she has two faces

Chen Qianzhan's home is well-equipped, but Xu Deng doesn't like watching literary films very much. Today, Chen Qianzhan watched a little before. She saw that Jiang Di had no intention of changing, so she just watched it boringly.

Literary and artistic romance films are a kind of torment for her. When the soundtrack and the heavily filtered scenery flashed before her eyes, she was already sleepy, not to mention the long monologues in it.The self-analysis of the crush can't move her at all, maybe she is a person who is not easy to be moved.

There are too few things that can resonate, love will basically not resonate, and there are many manifestations of the inner turbulence on the surface, and she has become calm and indifferent to her own state.

I have something I want, but that kind of want is not very strong. If it is a material thing, then just work hard to make money and buy it for yourself.

In terms of spirituality, I don’t have it for the time being. She is quite content. When she grows up, she still spends the longest time alone with herself. She needs to understand a little bit in her own space and grow up with a little “understanding”.

But the only flawed relationship in this process, in fact, can't be called a flaw...

She stared at the projected image in a daze.

It's just a dissatisfaction.

If it is cut off halfway, before it can grow freely, it will die at the hands of others first.

At that time, she thought she would be very sad, but she didn't expect that it was only three or four months, and she didn't feel much. She thought about it occasionally, and thought about it when she saw something related. There is no lingering ambiguity at the beginning.

It is unexpected to be able to sit together and watch a movie calmly now. After all, she had the idea that she might not see this person at first, and she would panic subconsciously when she saw this person suddenly, but after a while, it was like It's back to normal.

This movie is just plain boring.

Xu Deng narrowed his eyes when he looked at him. Jiang Di was actually observing the other party. Seeing the sleepiness on Xu Deng's face, she wanted to laugh. She touched Xu Deng's arm and said, "Go to sleep when you are sleepy." ?”

Xu Deng was made softer by this touch, fell to the side and yawned, scratched his hair, "What about you?"

"Are you sleeping in that room these days?"

Xu Deng pointed.

"No, I slept in your room."

Jiang Di smiled and said that she had lost a lot of weight, her chin was pointed, and she was still very pale. In such a dark environment, she was even more bloodless, a bit obvious and pitiful.

But what he said made Xu Deng cry out.

Seeing the person in front of him, Jiang Di opened his eyes wide again, opened his mouth slightly, and smiled with a frightened half-death look, "I lied to you."

Xu Deng: "You."

Still like to scare people so much.

"Then I'll lie down for a while."

Xu Deng turned around and was about to leave when Jiang Di suddenly called out to her, "Xu Dengdeng."

She lay on the cushion of the sofa, just holding her chin and looking at Xu Deng.

After a long absence, Xu Deng turned his head and asked, "What's wrong?"

In the past, when Jiang Di called that, she would reply speechlessly: "What are you doing!"

But after all, they are not the kind of relationship they used to be, and the childishness that both sides deliberately made in high school has faded away, and it has become a kind of back and forth between adults.

"Can I chase you again?"

Jiang Di looked at Xu Deng. When she said this, she was smiling. Her lips were thin, and the corners of her mouth were slightly raised. In fact, it was the same when she was not smiling. It was probably a kind of natural smiling lips.

Xu Deng was very calm, "I disagree, will you give up?"

She stood lazily and yawned again, her eyes were filled with tears because of sleepiness, as if she had heard something that had nothing to do with her.

"Nope."

"That's whatever you want."

In fact, Xu Deng doesn't really want to fall in love anymore. The days when he and Jiang Di were together because of mutual grievances added to it, so it seemed special. Both of them need each other's intimacy to create an illusion of never being apart. , but it is different now, they are all adults, and they are not under the compulsory control of their parents, and they are not as vulnerable emotionally as before.

When I look back, I always feel that I was so stupid at that time, wept secretly because I didn’t get attention, and I was grateful for a little love.

Sometimes a period of time is enough for people to mature and have a sense of security, and only the material they have obtained can afford it.

Love is just an adjustment in life, not an important thing.

Jiang Di was not unhappy when she heard the expected answer, at least Xu Deng didn't reject her clearly and resolutely.

She still looked at Xu Deng like that, and there was no longer the bitch that Xu Deng hated before, and the deliberate gentleness between her brows. She seemed to have completely abandoned the shell she used to put on her body, revealing her true nature. Herself.

"Then can I kiss you?"

Jiang Di climbed up the pole.

Xu Deng glanced at her condescendingly, "Go kiss yourself."

After she finished speaking, she turned and entered the room.

