she has two faces

Xu Deng still wanted to meet Jiang Di.

She always had a hunch in her heart that they were probably going to separate.

It's not the separation of two people who are blocked by external forces like now, but a separation that is more ruthless than breaking up.

Or if one person wants to stop, the other should continue to stop.

She thought for a long time, and finally called Chen Qianzhan to ask for Chen Xintang's mobile phone number, but she called Chen Qianzhan in the morning, and the other party only called in the evening, and she seemed to have just woken up when she picked up. After saying “excuse me”, Chen Qianzhan was very embarrassed, “You are welcome, I am a bit busy recently, and when I stop, I want to sleep to death, I am so tired, I will send you Xiaotang’s number later .”

After Chen Qianzhan finished speaking, he coughed shockingly for a while. Xu Deng felt that it was not good to hang up so hastily, so he asked politely, "Do you have a cold?"

Chen Qianzhan hummed, "Something happened recently."

Her voice was also hoarse, so Xu Deng said "oh" and didn't ask too much.

Chen Xintang hesitated after hearing Xu Deng's request, but finally agreed and asked Xu Deng to wait for him for a while.

Ten minutes after hanging up the phone, Xu Deng realized that Chen Xintang's hesitation was probably because of her brother Jiang Di.

Xu Deng immediately called to let Chen Xintang not be embarrassed, but when he got through, a young man's clear voice came: "I asked, Jiang Di is in the hospital affiliated to Beiyuan, third floor, room 1318, if you want to go, just A little later, Brother Yuan will be there after eight o'clock, um... Also, Jiang Di is already awake, don't worry."

Chen Xintang was outside at the moment, carrying the egg waffle he just bought, walking a bit fast, for fear that it would be cold when he returned home.

He was in a good mood, and he didn't have the embarrassment of having called Jiang Yuan, and he was a little happy, probably because he hadn't talked to the other party for a long time, and suddenly he had a reason, even if he repeatedly emphasized that he would be hated by the other party, He still couldn't hide his delight.

Xu Deng said several thanks in succession.

She looked at the watch on the wall. It was only after five o'clock. At noon, she went shopping with Xu Shu, an annoying spirit who twittered. It was still very early, and Ye Xia was cooking in the kitchen, and she didn't know what to do when she came out, and finally planned to go back to her room.

Being stopped by Xu Shu, Xu Shu sat on a small bench and pulled out celery leaves, very dissatisfied that she was sent alone, so she had to call Xu Deng.

"Sister, come and help me!"

Xu Deng glanced at her, "No help."

Xu Shu was about to cry, make trouble, and hang herself, but before she took a deep breath and began to perform, Xu Deng came over and sat next to her.

She opened her mouth wide, and Xu Deng's solemnity was eaten away by her opening her mouth. Finally, she sighed and bent her fingers at Xu Shu.

Xu Shu tilted her head tactfully: "What are you doing?"

She was special on the road, her tone was very cooperative, and she seemed sneaky.

"I want to go out at night, you take a cover."

"Bah, didn't you mean to watch a movie together at night?"

Xu Shu glanced at Xu Deng suspiciously. She still remembered the low air pressure of this person at noon, and finally restrained her loud voice a little bit, "Where are you going? How can I cover you? I will definitely be with my mother." .”

"No, I'll leave right away. You just need to explain it to your mother. She will trust you more."

Xu Deng also lied very smoothly. Xu Shu squinted her eyes, finally smiled, and stretched out her hand, "How much cover fee, boss?"

"How many did you say?"

Xu Deng picked up the celery in the basket and picked off the leaves, and asked cooperatively.

"Forget it, forget it, next time you invite me to eat that cheese rib, I'm going to the one in Dongyu Lane."

"make a deal."

Xu Shu giggled, looked at Ye Xia who was cooking in the kitchen, and finally snatched the celery from Xu Deng's hand, "Come on, you."

Xu Deng smiled and stroked Xu Shu's ponytail with a hand that smelled like celery, "I'll bring you boule milk tea when I come back."

Xu Shu subconsciously said, "Less sugar, more ice cubes."

"Damn it, why are you rubbing celery juice on my head!"

She picked up the celery leaves and was about to smash Xu Deng, but Xu Deng had already slipped into the bathroom to wash his hands, then quickly took her hat from the coat rack and went out.

Very fast.

Xu Shu was dumbfounded.

She resigned herself to her fate and sat down on the small bench, choosing vegetables with a look of lovelessness, and when Ye Xia came out with the fried tomatoes, she said weakly: "Mom, sister is out, she has a class reunion tonight." .”

She is very experienced in lying, Ye Xia said, "When did you leave?"

"It's been a few minutes."

"Doesn't this kid know to tell me?" Ye Xia muttered, "The class reunion is still temporary..."

