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This was the first time Ren Yang took a bus to such a far place. He didn't feel much on the highway, but when he entered the city and walked on the country road, he felt nauseous.Turning around and seeing that Li Shangshui's expression was not much better, he couldn't care about himself, but felt sorry for Li Shangshui more and more.

Li Shangshui led Ren Yang through the long country road in silence, accepted the strange eyes of the villagers along the way, and stepped on the narrow path leading to his home, Li Shangshui said: "It's boring, right?"

Ren Yang was taken aback for a moment. He was only looking at the rice fields that turned from green to yellow beside the road and the rolling hills in the distance. He couldn't hear what Li Shangshui was saying for a while.

"It's nothing." Seeing that Ren Yang didn't pay attention to those people's eyes, Li Shangshui didn't mention it anymore, "I'll get home in a while, if you don't want to be with me, you can go around the mountain by yourself, I, I may not care about you. If someone is talking to you, if you don’t understand, just smile at him and ignore it. The signal here is not good, and you have to come back when the time comes, or I won’t be able to find you.”

"I'm with you." Ren Yang said quickly.

Li Shangshui nodded and did not speak again.

People could be seen in the yard from a distance, but fortunately no white cloth was hung, which meant that grandma was still there, and Li Shangshui breathed a sigh of relief.He entered the yard and went to greet them one by one.These people are all elders in the village. If they didn't think that grandma was the only one left in her generation, they probably wouldn't have come to visit, right?

"Shang Shui," said one of the short old men with long eyebrows, "you are breastfeeding her, and if you come back late, I'm afraid you really won't see anyone. Is this your classmate?" He asked Looking at Ren Yang, Ren Yang nodded to him with a smile.

"Well, my college roommate. Please trouble the fourth master." Li Shangshui replied respectfully.

After entering grandma's bedroom, I realized that there was also a group of people standing in front of grandma's bed, as if waiting for her to die.The people standing at the door spotted Li Shangshui first and called him, only then did the people inside see him.Li Ligui sat on the head of grandma's bed with a mournful face, holding grandma's withered and dark hand in both hands. When he saw Li Shangshui, he didn't have the strength to scold him, so he beckoned him to go over.

Li Shangshui put down his bag, gritted his teeth to prevent himself from crying, and slowly walked up to his grandmother and held her hand.Grandma was lying on her back with her eyes closed, her mouth half-opened, and her breathing was weak. If it wasn't for the strong beating pulse in the hand she was holding, Li Shangshui would have thought that grandma had already left.Grandma's hands were hard and cold, Li Shangshui intuitively felt that this was the temperature of death, but what he couldn't understand was that grandma's pulse was fast, as if she was unwilling to die like this, she was struggling with death.

Li Shangshui called softly, "Grandma, I'm back."

Grandma didn't respond.

Li Ligui lay beside her ear and said loudly: "Your grandson is back, what can I say?"

Li Shangshui's heart beat faster, he was very afraid that Li Ligui's yelling would scare grandma.However, after a while, grandma moved slowly, opened her sunken eyes, and said inarticulately, "Shang, Shangshui...you're back?"

Li Shangshui nodded desperately, Li Ligui asked him to speak loudly, otherwise grandma would not hear.So he also stood up and leaned into grandma's ear, and said loudly, "Grandma, I'm back, don't worry. My sister can come in the afternoon, don't worry."

When he was leaving in the morning, he called Li Shangying to tell her grandma was critically ill under the reminder of Ren Yang. Li Shangying was very surprised, but she reacted quickly and told him that she would go back as soon as possible.This time should be coming soon.

After hearing this, grandma responded vaguely, and closed her eyes tiredly.Li Shangshui checked his pulse again, felt the violent beating, and felt relieved.

Ren Yang looked at Li Shangshui, and then at the old grandmother, feeling a little breathless, and tears flowed unconsciously.The old man lying on the bed was the one who brought up Li Shangshui, and now he is dying. He can only watch his loved one grieve over this, and there is nothing he can do.

Putting this aside, anyone who sees this scene, even if they are hard-hearted, can't be unmoved, right?Grandma is too old, white hair and chicken skin are not enough to describe, she looks like a breathing mummy.It is hard for Ren Yang to imagine how this easily broken body has endured decades of hard work.

He looked at Li Shangshui's father, who just gave him a cold glance, then continued to stare at grandma's face.Li Ligui was also aging. Although his hair was black, it lacked luster, his face was full of stubble, and there were deep lines at the corners of his eyes and nose, which made his already uneasy face even more fierce.

