girl can't marry

Chapter No.17

Ruan Mansion, after dinner, went back to the room alone, walked to the lamp with apprehension, and then carefully opened the letter. After a while, he had already read it. Closer, look more closely.

A few words, read it again, every sentence is more difficult to understand.

Smoke:

See the words as they are, and let me call you "Yan'er" again privately

When you read this letter, I have already gone to the frontier, and I made you cry in the past, but I will give you an explanation today.

Let's start from last autumn. In that situation, I should have taken you to the back mountain. The old master must have other ways to save you.

Xu Shi was fascinated, Xu Shi had malicious intentions, and now thinking about it, he would feel unbearable because he had read the sage books for so many years.

You should blame me and hate me, because I know that I can't give you what you want, but I still have thoughts about you that I shouldn't have.

Some words are always difficult to say, and if you say that you are attracted to you right now, you will not believe it.

Because I am also a daughter, but I disregarded ethics and lied to you, Gu Yu knew that the crime was serious.

But I still dream of an answer. If you have the heart, you are willing to be a person with one heart for the rest of your life, and you will never let you down in this life.

If you blame me, blame me, I hope you will never see me in this life, I just ask you to be safe and secure, just pretend that you have never met me.

Gu Yu word.

Probably because I have cried too many times in recent days, and now my eyes are so dry that I can’t shed any tears. Ruan Yan read and read the letter, I don’t know how many times, the paper in his hand almost fell to the ground, and his heart felt blocked , making it difficult to breathe.

Is this your difficulty, is this the reason you treat me, how can you, how can you...

How could you treat me like that, how could...how could...

The new year is coming as scheduled, unlike every household with lanterns and festoons, guarding the border, the general Cheng Xian received the imperial edict and ordered people to summon the two lieutenants Liu and Li. Let's call together, maybe one person can have one more idea.

War is inevitable. Although Gu Yu and his party are resentful, they dare not say a word. In the past, they were just talking about wars on paper. After decades of hardships, they finally went to high school. This trip is just to go back after some hardships, so that they can rely on more in the future.

Now they are told that they are really going to fight the enemy, and they have no other thoughts except to retreat. The generals looked at the timid appearance of their group, and cursed inwardly, but they didn't show it on their faces. After all, most of these people are descendants of aristocratic families. If you offend them, I don't know how to deal with you in the future.

The world has been stable for a long time, and the emperor blindly values ​​civility over military affairs. These military generals are afraid of the pens in the hands of those civil servants. I don’t know when, if they are careless, they will attract verbal criticism. It’s really a life. I feel comfortable and have nothing to do. Of course, they only think about these words in their hearts.

Cheng Xian saw that only a few of them looked calm, and the rest of them were flickering and even frightened, so he didn't count on them anymore. After discussing with the two lieutenants, apart from strengthening patrols and setting up more guard posts, he could only wait for the battle. What's more, these so-called young masters don't need to go out to do errands, so as not to cause trouble.

So Gu Yu and the others were collectively placed in the back camp, responsible for counting food and other matters.

On the third day of the Lunar New Year, a letter from the family was sent from the capital, and Gu Yu received three letters from her grandmother Zhou Wan, foster father Li Yuan, and her father Gu Wan.

In addition to concern, the letter implied blame. Her father even said that she should go back to Liujia Village quickly, or her mother would be seriously ill. When Gu Yu saw this, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. Her father Ah, it's still the same as before.

In the middle of the night, looking at Wu Cheng's trembling body, Gu Yu raised his beautiful eyebrows and said, "You should rest before you recover, and I will take care of you tonight." After finishing speaking, he walked away without waiting for Wu Cheng to speak. off the account.

Probably affected by the tense atmosphere, today's wind and snow appeared to be a bit heavier, the soldiers all hid in the tent, and several people who came together, including the captain, also called Gu Yu to enter the tent.

She waved her hands unmoved, the bonfire in the tent was too warm, or the wind and snow outside the tent was more comfortable, her eyes were covered with frost, and her face became more and more wet, and it was hard to tell whether it was the melting snow or the snow. Secretly falling tears.

No one knew that after she received the letter today, how much she wished that one letter came from the girl in her heart.

Dad always said that in this life, you will always meet someone who will make you fall in love and want to give her everything.Now she is afraid that she has already met, but unfortunately she can't give anything, but she is delusional about having everything that girl has.

The sky was full of wind and snow, flying in the dark night, Gu Yu was like an ice sculpture, standing straight and stiff outside the tent, looking down from the sky, outside the tents in the back camp, she was the only one with a long body. And standing, small and lonely.

For several days in a row, the scouts came to report that there were soldiers and horses moving around in the northern barbarians, but they didn't see the attack for a long time. What Cheng Xian was afraid of was that they were dormant. After a long time, he would also suffer from temporary snow blindness. He was afraid that the barbarian was cunning and pretended to attack. He looked at the defense map and felt agitated.

At the end of the first month, there was still no enemy attack. It should be that the northern barbarians are also afraid of the wind and snow. The battle will probably begin in March.

Gu Yu and the others have been here for more than three months, and now it's time to go back. This night, they rectified a little bit. Before going to bed, the teenagers were grateful that they could escape the war, but they didn't expect the enemy to come back at night. Attack the former camp.

After everyone fell asleep, Gu Yu walked out of the tent silently, and left the barracks alone. She found a tree, jumped up, swept the snow off, and sat on it lonely.