After the door was slammed shut, Jiang Di restrained her smiling expression, she frowned, she didn't know what to think, and smiled again.

While the movie was still playing, she turned off the projector and fell down on the soft sofa. In fact, at that moment just now, she wished she could jump up and press Xu Deng against the wall to kiss wildly.

Tore off the loose T-shirt, tore off the chest wrap inside, and stretched his hands up from the other party's slender waist, wishing that their skin would be close to each other, their lips and teeth intertwined, and vent their loneliness and anxiety over the years.

But she has to take it easy.

In such a long time, the only thing she has learned is patience.

Everything before was rushed, so that the "I won't regret it" now seems to make her sneer.

But it is impossible to turn back time, she can only choose to lie dormant and plunder the person she wants.

The kind of feeling you want.

Xu Deng didn't find anything wrong with Jiang Di, she was always too lazy to observe others, and after not looking for the feelings she wanted in others, she completely became a self-centered person, betting a lot, learning from this and that.

I was very tired after a day of exams today, because I had to review at night the day before, so Xu Deng fell asleep on the bed for a while with a dizzy head.

I woke up thirsty halfway, and when I went out to pour water, I found it was two o'clock in the morning.

The living room was very quiet. The little guy in the cat nest meowed and shrank back.

The boiling water was scalding hot, so Xu Deng simply went to brush his teeth first, and when he came out after washing his face, he was still scalded half to death, so he sat at the table and waited for the water to cool down.

I'm always dizzy in the middle of my sleep.

The door was opened suddenly, Xu Deng glanced back subconsciously, Chen Qianzhan walked in with a helmet in his hand, saw Xu Deng's appearance, and asked, "Are you thinking about life?"

Xu Deng glanced at the familiar helmet, "Did you drive there in my car?"

"Yeah, let's go play."

Chen Qianzhan still has the habit of racing cars. They are a group of young people who play in the wilderness late at night. Xu Deng also goes there occasionally, but she doesn't like occasions where a group of people are noisy, and now she doesn't even occasionally up.

"Then be careful, you're drunk and driving."

She still felt that kind of activity was too exciting, and she lost an arm and broke a leg if she was not careful.

So I added, "You're almost three years old."

Chen Qianzhan threw the helmet towards her, opened the refrigerator and took a can of Coke, "It's still a few years before you're thirty, sister."

She pulled out the chair and sat next to Xu Deng. Seeing the cup of boiling water in front of him, she pushed the Coke she had just opened over, "Drink this."

Xu Deng shook his head, "I want to drink water."

Chen Qianzhan sighed and asked, "Then when will you have to wait?"

"Blow it and it will cool down."

"Is Jiang Di asleep?" Chen Qianzhan asked after taking a few sips.

"Ah."

Xu Deng propped his face in his hands, staring at the steaming glass, Chen Qianzhan suddenly asked: "Are you going to start over?"

Xu Deng shook his head.

"I don't really feel like talking right now."

"Oh," Chen Qianzhan went to the kitchen to wash his hands, "Is it because I don't feel it or is it a wait-and-see state?"

"I don't know how to say it, and I can't describe it."

Xu Deng, with his hair covered, was blowing the water on his own. Chen Qianzhan felt that this girl was really too cold at heart, so Jiang Di seemed a little humane.

"Old man."

Xu Deng looked up at Chen Qianzhan.

The woman probably splashed her face just now, and her face was still wet, so she hummed and looked back at her.

"You are in love now, do you like that person very much?"

"I don't like it."

Chen Qianzhan was very straightforward. She rubbed Xu Deng's head that looked like a bird's nest after sleeping, "It's the kind of people who are together and fixed."

"You are not very fixed, chatting every day."

"Have I chatted with you?" Chen Qianzhan was a little speechless, "It's hard to think about liking or not liking at such an age. Since I think it's okay to be together, let's go together."

"If you think it's not enough, then we will separate."

"That's too casual."

"Aren't you and Xiao Dai also like this, are you embarrassed to say it?"

Xu Deng was speechless when he thought of his silly ex-boyfriend.

"Too."

"Then Jiang Di said he wanted to chase me."

Xu Deng and Chen Qianzhan actually chatted quite a bit. During the summer vacation when she came to S City, she spent almost all of her time with Chen Qianzhan, and Xu Shu also followed. Ye Xia was very busy with work and couldn't control them, big and small. Chen Qianzhan was almost troubled.

It was also Chen Qianzhan who took her to report on the university.

Although she feels quite independent, if one day Chen Qianzhan leaves or the two of them don't contact each other, she will definitely not be used to it.

