Sad autumn

The days for the old and young Tu family to go to Zhangjiagang to eat seafood came together. On April 29th, Jasmine was not going, so Tu Qing drove Lulu and the baby, and Tu Chun was assigned to the car of the little aunt.The car was stuck on the Suyuzhang Expressway just after leaving Suzhou. My uncle was driving, and Tuchun was sitting in the passenger seat. My uncle unscrewed the thermos cup and drank some hot tea. Hao, have you met your father recently?" (Hao Hao, have you met your father recently?)

Tuchun said, "Well, I am busy." (He is also busy.)

The little uncle smiled and said, "I'm going to see my younger brother?" (Didn't you visit your younger brother?)

At this question, the little aunt came up, grabbed the back of Tuchun's chair and said: "Brother, brother, Lulu is really carved out of the same mold!" (Your brother and that Lulu are really the same. Carved out of a mold!)

Tuchun smiled, looked at his little uncle and then at his little aunt, both of them smiled.Tuchun said: "Are you like your father?" (Not like your father?)

The little aunt sat back and complained repeatedly: "Turn on the air conditioner? It's so hot!" (Have you turned on the air conditioner? It's so hot!)

The little uncle opened the window: "Open the window to let in the natural wind." He glanced at the digital clock on the car, "Oh, it's ten o'clock, tsk, it's too late? Oh, I have to make a phone call and the hotel tells me One sound."

The little aunt said: "Wait a minute, let me ask Jasmine."

The little uncle asked curiously: "Huh? The hotel phone number is so bad?" (Huh? You don't have the hotel phone number?)

The little aunt didn't ring, Tuchun glanced at the back row, the little aunt was pressing the phone quickly, after a while, she raised her head and announced loudly: "Well done, um, I've helped the lady boss, please walk slowly." It’s ready.” (It’s done, she’s told the proprietress, you can slowly open it.)

She said again: "In previous years, it was Jasmine who made the arrangement. It would be convenient to ask Enlang." (In previous years, it was arranged by Jasmine, so it is quite convenient to ask her.)

The little uncle didn't say anything, just drinking tea with a teacup, the little aunt approached again, her voice was next to Tuchun's ear, and she asked all kinds of questions: "Bang Gu, are you here to contact me?" (You and Did that Gu Yun stop contacting?)

Tuchun said: "Get in touch on WeChat."

The little aunt went on to say: "Hao Hao, what? Do you want to go out once you have boarded the house, ah, you want to go out and walk around, but you know who you are, so what?" (Hao Hao, ah) , you don’t have to stay at home all the time and don’t go out, you have to go out and walk around, otherwise how can you know people, don’t you think?)

Tuchun said: "Dad, the two o'clock and one line are in the factory, and the yogurt is bought downstairs in the house. I know a lot of people." Few people.)

The little uncle cleared his throat, and the little aunt laughed dryly, patted Tuchun's chair, and said, "Mother Enduomu, don't be in a hurry." (Your mother is not in a hurry.)

Tuchun smiled and spoke Mandarin: "I can't eat hot tofu in a hurry, I guess I can only drink cold yogurt."

There was no voice in the car, only the sound of my little uncle drinking tea, he let out a sigh from time to time, changing from one lane to another, there was traffic jam everywhere, the car was neither awkward nor awkward on Su Yuzhang After moving on the ground for more than half an hour, the road ahead was finally cleared.They drove all the way to Zhangjiagang.

Tuchun and the little aunt were the second batch to arrive, and the eldest aunt's family came first. When the eldest uncle saw Tuchun and his party, he said, "Well, the time is really good. I'm caught in the middle. It's not too early or too late. It’s better to talk about the account and relieve the boredom, and Ah Qingmo will definitely be punished with drinking.” (You guys are really good at this time, in public, there are still people who can talk and relieve boredom, and Ah Qingmo will definitely be punished with alcohol.)

The little aunt swept the table: "Hey, Liangliang, can you help Qianqian?"

The eldest aunt poured tea for them and said, "Hold Xiao Ning to see the fish." (I took the child to see the fish.)

The little aunt sat down, and called Tuchun to sit down too.Tuchun asked: "Shall I sit next to Liangliang?" (Should I sit next to Liangliang?)

