I'm not the bunny monster you think

In July of this year, the two film crews started shooting at the same time, and the filming location was in the same film and television city, which gave them a sense of being in a ring.

It was at this time that Shen Feng saw Yuan Feibai again.

The hero and heroine are acting in front of the camera, and Yuan Feibai is standing on the sidelines waiting, his eyes are a little straight, and he is muttering something, which should be lines.

I don't know if it's because of the makeup, but Yuan Feibai's condition looks better than last time, at least there is no faint sense of mania in his eyes.

But Shen Feng didn't wait to breathe a sigh of relief. The male and female leading actors came down, and Yuan Feibai and the female supporting role were replaced. He found that the assistant was standing opposite Yuan Feibai holding a whiteboard.

In front of the camera, the supporting actress looked at Yuan Feibai tearfully, "I'm pregnant."

Yuan Feibai flicked his nails nonchalantly, "Then... give birth to it."

Shen Feng noticed that Yuan Feibai paused after the word "it", and didn't look at the assistant, but it was obviously incoherent.

Small production movies are also movies, and the shooting requirements are still higher than ordinary TV dramas. It is impossible for the director not to notice this, so he quickly shouted: "Do it again."

The assistant went up to say a few words, Shen Feng heard it, and asked Yuan Feibai to read his prompt board, "...at least we didn't read one, two, three, four, did we?"

Yuan Feibai's expression was a bit ugly, but he still nodded.

However, even after reading the teleprompter, Yuan Feibai still stuttered in the next few lines of the scene, and the director's eyebrows almost knit together.

What Shen Feng cared most about was the whispering of the staff next to him.

"Is this the line skills from a professional background?"

"Don't say that, I was in a play with him before, and he really didn't have any script skills at that time. This time, I heard that he was scolded by black fans on the Internet..." The man pointed to his head, "There's a problem here."

Just at this time, Xiao Fang came over and said that it was Shen Feng's turn to play the part of the crew.

Shen Feng took a deep breath, and finally glanced at the teleprompter in the assistant's hand, feeling a little confused in his mind.

That night, by accident, Shen Feng suddenly remembered to log in to Zha Lang's account to see the records of the fights between the fans on both sides.

Shen Feng starred in the second male lead of the TV series "Dawn", while Yuan Feibai acted as the male supporting role in the movie "Mountain and River".

Fei Fan and Tu Fan on the Internet started arguing about whose idol had better acting skills, but this time the person being ridiculed became Yuan Feibai.

"Who was it before that our brother Xiaofeng robbed him of the role? He couldn't match the strength of the protagonist in this small production. Cheng Yusheng is responsible for not using him!"

The fans scratched and tore each other's painful feet, which logically wouldn't affect anything, but Shen Feng only felt shocking when he saw it.

He couldn't help but think of Yuan Feibai's suppressed manic voice more than a month ago: "Trazodone."

"Brother Fei, you haven't eaten since morning, you took this medicine..."

"What nonsense? Give it to me!"

These few words echoed in his ears over and over again, mixed with the belittling and ridicule of his fans without profanity, in the middle of the night, they kept pulling his nerves.

That night, Shen Feng suffered from insomnia, and this time it wasn't even because Ye Zhen wasn't around.

In the middle of the night, he finally fell asleep in a daze. When he woke up the next day, he felt like his chest was stuffed with wet cotton, and he felt labored to breathe.

But even so, this morning, he still appeared on the set in good spirits, greeting everyone with a smile.

The dimpled depression on his right cheek was flawless, so that Xiao Fang didn't notice the abnormality, and told him about Yuan Feibai with a smile: "In the past few days since the start, he is the most NG in their crew. Still In my opinion, the previous reports about his good acting skills were all drafts they bought themselves..."

Shen Feng looked away, interrupted him with a smile, and asked, "Then who? I'm still waiting for him to talk to me."

Hearing this, Xiao Fang looked at Shen Feng with some surprise, "He has something to do at home, you gave him two days off."

Shen Feng paused, then patted his head pretending to be annoyed, "I couldn't sleep last night, I forgot, then you can go over my lines with me."

That night, he still suffered from insomnia, until the light appeared in the sky, Shen Feng couldn't fall asleep, so he simply sat up and dug out several TV series that Yuan Feibai starred in.

One episode, two episodes...

One, two...

Shen Feng stayed up all night, watched all the cuts in Yuan Feibai's play, and then lay back on the bed and closed his eyes to rest for a while.

It is the most intuitive feeling that the patriarch enjoys the meal.

Yuan Feibai is indeed worthy of the praise of the outside world. He was not selected for the rookie award at the time, because he was unlucky and ran into a stronger opponent.

But now, he couldn't even utter a coherent line.

Maybe it was because he didn't sleep all night, Shen Feng felt his head suddenly throbbing with pain.

He began to uncontrollably recall the scene of the previous day over and over again: Yuan Feibai's unnatural pause, the prompt board full of lines, the director's dissatisfied expression, the staff's doubts...