Just like now, she still tells Chen Qianzhan about some distressing things. Some words will be very uncomfortable if she holds them in for a long time, and she feels hypocritical when she writes them out. Someone said it was good.

"I knew it."

Chen Qianzhan smiled, "She probably can't let you go, I don't understand."

She takes care of a lot of people, and what she cares about is the heart of an old mother. This kind of tender girlish feelings has never been for her, so it is difficult to resonate with her.

"I didn't feel anything when I heard it."

"Do you think I'm too indifferent, I don't have any passion, just like an old lady."

Chen Qianzhan laughed, "Don't, the old lady dancing in the square across the street is more passionate than you. After you lose your spouse, you still have to find a partner."

She drank half a can of coke and thought it was too sweet, so she took a sip from Xu Deng's cup instead.

"But I don't feel anything when I fall in love with a man."

"Where's the girl?"

"I've only talked to Jiang Di about women."

"Then you kissed, hugged and hugged the man and didn't feel it?"

"It's annoying."

Xu Deng frowned, she was very annoyed by the seemingly prescriptive intimacy defined in love, like checking in.

"You haven't been in love a few times, Xu Deng," Chen Qianzhan sighed, "I told you to talk more."

"I do not want."

Xu Deng shook her head, she took a sip of water, "It's so boring."

"You are really a child, more innocent than your sister."

Chen Qianzhan understood what Xu Deng wanted, "Your sister hasn't asked for so much, as long as she looks good."

Xu Deng smiled, "So it's easy to live like this."

"Then what kind of heart-pounding feeling do you want, I'm getting tired of it," Chen Qianzhan paused, "Then kiss a few more people, maybe just bang, what kind of description, um... get fired A shot?"

"That's probably dead."

Xu Deng smiled, "I shouldn't ask you about this kind of love that thousands of people killed."

The woman took off her coat and stood up, "Then you don't look like anyone else can consult."

"right."

Xu Deng gulped down half a glass of water.

Suddenly I heard Chen Qianzhan say, "Then let me help you find the feeling."

She groaned and turned her head to ask what she meant, when someone pinned her shoulder suddenly, and then...

Chen Qianzhan touched his lips lightly.

"?"

Xu Deng looked bewildered.

Chen Qianzhan couldn't take it anymore, "Oh no, I really can't accept it."

Xu Deng was even more speechless.

"Then what are you doing?" She felt that Chen Qianzhan still smelled like Coke, and couldn't help but drink up the rest of the water, "You have never seen such a singing and tongue kissing with Sister Jing and the others in the bar. "

"That's probably because they are all married women, and they wouldn't have sex with me anyway."

Xu Deng: "Me neither."

Chen Qianzhan: "Me too."

She calmed down, and finally leaned on the wine cabinet, and said, "I don't want to meddle in your business anymore, you can think about it yourself, alas, I have to take a shower first."

This is the straight girl of steel.

Xu Deng watched Chen Qianzhan go back to the room, and the room was quiet again. She washed the cups, and when she returned to the room to close the door, suddenly the door was pushed.

She thought it was Chen Qianzhan, so she didn't look up, and said to herself, "Didn't you go back to the house, is there anything else?"

"I have something to do."

The voice was very familiar, Xu Deng raised his eyes and saw that it was Jiang Di.

The other party was wearing pajamas, so he buttoned two buttons, the two on the chest.

"what……"

Before Xu Deng finished speaking, Jiang Di pushed him into the room. The other party was so angry that he couldn't allow Xu Deng to ask why, so Jiang Di took Xu Deng's face and kissed it.

Very viciously pro-French.

All of a sudden, some long-term memories of Xu Deng were brought back.

Even the smell of blood is exactly the same.

She wanted to push Jiang Di away, but as soon as she stretched out her hand, Jiang Di grabbed him and pressed him on the other's chest.

Jiang Di gasped in Xu Deng's ear, and said in a begging tone——

The author has something to say: "Xu Deng, don't want me."

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Thank you for your ability to dig holes and fill them in, Chi Chi, Tang Jia Azhuo, Xiao Wu, Shining, The sky is so big but I can’t see it clearly, Going to Things, Aliens, Xiao Wu’s Landmines -3-

Thank you also for the deep.water.fish.thunder of the wolf's summer -3-

And Ah Zhi's long comment!Very touched!Send a red envelope with tears zzz

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I won’t explain why Jiang Di is so low-profile, I think I still have an explanation... (whispering softly) Personal opinion -w-

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"The Plain of Departure" - New Social Man