The eldest uncle clapped his hands and smiled: "Sit whatever you want, people will be embarrassed today." (Sit whatever you want, no one will have a blind date with you today.)

Everyone laughed, and Tuchun laughed too. The eldest aunt stretched her neck and hands, looked at Tuchun, and patted the back of his hand with a secretive look: "Haohao, what is there to do recently?" (Haohao Has there been any movement lately?)

Tuchun smiled and asked, "Ah, Liangliang has already hired a foreign teacher to teach English?" (Is it true that Liangliang has already hired a foreign teacher to teach English?)

As soon as he finished speaking, Fang Liang and Wang Qian came in with their son, and the eldest aunt said, "Say Cao Cao, Cao Cao will be there."

Fang Liang smiled and looked around the crowd: "What are you talking about? Cao Cao took Jingzhou?"

Wang Qi sat down with her son in her arms, tied a bib on her son, waved to Tuchun, and said in a childlike voice, "Call me, Uncle Tuchun, hello, how you, hello, hello..."

The eldest aunt rested her chin on one hand, twisted her waist, and said: "Oh, it's useless, how old is Xiao Ning? Hello, hello, hello, help Ni, hello?" (Oh, also No need, hello, hello when the child is only a little old, and hello with us when he grows up?)

The little aunt said: "The next time I take the exam in the school, I will use English. If I learn hello, I will have to send it abroad to use it." up.)

The eldest uncle sighed, took a wine bottle, and poured wine for Tuchun. Tuchun hurriedly took the wine from the glass and said, "Enough is enough, it's done."

The eldest uncle looked at him and said: "Hao Hao learns English, he knows how to do it, he knows how to get it, he said, it costs [-] yuan, the big exam is not worth the test, whether to use it or not, is it more and more difficult to get into the society?" Internationalization, do you know how to speak some English? You will definitely be eliminated next time." (Haohao learns English, ask him if he knows about alcohol, is it strange? It is becoming more and more international, and if you don’t speak English, you will definitely be eliminated in the future.)

Tuchun said, "Isn't English still taught at school?"

The little uncle laughed and said, "Next time foreigners will speak Chinese!" (All foreigners will speak Chinese in the future!)

The eldest aunt rolled her eyes and smiled half-smile: "It's so good!" (I wish it was like this!)

At this time, the little aunt said: "Grandson En Duo is coming next time, are you going to send him abroad?"

The eldest aunt drank tea, put down the teacup, looked at the younger aunt, who rarely spoke Mandarin, and said, "Your own son, we don't care about it, and we can't."

Wang Qian was setting plastic tableware for the children, when she touched Fang Liang with her elbow, Fang Liang added tea to the eldest aunt, and said with a smile, "Our son, their son's, is also your grandson's, Uncle Aqing is coming soon? Shall we let them serve cold dishes first?"

Tuchun responded positively: "I'll call the waiter to serve cold dishes."

He stood up, Fang Liang also got up, they opened the door, and saw Tu Qing and Lu Lu head on, Lu Lu was holding the child, Tu Qing was holding two boxes of Yangshan pears in one hand, seeing Tu Chun and Fang Liang, moved Chin quickened his pace, and said, "Come on, come on, come on!"

Fang Liang went back in and announced, "Uncle is here."

Tuchun still went out, smiled at Tuqing, said hello, and went to ask the waiter to bring out the dishes.When he returned to the private room, there was already a gift box of pears on the side of the seat, and Tu Qing was sitting on his right hand side, and said to him with a smile, "Take it around and eat." (Take it back and eat.)

Tuchun drank tea and nodded. The tea in his teacup became shallow, and immediately a pair of thin wrists held the teapot to refill him.Tuchun raised his eyes and met Lulu's black eyes. Tuchun smiled and nodded.

"I asked Enduo's father, I want to help Enduo's mother prepare a copy..." Lulu's Suzhou dialect was as always, sticky, and when spoken, it turned into a pool of water, flowing around people.

(I asked your dad if he wanted to prepare a copy for your mom...)

Tu Qing chimed in and said, "Lulu is quite imaginative, let me say..." (Lulu is quite imaginative, I said...)