Everyone around was shrouded in a sad atmosphere, and no one asked about Ren Yang's origin.Ren Yang just looked at Li Shangshui without saying a word.

Time slipped away in silence, and the people in the house went home one after another. Since the old man was not dying, there was no need to stay here. Besides, Li Ligui didn't care about the dinner.

The sun was sinking to the west, and there was only a ray of sunlight on the horizon, but an inconspicuous crescent moon was already hanging in the sky in the east. Only Li's father and son and Ren Yang were left guarding grandma in the house.Li Ligui moved his numb lower limbs, and said, "Are you cooking, or am I cooking? Is this your friend?" He looked at Ren Yang again, "Come all the way, our house has nothing to entertain you. Forgive me."

Before Li Shangshui could answer, Ren Yang said, "It's all right, I'm here to help Ah Shui, uncle, if you have anything to ask, just ask, you are all friends, you are welcome."

"Ah Shui?" Li Ligui glanced at Li Shangshui, "It's rare to see Li Shangshui has friends here, thank you."

"I'm going to cook, you can watch grandma." Li Shangshui got up expressionlessly, motioning Ren Yang to follow him.

Ren Yang was still carrying his bag, so he asked Li Shangshui where to put his luggage.Li Shangshui asked him to bring his valuables with him, and put everything else in his small closet.

"The conditions at home are poor, you shouldn't have come." Li Shangshui regretted that he couldn't care less about taking care of Ren Yang.

Ren Yang followed Li Shangshui to the direction of the vegetable garden, feeling heavy in his heart: "It's already here, what are you talking about, if I don't come, how can you bear it alone? Ah Shui, don't carry it alone, I'm here .”

Walking to the gable, Li Shangshui stopped and hugged Ren Yang, seeking a comforting hug, as if he regained his strength.

Dinner is a simple fried eggplant with pickled cucumbers and peppers. Grandma has grown a lot of vegetables in the vegetable garden, and Ren Yang eats them deliciously.

After the two of them had dinner, Li Shangshui took care of grandma, while Ren Yang also took off his shoes and climbed onto the bed, holding grandma's hand with Li Shangshui.At night in the countryside, the temperature drops in good time, but there are too many mosquitoes, so you need to prepare mosquito coils.

With grandma's current condition, she is already unable to eat, so Li Shangshui feeds some sugar water with a small spoon from time to time.

"I won't drink anymore," Grandma moved, and her speech was even sharper than before, "I want to sit up."

Li Shangshui found a thick quilt as a pillow, and together with Ren Yang, he hugged his grandma and sat half-sitting.Grandma looked suspiciously when she saw Ren Yang.

"Grandma," Li Shangshui introduced Ren Yang to her, "he is my best friend, and he came to see you specially. Get well soon and make him something delicious, okay?"

Grandma shook her head: "It can't be done. You should have come earlier. Shang Shui, is your sister here yet?"

Li Shangying didn't get home for some reason, and Li Shangshui didn't think to call her—the landline at home was still available.

So he could only lie: "Hurry up, there are no cars in the city at the moment, and the waiting time will be a little longer."

Grandma shook her head again: "Shang Shui, I'm leaving, you have to be good, don't get angry with your father, his life is not easy... I know your sister is married, she doesn't forgive your father, your father is old I can only count on you. The thing I worry about the most is you, you are promising... you are not bad..." Grandma stopped to rest after talking for a while, Li Shangshui only caressed the back of grandma's hand and listened quietly.

"But you have a bad personality... you don't like to talk to people, and you don't like... to socialize with people..." Grandma said a little excitedly, coughing twice, "I'm afraid that you will be bullied outside I can't wait until the day you marry a wife..." Grandma's thinking was a little confused, and her logic didn't match.

When Ren Yang heard her talking about marrying a daughter-in-law, he felt a little uncomfortable, and even felt a little ashamed of the old man.Li Shangshui looked at him, indicating that he didn't have to take it seriously, he looked back and nodded.

"Your parents owe you too much, and I will pay you back what I can for them..." Grandma shed tears as she spoke, and the clear tears left a clear trace on her face.

Seeing grandma crying, Li Shangshui finally couldn't help it anymore, tears streaming down his face, he choked up and said, "Grandma, stop talking, I know it all, you should rest for a while..."

