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One week before the final exam, after Li Shangshui went to Su Yue's house to give Su Mian a tutoring session, Su Yue actually proposed to give him a vacation first, and then came to teach Su Mian after the exam.Li Shangshui was very grateful. Although he felt that he could take care of both ends, he was still moved by the thoughtfulness of the Suyue family.

"Besides," Su Yue asked him, "do you have any plans for summer vacation?"

Li Shangshui shook his head. He planned to stay in school, but he didn't know what job to find to spend the whole summer vacation.

"Well then, Su Mian, you still come to give her lessons at the current time," Su Yue took out his mobile phone and sent a message to Li Shangshui, "Do you remember the first time we met? I have a friend there I opened a coffee shop, and I left Su Mian at the door just to get things from him. This is his phone number, and his name is Zhao Zhao. Some time ago, I went to his place to play, and he mentioned that there was a lack of people in the shop. If you don't mind, call him and ask him if he wants someone else, and I'll say hello to him later."

"Can you?" Li Shangshui hesitated. He never thought that he would have the day to go through the back door.

"It's not a big deal. Summer vacation is the concentrated time for students to work. He always has to recruit people," Lou Yu said. "If there are enough people, he won't hire you no matter how much face we have. Don't worry."

Su Yue smiled: "How about you stay with Su Mian at our house, eat and live together, and save us from sending her to various interest classes, this child doesn't like to go out."

"In this way, Shang Shui won't have time to go out with her boyfriend, and you can't do that." Lou Yu laughed.

Li Shangshui is used to them taking out the word "boyfriend" for a walk from time to time. He was shy at first, but now he doesn't take it seriously, "I'm afraid that Xiao Mian will start to hate me after staying with me for a long time. gone."

After hearing this, Su Mian only said, "I like it."

Li Shangshui smiled, having been in contact with Su Mian for a long time, the more she found that some of her thoughts were similar to her own, and she also liked to talk to herself about her thoughts.Over time, Li Shangshui really regarded her as his own sister.I have thought about it more than once, if I am the eldest in the family, no matter if I have a younger brother or younger sister, he will take good care of him, love what my parents can't give, and what my grandma can't take care of, he will take care of everything.It doesn't make him feel even a little bit unhappy.

Unfortunately, no if.

After Li Shangshui returned, he found a suitable time to call Zhao Zhao, the owner of the coffee shop. After hearing his name, the other party asked him to call him after the holiday, so as to confirm the time to join the store.Seeing that things were going so smoothly, Li Shangshui couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

But Ren Yang is not easy to explain.Ren Yang wanted to go back to his hometown to help a friend's cram school, and he persuaded Li Shangshui many times to live with him in their house, and the two of them attended classes in the cram school together.Li Shangshui didn't want to bother his friend, let alone meet his family, so he kept procrastinating.

After talking to Ren Yang, he was not angry, but said: "Then it's okay for me to come to see you a few times a month? Otherwise, it will be too difficult and I won't see you."

Li Shangshui nodded: "If I have time, I will also go to you."

"Don't you spare some time to go back to your hometown to see grandma? If you go back, tell me in advance that I want to be with you."

Li Shangshui thought for a while and said, "Then we have to wait until the end of August and stay at home until school starts. If you don't mind, then come."

It’s just that people are not as good as heaven. After the exam, Li Shangshui worked in a coffee shop for a few days. Before he could remember the names of all the coffees, he received a call from Li Ligui one afternoon—grandma was critically ill and told him to go home quickly. .

After hearing the news, he didn't know why he was so calm, he asked for leave with Zhao Zhao and Su Yue, went back to the dormitory, stuffed two clothes into his bag, and walked towards the bus station with an indifferent face.When I bought the ticket, I was told that there is no shuttle bus today, and I have to wait until tomorrow morning.

Only then did he react, and he returned to school with his bag.

Except for the students staying in the school for the postgraduate entrance examination, the school is basically empty.Li Shangshui wandered around the school in a daze, not knowing what to do.The temperature didn't drop at all because of the approaching dusk, but he didn't feel hot.Habitually walking towards the library, he realized that today was not the opening day when he got there, so he simply sat down on the steps in front of the old library.

There is a worker in the woods on the right pruning flowers and trees. Seeing him sitting there, he thought he was waiting for the library to open. The man kindly reminded him: "Young man, the library is closed today, and it will open the day after tomorrow. Come early, otherwise They're all off work."

Li Shangshui followed the sound and looked up. After a while, he realized that the worker was talking to him. He wanted to say thank you, but found that his voice was too hoarse to speak. He could only nod, got up and left.

83 years old, what kind of experience is it to live to this age?At this age, there is still no hope, and you still have to worry about future generations. What kind of experience is it?Li Shangshui didn't know, he never asked.

Grandma has lived to this age, if she dies like this, it can be regarded as the end of her life, and she deserves it.But grandma has suffered so many crimes, and she has to work in the fields at such an advanced age. If she can not work so hard in her later years, can she live longer?If he could support himself earlier, earn more money earlier, and let grandma enjoy the blessings, wouldn't grandma be like this?

……

Li Shangshui often feels that he is dragging down grandma.But grandma often said that if it wasn't for the two of them and her son was so disappointing, she really didn't have the idea of ​​living, because living was meaningless.

He returned to the dormitory, went into the bathroom to wash his face, and then rolled over on the bed.Lying on his back and looking at the ceiling, his mind went blank, as if he had lost the ability to think.It wasn't until night fell and the dormitory was pitch black that he moved and reached out to grope for Ren Yang's bed, but no one stretched out his hand over there.

