Long shed for thousands of miles

(One)

"Me, I'm just a poor groom and official. I rent a BMW as a wedding car with two months' salary. The wedding photos are all patchwork. I guess I have to hold a 120-pound girl to forcefully swear an oath."

"And you finally found a lady of the right family—I don't understand why women in the upper class have the bonus of big breasts, thin skin, fair skin, and beauty?"

"The thought of you going out with that bitch and swearing in front of a church pew I've never touched in my life—my liver hurts and I want to kill her father."

Ji You typed a lot in one breath, read it back, and typed a sentence sadly:

"Just kidding, if this is the case, I really fucking wish you a happy wedding, Wen Xue, I wish you better than anyone else."

After Ji You finished typing the epilogue of this article, he looked at the word count in the lower right corner, it was 5800.

He still clicked and put it in the manuscript box.

Ji You didn't go to university after graduating from high school. Firstly, he didn't like going to school, and secondly, he didn't learn anything for him.Just kidding, the entire high school career and half of my life are in Wen Xue's hands, and it's not the 80s and [-]s, where can I find a cheap university for him to study.

The principal was so busy running away when he saw him, that he was declared "no big day" since kindergarten. In junior high school, he was scolded by different teachers in the corridor all day long. Even the security guards in the security room had the right to roll their eyes when they saw him. status.

When they heard that he was the only person who failed to enter the university since the establishment of A Middle School, many key teachers and administrative staff were relieved, and the school's reputation was also lost. They all agreed that if such a guy was admitted to the university, they would be ashamed Where to put it.

Ji You didn't care much about this, he happily rolled home and played for half a month, and after the results came out, he stuck to Wen Xue and asked him where he was going to study.

Then, like a father and a mother, I stayed up for several nights, went to various forums to watch the information of several place names given by Wen Xue, and rigorously checked the rental housing information near the famous local schools.

"Wen Xue, when you go to college, I will rent a house next to you and live in it, so that I can come out to play with you on weekends, what do you think?"

What Wen Xue said at the time.

"Don't even think about it." Wen Xue kissed him domineeringly, like a wolf dog who doesn't know how to satisfy himself, and then let go of him, pointing the tip of her nose to his, and pounced on his face with every breath, "I'll come When buying a house, it doesn’t matter if it’s close to the school or not, I want to live with you.”

Ji You smiled so much that his eyes turned into crescent moons, and he pointed his nose to his nose, grinning and arching his nose, deforming his nose, but he didn't know that his own nose was also deformed: "That's fine, I want to write on the Internet. The novel makes money, and I will pay your rent when the time comes."

"You still write novels?"

Ji You didn't want others to look down on him, so he groaned and said: "It will be very good, I can still use the manuscript fee to keep you a dog. Damn it."

"Hahaha..." Wen Xue laughed loudly, stepped forward to wrap his arms around his waist, kissed him, and whispered that she loved him.

Ji You lit another cigarette, and when the smell of tobacco filled his nostrils, he withdrew from his memories.

It's been five years, and he just can't forget it.

Even if there is no contact, you can guess how well Wen Xue lived in Harbin. With his looks and figure, there are as many girls as you want, even if you throw them away after playing, there are rows of beautiful girls kneeling on the ground singing hurt rise.

He's just a third-rate Internet writer, a gentleman who writes novels in rented rooms every day, and he's not ashamed to write romance novels.

"Ding--"

Ji You's cell phone beside him rang, he went over to look, it was an unfamiliar number, a series of 8's.

Yo, it's auspicious.

Ji You smiled heartlessly, and picked it up, with a cigarette still in his mouth: "Who is it? If you want to pay money, just hang up, I don't know where to find someone to ask for money."

There was a long silence in the receiver, and a female voice said, "It's me."

Ji You's body stiffened, and his five fingers holding the phone slowly tightened.

"Oh, Aunt Wen, what's the matter?"

Wen Ruyi said: "No, I just want to ask how you are doing, have you used all the money I gave you?"

Ji You said with a smile: "It's not that good. As for the money, it's really hard for you to keep calling me for so many years. I'll keep it for you. It's better to wait until I die and burn it to me sooner."

"..." Wen Ruyi said a little bit, she was very afraid that Ji You would not use his money, and finally drove this little bastard Ji You away from her son, she always wanted something to hold him firmly , to prevent him from making a comeback and harming Wen Xue again.

