strange love

I really want to nod and agree to her, but the right to choose is not in my hands.

The first day of junior high school obviously didn't like this, and neither did I.But there is no better way than this, even this head who has been praised as smart can't think of a more practical and effective way to maintain our friendship.

I hate myself for having feelings I shouldn't have for junior high school students, for being unable to control my feelings, and for letting junior high school students suffer such grievances.

"On the first day of junior high school, I know you feel uncomfortable. You have been wronged during this time." On the first day of junior high school, I shook my head and opened my mouth to say something, but I didn't give her a chance. "But I did it for a reason."

"But I don't understand, I don't understand..." Chuyi cried, "I don't want to be like you before, I'm so sad."

She endured it for so long, and today's crying made me feel uncomfortable for a while.

"Then let me tell you why, okay? Let's go home first, and I'll tell you."

Probably because of my firm attitude, Chu Yi nodded in agreement.Her eyes were red and swollen, and her face was stained with tears.When we came out, there was no one in the shower room.

After packing up, I took her to take a taxi home and bought a bottle of eye drops on the way. The atmosphere was very dull all the way.I was silent and didn't speak, and I didn't seem to know what to say in the first day of junior high school, but she kept holding my hand and never let go.

I've decided that I'll tell her why we can't be that close.Whether she can understand it or not, and whether she can accept it or not, the worse situation is that she can't be friends.

What kind of normal friends are we now?

Auntie Zhang has been back for quite a few days, and Chu's family has returned to a normal life track.I sent her home and explained to Aunt Zhang about the injury on the first day of junior high school, and she was going to look through the medicine box for ice packs anxiously and worriedly.

On the first day of junior high school, she kept holding my hand and refused to let go. She followed me wherever I went.Aunt Zhang probably also noticed that something was wrong with us, so she enthusiastically asked me to stay for dinner, and handed over the task of administering the medicine to me.

Although I didn't intend to stay for dinner, I did have some things to tell the first day of the junior high school, and it was impossible to refuse to help her apply cold compresses.

On the first day of junior high school, I lowered my head and didn't say a word, just stubbornly took my hand.I have already understood that today is indeed the limit of her patience.

On the contrary, I was very calm at this time, and I took her back to the bedroom with the medicine box.

Of course it is good to be able to speak clearly.I know it's not an option to keep procrastinating like this. If anyone else is like me, I'd probably have scolded her long ago.It just happened to me and the first day of junior high school in the end, and all kinds of rationality were wiped out.

I have tried all kinds of methods so far, but in the end, didn't I make the first day of the junior high school sad?I can force myself, but I can't force myself to be in the first grade of junior high school.

The fall on the first day of junior high school was not serious, but the pain must have been real.When we got back to the room, we sat on the swing together, but she still refused to let go of my hand.

"On the first day of junior high school, I will help you with a cold compress first, and then I will give you eye drops." Fortunately, Aunt Zhang packed all the things into the medicine box, otherwise I really don't know what to do with them. "Can you let me go?"

When I looked up at me on the first day of junior high school, my originally beautiful eyes were already red and swollen. "Awakening of Insects..."

"Hey, let's talk about it later." No matter how urgent the matter was, I still didn't help to deal with the emergency of the first year of junior high school. I pressed her words and comforted her a little bit forcefully.

In the first day of junior high school, I was still obedient, lying obediently on the swing bed, allowing me to apply a towel wrapped in an ice pack to her injury, and help her finish dripping eye drops.

She is afraid of water, and it is very difficult to instill eye drops. I helped her drip it several times before she got it in.

Because he didn't take off his clothes, the towel can only be tucked in from the hem on the chest.At this moment, there is a lump on the chest on the first day of junior high school, which looks a little funny.She closed her eyes, and held my hand again, with a reassuring and obedient look.

She depended on me so much, and couldn't do without me so much, which made me really, really happy.But happy at the same time very contradictory.

Touching her forehead with my free hand, I asked her, "Is the chest too cold? Are the eyes still uncomfortable?"

Chu Yi shook his head, and then slowly said: "It's not uncomfortable...Jing Zhe, if you are by my side, I won't feel uncomfortable at all."

Her jaw was slightly raised, and a smile finally appeared on the corner of her mouth.

Even though I'm by my side every day, I feel like I haven't seen her properly for a long time.

The first day of junior high school is so beautiful, but also so innocent, not only has the fragrance of a young girl between maturity and greenness, but also has a pure breath far younger than her biological age.