Tuchun interrupted him, speaking in Mandarin: "It's okay, my mother and I don't live apart."

Tu Qing stopped talking, coughed, looked back at the door of the box, and said in a high-pitched voice, "Hey, the naan dishes are still served?" (Why haven't the dishes been served yet?)

Lulu made a gesture to give the baby to Tu Qing, and was about to get up, but Tu Qing held her, her voice suddenly became softer, flatter, and lowered, her eyes focused on the baby in the swaddle, she kept lifting her chin, teasing the baby, Said: "Mom won't leave, dad won't leave either, oh well, don't leave, oh yo yo."

Fang Liang added some wine to Tuchun, and Tuchun glanced at the child in Lulu's arms—his half-brother who was almost 30 years younger than him. The boy's eyes were big, like two black eyes. Grape has long eyelashes, soft skin, slightly thinned eyebrows, and always pouted his mouth. When others talk to him, his eyeballs move flexibly, as if he is listening carefully and pondering carefully.He is indeed exactly like Lulu.

The waiter came in to serve the food, and in the blink of an eye the glass disc table was filled with fish, shrimp, crab and eel.As soon as the waiter left, the little aunt opened her hands and said, "Slow down, slow down! Let me take a photo first."

The eldest aunt also picked up her mobile phone and stood up to take pictures of the delicious food on the table.The little aunt complained: "Oh, sister! There is a shadow!!" (Oh, sister! There is a shadow!)

Hearing this, the little uncle turned his mobile phone to the flashlight mode behind his back and raised it up to help the little aunt light it up, asking, "What about it?" (What about this?)

Tu Qing laughed and said, "I'm here to make a fuss."

Fang Liang shrugged his shoulders at Tuchun, and he also took out his mobile phone, took a selfie with Wang Qian and the child, then patted the fish and shrimp, and then bowed his head and typed.

Tuchun played with his chopsticks, looked at the fish eyes turned up, and looked at the fresh and lively river prawns covered in a large glass bowl.

The eldest aunt finished taking pictures of the dishes, and the younger uncle canceled the effect of the flashlight. The eldest aunt greeted everyone and said, "Ni, I want to take some selfies, ah, Doudou will help grandma take a look." (We also ask if we want to take some selfies. Doudou and Grandma have a look.)

Fang Liang said, "Let's talk after eating."

The little aunt said: "Use it, just watch the video, it's so crooked!" (It's not necessary, just watch the video!)

After finishing speaking, she poked the phone a few times and held it up high. Doudou's face appeared on the screen of the phone. She blinked and looked at everyone. The signal was a bit weak, and her face occasionally flashed a few times. mosaic.

The little aunt pointed a big circle behind her, and happily talked to Doudou: "Here, uncle Aqing, auntie, uncle, brother Liangliang, brother Haohao, and two younger brothers..." The little aunt bite When it came to the tongue, "Well, yes, brother Mengbai, hey! A brother, a nephew!"

(Here, you are Uncle Aqing, Eldest Aunt, Uncle, Brother Liangliang, Brother Haohao, and two younger brothers.) (No, no, no younger brother here! It’s an older brother! A nephew!)

Everyone waved to Doudou on the phone, Tuchun ate a piece of candied lotus root, and Doudou went to call grandma over there.The little aunt then re-introduced: "Mum, Egg is Aqing, Egg is eldest sister, one by one..."

She just got up, and the grandma said: "Oh, mother En Duomu, you have dementia, so I recognize it!" (Your mother and I don't have dementia, so we all know each other!)

The whole room roared with laughter, Tuchun ate the food with his head down, and the little aunt smiled and put the mobile phone in front of her, and sat down, everyone raised their glasses and moved their chopsticks.When a plate of saury was served, the eldest aunt turned to Tuchun and said, "Hao Hao eat it, I like to eat saury the most."

She asked, "Did you contact Gu Yun?" (Are you still in touch with Gu Yun?)

The little aunt rushed to say: "Fuck you! Oh, embarrassing, yes, Haohao?"

The eldest aunt smiled, and Fang Liang said: "It's fine if we don't have any contact, Haohao carnivore, he doesn't eat meat for a meal, he doesn't have to eat saury in May, and he doesn't have to eat hairy crabs in October. He can't do it."