This feeling is actually very strange.

Apart from being artists who follow the same route, Yuan Feibai has nothing to do with him. Why should he care so much about the other party's affairs?

Yes, his fans said that Yuan Feibai's acting skills were not as good as his, which gave the black fans the opportunity to attack Yuan Feibai, which caused him psychological problems and even began to affect his memory.

But is it all Shen Feng's fault?

No.

As director Chen said, all of this was provoked by Yuan Feibai himself.

If he didn't want to use Shen Feng as a stepping stone, if after Shen Feng won the award, he didn't try to steal Shen Feng's resources several times, he wouldn't toss himself to this point.

This is because Yuan Feibai has trouble with himself.

Is that the fault of Shen Feng fans?

Nor is it.

There is no true fan who will not have true feelings for their idol. Yuan Feibai provoked first, and they just fought back for their idol. If they were fans of other people, they would find the other party's shortcomings, and their words would only be more vicious than theirs. Hundred times.

Shen Feng's fans are soft-tempered enough, now in Huaguo's fan circle, how can there be such fans who can't swear?

Taking a ten thousand step back, when Yuan Feibai provoked, he should have thought that he would have today's result.

Shen Feng actually understands these reasons, but he doesn't know what's wrong with him, as if he has been bewitched, he always unconsciously pays attention to Yuan Feibai's affairs.

Shen Feng knew that something was wrong with his current situation, but he didn't intend to let others know.

Too much trouble for them, he thought.

If something big happened on his side, Xiao Fang had to tell Ye Zhen. When Ye Zhen was busy with work, he was distracted and worried about him. How troublesome.

It must be because Yuan Feibai is on the same path as him that he pays attention to him unconsciously... What is this called?

retinal effect.

Yes, just the retinal effect...

Thinking of this, Shen Feng finally fell asleep for a while, but before he fell asleep, he suddenly heard two sounds of 'duk tuk', which made his heart beat suddenly faster.

"Who!"

Outside the door was Xiao Fang who came to wake him up: "Brother Xiaofeng, are you awake?"

Shen Feng's forehead was covered in cold sweat, he took a few quick breaths before swallowing, and said as calmly as possible: "Wake up, wait a while."

--

In the second half of this year, Shen Feng was extremely busy.

The filming of "Dawn" started in July. As the second male lead, his role in the role was much heavier than before, and the requirements were stricter.

In August, during the pre-promotion of "Passerby", he spent almost half a month traveling between the film crew and various cities, flying back and forth by plane every day.

In September, "Passerby" was officially released, and there were premieres in several major cities, followed by countless promotional activities and road shows.

For three whole months, Shen Feng did not fall asleep before three o'clock in the morning.

But fortunately, he fell asleep late, and his insomnia symptoms seemed to have disappeared. He went back to the hotel every day and fell asleep on the bed, and he no longer thought about Yuan Feibai.

It's just that even Shen Feng himself didn't realize that there seemed to be a problem with his lines.

In the beginning, it was just an occasional stuttering and forgetting words, because that period happened to be the promotional period of the movie, Shen Feng and the director didn't take it to heart, they just thought it was too tiring to catch up with the schedule, and reshooting a few times was enough.

However, at the end of October, after the publicity period ended, Shen Feng stood in front of the camera again, only to find that the lines he had just memorized had become fragmented.

He bite the bullet and read his lines: "Sometimes... I feel that I'm going to... carry it, I can't hold it... maybe..."

"Crack!" the director yelled to stop, but didn't say anything to him, "Take a break for 10 minutes, and I'll repeat this part later."

Shen Feng's face suddenly changed.

Xiao Fang quickly came up with water, and comforted in a low voice: "The director knows you are busy these days and don't have time to memorize lines, so it's okay..."

Shen Feng pursed his lips and remained silent for a while, before he finally smiled, "I know. Give me the lines, and buy some cakes at noon, and I'll invite you for today's dessert."

"okay!"

After Xiao Fang left, Shen Feng's fingers holding the script book tightened violently, feeling terrified in his heart.

He didn't dare to tell Xiao Fang that he recited his lines very seriously last night.

Looking back from Xiaofang's back, Shen Feng suddenly caught a glimpse of two staff members looking at him, and one of them nodded his head.

Seeing him looking over, the staff froze for a moment, smiled at him, and mouthed: "Come on!"

Forgot words, NG, comfort, pointing...

There was a "boom" in Shen Feng's head, as if hit by a heavy hammer, the scene in front of him changed completely.

……

"Then... give birth to it."

"Crack."

"Do it all over again."

"... At least we don't read one, two, three, four, do we?"

"Is this the line skills from a professional background?"

"Don't say that, I was in a play with him before, and he really didn't have any script skills at that time. This time, I heard that he was scolded by black fans on the Internet... There is a problem here."

……

Born... this line skills...do it again... something went wrong...

Lines are the final bottom line of an actor.

Ten minutes passed quickly, but Shen Feng's condition did not improve at all, even though he was able to answer fluently when talking to Xiao Fang in private.