"Ji You, what nonsense are you talking about..."

"Yo yo, you are the one. If you transfer so much money to me, aren't you afraid that I will buy a plane ticket to fly to Harbin and reunite with Wen Xue?"

Wen Ruyi was trembling with anger: "Do you know shame—"

"It doesn't matter, anyway, I'm shameless." Ji You raised his legs vigorously on the chair, if it wasn't for his small face and thin body, he would really look like a gangster, with smoke rings circling Rise up, with a face covered, as if unable to breathe.

After he finished speaking with a playful smile, there was a busy tone from the phone.

Ji You also hung up the phone, collapsed on the chair, pinched the phone nervously, and his smile faded like an ebb.

"Wen Xue? Why are you going to Harbin?"

"Because there is snow, don't you like snow?"

Ji You heard that this happy man was going to die, but he still looked at him meanly.

Ghosts like snow, I like you.

"Hiss—" Ji You recalled Wen Xue, and couldn't stop bending down in pain, clutching his heart with great strength, as if trying to pull it out.

It hurts.

Ji You thought fiercely.Your mother is annoying, she keeps bullying me, you know that?

"Ugh." Ji You suddenly covered his mouth, stumbled all the way to the toilet, and vomited all over the place holding the toilet.

After Ji You vomited with his eyes closed, he touched the back seat of the toilet and flushed. He hesitated before rushing, and opened his eyes to take a look.

A piece of shocking red, sometimes a little thick black, rolled up a small vortex, sinking hopelessly.

Ji You quickly closed his eyes, as if he would be dragged into it if he took a second look.

He leaned against the damp moss-covered wall of the rented house, and took quick breaths to calm his violently heaving chest.

I'm going to die.

Influenced by the people around him, Ji You never thought of dying even when he was penniless and his chest was stuck to his back for three days.When I was drunk and sleepless in front of the computer for several nights, I never thought that I would die.

After Wen Xue left, he was taken to the hospital by Lu Xiaofu. When he was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer, he didn't think he would die.

He felt that stomach cancer was not as good as gastritis. Gastritis hurts so much that he would die or live. On the contrary, his stomach cancer didn't hurt or obstruct him.

In fact, he couldn't eat and was getting thinner and thinner. He should have known it earlier.

Just like the college entrance examination, he shouldn't put his whole body and mind on one person, and his heart and eyes are full of Wen Xue, so that he has no way out in the end.

If I knew it was like this, it was like a dream, so I wouldn't put all my love in the same place.

He used to think this line was disgusting, but now he thinks it's really right.

Lu Xiaofu cried so hard that his heart broke, he was more sad than his own death, she grabbed the certificate issued by the hospital and gritted her teeth, her manicured sharp and long nails seemed to scratch through the walls of the hospital.

"Do you still have Wen Xue's contact information? I'm going to show him this."

"What's the use of photographing him?"

Lu Xiaofu cried again, the false eyelashes fell off and stuck to his cheeks, like a joke: "Let him come back to see you, okay?"

"Not good." Ji You said honestly, if I was really going to die, I would not let Wen Xue know.

Lu Xiaofu shook off his hand, and suddenly said coldly and incredulously, "Why? Don't tell me you still love him."

"Of course I love him." Ji You bent down and touched the 17-year-old girl's head, "I've only met him, okay, but I don't long for his love anymore."

Ji You thought he was comforting her, but Lu Xiaofu cried harder.

"Ji You, why are you so stupid? If you die, let me die first. I heard that after a woman dies, as long as she is angry, she can turn into a ghost."

Ji You was terrified, he was most afraid of ghosts, "Who are you asking for your life?"

Lu Xiaofu had a name on his lips three times, looked at Ji You's face, but didn't say it, and finally stomped on the ground angrily.

"Don't ask anyone for your life! Go to Yan Wang for accommodation and ask him to treat you better."

"That's good." Ji You calmly took the diagnosis form in Lu Xiaofu's hand, and after a while woke up like a dream:

"No, do I have to go to hell?!"

Thinking about it, Ji You leaned against the wall, covering his mouth and laughing out loud.

Lu Xiaofu is a good girl, but her parents divorced early.She was brought up by her grandma, she has suffered a lot, and she has a strange temper, most people don't get along with her.

She is also the only one who cares about herself right now.