Grandma continued stubbornly: "In the future, just don't let your father starve to death, otherwise...others will gossip...there is still some money in the passbook, you use it for the funeral, and no one else will collect it. I don't want you Return the favor... Shang Shui is very smart..."

Grandma closed her eyes and said with difficulty: "Aying, if you can't come back, forget it, don't put pressure on her in the future, it will be difficult for her..."

Ren Yang turned his face away in discomfort, and couldn't bear to look any further.

"Grandma..." Li Shangshui buried his face in his grandma's palm, as if his heart was being grasped and twisted, the pain was like suffocation, he knew that grandma was telling her last words.

Grandma stopped talking and fell asleep quietly.

At 41:[-] that night, grandma stopped breathing.

There is no time for Li Shangshui to be sad, there are too many things waiting for him to do.Fortunately, grandma had already prepared her own shroud and coffin, and the elders of the clan also came to help deal with some matters according to tradition, so Li Shangshui was not in a hurry.

Li Shangying came back the next morning after her grandmother passed away. Before she had time to cry, she was called by the women in the village who came to help cook.Only in the middle of the night, when all the helpers left, did she have time to sit with Li Shangshui in front of the grandma's coffin in the main room to rest for a while.

Due to the sweltering weather, grandma's coffin only stayed at home for three days.

For three days, Li Shangshui didn't get a good night's sleep, but he kept urging Ren Yang to sleep in the house. Ren Yang saw that he had lost weight, and felt distressed in vain.

Seven days later, grandma's funeral was considered to be over.

The house was in a mess, but Li Shangshui didn't want to take care of it. He took Ren Yang to sit in front of his grandmother's grave for a long time. Fortunately, the mountain was cool, otherwise Ren Yang would always worry that he would suffer from heat stroke.

When descending the mountain, Li Shangshui whispered, "Ren Yang, I only have you."

Ren Yang stopped, dragged Li Shangshui to find a shade, sat down and let Li Shangshui sleep on his lap for a while.Li Shangshui lay down as he said. After a while, Ren Yang felt a warmth on his legs. He just gently stroked Li Shangshui's hair. It would be better if he cried.

The next morning, Li Shangying was about to leave. Before leaving, she gave Li Shangshui a card, saying that her grandma saved it for him.Li Shangshui refused to accept it, this lie was too clumsy, he didn't need the money, he could support himself.

Li Shangying sighed, and left without looking at Li Ligui.Maybe she is the most straightforward one.

That night, Li Shangshui set up a bamboo bed in the yard, and lay side by side with Ren Yang watching the stars. Li Ligui slept soundly in the room, and he was exhausted for the past few days.

Li Shangshui has always felt that the only advantage of his family is that he can always see the stars on sunny nights.In the summer when I was a child, my grandmother would set up a bamboo bed outside. Although there were mosquitoes, watching the stars while shaking the cattail fan and telling stories from previous years was one of the things Li Shangshui missed the most.

Ren Yang could hear the croaking of frogs and unknown insects in the rice fields, and he could also see the twinkling lights of fireflies. If he didn’t look carefully, he thought it was the stars falling from the sky, and he could smell the evening primrose planted by his grandma in the corner of the yard. the taste of……

The two clasped their fingers together and did not speak for a long time.

Li Shangshui said suddenly: "Ren Yang, let's go back tomorrow."

A home without a grandma is at best a dilapidated house.He didn't want to get along awkwardly with Li Ligui all day long, and now he would rather go back to the city that made him confused.

"Well, okay, I'll be back tomorrow." Ren Yang turned sideways and kissed the corner of Li Shangshui's mouth.

Li Shangshui smiled for the first time in days, as long as Ren Yang was around, his home would be there.

Grandma, don't worry about me, I have found the person I love the most in my life.

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This article is over~

I still remember that day when I registered as an author, Jinjiang reminded me that if I didn’t publish my work within a week, this pseudonym would be invalidated...

At that time, although I hated myself for being reckless, the character Li Shangshui still appeared in my mind, so I wrote it all the way...

Although it is a running account, there is still pleasure in the process of writing. Many plots did not even occur to me, and they appeared naturally when I was writing. For me who did not have an outline, it was quite surprising.Hahaha……

Thanks to the readers who clicked on this article out of curiosity, thank you for taking the time to read my work~Bow~

I have plans to write an ancient story, but I am still in the process of conceiving, and I will learn from the lessons and write the outline in advance, and I will save enough manuscripts before opening the pit (although I don’t know that it’s the year of the monkey, but I won’t give up on myself, um, make a fist !)

thank!