Reverse Approach

【39】

Liao Nanqing woke up from the bed in the apartment in City B. He seemed to have had a dream.

In the dream, Grandma Su was ill, so he went back to visit and kissed Su Beimo at the hospital gate.Then Su-kyung discovers their relationship that they can't tell.The sound of footsteps lingered in the wind, and Liao Nanqing walked away step by step.In the dream, he broke out in cold sweat, soaking his clothes, just like now, the collar of his pajamas is also wet.He was sweating profusely, his hands and feet were so cold that they stinged, and they were as dense as ants gnawed.

At twelve o'clock in the morning, it coincided with midnight dreaming.

Liao Nanqing fumbled to turn on the light, but the room was empty.The invisible loneliness wrapped him, drowning and suffocating him in the deep water.Regardless of the cold, Liao Nanqing walked out of the room barefoot and stubbornly opened any door.

"Su Beimo!"

Su Beimo, where are you?

"Su Beimo! Su Beimo!" He frantically searched every corner of the apartment, and finally found to his horror that Su Beimo was not in the apartment at all.

Liao Nanqing suddenly sat down on the temperatureless floor, hugged his knees, and clenched his teeth.How he wished this was a dream within a dream, and when he woke up, he would be as warm as before.

But no matter what, the slow thorns of winter pierced his consciousness and told him abruptly: it was not a dream, and all of this was not a dream.They really happened, on a night in late November, towards the first day of December.

Liao Nanqing buried his head in tears, hoarse as before, but no tears could be pumped from his dry eye sockets.

For two whole days and nights, there was no sound.

That night, Su Jing's angry face blocked all the way for Liao Nanqing.Su Jing hit Su Beimo, and that fist took most of his strength.Under the faint street light, Su Beimo's face was clearly red and swollen, and there was a mouthful of blood foam in his mouth, which he swallowed without hesitation.

Liao Nanqing immediately stood in front of Su Beimo. He subconsciously wanted to protect Su Beimo.As everyone knows, the source of this injury is him.

Su Jing was so angry that he raised his hand suddenly, and stopped in mid-air with a slap, he didn't slap it down.His eyes were extremely red, and the creases at the corners of his eyes seemed to be filled with tears, with distinct gullies, frozen into frost.The way he looked at Liao Nanqing was not as kind as before, it became an abyss.It was the black hole of indifference and prejudice that Liao Nanqing was familiar with.

It seems to be questioning Liao Nanqing: why?

With a harsh voice, Liao Nanqing who asked the question felt frightened and chilled, and fell into hell in the next second.

Taking advantage of the moment when they were silent with each other, Su Beimo took the opportunity to stop Su Jing.Although the surface is calm, Su Beimo knows in his heart that he is now facing a panic that he has never experienced in his life. Even the voice of his speech is trembling, like an uneven line, twisting and falling in the middle of the night In the silence: "Dad, let's talk."

"..."

Su Jing stared at Liao Nanqing steadfastly, but he didn't make a move or scold him.Just staring at him so hard, countless why pierced Liao Nanqing's heart from his eyes, which was a deeper reproach.What followed were tears of disbelief. Su Jing's eyes were red, and he finally looked away and wiped the corners of his eyes stubbornly.

He took a deep breath and took a step back.The tall figure in the past has grown old, and time has weakened Su Jing's endurance, and he can hardly stand up.

"Dad, let's talk." Su Beimo said again, with an urgent pleading tone.

Su Jing didn't refuse, turned sideways, still stepping on the scarf with one foot: "Let him go first."

Liao Nanqing opened his mouth, but couldn't utter any syllables. The wind from his neck pierced into his body, hollowing out his hot blood.He felt worse than being beaten. His body was so numb that he couldn't move a step.The cold wind at night made his cheeks cold, but his lips were warm. Unfortunately, this temperature was still not enough for him to utter a word.

He lost his strength and was terrified.

But he was actually not afraid of anything. The only thing he was afraid of was the disappointment of the Su family, and he was even more afraid that Su Beimo would leave him because of this.

"Nanqing, you go home first." Seeing the taxi arrived, Su Beimo gritted his teeth and pushed him into the car regardless of Liao Nanqing's expression, and reported the address of Liao Nanqing's home to the driver.Afterwards, Su Beimo lowered his head slightly, "Go home and wait for my news." He stretched out his hand stiffly to stroke Liao Nanqing's head, and then closed the car door.