Wang Qi smiled and said, "You know what other people like to eat."

Fang Liang said: "She prays to God and worships Buddha every day on WeChat."

Tu Chun put down his chopsticks, looked at Fang Liang, and said, "She also came last year, she ate fish."

Fang Liang laughed: "Oh, the wine and meat have passed through the intestines, and the Buddha will keep them in his heart."

Tuchun frowned, but didn't make a sound. After taking two mouthfuls of water shield soup, he put down his spoon and said, "I'm going out to smoke a cigarette, you guys eat slowly."

He stood up, no one answered, and no one made a sound.Tuchun walked out.

Tuchun went to eat a cigarette outside the hotel, he ate half of it, Fang Liang came out, he also lit a cigarette, lifted the cigarette with Tuchun, raised his chin, and said: "The reason for helping Gu Yunfu is..." (You and Gu Yun won't be because of...)

Tuchun said: "I will help Gu Yunmeng." (I have nothing to do with Gu Yun.)

Fang Liangliang nodded, and said again: "Ge Mo just..." (That just...)

"What are you talking about?" (Nothing.)

Fang Liang said with a smile: "I'm thinking about it, I will always be angry because I talk nonsense about what Gu Yun likes to eat, and I will be angry if I like to eat something!" (I'm just thinking, not because of my nonsense If Gu Yun likes to eat something, if you don't like to eat something, you will be angry!)

Tuchun brought the cigarette to his mouth, turned his head, and there was no sound.Fang Liang flicked the cigarette ash, and said: "You are young and believe in Buddhism, so you are always wrapped up a bit...Nang said, in Enduo's house, you would rather have a big problem than you. What a healthy body..."

(Since I believed in Buddhism at such a young age, I always felt a little... Anyway, no one in her family had any serious illnesses, and she herself was in good health...)

Tuchun took a deep puff on his cigarette, and stared at Fang Liang: "Afu, there are only people in the house who are sick. If you are in good health, you can go to believe in Buddhism." Only then can you believe in Buddha.)

Fang Liang was stunned for a moment, then forced a smile, but there was no sound.

Tuchun continued: "It's better to have some faith than to have some faith." (It's better to have some faith than to have no faith at all.)

Fang Liang tugged at the corner of his mouth: "I'll go in first." (I'll go in first.)

Tuchun turned around and didn't answer.He finished one cigarette and lit another. Tuqing sent a text message asking him why he didn't go in, but Tuchun ignored him. He ate three cigarettes in a row, crossed the road, and went to the convenience store opposite to buy an egg. He sat in the shop and ate half of it. Then, he hailed a taxi and went to the passenger terminal.

Tuchun returned to Suzhou by himself.

At night, he dreamed.

He dreamed of Di Qiu.

Di Qiu who is alone in the world.

The sky and the earth are flowing, one is surging forward, and the other is spreading backward.

Di Qiu is their intersection, their center.At one moment his figure was miniature, very miniature, like a grape seed, and the next moment he became huge, his eyes were like deep pools, his nose was like a peak, his mouth was like a canyon, with a deep gully hidden in the middle.His hair is spread out, as wide as the sky, and his body is countless mountains and rivers, cliffs, and fairy forests.When people look at him for a long time, they will get lost, become dizzy, be crushed to pieces, become a handful of ashes, a handful of powder, no longer exist, no self anymore, nothing left.

Tuchun woke up with a start. He sat up, covered his face, his eyes adjusted to the darkness for a while before he could gradually see the desk, wardrobe, curtains, floor, and a poster of "2001: A Space Odyssey" on the wall.Tuchun turned around, and he also saw Shao Zhen lying beside him. Shao Zhen's facial features were not clear, and the quilt was raised to cover his body.He was breathing regularly and fell asleep quietly.Tuchun leaned over and kissed his forehead, got off the bed lightly, and went to the kitchen.

Tuchun was eating a cigarette in the kitchen.The dawn was getting earlier every day, and at 05:30, a blue light was seen outside the kitchen window.The sparrows chirped a few times, Tuchun opened the window, and a cold wind blew in. He rubbed his hands and took some water from the electric kettle to boil hot water.

