strange love

I went back to my grandfather's house on New Year's Day, but broke up because of a young talent.When my mother carried me away from this disguised blind date, my grandma kept sighing.I know, this must be what grandpa meant.Because my mother refused to consider marriage, he tried to take me back several times.After the relationship between father and daughter became very tense, my mother didn't like to come here anymore.

In fact, grandpa is not the kind of unreasonable and stubborn old man, but it's just that if the stalemate lasts for too long, he always makes faint moves.This time I was the one who persuaded my mother to go back, and it was my responsibility to make it happen in the end, so my heart inevitably became a little heavy.But mother, what should I do as if nothing happened.

Lu Youyou sent a text message early in the morning, assuring that she didn't know anything about it before, and it was all grandpa's plan.Whether she knew it or not, it was meaningless now, and this New Year's Day could only be considered unsatisfactory.

Going back to school after New Year's Day will probably enter the tense atmosphere of final exam review.Recently, because I have been studying with the first year of junior high school, I often review the old and learn the new, but I don't feel nervous.Moreover, the progress in the first year of junior high school is also very stable, and it should not be a problem to achieve the goal of an average score of 80 points in the final exam.

Generally speaking, there is nothing to worry about... Just when I thought so, I went to school the next day and didn't see Ling Chuyi.The driver uncle said that she had a cold and a fever. Although she insisted on going to school until the morning, Uncle Ling insisted on asking for leave.

I was a little worried, so I called to say hello, and Aunt Zhang said that she had gone back to sleep on the first day of junior high school.

I was restless all day, and finally got through to school, but the head teacher suddenly came to talk to me-it was about entering the advanced class.

Although our school is divided into classes to get the second year of senior high school, the students with excellent grades in the ordinary class will be approved to enter the advanced class in the first semester of the first year of senior high school. The head teacher wants to give me this opportunity.

"Jingzhe, your grades are obvious to all. Although you got some average scores in the entrance exam, the school decided not to include it in the exam because of the accident. As long as you can enter the top 10 in the final exam this time, you can make up your progress in the winter vacation." It should be fine to make up.”

Saying that there was a reason for the entrance examination was nothing more than being late for nearly half an hour that morning.At that time, the state was really bad, and it had nothing to do with this matter.

Entering the advanced class has always been my goal. If the teacher told me about it before, I would probably be very happy.However, now I only feel unspeakable irritability.

I understand very well that it is quite stupid to give up this opportunity, and there is absolutely no reason to give up, but I subconsciously want to refuse it.

Even if you want to enter the advanced class, it doesn't have to be the next semester, does it?I still had a chance as a sophomore.You have just adapted to the learning environment, and changes may not necessarily be beneficial.Besides, I don't have to be in the advanced class to prove that I am good at studying. My grade ranking is not ashamed.

Besides... Besides, if I leave, what will Ling Chuyi do?Will she be able to handle the day-to-day interactions with her classmates?

However, I understand very well that even if it is not this semester, there will be a next semester. What can I do by then?

I should have thought earlier that there has never been an encounter without separation in this world, so I should learn to say goodbye appropriately.The fork in life has existed since birth, and entanglement with these is neither meaningful nor fruitful. Isn't it good to let nature take its course like this?

But when I went to visit Ling Chuyi again, my heart was still heavy.No matter how much mental construction I did, I knew I couldn't let go of it.Not being in the same class means that I will definitely be farther away from Ling Chuyi.Even if she can be dragged into the sophomore class of high school, she is more suitable to enter the liberal arts class, and I, probably, the science class is more likely.

Separation of friends is inevitable after all.

"Jing Zhe, what's wrong with you?" Ling Chuyi lay on the bed with only a small head exposed, his pupils were especially teary due to the fever. "Yes, are you unhappy?"

She asked cautiously, her face full of worry.It has to be said that she is always very sensitive to certain mood changes.

"You are sick, how can I be happy?" I sat on the edge of the bed and slyly changed the subject.

Ling Chuyi looked both happy and a little guilty.

"Yes, I'm sorry, I must get better soon."

Would she be sad if she found out about it?Or will you make new friends later on?

The attitude of the classmates towards her is slowly changing, especially some boys, who pay a lot of attention to her.If I'm not there, will they take advantage of it and launch an offensive?