Liao Nanqing came to his senses and wanted to open the door, but the car door was pushed by Su Beimo and couldn't be opened.The driver looked at the distraught Liao Nanqing hesitantly, and asked, "Did you drive?"

"No, no!" Liao Nanqing cried and patted the car door from the inside, "I want to get out of the car!"

Su Beimo clenched his fist and let go. Liao Nanqing opened the car door. Before he could take a step, his shoulder was held down.Su Beimo's eyes were cold, filled with countless stars, far away and invisible, submerged in darkness, there are no stars tonight.

"Nan Qing, be obedient."

"Su Beimo, don't want me..." He blurted out, almost begging, countless fears filled his brain and filled every inch of his breath.He couldn't say anything, except for this sentence, which was clearly pronounced.

Only after losing the warmth of a family can one know how important a family is. Will Su Beimo choose him or the Su family.Liao Nanqing didn't know, didn't dare to think, but didn't dare to be selfish.

The Su family treated him so kindly, it was them who together changed his gloomy life of low self-esteem like an ant.Just like the light will permeate any corner, Liao Nanqing is the one who is lucky to be pitied.He should be grateful to Dade, but at this moment, he humbly hopes that Su Beimo will not abandon him.

Su Beimo saw the deepest fear in Liao Nanqing's eyes.

The driver urged impatiently and inappropriately: "Let's go?"

Su Beimo nodded: "Let's go." At the end, he wiped Liao Nanqing's cheeks with the back of his hand, his tears lost their warmth, but his tone was as gentle as ever, "Don't be afraid, go home and wait for my news." After a pause, he With a wry smile, he said in a hoarse voice, "Trust me a little more, okay?"

"Su Beimo..."

Liao Nanqing tried to beg Su Beimo to let him stay, but Su Beimo's gaze became very calm and he could not be violated.He had never seen Su Beimo so serious in front of him, everything was bad tonight.

Therefore, Liao Nanqing compromised Su Beimo's decision helplessly and left alone.

It's probably about to enter winter, and the wind is like a knife scraping people.Autumn is really short, it is fleeting, nothing can stay, even the fallen leaves are cleaned by the cleaners.As usual, there are almost no people in the hospitals in small cities at this point.

Su Beimo was more than 1.8 meters tall, standing in place like a telegraph pole.Su Jing is much shorter than him, in fact, he was not so much shorter before, but in the past few years, he has grown farther and farther away from him.

Su Beimo stood in front of Su Jing and called him respectfully, "Dad."

Su Jing shook his teeth, wiped his face vigorously, but couldn't lift his feet when he wanted to leave.He was frozen in place, his heart was pinched tightly, the pain spread, and came one after another, he could only raise his eyes and ask coldly: "Who started first?"

"It's me." Su Beimo didn't deny it, and said frankly, "I liked him first."

Su Jing slapped him again, in the same place.Su Beimo's left cheek seemed to be numb, and he couldn't feel any pain.It's just that the ears trembled slightly, and there was tinnitus in an instant.Su Jing seldom beat him since he was a child. The last time he was beaten was when he was in elementary school. He broke a neighbor's flower pot and refused to admit his mistake.That time, Su Jing slapped him a few times, and asked him with a straight face if he still dared?

The beating didn't hurt, but Su Beimo remembered that his answer back then was that he didn't dare, and he wouldn't dare again.

But now, there is nothing to dare or not. He has grown up and has his own choice and awareness of right and wrong.

Slowly, he heard a cry in Su Jing's voice, so slight that it was not so strong.

Su Jing said, "Are you human?"

It turned out that Su Jing had already put all the blame on him in just a few minutes.This is just right, lest Liao Nanqing be accused.Su Beimo still didn't deny it, his face was extremely serious, and he wasn't joking right now.

The tall figure stood in the cold wind, Su Beimo's hair was blown messy, and the corner of his eye was missing one side of the light.

"Dad, I'm serious." He pretended to be calm, and his tone was firm in every sentence, "I want to be with Nan Qing. I will tell you about this sooner or later, even if it's not today, it will be tomorrow, or One day in the future. I want to be with him seriously and live a lifetime. I know it’s not easy, but no matter how difficult it is, I choose my own path and walk on it myself.”

There was a wind passing through the gap between the two, and there was a dead silence. It turns out that no sound is so terrible.

Liao Nanqing hadn't seen Su Beimo since that night.

Except the next day, he received a message from Su Beimo telling him to go back to City B first.Other than that, there is no connection at all.