It took a while for the water to boil. When Tuchun took the cup from the cabinet, Shao Zhen came out of the bedroom. It was dawn. Shao Zhen stretched her waist, rubbed her eyes and found Tuchun, and said to him: "It's already woken up. Already? Then get ready and let’s leave later, I’m afraid of traffic jams on the road, and Mount Lu is a tourist attraction after all.”

Tuchun nodded, and he poured hot water into the cup.

Shao Zhen looked at him: "Aren't you going to brush your teeth and wash your face?"

Tuchun said, "Wait until I finish drinking this glass of water." He opened the refrigerator, and Shao Zhen asked him beside him, "What happened when I went to Zhangjiagang for dinner yesterday? Did you quarrel with your father? So you lost sleep?"

Tuchun looked around in the refrigerator: "No more mineral water?"

Shao Zhen said: "Oh, I finished drinking yesterday, I forgot to buy it."

With that said, he turned and walked away. Tuchun looked at him, closed the refrigerator, lit another cigarette, and stared down at the steaming water glass.There was the sound of water in the bathroom, footsteps everywhere in the room, all kinds of friction and commotion.Shao Zhen quickly got dressed and came out of the bedroom with a suitcase. When he saw Tu Chun, he couldn't help but widen his eyes: "Aren't you going to brush your teeth and wash your face? It's already 06:30, why did you light another cigarette?" ah?"

Tuchun smiled and said, "The water is still a little hot."

Shao Zhen said displeasedly: "Buy mineral water on the way to drink. If you don't leave, I really can't make it in time. My dad and I agreed to arrive at lunch time." He suddenly let go of the suitcase and stared at Tuchun: "It's still You don't want to go?"

"what?"

"I don't want to go to Mount Lu, and I don't want to see my parents."

"No." Tuchun pointed to the cup and extinguished the cigarette, "Wait for the water to cool down, it won't be long."

Shao Zhen said: "It's also you who said that I haven't talked about you with my family, now that I'm going back with you, you don't want to go?"

Tuchun said: "No, I just want to..."

His voice was too low, and it was covered by Shao Zhen's volume in no time. Shao Zhen said: "I said it so bluntly before, but now I run away again. You can't always be like this..."

Tuchun couldn't help but said loudly: "Can you let me finish this glass of water?"

Shao Zhen choked up and stopped talking. He sat down at the dining table silently, squinting his eyes, leaning his body, with his arms resting on the back of the chair, handling the car keys.Tu Chun sighed, and he walked towards Shao Zhen.

Shao Zhen asked him: "Have you stopped drinking water?"

Tu Chun reached out and touched Shao Zhen's hand, Shao Zhen retracted her hand, Tu Chun wanted to touch Shao Zhen's hair again, Shao Zhen stood up, Tu Chun wanted to hug him, Shao Zhen stood far away from him .

Shao Zhen put the car keys into her trouser pocket and said, "Forget it."

He pushed open the suitcase and walked straight to the door.Tuchun followed, he stretched out his hand, Shao Zhen just avoided it, neither of them said anything, Shao Zhen took a coat, changed his shoes, Tuchun grabbed him, Shao Zhen pulled out his hand, and finally looked She glanced at him, opened the door, walked out, and closed the door again.

Tuchun stared at the back of the door for a while, stood there for a while, then turned and closed the closet door, and went back into the dining room.

Shao Zhen's eyes flashed before his eyes, he went to the bathroom to wash his mouth and face, when he raised his head to look in the mirror, he was startled by himself in the mirror.

He clearly saw the same look in Shao Zhen's eyes.

Resentful, dissatisfied, secretly competing with something.

Tuchun returned to the kitchen, his water was cold and warm, and he took a sip.

He still thought of Di Qiu.

He also hated Di Qiu.I hate him so much, I hate him for not making noise, not making noise, being quiet, staying silently at the best and most exciting moment, hating him for not running away, not getting angry, not being blown by the wind, The wipers cannot be removed, the thunder cannot be shaken, it is as stable as a rock, and it is as light as a feather.

He just fell from the sky, fell, fell to the ground, and fell into his heart.

Fall between heaven and earth.

