strange love

Press the shoulders and then the arms.

When I finished pinching my arms and was about to pinch her thighs, Chu Yi suddenly said, "Jing Zhe, can I, can I lie down? It's uncomfortable to lie on my chest..."

... It's my fault for not being able to empathize with her.

"Okay, then lie on your side and I'll rub your legs."

On the first day of the junior high school, he turned sideways obediently, folded his hands on the side of his face, and lay down like a good baby.While looking at me with a smile, she naturally put one leg on my lap.

"Hehehe, Jingzhe, you are so kind."

Now in the first day of junior high school, he can act like a baby and please others, and he is completely trusting and relaxed in front of me.I used to be very happy for such a change, but now I am very troubled by this kind of getting along.

"Your little mouth is the sweetest." I smiled and helped her rub her legs, trying to ignore the touch of my hands.

It's been too long since I hugged her well, and it's been too long since I just simply enjoyed the intimacy with her like I used to.I am more or less unable to do it because of my inner desire, which makes me feel more or less tired.

"But I'm telling the truth, you are good, and I like you." The first day of the junior high school said it very naturally, but my heart thumped when I heard it.In the past, every time she said she liked me, I would be very happy.But now, because I understand that the meaning she likes is different from my own, I feel lost every time I listen to it.

I'm sure I've firmly established myself as her "best friend" and I can't believe enough in our strong friendship.However, this cannot be the reason for me to go to her lover's position.

"Now I say I'm the best, I like me the most, and make me so happy, just don't forget me when you fall in love." I said the resentment in my heart in a joking tone, and after I finished speaking, I was frightened.

No matter how much he comforted himself, the expectations that had grown up were not so easy to contain.The vague hope made me want to stop, and I still couldn't get rid of the resentment.

It's just in a joking tone now, but what about in the future?

For a moment, I just felt very lazy.

The first day of junior high school obviously didn't notice the turbulent waves under my joking words, and just looked at me with a small head sideways, and said sincerely: "I didn't coax you, you coaxed me, I know you are the best."

She seemed to think about it, and then continued: "Sister talked about love with me before, but I still can't understand it. But no matter what, I will never forget your Jingzhe, I like you the most."

The soft touch under my hand didn't make me feel so charming at the moment, I have already deeply experienced my uncontrollable squirming these days.The more time I spend with the first day of junior high school and the more intimate things we do together, the more I feel that I can't control the feelings that are about to overflow.

She obviously doesn't understand what love is, so why does she always say such things that misunderstand me?

"Then what if someone treats you as well as I do? Or, is there someone who treats you better than me?" What am I talking about?Why use this kind of question to ask the first grader?

It's not that she said something that misunderstood me, she hasn't changed from the beginning to the end, it's just my wishful thinking.

On the first day of the junior high school, it seemed that there was something wrong with my tone, and he looked at me puzzled: "But, but there is nothing..."

What am I doing?It seems that there is a wild tiger roaring in my heart, disturbing my mood and thoughts.I wanted to stop, but excessive words came out of my mouth bit by bit.

"What if there is one in the future? Will you like him more?"

This question is too despicable.

If there is really someone who can do better than me, who can make the first day of junior high school happier and make her happier, of course she should like that person.

I know I'm still smiling, and the question sounds casual.But he was as sensitive as the first day of junior high school, and his expression was already a little apprehensive.

"I, I won't, Jing Zhe, I will always like you the most..." She frowned slightly, looking at me worriedly and puzzled, as if she was reassuring and looking for an answer, "You, you believe I……"

What kind of answer do I want to hear?What the hell am I doing?

Self-loathing and disgusting feelings came out of my heart at the same time, and I even felt that it would be an offense for me to touch the first grade of junior high school again.

I stopped, trying to calm myself down, but the words in my throat couldn't be controlled.

"No, the first day of junior high school. If there is someone who treats you better than me, it's normal for you to like him more."

The duplicity did not show how tolerant and magnanimous I was, and the naked jealousy and inducement sounded so cunning and disgusting.

I am looking forward to what promises will be made to me in the first grade of junior high school?