Every time I get closer to her, every time I spend more minutes with her, I can feel that I like her more and more.That kind of uncontrollable emotion sometimes even scares me, but I can't let go of it at all.

"First day, I'm sorry."

Even I am not very clear about what this apology is for.

Is it because you like her?Or is it because this time has made her sad?Or, is it to say some incomprehensible and cruel things to her later?

But what's the use of apologizing?Either way, I can't change it.

Hearing my apology on the first day of the junior high school, the hand holding my finger tightened, and he said in a panic, "Jing Zhe, I, I didn't blame you... I just don't want to do this anymore... Can we still be the same as before?"

How could I not know if I had such an idea in the first grade of junior high school?It's just that if I can do it, why wait until now.

"On the first day of junior high school, do you remember what I said to you? Do you remember the reason why I said we can no longer be so close?"

Chuyi raised his hand and wiped his eyes, then opened them and looked at me.Probably because of my heavy expression, the little smile she had originally disappeared, and turned into a timid expression again.

"I, I remember...then I don't want to grow up, okay?"

I did say in the beginning that the reason we can't be what we used to be is that we've all grown up, and that's not how grown-up friends should be.However, my so-called growing up is different from what I thought in the first grade of junior high school.

"In the first day of junior high school, there is no way to change the matter of growing up. Even if you don't want to grow up, I am already an adult." It is old enough to do things that hurt her.

Chu Yi had an expression of wanting to cry but could not hold back, sobbing and saying: "But, Jing Zhe, I don't understand why I can't do this when I grow up. I like you to hug me, and I like to kiss you..."

I couldn't bear to watch her cry, so I rubbed her head while explaining: "On the first day of junior high school, I also told you that this kind of thing can only be done between lovers, right? This is a very intimate thing, between friends It’s a bit over the limit if you do it in a short time. If I do this to you again, I will be doing something bad.”

"Is it only for lovers?" Chuyi pursed her lips, her face full of confusion, and she thought of a solution that she thought could solve the problem in the simplest way of thinking. "Then can't we just be lovers? You didn't do bad things..."

Just like what I thought in the past, at this point, the first day of junior high school will definitely say so.As long as we can maintain our friendship, as long as we can maintain the intimacy of the past, she is probably willing to do anything - she really doesn't understand the difference between the two kinds of likes, and she doesn't know that lovers are more special than friends meaning.

"On the first day of junior high school, do you understand the relationship between lovers?"

I asked her, she looked at me with some guilt on the first day of junior high school, and said in a stuttering way: "It's just a relationship between two people falling in love together, right?"

I don't know if it was from the previous animation or the science popularization obtained from Lu Youyou, but she finally understood that there is such a thing as falling in love.

but.

"Then do you know how to fall in love?"

I continued to ask, and finally showed a dazed look on the first day of the junior high school.

Whether it is "lover", "falling in love" or "love", these words are just a concept for the first grade of junior high school.

I sighed heavily, probably because the sigh was too deep, and I didn't know what it meant in the first day of junior high school, so I suddenly panicked.

"Jing Zhe, I, I don't know but I will learn, you must understand, right? If you teach me, I can learn."

Her anxiety made me feel even more uncomfortable, for her sake and for myself.

"In the first day of junior high school, love is when two people who like each other get together naturally. There is no way to teach this kind of thing. Besides, we are all girls..." In fact, it is not natural for me to say these things to the first day of junior high school today. thing.

"But, my sister said that girls can fall in love with girls, and I like you, and you obviously..." She interrupted me anxiously, hurriedly narrating what she knew, and then seemed to suddenly He stopped as if thinking of something.

She looked at me, her eyes, which had been soaked with eye drops, were completely flooded with tears.

"The first day of the junior high school..." I wanted to wipe her tears, but the first day of the junior high school grabbed my hand and asked choked with sobs: "Jing Zhe, don't you, don't you like me?"

How could I not like her?I just like her so much that I can't sloppyly seduce her when she doesn't understand the feelings of love.

"It's not the first day of junior high school..."

I wanted to explain, but the first day of junior high school seemed to have already identified something.While sobbing, she nodded and said: "I, I know, Jing Zhe is so good, of course you will like someone better... I don't understand anything, and I always think about it... I'm sorry..."

This situation was really unexpected.Obviously my feelings cannot be responded to, but now it seems that I am a heartless person.

The author has something to say: Poor little junior year is going to cry for a lot of chapters, huh huh.