Tuchun drank the rest of the water, washed the cup, and dried his hands.He took a deep breath.He couldn't help it, he was angry enough, no matter how angry he was, no matter how much he hated, there was nothing he could do.He had to accept it, to admit it.

Di Qiu.

All whirlpools are born in his eyes, and all storms are calmed by his lips.

Tuchun tried to contact Shao Zhen, but he didn't answer the phone calls, and he didn't reply to the messages, so Tuchun found Tong Zhaozhao.Tong Zhaozhao had the May Day holiday and was at home in Suzhou. She asked Tuchun to meet at the McDonald's on Guanqian Street.Tuchun took a taxi, went into the restaurant, bought a Big Mac set meal, and found a seat.Tong Zhaozhao showed up ten minutes later, and when she saw Tuchun, she walked up to him excitedly.

"Can it be lunch now?" Tong Zhaozhao took out his mobile phone and looked at it. It was past eleven o'clock, and the menu at the ordering place had also been replaced with a lunch menu.

Tuchun said, "Do you want something to eat?"

Tong Zhaozhao was still standing, tapping his phone, and Tuchun asked in a low voice, "Should I go buy it?"

Tong Zhaozhao glanced at him: "Your boyfriend ran away, can you still eat?"

Tuchun put down the French fries in his hand, looked left and right, and asked Tong Zhaozhao: "Why don't you talk in a quieter place."

Tong Zhaozhao laughed, patted him, turned around and said, "I'm going to buy something to eat, you can eat, eat it."

After a break, she came back with two boxes of big potatoes. She poured white vinegar on the fries, tore the ketchup and squeezed it on the fancy promotional paper on the dinner plate. It's too late.

Tuchun tentatively asked, "Did Shao Zhen look for you?"

Tong Zhaozhao turned the phone over and heaved a sigh of relief, then looked at Tuchun and replied with a smile, "Do you know why I asked you to meet here?"

Tu Chun's eyes fell on her phone case, and asked, "Is Shao Zhen around?"

Tong Zhaozhao smiled and ate French fries: "I'm not texting Shao Zhen to report the progress of our chat."

Her eyes rolled around, and she said: "There is no special reason. I want to eat McDonald's fries, and you want to meet me again, so why don't you come here? Don't you think their fries are very delicious?" Is it delicious?" As she spoke, she picked up a piece of French fries and thought about it carefully as if looking at a work of art. After a while, she said, "Don't you think it's strange that potatoes are cut into strips and fried. Why are McDonald's french fries so delicious?"

"It has been specially processed." Tuchun said, "I remember seeing it somewhere, revealing the secrets of McDonald's French fries."

Tong Zhaozhao laughed loudly: "You watch this kind of stuff all day long? No wonder you're going to be blown away by Shao Zhen!"

Tuchun lowered his head and drank Coke: "Then I don't know how to edit the school magazine."

Tong Zhaozhao was overjoyed: "Your mouth is so poisonous! Then you and Shao Zhen are really at the pinnacle of decisive battle!"

Tuchun quickly denied: "No, I don't think Shao Zhen is mean."

Tong Zhaozhao was still smiling, panting and said: "It's true that I have convinced you. After getting along for a long time, the advantages will turn into disadvantages, not to mention the things that are not considered advantages at all. , every detail becomes superfluous, which is normal.”

Tuchun was taken aback, and Tong Zhaozhao blinked at him: "Let me tell you, if you want to talk to someone about everything, you must not be a lover, only a friend."

After saying this sentence, she suddenly fell silent, turned sideways, and slowly dipped the potato in tomato sauce with her chin in her hand, and took small bites.

Tuchun said, "Shao Zhen thought you were talking about the editor-in-chief."

Tong Zhaozhao said again: "Let me tell you again, if you want someone to believe you, you must never be a lover, only a friend."

Tuchun threw up his hands and surrendered.

Tong Zhaozhao shook off some of the salt on the French fries, and said to Tuchun, "Tuchun, a person can't expect others to act as if he didn't do that wrong thing just because he apologized for what he did wrong. Treat him like nothing happened."

Tuchun raised his head to look at her, but didn't make a sound. He touched the ice water drops on the outside of the plastic cup, and shrank his fingers back.

