Long shed for thousands of miles

(22)

The lights in the operating room were always on, and the dull and oppressive light shrouded his head, making it painful.

Wen Ruyi sat sideways on the bench, facing the operating room, wanting to look across the red light, the surrounding green lights were shining on Lu Xiaofu.She kept her eyes closed all the time, her eyeliner was drawn slightly and long, and she looked very tired, as if she had just experienced an unsatisfactory conversation.

After a while she said in a hoarse voice: "Then what should I do? I don't know what to do. The more I look at him, the more I think of Ji You. My relative is Ji You, not Wen Xue."

Wen Ruyi's face was sober, and she finally showed the old look she should have at her age. After a moment of silence, she said:

"You're still young."

However, Lu Xiaofu thought of a movie he had seen, and said in the same way: "I'm not young anymore, I'm only getting older."

Wen Ruyi seemed to disagree, but she didn't say anything. She had already understood Ji You's affairs thoroughly before, and she knew very well that all the joy in the rest of her life would be allocated to that child like shares. This is what she owed him. of.

"When he finally... walked away..."

Wen Ruyi struggled to choose words, there were too many things recently, just when she was scratching her head and wanted to ask more about Ji You, Lu Xiaofu already understood, interrupted her and said:

"I don't know, he... died in the rented house, I couldn't contact him the next day, and I only—"

Lu Xiaofu kept his mouth shut, but Wen Ruyi suddenly asked:

"Do you want him to pay for his life?"

Lu Xiaofu was startled, Wen Ruyi stared at her closely, and asked again:

"Do you want Wen Xue to pay for Ji You's life?"

How fresh, this word seems to have been said to someone not long ago.

Lu Xiaofu subconsciously wanted to touch the cigarette, but remembered that he had finished smoking a pack these days, so he had to put down his hand and avoid her gaze:

"It's hard to say, but what will happen to Wen Xue...I don't care."

At this time, the door of the operating room opened, and Wen Ruyi stood up abruptly, as if she wanted to go up but didn't dare to go up. When several people pushed Wen Xue away, Wen Ruyi ran to the hospital bed and asked tremblingly:

"My son... how is he, how is he?"

Then a doctor came out and took off the mask: "Life is very big. Three ribs were broken on the side of the spine, but the kidney was not punctured, and the concussion was mild. The main reason was that the left leg lost too much blood. If it recovers well, it will not affect the rest of my life."

Wen Ruyi seemed to be discouraged suddenly, closed her eyes and knelt down, trembling silently, the doctor rushed to help her, Wen Ruyi grabbed his clothes and barely stopped:

"Can I see him? Can I?"

"Okay, but the anesthesia hasn't passed yet."

"Oh... good..." Wen Ruyi responded repeatedly, wanting to smile gratefully, but opened her mouth but tasted the salty tears, and then realized that her emotions were out of control, and quickly apologized.

After the doctor left, Wen Ruyi looked up and found that Lu Xiaofu had been looking at her.It seems to be analyzing something in detail, and finally tasted a trace of enviable ingredients from it.

The silent and meticulous chewing envy, after Wen Ruyi looked at her, still hadn't had time to take it back.

Wen Ruyi: "What are you looking at?"

"I didn't see anything." Lu Xiaofu turned his eyes away, "I was just thinking that if you could share some of your feelings for Wen Xue with his lover, Ji You wouldn't die."

Wen Ruyi looked at her with probing eyes, and asked slowly: "Ji You... died of stomach cancer, didn't he?"

As long as Ji You was mentioned, Wen Ruyi's spine, which was always straight, seemed to be an inch shorter in an instant. Lu Xiaofu could distinguish her subtle changes, so he responded very harshly.

It's just that she was silent for a long time this time, perhaps because she didn't decide whether to satirize Wen Ruyi's pitiful confidence first, or give her an affirmative answer based on the facts, or the answer to this matter itself is hard to describe.

"No... not quite."

Facing Wen Ruyi's eyes that suddenly widened, she smiled, which was probably a strange smile, because tears rolled out of her eye sockets immediately after.

"He didn't move any of the money you called. He would rather rely on his meager royalties for food, clothing, housing and transportation. It was very difficult at first, and he didn't make any money in the first month, and then he slowly earned several hundred yuan. .”