I found that no matter what the situation was, I couldn't feel relieved at all... and couldn't be happy at all.

In fact, I hope that Ling Chuyi can make friends other than me.It must have been good for her to be part of the class, part of the group, and she was often happy about it.However, if she made friends without me knowing, or if she had friends who were closer than me, just thinking about it would make me feel unbearable.

There is such a thing as jealousy over friendship, and I know it now.

"Yeah, you have to take good care of your illness and get well soon. In the morning, the driver uncle said that you still want to go to school like this. Uncle and aunt are very worried."

The little face of the person lying on the bed was flushed red because of shame or illness, and the grievance was even more pitiful. "No, I felt fine at the time...I, I didn't mean to make people worry about me."

"Okay, you just love studying too much." I suppressed those wild thoughts and laughed and teased her.

Ling Chuyi could tell my tone very well, he pouted, then rolled his eyes with a smile. "Jing Zhe, it's great that you, you can come to see me... We haven't seen each other for several days on New Year's Day, and my father won't let me go to school. I thought I wouldn't see you today either."

Her little hand stretched out from under the quilt, and I held it without thinking.Warm and fluffy, just like her people.

I still remember, she said she wished to see me every day.But how long can such days last?

I couldn't help asking her: "On the first day of junior high school, what if... if you don't see me for a long time..." What will happen?

What else?I kept imagining her frailty, my importance and indispensability to her, thinking that she would not be able to live a normal life without me.But, didn't she do well in the ten years without me?

Of course she will be sad at the beginning, but she has a wealthy family, a father who loves her, a beautiful appearance that cannot be ignored, and a beautiful inner beauty that can be found only by searching.As long as there is more time for others to get to know her, she will not lack friends.

What kind of answer do I want to hear?Imagine saving her like a savior, and she must be inseparable from me?I used to think that after becoming friends with Ling Chuyi, I could become a better person myself.But looking at it now, despicableness and filth cannot be easily changed.

I didn't say it completely, but it was enough for Ling Chuyi to understand what I meant.Her whole body seemed to be tense, and she stammered and asked, "Why, why can't I see you? Jingzhe, where are you going?"

The look of her on the verge of tears completely feeds my vanity, and more self-loathing.Sure enough, she still thinks that I am very important. If I tell her and she keeps me, then I will definitely reject the teacher.

"No, because the winter vacation is coming soon. There are so many things to do during the Chinese New Year, and we may not see each other for a long time." However, I found that I couldn't say it easily.When she was sick, why must she be told the news that was destined to make her sad?

"Yes, that's how it is..." She didn't seem to be completely relieved, with a worried expression that forced a smile on her face. "It's okay, I'll ask Dad to buy me a mobile phone, and I, I'll call you."

Because Ling was not very active in school, we didn't communicate much in the classroom.But I understand that classmates are the most basic bridge between us.Once this bridge collapses now, it is not surprising that the relationship is slowly estranged.

"Yes, it's a good way."

Ling Chuyi seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, but then he looked nervous again. "Ah, if you're busy, I, I won't call you."

She is a child who pays attention not to trouble others.

"Actually, it's nothing. You can call me anytime." Because I couldn't satisfy my despicable wishes, my mood became even more depressed.

"Jing Zhe..." Probably still felt that my attitude was a bit abnormal, Ling Chuyi frowned slightly, and held my hand instead, "Yes, are you going to move? Or, or are you going to transfer schools? Also, you still don’t want to, don’t want to be with…”

She seemed to think of some bad aspects because of excessive worry, and tears flickered in the corners of her eyes.

I quickly interrupted her runaway thoughts.

"No, no, it's neither moving nor changing schools, and it's not that I don't want to be friends with you. You must stop thinking like this in the future."

"That, is that?"

I sighed, and suddenly thought of the confession between friends that I said at the beginning.Even if it's not for your own vanity, you still have to inoculate her first, right?

"Well... that's how it is. Today, the class teacher talked to me and said that I have a chance to be an advanced class next semester."

Ling Chuyi's eyes lit up for a moment, rather than looking sad, he looked very happy.

"Really? Really? Jingzhe, you are amazing—cough, cough, cough..." She looked very happy for me, more excited than she had entered the advanced class, her face flushed with coughing.