Xu Shu heard it and coughed, "I probably forgot to tell you."

"Then when will she come back? Is there still time to see it?"

"Come on, it must be too late, then we can take Xu Deng's place to put the popcorn bucket."

"..."

Chen Xintang said it was eight o'clock, Xu Deng thought about it and came out first, so as to save the trouble of sneaking out after watching the movie.

It was very windy and whistling outside, and I didn't know if it would snow in a few days. Xu Deng wore a red and white striped hat, and the zipper of his cotton jacket was pulled up to the top, and he walked towards the bus stop with his neck hunched.

The winter vacation of high school is late, and next week will be the New Year. The streets are decorated with lights and festoons. It’s the evening rush hour, and everything is blocked except for the subway. car.

She was holding her mobile phone, with earphones plugged into her ears, and she was walking along the street with the navigation voice prompts on.

It was already dark when she reached the hospital Chen Xintang mentioned, and Xu Deng was actually a little hungry, so he bought skewers of gluten from a small stall outside the hospital, and after eating a few mouthfuls, he threw the bamboo sticks into the trash can to wipe his mouth. Then I saw a man getting out of a car.

It's Jiang Di's older brother.

Xu Deng looked at the mobile phone, it was not eight o'clock, she hurriedly followed, the tissue was not thrown into the trash can, she lowered her head to pick it up, while looking at Jiang Yuan, after throwing it, she hurriedly chased after it.

The elevator in the inpatient department was not very crowded, so she simply put the hat of the padded jacket on her head, covering half of her face, put her hands in her pockets and lowered her head into the elevator.

On the third floor, she and Jiang Yuan were the only ones who came out. The man wanted to laugh when he noticed this tightly packed person in such a well-heated room. He turned around and said to the strange man, "Xu Deng? Xiaotang and I Already said it."

Xu Deng groaned, and then raised her head suddenly. She was going to tear off the hat of the padded jacket, but she grabbed too hard and tore off her woolen hat as well. Her hair suddenly looked like a bird's nest, and she flicked it indiscriminately. , said hello brother.

Jiang Yuan smiled, and asked as he walked, "Did you come to the house this morning?"

Xu Deng hummed.

"Thank you," Jiang Yuan stopped in front of a ward, and he looked inside, "Otherwise, I don't know how long it would take for Xiaodi to be found passed out in the room."

Xu Deng followed Jiang Yuan in. Jiang Di was leaning on the pillow and watching TV. She looked lifeless at a glance. Xu Deng felt that the joking Jiang Di she saw yesterday might be an illusion.

Jiang Di seemed to be in a daze very focused, the TV was playing the latest hit TV series, Jiang Di was staring at the screen, but she didn't have any energy at all.

It wasn't until Jiang Yuan walked to the bed that she realized that she was probably about to call out, but she saw Xu Deng following behind, and finally she opened and closed her lips for a long time without saying a word, leaning on the pillow and looking sideways. With Xu Deng.

Even her lips were bloodless, but she still smiled at Xu Deng.

Xu Deng asked Jiang Yuan, "What happened to her?"

Jiang Yuan glanced at his sister distressedly, "I also just found out that my father actually gave Xiao Di some medicine to cure homosexuality."

Xu Deng couldn't believe it, "Where is this disease! Now, some people really think so?"

Jiang Yuan smiled wryly. He didn't expect that his company was very busy at the end of the year. He rushed to the hospital after receiving a call yesterday and found out that his father had been giving Jiang Di some "cure" medicine for more than half a year. Try, that kind of messy organization can also be believed, causing the little girl's health to deteriorate, and she looks very weak.

"Then Jiang Di now..."

"Brother..." Jiang Di looked at Jiang Yuan, "Let me have a few words with Dengdeng."

"It's time for Mom and Dad to come again later."

Jiang Yuan hummed, turned and went out.

The ward is a single room, and it seems to be in good condition. Jiang Di was holding a bottle in one hand. Xu Deng glanced at it and asked, "What is this?"

"Glucose, nothing else."

Jiang Di was actually groggy, and Jiang Yuan asked her when she woke up, why didn't she tell him about it, Jiang Di didn't care at first, she thought, anyway, if I eat, if I die in the end , it's all your fault anyway.

Not letting go out all day long is too long.

So much so that her thoughts about the outside world were intermittent, and she would occasionally think that she must not eat it in her drowsiness, and occasionally she would simply swallow it.

The fear of death when she was a child seems to have grown up with her, and it has also deteriorated. It has become fearless, and it has become a fearless compromise.

In the end, we still have to compete and compare who will win in the end.

But these unhealthy mentalities she knew would turn into guilt and overwhelming panic when she saw Xu Deng.

When she learned that it was Xu Deng who found her passed out, Jiang Di didn't know what emotions she had for a moment.