He can be regarded as an actor now, but the dark lens of the camera is like his Achilles heel, strangling his throat tightly.

Shen Feng became more and more panicked.

The more panicked he was, the more he couldn't remember his lines, and the more he couldn't remember, the greater the psychological pressure. He entered an endless loop.

The filming process of the TV series is very tight. This scene was filmed until noon, but it still did not pass.

Seeing that Shen Feng forgot his words again in front of the camera, the director's expression became more and more ugly. Xiao Fang was so anxious that he picked up the script book, wrote a reminder in the blank space behind, and held it up for Shen Feng to read.

Who would have thought that this move seemed to poke a fragile nerve in Shen Feng, and he finally remembered the line that he had been unable to piece together: "Sometimes I feel, maybe tomorrow... no, the next moment, I may I can't take it anymore, I'm going to take a gun, put it to my head, and end it all."

The play finally passes.

That night, Shen Feng received a call from Ye Zhen.

Mr. Ye's voice was as calm as ever: "A while ago, your schedule was too tight, and you were out of shape for a while after being too busy. This happens. Don't take it too seriously."

Look, what did he say?Xiaofang will report any disturbance to Ye Zhen.

Shen Feng's head started to hurt again, he smiled and said: "You're right, I just didn't react today, so I'm a little nervous."

After hanging up the phone, Shen Feng put aside the script book in his hand, called Xiao Fang over, and asked seriously: "Who pays you? Who do you listen to?"

These words are very serious, obviously forcing Xiao Fang to make a choice between himself and Ye Zhen.

If you choose Ye Zhen, Shen Feng will definitely not be able to accommodate him here, but if you choose Shen Feng, you can no longer report to Ye Zhen in detail.

Xiao Fang's original intention of coming here was to protect Shen Feng, at this moment his expression became serious, "I'll listen to you, Brother Xiao Feng."

Shen Feng calmed down, took an envelope from the side, and put it in Xiao Fang's hand, "This month's bonus. Go to the pharmacy next door and buy me some... melatonin."

Xiao Fang was startled, "Didn't you say you don't have insomnia anymore?"

"I'm used to staying up late, and now I'm not used to it." Shen Feng held his forehead, waved his hand, and stopped his next question, "Don't ask, just go buy it."

After Xiao Fang left, Shen Feng walked to the window sill alone, looked at the deep night outside the window, and let out a breath slowly.

He didn't let Xiaofang spread the news, not because he had any opinion on Ye Zhen.

Ye Zhen cared about him, he knew this, and was delighted by it.It's just that he feels that his current state is nothing, and there is really no need for Ye Zhen to bother about such a trivial matter.

It's just a temporary insomnia, Mr. Ye has more important things to do, he can't distract him.

--

After talking on the phone with Shen Feng, Ye Zhen sent a message to Xiao Fang, and it took a long time for him to reply.

[Xiao Fang: He is not in a good condition now, and the follow-up work schedule has to be slowed down. 】

He has now gradually started to take over Shen Feng's activities. He can be regarded as a half-manager. It is not too much to adjust the artist's work frequency.

But soon, the second message came, talking about life matters.

【Xiao Fang: I will continue to pay attention to his situation, but this is the last time I will share his private information with you. 】

Ye Zhen's breathing suddenly became heavier, and it took a while to solemnly reply to this message.

【Ye Zhen: Thank you.please. 】

--

In December, "Dawn" was finished, and Shen Feng could almost see his reluctance from the director's face.

After all, in order to accommodate him from time to time forgetting his words, in the next month or so, when it was his turn to take part in the scenes, each scene was divided into several parts to shoot, and he was so exhausted, but he still refused to look at the teleprompter.

Shen Feng didn't intend to make trouble with the director, but when he saw the boxy whiteboard, he couldn't help but think of Yuan Feibai he saw on the set of "Mountain and River".

Can't remember the lines, what kind of actor is he?

At the finale banquet, Shen Feng was still smiling, but the smile didn't reach his eyes, like an empty shell containing a soul that would float away at any time.

Xiao Fang's heart tightened, and he looked at the director.

The director knew something about Shen Feng's situation, and he felt a little bit sorry for being looked at like this. He raised his glass and signaled to Shen Feng: "You have worked hard these past few months, and you have performed well."

Shen Feng just laughed, the dimple on his right cheek remained unchanged, "Thank you director."

The director gave Xiao Fang a helpless look while drinking.

Xiao Fang silently looked away, looking at Shen Feng who was trying to pretend to be happy, feeling powerless.

Shen Feng was ill, he knew it, but he had no way of knowing where the source of the illness was.

This time, Shen Feng had a two-month break, just in time for the end of the semester, and was going to review and prepare for the exam with other students who hadn't found a way to make their debut.

However, within a few days after he returned to City B, the night before New Year's Day, Yuan Feibai's part in "Mountain and River" was finished. On this day, Shen Feng heard the news that he had cut his wrists.

It turns out that the goblin's intuition really works sometimes.