Liao Nanqing didn't want to go back alone at first, he was so worried about Su Beimo that he didn't close his eyes all night.It's just that no matter whether he went to the hospital or to Su Beimo's house, he couldn't meet Su Beimo as he wished.

Even at the door of the hospital ward, he was stopped by Su Ya.

"Your Uncle Su called me to the hospital to replace him last night as if he had eaten gunpowder, and Beimo didn't know where he went." Su Ya didn't know yet, and she felt distressed when she saw the haggard Liao Nanqing, "What's the matter? Sleep well? Hey, it hurts to see a grandma like you, go back and rest, I'm here. Your grandma Su is really fine, so don't worry too much. "

Liao Nanqing was at a loss when he was coaxed by Su Ya's gentle voice. There was a time when his mother was so gentle.Su Ya gave him too many good impressions, like a temporary mother role.But if Su Ya knew about his relationship with Su Beimo, would she be as disappointed and determined as Su Jing was last night.

Nine years ago, he ruined the peace of the Liao family.

Nine years later, he ruined the peace of the Su family.

Liao Nanqing didn't dare to think about it, subconsciously he began to escape.But when he opened his eyes, tears fell.He had no choice but to shed tears and didn't know what to do.

Hesitation overwhelmed him.

Su Ya was frightened by him, and hurriedly wiped Liao Nanqing's tears with a tissue.Liao Nanqing pushed her hand away and took two steps back in confusion.Su Ya called him, but he was terrified and trembling violently.Liao Nanqing wiped away his tears indiscriminately, facing Su Ya for a long time without calming down his emotions.

"Aunt Su, I'm sorry."

After a while, he turned around and left without stopping, bought a ticket and returned to City B without stopping.He should trust Su Beimo, since he said to let him go back to City B first, it will definitely be resolved.He wanted to wait for Su Beimo in the apartment, even if he dreamed back in the middle of the night, he would always be awake until dawn, until he lost his mind.

The morning sun fell, and thousands of lights lifted the velvet of the night.

Liao Nanqing sat on the ground in a daze, unable to cry, he started to get up.She had to go to school, Lin Quan's bakery had to help out, and Ge Yun's foot injury had to be visited.He had a lot of things to do, but in the end, before Su Beimo got any news, all of them were cancelled.

He couldn't do a single thing, his mind stopped like a clock with its batteries removed, his tail wouldn't move.

The weather was getting colder, and Liao Nanqing couldn't help making countless calls to Su Beimo.If Su Beimo continues to have no news, he will return to the town again today and take the initiative to stand in front of Su Jing.

However, being as considerate as Su Jing gave him this opportunity first.

The doorbell outside the apartment rang, and Liao Nanqing heard Su Beimo's footsteps in a daze, and went to open the door without wearing slippers.A sentence was stuck in the throat, without a single syllable, it was cut off alive.

Su Jing stood outside the door with a tired face: "Nan Qing, let's talk."

"Uncle Su." Liao Nanqing shouted, there was no hope in his empty eyes, he turned sideways, rubbed his eyes, like a child who made a mistake.Su Jing, who watched the movement, pursed his lips, unable to say a single harsh word.Su Jing took a deep breath and walked into the room.

The door closed automatically, Liao Nanqing followed behind Su Jing in a daze, forgot to make tea and water, and said dully, "Uncle Su, where is Su Beimo?"

"Sit down." Su Jing didn't answer, and dragged a chair away.

"Su Beimo, where is it? Uncle Su, Su Beimo..." Liao Nanqing was in a hurry, unable to speak, "You put him..."

Su Jing interrupted him: "He's at home, Su Ya is with him. I'm his father, I won't harm him."

Liao Nanqing felt a 'thud' in his heart, now even Su Ya knew that she must loathe herself extremely and regretted the warmth she had given to herself.If possible, the members of the Su family should want to take it all back at this moment, and don't want to give him a single cent.So, when everyone is against it, will Su Beimo compromise?

Countless uneasy questions in my heart surged up again like a tide, scrambling to surface, naked they turned into extravagance and greed, peeled off the fish scales and exposed to the sun, shameful.

"I apologize to you on Beimo's behalf. It was his selfishness and immaturity that led you astray."

Su Jing came prepared: "To express my apologies, I want to send you to study abroad after a while. I will bear all the expenses until you graduate."

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Direct spoiler: going abroad will definitely not go abroad, but Hai Xing wants to ask for a wave.

Starfish send me, send me, send me, continue to update tomorrow, okay?In the next chapter, Su Beimo will be back.