Tong Zhaozhao sat upright, faced Tuchun, and gestured with both hands on the table: "Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that you did something wrong, and I don't want to judge whether you are wrong, whether Shao Zhen is right, I think There is no right or wrong in a relationship, only based on your own opinion, can you accept it, and to what extent, do you understand what I mean?"

Her hands seemed to be cutting a big cake, she lifted it up, put it down again and again, over and over again.

Tuchun looked at Tong Zhaozhao's hand, sucked a Coke, and said, "I told him everything when I started with him, my high school classmate..."

"Di Qiu." Tong Zhaozhao said, her hands spread out on the table and did not move.

Tuchun nodded: "Yes, about Di Qiu's matter, and about the boyfriend I talked about before, he said he doesn't mind." At this point, he paused, wanting to sigh, but he didn't make a sound, just like Choking on Coke.He uncovered the bread on the Big Mac, picked up two slices of pickled cucumbers and stuffed them into his mouth.

Tong Zhaozhao bit her lip, laughed dryly twice, and after a break, she said, "Don't blame me for speaking badly."

"Talk about it," Tuchun said.

Tong Zhaozhao then said: "As for people, at first they feel that it is a very sincere thing to be frank, to hide nothing and meet each other frankly, but as time goes by, these frank confessions turn into a grudge, and become a thing that grows in the heart. The white lotus seeds, the bitter core sprouts, can grow out of nothing, can’t there be a gap in the heart? Do you know that this kind of change has a scientific name? It’s called a gap.”

Tuchun didn't make a sound, he was still chewing the cucumber, and he tasted sour, vinegar, and sweet, but he couldn't chew any of them.

Tong Zhaozhao sighed, leaned on the back of the chair, and his voice faded away: "In fact, people are like this, so I always think that there is no need to fall in love. Can't a person live well? If you want sex, you can buy sex toys. If you want love, you can chase stars. If you want to be moved, you can support a child and invest some money in a charity fund. After being alone for a long time, it’s hard to feel lonely.” She shrugged, “Of course, it’s also possible that I haven’t Let me meet the person who makes my heart flutter, but so what if I don’t meet? I’m going to be unhappy, or find someone to make do with, find someone to force it? I don’t think two people who love each other will be able to live happily, But look at me, without a lover, I can live happily and be free, eat whatever I want, and go wherever I want.”

Tuchun still didn't ring, Tong Zhaozhao fiddled with his hair and laughed: "I feel like I am now the audience who ask questions to the creator after the movie is finished."

"Why do you say that?" Tuchun looked at her.

"Just wanted to share my story."

Tuchun smiled, and Tong Zhaozhao pushed another box of French fries towards him and said, "Eat."

Tuchun pointed to the French fries in his set meal: "I haven't finished my own yet."

Tong Zhaozhao smiled, ate a few French fries, looked elsewhere, then turned back, and asked Tuchun, "That Di Qiu...what does he look like..."

Tu Chun was eating a hamburger, and replied vaguely: "I haven't seen him for more than ten years. I probably met him on the road. I don't even recognize him."

Tong Zhaozhao pointed to his hair: "He must not recognize you either."

She also said: "Maybe after ten years of polishing, he has become the appearance of your ideal love. If things don't go well, he will jump out."

Tuchun shook his head, put down the hamburger, wiped his mouth, and hurriedly said, "No."

Tong Zhaozhao spread out his hands, while Tuchun squeezed the tissue tightly: "I don't know either..."

What is Di Qiu.

Is it a dream, hallucination, or ideal?

Tuchun didn't know.

"It's good to see it once. Once you see it, you will know it. No matter what he is, he will be broken in your heart." Tong Zhaozhao said, "This is something that many love novels and love movies have taught me."

Tuchun smiled, and Tong Zhaozhao chinned at him: "Wait until you send me back."

Tuchun nodded in a daze, and Tong Zhaozhao said, "Shao Zhen hasn't eaten yet."