She felt that she was sorry for Xu Deng.

She is not a person worthy of being liked, she thought, if I were Xu Deng, I would not like this glib person who lies all day long and makes promises.

But when Xu Deng actually sat next to her, she felt that she was trembling even when she raised her hands. There was a reason for her lack of strength, and she also felt ashamed that she didn't dare to raise her head.

Xu Deng held the hand she was about to put down, and Jiang Di subconsciously raised his head to meet Xu Deng's eyes. They were so close that Jiang Di could see his outline in each other's eyes.

She thought, should I say sorry first, or act like a spoiled child?

But Xu Deng was the first to speak. She grabbed Jiang Di's hand, and the other's hand was icy cold. It was so hot in the room, but she seemed to have just touched ice.

"what's wrong with you?"

"Don't say anything, are you going to break up with me?"

Jiang Di looked away, one of her hands was wrapped in Xu Deng's palms, the heat was transmitted through the skin, she felt her heart was scalded, and began to beat faster.

"I……"

She wanted to say that I didn't, so Xu Deng sneered, "That's right, we haven't even started."

Jiang Di was most afraid of Xu Deng's appearance, all the agility she provoked was extinguished, and she turned into an inner indifference, and there was no outline of you in her eyes, as if the next moment, she would lose her head Walk away without looking back.

"I didn't say breakup."

Jiang Di hurriedly defended, she stretched out her other hand and pressed the back of Xu Deng's hand, "I just feel powerless."

She was already weak all over, and she didn't even speak as vividly as usual, she was a bit half dead, but it echoed her words.

The ward of the hospital is not warm at all, Xu Deng wanted to use his own body temperature to warm Jiang Di's hand, but Jiang Di had already pulled away his hand.

"I used to think that I was not afraid of anything. I could always survive wherever I went. Even if my dad took me back that day, I thought nothing would happen to me. I could run out to see you."

She spoke very slowly, and occasionally she was a little out of breath. Xu Deng looked at her hands on the quilt, and finally set her eyes on Jiang Di's face.

This is the Jiang Di she has never seen before. She is too fragile, as if her armor has been ruthlessly removed, revealing the scarred body inside. She is afraid of this kind of exposure, so she trembles, even pretending to be strong. can't do it.

"Occasionally, I want to die, but halfway through the attempt, I feel too painful."

"It's greedy if you have a wicked heart but not a guts." She smiled self-deprecatingly, "I just want to know the results of my torture with my parents."

"But I was tortured down, Xu Deng, I feel that I am useless at all."

"Then what do you want to do with me?"

Xu Deng didn't go to comfort Jiang Di, she clenched her hands in her pockets into fists, looked at Jiang Di's bloodless face, "You want to just let it go with me?"

"I……"

"Have you thought about it?"

Jiang Di had nowhere to hide from her aggressiveness, and finally nodded while covering her face.

Xu Deng smiled instead, "Jiang Di, I have thought about it too."

She watched Jiang Di raise her head in a panic, and finally stretched out her hand to hold the other person's face. She seldom took the initiative, but her heart was so soft because of such a fragile Jiang Di.

Feel sad again.

Others say that falling in love is very happy, but she is only happy for a while, and the rest is trouble.

Obviously there is more trouble than happiness, so what is there to be passionate about?

Her hair was still messy, and she touched Jiang Di's forehead with her forehead, and finally picked Jiang Di's pointed chin, and pressed it against his dry lips.

Jiang Di didn't understand what Xu Deng meant, her mind was blank now.

Xu Deng gently stuffed Jiang Di's hand into the quilt, and then said to Jiang Di: "Then we..."

"Let's end it first?"

The tone of her speech before was basically declarative, but today's question made Jiang Di suddenly sad, and the loneliness spreading from her body.

The way the two of them get along has always been a tit-for-tat intimacy, and until today, on such an occasion, they actually calmly said that they wanted to separate.

Jiang Di didn't stalk, and Xu Deng didn't lose his temper.

The first love in each other's lives ended very peacefully.

The grandeur was lost to the parents and to each other's failed love.

Jiang Di finally smiled, she licked her dry lips, "Okay."

She watched Xu Deng stand up, ready to watch the girl she liked very much but had to give up leave.

Xu Deng turned around suddenly, leaned over and kissed her hard.

It was really ruthless, there was still blood on her mouth when they parted, she bit it herself first, and then it got on Jiang Di's lips.

The corners of her eyebrows and eyes were filled with a kind of fierceness and resentment that Jiang Di had never seen before, and finally turned into a very ugly smile.

Xu Deng took a deep breath and said, "Then I'll go first."

"Hope you remember,

The author has something to say: You recruited me first. "

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"Stitches"-Airia

Oh, I forgot to set the time to save the manuscript, sorry