they readily recognize the daughter-in-law you suddenly brought home?"

"But I'm not your girlfriend." Nan Yu said a little aggrieved.

You are wronged!Su Zhen roared in her heart, but she still remained calm on the surface, and replied with a smile: "This is not a question of boyfriend and girlfriend, my point is that even if my family can accept homosexuality, it doesn't mean they can accept you. "

Nan Yu was silent for a long time to digest this sentence, then he raised his head, with a strange light shining in a pair of dark eyes, he said: "Are you trying to say that it is impossible for us to be together?"

"No," Su Zhen denied, "I want to say that the road ahead may be difficult, so we have to go on together instead of fighting alone. If you are eager for success, you may not get the result you want .”

His meaning has been very clear, that is, not to let Nan Yi confess to his parents about the two of them; this is a kind of escape, but at present, it is also a kind of necessity.So Nan Yi compromised. For now, he can only compromise. In fact, he is very afraid of confessing this matter to his parents, but in his heart he urgently hopes that they can get the approval of their family members instead of such a sneaky relationship; now Fortunately, it was high school after all, not the period of dating. He could still convince himself with the excuse of study and school rules, but what about after graduation?That was the period of free love, but they still can only act like thieves.This kind of love is too aggrieved to talk about.

Seeing that the bowl in Nan's hand was empty, Su Zhen poured some more for him, reached out and rubbed his hair, and comforted him: "Okay, don't think too much, you are stupid and still think about this and that all day long, you At this stage, all the brains are used to think about learning."

"No." Nan Yu resolutely refused, he put his palm on the back of Su Zhen's hand, and whispered: "I still have to miss you."

Su Zhen chuckled lightly, hugged him in her arms, and thought to herself, is this really your first time in love?How can you be so seductive.

During the evening self-study, the two went back to class as if nothing happened. Xi Yu tried to find out the details from Nan Yu, but was slapped back by Su Zhen, so he had to give up.

As in previous years, the first snow of this year came at the beginning of January. However, for senior high school students, it is meaningless to add clothes when the weather gets colder. Besides, senior high school personnel in the snow sweeping brigade were also expelled this year. Now I really can only hope for the snow test.

The third year of senior high school is quite an exciting stage, especially the academic performance. A single subject becomes comprehensive. Some people's grades go up immediately, while others' grades plummet. So it doesn't matter what you did in the previous exams, the key is to see how you performed in the college entrance examination. .As for Nan Yi, he probably belongs to the kind of person who has steadily improved and then stabilized. He scored fifth in the final exam for the first time, which shocked the teacher. This result is worthy of his hard study, at least this year. Have a good year at home.

I packed my luggage and got on the car home. Thinking about how fast the past six months have passed, I looked back and felt as if I had just stepped into the first year of high school, but the college entrance examination was about to take place in the blink of an eye.This winter vacation is the beginning of the first year of high school and the end of the third year of high school.

Back home, Nan Yi was almost frightened by the scene at home.The dining table was full of dishes, his father was still sitting there reading the newspaper, his mother was still busy in the kitchen, when he heard the door open, he came out to greet Nan Yi to wash his hands and eat.

It seems that they already know their achievements.With that in mind, Nan Mo put down her luggage and went to the bathroom to wash her hands.At the dinner table, his mother rarely enthusiastically brought food to him, and talked to him about school affairs. The most important thing was to maintain the current grades, and it would be better to improve.

Regarding this change in attitude, Nan Yi has mixed feelings. He is happy because his parents recognized his efforts, but worried because the recognition is based on his grades. This time he passed the exam. What about next time?If it regresses, does it mean that this recognition no longer exists?

After the meal, it was the first time that Nan Mo didn't clean up the table or wash the dishes, but went back to the room directly. He thought, let's take a rest on the first day of the holiday, so he took out his mobile phone, and there was a message from Su Zhenfa come——

have you eaten?

The corners of Nan's mouth raised unconsciously, and he sat cross-legged on the bed to call Su Zhen, rang a few times, and was connected.

"Hello, are you done eating?" Su Zhen asked, he could hear obvious wind, probably in the street.

Nan Yi responded, and asked, "What are you doing?"

"Me, take a walk." Su Zhen replied, he breathed out, not sure if he was warming his hands or smoking.

The two held the phone in silence for a while, and Su Zhen suddenly said, "Come to the window." Nan Mo obediently ran to the bed and looked downstairs.

This is the third floor, and the scene downstairs can still be seen very clearly. Nan Yi first saw a little red fire light downstairs, and then that red light fell to the ground, and the light from the mobile phone screen illuminated the people downstairs. The face is Su Zhen.Nan Mo suddenly became happy, and asked from the phone: "Why are you here?"

"My dad was eating with friends nearby. After I finished eating, I came out for a stroll, so I came to see you." Su Zhen replied, and took out another cigarette from the cigarette case to light it. His face was clouded by the smoke, Under the light of the mobile phone, even the fine particles in the air can be seen clearly.

"Does your dad know you smoke?" Nan Mo suddenly asked, there was no sound from the phone for a long time, just when Nan Mo wanted to confirm whether the other party hung up the phone, someone said: "You don't know how to make small reports, do you? "

Nan Qi burst out laughing, in some respects, Su Zhen was unexpectedly cute; he snickered for a while, then suppressed his smile, and asked, "Do you want me to go down?"

"No need, it's too cold, I'll leave right away." Su Zhen waved to him from downstairs and said, "Hang up, I'm leaving."

"Okay, bye." Nan Yi put away his phone, lay down in front of the window and looked downstairs.

The night was very dark, and the street lights in the community had been damaged for a long time and no one had repaired them. Nan Yi could only see a vague figure walking towards the distance, which was especially obvious in the dark night with only the little fire.Nan Yi sat down, turned his head and looked outside the door...

In the end, do you want to talk about it?