Tuchun finished his set meal and went to buy a double-decker cod burger. Tong Zhaozhao combined two boxes of French fries into one box, and the two took a taxi to Donggang New Village.After getting out of the car, Tuchun accompanied Tong Zhaozhao to the new village. When they arrived at the downstairs of an apartment building, Tong Zhaozhao gave Tuchun a hug. Tuchun looked forward and saw that Shao Zhen was sitting in front of a flower bed eating a cigarette. It is the shadow of a whirling tree.

Tong Zhaozhao and Shao Zhen waved their hands and said loudly, "Oh!! What a coincidence! You are here too!"

Shao Zhen didn't make a sound, she glanced over, then turned her head back and continued to breathe out the smoke.

Tong Zhaozhao and Tuchun walked towards him together, Tong Zhaozhao gushed: "Smoking less cigarettes, less polluting the air in our community, okay, what a guy, alas, I have to go up to catch up on sleep, come on Come, let me introduce a friend to you."

Shao Zhen didn't move at all. He was wearing a white shirt with the sleeves rolled up to the elbows, and his trousers were a pair of sky blue jeans with some signs of wear and tear.The back of his hair was shaved short, exposing his ears and his neck.He lowered his head, his neck curved beautifully.

Tong Zhaozhao pulled Tuchun back, looked at Shao Zhen, and said, "Shao Zhen, this is Tu Chun, Tu Chun, this is Shao Zhen, let's get to know each other well."

Shao Zhen shook the cigarette ash, but made no sound, Tong Zhaozhao pushed Tu Chun forward, turned and ran into the apartment building, the security door closed, Shao Zhen threw the cigarette butt on the ground, and walked around.

Tu Chun spoke softly to Shao Zhen: "You haven't eaten yet, have you?"

Shao Zhen looked at the McDonald's takeaway bag and said, "It's too oily."

Tuchun said, "Double-layer."

Shao Zhen rolled her eyelids, and there were several forehead lines on her forehead. Looking at Tu Chun, Tu Chun took out the hamburger and handed it to Shao Zhen.Shao Zhen grabbed the hamburger and stood up.He walked past Tuchun, and Tuchun hurriedly turned to follow him.

Shao Zhen took a bite of the hamburger and said, "My sister has decided to come to Suzhou to study."

"Learning Pingtan?"

"if not?"

Tuchun touched the bridge of his nose and said, "It's good to have settled down."

Shao Zhen said again: "You can stay here with me. You don't need to go back to live here. You'll be worrying about your mother when you go back."

Tuchun said, "Let's change to a house with two bedrooms and one living room."

Shao Zhen said: "It's okay, anyway, the landlord of this house may start to increase my rent next month, so I can ask an agent when I have time."

The two walked out of Donggang and stood on the side of the road to take a taxi.After driving past two occupied cars one after another, Shao Zhen was a little discouraged, lowered her hand, stood beside Tu Chun and lit a cigarette.Tuchun was still looking at the cars on the road, when an empty car came across, he hurriedly extended his hand to greet him.The driver of the car saw them, passed an intersection, turned around and drove over.Tuchun was relieved, and Shao Zhen said at this moment: "If you want to wait for him, just wait, and tell me when you get there."

Tuchun looked at him, and looked at him closely.Shao Zhen smiled lightly and said, "Then I'll go find my editor-in-chief too, are you satisfied?"

The car stopped in front of them, neither of them moved, the driver honked the horn.Shao Zhen opened the car door and sat in the back row.Tuchun also got into the car and sat in the front row.

The driver asked them, "Where are you going?"

Tuchun said, "Let's go to the Science and Culture Center."

They went to the Kewen Center to watch a movie. The movie was too long, nearly 140 minutes. After the movie, the two rode public bicycles to Xinghai Road. They went to the ramen shop that was well received on the Internet, and there was a queue of nearly two The hour-long team had a mouthful of hot noodle soup.After dinner, Shao Zhen suggested to go to Eslite, and when they entered the bookstore, he and Tu Chun separated, but soon, they ran into each other again at the record counter. Tu Chun took a cookbook, and Shao Zhen took a cookbook. A travel book and a collection of Hitchcock's short stories.They studied the vinyl record player together for a while, went to pay the money together, and went home together.

Shao Zhen took a shower first, and Tuchun sat in the bathroom with a cigarette and an ashtray and chatted with him.

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