He paused, turned over and shrank into a ball, as if he was gripped by a huge sense of powerlessness.

Ren Yang loves to send him messages every night, and Li Shangshui will reply when he is free.Tonight, Ren Yang sent a WeChat message asking what he was doing as usual, but he waited and waited for no reply, thinking that he was busy, so he didn't care.But after ten o'clock, there was still no news from Li Shangshui, so Ren Yang became a little anxious, so he took his mobile phone downstairs and called Li Shangshui on the pretext of going out for a run.

The phone rang for a long time, but no one answered.Ren Yang couldn't help but start thinking wildly, he didn't have Su Yue or Zhao Zhao's phone number, so he couldn't ask others about Li Shangshui.I was so anxious that I wanted to call the police, when the phone vibrated suddenly.

Li Shangshui sent a text message: "Sorry, I have been sleeping just now."

Ren Yang let out a long breath, and dialed the phone again.After a while, Li Shangshui answered the phone: "Ren Yang."

Li Shangshui had indeed fallen asleep just now. In his dream, when he came home, he saw his grandma still working hard in the vegetable garden. When he saw him go back, he laughed happily, his cloudy eyes filled with joy.He was also very happy, wanted to turn on the phone to tell Ren Yang that grandma was fine, and then woke up.

When he woke up, he heard the phone kept ringing. He got out of bed tiredly, found the phone, saw Ren Yang's name, and suddenly didn't want to answer it.Waiting for Ren Yang to hang up before replying a text message.He is going home, but he cannot bring Ren Yang with him.

"Ah Shui, what's wrong? Have you caught a cold? Your voice is hoarse." Ren Yang keenly caught the change in his voice and asked him anxiously.

Li Shangshui had a sore nose, and a bean-sized teardrop rolled down and passed through his lips, giving him a taste of saltiness.He didn't cry when he suddenly learned that his grandma was critically ill, and he couldn't rush back immediately. He didn't even cry during the long hours of being alone.But hearing Ren Yang's concerned voice, why couldn't he help crying?

He silently wiped away his tears, and tried his best to say in the calmest voice: "Ren Yang, my grandma is dying soon."

Ren Yang didn't seem to understand, and said "ah" in a daze.

He continued: "Ren Yang, I'm going home tomorrow morning, do you think I can still see her? I, I..." He choked up, not knowing what to say to express his panic.

Ren Yang's heart twitched, and in the face of parting life and death, everything seemed insignificant.He only knew that his Ah Shui was too bitter, that his only relative was about to leave him, and he couldn't do anything, not even hold him and make him cry on his shoulder.

He wanted to see Li Shangshui more than ever, he said, "Ah Shui, don't panic, wait for me at school, I will go back with you tomorrow."

"Ah Shui, I'm booking tickets now, and I may not be able to get to City Z until midnight. You go to bed first and don't worry about me. I promise to show up in front of you tomorrow morning. I remember that you left school at six o'clock in the morning during the winter vacation, I promise I'll be by your side before you leave." Ren Yang can't take care of his family and friends now, and starts booking tickets online as soon as he runs home. His Ah Shui can't live without him.

Li Shangshui's rationality made him reject Ren Yang, but in his heart he longed for Ren Yang to be by his side. He didn't make a sound to stop him, and sat down at the desk waiting for the dawn.

Ren Yang only had time to say "I'm going to a classmate's house" to his mother before he packed up and went to the train station.He has never been so happy that Yu's home is so close to the school, so close that he can book a bus ticket immediately if he wants to go to Z City, and he can get there in a short time.

It was after 3 o'clock in the morning when we arrived in City Z, and there were always travelers with big bags and small bags at the train station, and everyone rushed to a specific or unspecified place with full of thoughts.Ren Yang couldn't help but think that if Li Shangshui was here, he might be able to better understand the deep meaning of "Life is like a journey against the road, and I am also a pedestrian".

At this moment, the school dormitory has not yet opened, so he had no choice but to find a hotel and book an hourly room, wash and settle in, set the alarm clock, and then sent a message to Li Shangshui: "Ah Shui, I'm here. I will go back before the dormitory opens. I."

Li Shangshui, who was full of nightmares, was easily awakened by the phone next to his pillow. Looking at the phone, it was already 47:[-].The heart wrapped in grief only now realizes what Ren Yang has paid for him, and the numb heart is suddenly warmed, but it will feel a little tingling, he thought, no one will do this for him in this life on.

If you are haunted by dreams, you might as well get up and pack your things.In the afternoon, I packed in a hurry, and even forgot to put away the clothes on the balcony of the dormitory. When I checked my schoolbag, I didn’t even bring my notebook and pen. I only had two coats, and my ID card was also lying in the drawer.Li Shangshui couldn't help laughing at himself, thinking that he really didn't have the potential to do great things, and he didn't have the temperament to be calm in times of crisis.

At four o'clock, when the first light appeared outside, Li Shangshui sat down and re-wrote yesterday's diary, recording the worst day in his life.At around five o'clock, the sun was already actively showing its head, indicating that today will be another hot day.

At 05:30, he went downstairs and waited for the housekeeper to open the door. Through the glass door, he saw Ren Yang was already waiting outside with his bag on his back.

Li Shangshui smiled at him, and suddenly felt that with Ren Yang, there was nothing to be afraid of.

Ren Yang raised the phone in his hand, pointed to the screen, and signaled Li Shangshui to open it.

"Ah Shui, don't be afraid, I'm here." Ren Yang said.