"And he stopped writing novels one month before his death. His last article, which recorded the story between him and Wen Xue, used all his real names, so it was impossible to publish."

"He didn't publish it, and I didn't even tell you. It was on file when I found out about it. He stopped generating income for himself a long time ago..."

"If he didn't die of illness, he would starve to death. It's true that he didn't kill himself immediately, but he didn't intend to live."

"I often wondered why someone would choose to punish themselves with such a death method of cannibalism. Later, I figured it out, because Ji You was also very confused and confused at that time, and he didn't know what to do."

"The source of this confusion is that he... really can't wait, but he loves your son so much." Lu Xiaofu couldn't help crying, but she stared at Wen with eyes full of tears. Ruyi, her original intention was to capture the shock and remorse on Wen Ruyi's face, but in the end, her eyes were blurred and she couldn't tell anything.

"That's why he stopped working for his livelihood and bet his entire future on Wen Xue. If he waits, he will live, but if he doesn't, he will die—fortunately, stomach cancer took him away, at least To avoid the pain of knowing the truth."

"He didn't wait for anything after all."

Lu Xiaofu wiped away tears indiscriminately, looking at Wen Ruyi's eyes widened in shock and her lips trembling in pain, she wanted to smile triumphantly, but she couldn't, because she didn't know why, her The heart is also throbbing, trying to feel and distinguish, and find that it's not just for Ji You.

Who else could it be for?

Lu Xiaofu gritted her teeth and clenched her fist. If Wen Ruyi hadn't been right in front of her eyes, she would have hit her heart with her fist, ordering it to stop the ridiculous throbbing.

Wen Ruyi covered her mouth, closed her eyes tightly and cried bitterly, the dull cry hit her palm, and after a few back and forth bumps, it flew out leisurely and reached Lu Xiaofu's ears.

Wen Ruyi fell down on the bench beside her, and Lu Xiaofu looked at her indifferently, without saying a word.

Maybe when Wen Xue wakes up, she should go in and tell him how desperate Ji You was at the end, and the idea of ​​suicide, if you add the sentence "Ji You already died for you, why don't you pay your life back to him?" ?” is even better.

As soon as this idea came out, Wen Ruyi seemed to hear it, and asked in a hoarse voice:

"You won't tell Wen Xue, will you?"

joke.Why does everyone think that Wen Xue is her brother, and it is worth her racking her brains to try and make him happy.

"Why do you think I won't say it?"

"You...are a good girl and don't want to make others feel bad all the time."

Lu Xiaofu almost laughed, "Ms. Wen, did you forget that I lied to your son, tricked him to come to Hangzhou and told him the truth, causing him to go racing on the mountain and get into a car accident?"

"Because your affection for Ji You is too deep."

"Nonsense! Ji You is my brother, the best person to me!" Lu Xiaofu waved his hands violently, then pressed his right hand with his left hand, and yelled at her in a suppressed voice.

On the contrary, Wen Ruyi smiled, a smile that she often showed after she and Wen Xue settled their suspicions.

"Emotions are interlinked. You will do this because Ji You's death has made you feel guilty all the time, so you can't help but want to transfer it to others. Now the guilt will be exhausted."

"Indefinitely, I've been—"

"Maybe not, but for the rest, you know better than me that you have to bear it yourself. If you add it to others, it will only lead to a new round of pain."

Wen Ruyi continued, "Actually, you also feel sorry for Wen Xue, he loves Ji You very much."

"Fucking love" Lu Xiaofu yelled with red eyes, "He's too late!"

"It's late, but you can't deny this love. Everyone in love is entitled to make mistakes, but some can be reunited, and some miss it."

Lu Xiaofu closed his eyes.

Wen Ruyi said: "That's why you kept crying yesterday. I'm also a woman. I can tell why you were crying. Is it really just remembering Ji You's death? Is there a point because they missed it?"

At this time, the medical staff came out and gestured to her, indicating that Wen Xue was awake, and that family members who wanted to visit could go in now.

Wen Ruyi took out a tissue to wipe her eyes, and she didn't look at Lu Xiaofu's reaction anymore. She wanted to go in and see her son with a deft, arrogant attitude that could withstand the collapse of the sky, and she couldn't collapse at this time.

After Wen Ruyi entered, Lu Xiaofu finally couldn't hold on anymore, and squatted on the ground along the wall.

"What to do... what to do, Ji You."