strange love

"It's just a chance, I didn't say that I will definitely go..." Although her spirit of empathizing with her friend's achievements is commendable, but the calmer reaction than I imagined made me feel cold.While patting her chest through the quilt, I reminded her. "If I go to the advanced class, you won't see me in the class."

Even if it's a little bit, I hope she shows more concern.Even if she will make new friends in the future, even if she will have better friends than me, but for now, at least she will be sad about this separation.

I am not a good boy, selfish and vexatious.

"...Well, that's it." But it didn't seem like she didn't think about anything like encouraging me to join the track and field team last time, she calmed down a little, and said in a soft tone: "But, but this is very powerful What’s the matter. Both the teacher and the aunt will be very happy that you can enter the advanced class, and I, I am also very happy. You are so good, you must be going there.”

Compared to me, she seemed to be mentally prepared earlier.

"Then what do you do if you miss me!" I blurted out only to realize how cunning I was asking.Is it really just because I am afraid that she will think of me so simply?Even excuses have to be found so high-sounding.

"Well... But, but we are still in the same school, and we can go to and from school together, and we can also have lunch together. And our house is also very close, you can come to my house at night and on days off... Yeah, right? "

In the end, she seemed a little unconfident, and looked at me cautiously.

I don't know why, but I feel a little relieved.As she said, these things are not in the way even if they are not in the same class.But there is still a voice in my heart to refute, this is not enough.

"Yes." I answered her with a sigh, feeling sorry for her sounding too thoughtful.

"Fortunately, you didn't transfer school or move house." Ling Chuyi showed a bit of rejoicing, looked into my eyes and said seriously: "But even if you move house or transfer school, I will ask Dad to find a way to let me Transferring to your school...ah, yes, if you don't think it's troublesome."

I was dumbfounded by her domineering in the first half of the sentence and weak in the second half of the sentence, but I finally realized that this little white rabbit-like girl might have a stronger will than myself.

I originally thought that Ling Chuyi should be the one who was hit the hardest when I went to the advanced class.And it turns out that it was me who really couldn't accept it.More important than not wanting to make her sad, or worry that she won't be able to adjust to it after the separation, is that I don't want to miss her.

I deeply reflect on whether I am overly dependent on her because I made my first friend in my life.

Ling Chuyi asked for a three-day leave. Before I was divided into classes, I first tasted what it was like without her in the classroom.Without seeing her back, going to school seemed more boring than usual.At noon, Han Lu asked me to have dinner together. Although she couldn't say she was unhappy, she was absent-minded because she thought about Ling Chuyi from time to time.

Of course she would be well looked after at home, but even so, I couldn't help but worry about whether she was eating on time.

I realized that the routine that I thought would not change in the short term at the beginning can change very easily.

Although it was during the illness, Ling Chuyi still insisted on reading at home, and I would briefly explain to her what I learned that day in the evening.The opportunity to meet is not rare, and the three days is not too long, but it is different from not seeing each other at home during the holidays, I do feel lost.

Fortunately, this time she is only sick at home and will be back to class soon.

But what about the next semester?

It doesn't matter if you have no confidence in yourself or shake your friendship, let alone what will happen in the future, but I want to reject this opportunity even more.Not for Ling Chuyi, but for himself.

Ling Chuyi came back to school.There seems to be no change in daily life. They come to school together in the morning, eat together at noon, and go home together in the afternoon.

She has been able to do homework well by herself, and she has also relaxed a lot when talking to boys.I sat in my seat and watched Zhao Yang chatting with her with a math homework book. Although Ling Chuyi looked shy and couldn't answer much, he smiled brightly.

I have to say that Zhao Yang is quite a gentleman and a patient boy.Since he expressed his love for Ling Chuyi with me last time, he has not behaved out of line until now.Apart from chatting with Ling Chuyi enthusiastically when collecting homework, in general, she still takes good care of her emotions and carefully pays attention to her proportions.

Recently, I often think, what I can do for Ling Chuyi, can Zhao Yang also do it for her?Even if it wasn't Zhao Yang, would other boys who like her be able to do this?If I can, am I really necessary to Ling Chuyi?

Perhaps Ling Chuyi really values ​​me and relies on me, but I know that she is actually a very strong girl.So, I was by no means indispensable to her.Of course, making me her indispensable friend was enough to bother her and me—and I knew that with all the coolness.