After flushing the toilet, Ji You went to the sink to wash his hands in a daze, while raising his head to look at his face in the mirror.

He looked at the mirror and it suddenly became foggy. He stretched out his hand and wiped it away for a long time, only to realize that his vision was blurred.

Ji You knelt down on the ground along the sink, trembling, closed his eyes, and slammed on the back of his hand. After a long while he stood up on the platform, the soles of his feet suddenly felt light, but his whole body was unexpectedly full of strength.

He shook his head vigorously, and stared at the person in the mirror. In the mirror, he was a thin and handsome young man with long hair, but his facial features were well-behaved and his face was clean.

It's just scary thin, like a hanger with only four limbs, hanging a piece of clothing empty.

Ji You didn't dare to look any further, took a deep breath, and walked to the door of the bathroom.

Suddenly the world was spinning, his eyes went dark, and when he realized it, he had already fallen to the ground. He trembled twice like a dying fish, and finally stretched out his hand forward, as if to grab the bathroom door and stand up by himself, or as if I was about to hold my lover's hand, firm and looking forward to it.

But in the end he didn't, the person who took him to escape had already let him be torn to pieces by the cheetah.

A mouthful of fishy sweetness gushed out of Ji You's throat, and he had nowhere to hide under the warm yellow light in the bathroom. What a strange person, who didn't care much about this rented house that barely called his home, but spent money to put all his The lights were all replaced with warm yellow.

To some extent, it's like a girl who is full of swear words and can be cold, but likes to use pink mobile phone screensavers and buy pink and tender dolls at home.

Many years ago, I had a trip with Wen Xue and lived in a high-end hotel.

Ji You had never traveled far, and was so excited that he followed Wen Xue stickily all the time. Wen Xue washed her hair and took a bath, and he also followed the bathroom every step of the way.

Wen Xue had no choice but to take the shampoo and bury her head in the sink to rinse.

The lean and strong muscles on the young man's shoulders bulged slightly, and he kept scooping up water and pouring it on both sides of his hair, the sound of running water was long and lingering.

Ji You leaned against the door to watch, Wen Xue raised her head from time to time and looked at him in the mirror, and didn't care if the water from the shampoo was flowing into her eyes.

Ji You smiled like an idiot, he pointed his phone to the mirror awkwardly for a long time, and fixed the scene.

This photo was later developed by Ji You, looking at it repeatedly, his fingers rubbed it white.

Ji You thought, when the photo becomes whiter, throw it away, since no one is around, it's boring to look at this photo.

So the degree of whitening of that photo broke Ji You's bottom line again and again, all in all, he just didn't want to throw it away.

I have heard such a line of lyrics: a sentence is sung from jerky to proficient, and a song is sung from affectionate to perfunctory.

I used to think so, but now I don't think so, Ji You has seen that photo tens of thousands of times, the more I want to look at it, the more I don't get tired of it.

At the beginning, I shed tears spinelessly, in the middle period, I shed tears intermittently, and finally stared at it again, the eye sockets seemed to be locked, and the tears just couldn't fall.

But there seemed to be a gap in my heart, and every time I looked at it, I used a needle to draw a needle of blood from the eye of my heart.

Gradually, he suspected that his heart and eyes were full of gaps, and the countless gaps put together finally opened up his heart. Since then, a dark hole the size of a bowl has grown in his heart, and there is no cure for it.

Miss him, want to scold him.Because that person started to love him in his own way, and because he loved him too much, he ended up using the old ways he learned from everywhere to please him.

In that photo, the characters can no longer be seen clearly, but Ji You clearly remembers every moment at that time.

Wen Xue bent down and wiped her face with her head buried. He stood behind him with a smirk, and the orange light above his head came down. The two of them were like a family, full of life.

Ji You likes that photo because it is full of life.

It makes people feel that it will not expire and last forever.

Ji You lay on the ground, tears rolled down his face like a knife blade.

Wenxue, I also installed warm yellow lights later, why can't we go back to the past?

When his consciousness was blurred, Ji You looked back at the empty sink like masochistic, as if his young lover was still standing in front of the stage, and when he smiled at him, the shampoo slipped into his eyes along the ends of his hair.

I love you, I began to hate that there is no way in this world to truly dedicate my soul to you except death. When I make love, I long to be young for a lifetime. When I hug you, I wish I could grow old instantly.

If there is still a chance, I want to ask you, Wen Xue, why did you let go?

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