There is no place for every cell in her body. I am afraid that only this cold snowy night can let her find a sense of existence. The direction of the capital is far away and unreal. Is there an answer waiting for me there? Is it the answer I want? A heart full of unquenchable longing.

What Ruan Yan likes is her as a man. If she talks about love as a woman, that silly girl will be frightened, and she might avoid her. Thinking of this, I can't help being blunt Pain, Gu Yu caressed his chest, what should I do?

There was a faint sound of snow treading in the air, Gu Yu froze her body suddenly, she stood up slowly and cautiously, the snow in the distance, shrouded in the snowy night, there seemed to be a thick black fog on the snow in the distance Gradually press closer.

This place is only three miles away from the front camp of the army, and most of the scouts are on the north side. I didn't expect the enemy to circle [-] degrees from north to east to avoid the scouts. Is this a sneak attack from the side? I don't know if it may be a two-sided attack , Time is running out, and she is not allowed to think about it.

Quietly crawling down the tree, Gu Yu crouched and walked quickly, before she had time to greet the sentry, she went directly to the commander Cheng Xian's military tent: "Gu Yu begs to see the general"

"The general has already rested, come back tomorrow." These soldiers disdain Gu Yu and the others, they are just embroidered pillows, and all of them are useless. When they come to this camp, one will be sick today, and one will be sick tomorrow. Hurt one, it will only increase the joke.

Seeing the guard's arrogance and disdainful expression, Gu Yu's heart suddenly became depressed. She was too lazy to say a word, jumped up and knocked the guard down, and broke into the tent directly.

The guards shouted repeatedly, and a group of soldiers surrounded the tent, and Cheng Xian's voice came from inside the tent: "All the deputy generals come in, and the rest of them are waiting for orders."

Cheng Xian is not a brave and foolish person who can become a great general. Of course, he knows that the most important thing is to stabilize the morale of the army at this moment. He raised his head and glanced at the young man kneeling in the tent. But it was a bit too reckless for Gu Yu to trespass on the commander's tent.

Seeing that several lieutenants had come in, he unfolded the defense map, and quickly ordered additional troops to go to the west to scout. The enemy might really attack from both sides, and they would be dressed in armor. Once the order was issued, all the generals took orders in an orderly manner. and go.

Cheng Xian looked at the young man standing outside the tent. Although he thought carefully, he was still afraid that this man who had never been on the battlefield would lose his life. This boy seemed to have good lightness skills. He pondered for a moment and ordered: "Follow the scouts to investigate in the west. If there is any change, please report immediately.”

Cheng Xian's side is evenly matched with the enemy's army, and because they discovered it early, they can barely hold on to the situation. This time, the enemy army seems to be out in force, and their strength is far superior to ours. Cheng Xian rode his horse in front, but there was a faint sound of fighting behind him. Surprised for a moment, he immediately turned around: "The order is issued, the whole army retreats ten miles, stationed in the border city, and all the armaments are left behind, and then they can withdraw."

Although there were casualties in this battle, fortunately they evacuated in time, and the number of casualties was only a few hundred.

In the border guard city, the commander's room is brightly lit. This border guard city is the first line of defense on the northern border. If it is lost, the next few cities may not be able to stay. Is it a person's honor or disgrace?

At the beginning of February, the city was about to be broken. At the moment of life and death, the reinforcements arrived. The reinforcements plus the garrison were almost 2 people, which was almost the same number as the enemy. However, there was no chance of winning the city. However, the consumption of guards in the long run However, it is only a matter of time before this border city is breached.

In this case, why not risk your life, Gu Yu retracted his sword in the snow, thinking about it.

"Brother Gu, wait a minute, can you let Wu go with you?" Wu Cheng's voice came from behind.

"Why?" Gu Yu frowned slightly, she didn't want to get too involved with others.

"It's just asking for success and death. Wu has nothing else he wants." Wu Cheng thought of his cousin Lu Yuan, whom he had guarded since he was a child. Don't you just want to have a good time to make meritorious deeds and live a lifetime, but with this body and skin, I'm afraid I will feel sorry for my parents.

Gu Yu turned around and stared at Wu Cheng silently. After a long time, she nodded and walked to the coach's room. She didn't want anything, so why not.

my only want?hehe?It was but a dream!

Maybe everyone has this kind of time. We know what we want, but at the same time we know that we will never get it. At that moment, we feel that the days and nights of the rest of our life are so long, so long.

The only thing that supports me is my sense of responsibility as a child, other than that, I have nothing else to think about.

On February [-]th, Eight Thousand Qingqi, headed by Deputy General Liu and Gu Yu, quietly left the city from the east, and then turned to the northeast.

On February [-], the enemy army attacked the city that night, and the Song army suffered more than [-] casualties, but the city was not broken.

On February [-], the enemy army attacked overnight, and the Song army suffered more than [-] casualties, and the city was not broken.

On February [-], the enemy invaded on a large scale, and the Song army suffered more than [-] casualties, and the city gate was almost lost.

The author has something to say:

How should I put it, girls are past the age of 20~

What comes next, studies?cause?Life?even marriage?

Because I don’t want to compromise, I urgently want to be financially independent and live my own life~

Dreams and writing can only be put on hold temporarily. Sometimes I read the comments and find that the students are still warm~

I will code well, if I have time, I will code a little more, and you also live well, take a look when you have time, best wishes~