The first day of junior high school can really feel people's emotions, not to mention my feelings that I can't even restrain myself.She sat up anxiously, grabbed my hand before she could sit still, looked at me with teary eyes, and promised, "No, no, I like you the most , Jingzhe..."

How mean am I?

What she said made me both satisfied and scared. It is extremely pleasant to see the person I like because I am anxious, but I feel panic when I do this kind of thing.

Can I really stay by the side of the first day of junior high school like this?Can it really make her happy?Can he really continue to be her friend?

"Be good, I was joking with you, you are so nervous." I touched her head and told her to lie down again, "Lie down, I will help you continue to massage."

On the first day of the junior high school, I looked at me tearfully, and lay down obediently, but the atmosphere was not as relaxed as before.

I regretted and felt uncomfortable, and for some reason I had the urge to cry.

How can a person like me deserve to be friends with the first grader?

She is so pure and beautiful, and she is so sincere and trusting in me, but I not only developed feelings for her that I shouldn't have, but also caused her confusion and anxiety.

"Jingzhe..." Chuyi called me softly, with a cautious expression, "I like you the most..."

My nose couldn't help feeling a little sour, and my eye sockets became a little hot, so I had to lower my head in a disguised manner, and forced myself to say: "I know, you, why are you so careless today?"

I've clearly thought about it, and I will never let myself hurt her.He clearly thought that even if he sticks to the boundaries of friends, he should treat her with a calm attitude.

But, I'm jealous of my mother and Lu Youyou, and I'm already so anxious that I haven't even met the person I like in the first day of junior high school. Can I really not interfere in her life?

Haven't I already regarded her as my own?

Perhaps earlier than I imagined, faster than I imagined, and more quietly than I imagined, the beast in my heart did not know when it was out of the cage.

"Jing Zhe, you, don't tease me like this..." Chu Yi's voice was still uneasy, sniffling and said, "I'm a little scared."

I can really feel the love for me in Chuchu, and the uneasiness caused by it.I know, if she loses my friend, she will be very sad.

"I'm sorry for the first day of junior high school, I won't say any more." I lowered my head to help her continue to press her legs, not daring to look at her expression.

I have realized that I have been lax during this period, and I need to be more vigilant in the future, and may have to take extraordinary measures when necessary.

"Jing Zhe...I don't feel bad anymore, you, can you hug me? I don't want to massage anymore."

I have completely calmed down, or rather, my heart became cold.The first day of the junior high school was seeking comfort from me, so I obediently crawled to her side and hugged her into my arms.

Compared with the charming wild thoughts, this cold feeling like calm water is not much better. The distance between near and far is constantly affecting me, and this has even begun to affect the first year of junior high school.

Really bad.

"I'm sorry for the first day of junior high school, I shouldn't have joked with you like this."

Chu buried his head in my arms, clutching my sleeves tightly, with a muffled voice.

"Jing Zhe, you have been acting weird recently..." With a little crying sound, "Did I do something wrong? Tell me, I will definitely change it."

"No, the first day of junior high school, you have done nothing wrong." The one who has been making mistakes is me.

I patted her on the back, but my comforting words were so weak.

"Is it because I'm always jealous that you're unhappy?" Even the first day of junior high school refused to believe it, "I won't do this again, okay?"

I blamed myself even more for thinking so hard in the first day of junior high school.

"No, I'm just thinking about something, don't think about it."

Probably my consolation had some effect. On the first day of junior high school, I looked up at me, as if trying to help me solve my problems. "Jing Zhe, what are you thinking? Although I, I am stupid, let me help you think together, okay?"

Maybe it's time for me to vaccinate her too.

"In the first day of junior high school, I just think you seem to have grown up."

Such a sentence of mine seemed to confuse her. Chuyi blinked at me, as if she didn't know what I wanted to express.

"Isn't it good to grow up? I, I want to grow up quickly..."

"But when you grow up, you can no longer do many things." I patted her head, "You also need to know how to restrain yourself."

"On the first day of junior high school, if I make you sad in the future, it must be because I like you so much, not because I hate you."

"I don't understand, Jingzhe. If you like me, I will be very happy. Why are you sad?"

I sighed and could only bury the answer in my heart.

The author has something to say: no lust.