She may not be able to accept that her current best friend transfers to another school or moves away and cannot see each other again, but she feels that a slightly distant relationship is completely acceptable.

This is by no means a concept that can be criticized, but I am unreasonably worried about it.This made me rather annoyed with myself.

"Even after class, you don't need to keep staring at her, right?" Someone patted me on the shoulder, and then I heard Han Lu's voice.She leaned on my chair and looked down at me with disgust on her face.

"I heard that you were recommended by the head teacher to enter the advanced class next semester?" Han Lu's grades are quite good, if she doesn't recommend me, she might have a chance.

"Who told you? The news spread too fast." I thought about the reason why she came to ask this matter.

"It's all happened last week, so hurry up. I accidentally heard it when I went to the office today, but you kept silent." Han Lu acted as if she had caught me doing something bad.

"I didn't say that I would definitely be able to go, but I still have to watch the final exam. Maybe it will be you then?" When I answered Han Lu like this, I finally realized that my nature is not so easy to change.

"Come on, I don't want to go to the advanced class, not to mention the grades. I want to enter the liberal arts class... Hey, don't you think it's unfair? Our school is too partial. There are only 4 liberal arts classes, and there are no advanced classes yet. !" Han Lu's face was full of resentment, and she didn't realize that I had a very rude thought to her just now.

Perhaps, not only Ling Chuyi is in this class, everyone is more innocent than me.I'm defining them with my own self-righteousness, and thinking I've seen some truth.

"I don't want to go...at least I don't want to go now." It turns out that it is not very difficult to tell the truth, am I not saying it now?

"Eh, why?"

"Well... I don't want to give up halfway."

"Give up halfway?" Han Lushun glanced ahead and suddenly realized, "Ah, you mean Ling Chuyi?"

"No." It was because he didn't want his changes to be abandoned halfway.

Han Lu obviously didn't believe my answer, and her tone was a little bit dissatisfied.

"I think it is. You are too good to say it? I didn't see you as such a person before."

"What do you mean you didn't see me like this? What's wrong with me?"

"It's so boring. It's okay to be inseparable all day long, sometimes like her mother. I heard from Zhao Yang that you are too protective, right?"

"Where is it tired? It's much better than your husband and wife all day long. I never said that I must go to the toilet together. It can be called a friendship between gentlemen." I think it is necessary to clarify for myself, although It's not wrong that I have a very good relationship with the first graders, but compared with girls like them, it's definitely not bad. "And Zhao Yang, what did he say?"

"It's almost all said. Who can't see the little thoughtfulness of their boys, so they said it after asking."

"Then do you still think I'm too protective?"

"Isn't it just that someone likes her? It's okay to fall in love. Don't you also think she is an ordinary girl, why should she be treated differently?"

Yes, it is true that she is an ordinary girl, but it is also true that she is more innocent than girls of the same age.Shouldn't love be more cautious?As her friend, shouldn't he help her check it out more?

"Why is it treated differently? If someone likes you, I will also help you as a consultant. If it is not good, of course it must be ruled out."

"Hey, look at what you said. Well, even if it's like this, I at least know who likes me and then you can advise me. But Ling Chuyi, you obviously don't intend to let her know..."

I finally figured out that Han Lu came to serve as a lobbyist for Zhao Yang.

"What did he do for you?"

"I'll help you bring breakfast for a month." Han Lu didn't feel embarrassed at all, and she was in a state of gloating about watching the show.

"Why didn't you explode on the spot? I didn't stop Zhao Yang or others from confessing. Is it my responsibility for them to confess? I don't need to tell Chuyi about these things." Before they left, this group of people began to penetrate everywhere.

"If you, the protector, don't let go, how dare they say it. If you don't say whether it will scare Ling Chuyi, no one will have a chance if you keep your ears open. Of course, you can't be annoying."

"Why are you so positive about this matter? Could it be that you yourself have started to have a sexual desire and have nowhere to vent it?" Tilting my head, I deliberately used a meaningful tone to pry her. "If you pay so much attention to Zhao Yang, you can tell that she likes Ling Chuyi. Could it be..."

As expected, Han Lu was so stimulated that his hair exploded, and he said angrily, "What nonsense are you talking about? If it weren't for you and Ling Chuyi getting too close, I wouldn't bother to care about this matter."

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