Sad autumn

Afternoon time.

The desperate image of an adult Kuparithos on a film negative.

Tuchun spoke in a low voice.

"Don't think too much."

Qiu Mingchuan tilted his body to look at him: "Ah? Are you talking to me? What? Louder."

Tuchun looked at Qiu Mingchuan's feet.The studio was too dark, the curtains were drawn, and only other people's stories were shining, reflecting on his and Qiu Mingchuan's feet, legs, and hands.

Tuchun said: "...you didn't do anything wrong..."

Qiu Mingchuan laughed, held his face in his hands, lowered his shoulders to look at Tuchun: "It sounds familiar, is it a movie line?"

Tuchun slightly raised his eyes, looked at him, and stopped talking.Qiu Mingchuan suddenly grabbed Tuchun's hand and kissed the back of his hand loudly.

Tuchun pulled out his hand and hurriedly said, "I have a boyfriend."

Qiu Mingchuan pushed him away hard: "Crazy! I didn't kiss you because I wanted you to be my boyfriend! I can't like you!" He hugged Tuchun's head again, and kissed his forehead louder , he stared at Tuchun, eye to eye, very close, with serious eyes.He asked: "Tuchun, do you know what is the biggest problem for modern people?"

Tuchun blinked his eyes.

Qiu Mingchuan's eyes flickered, and he said: "The biggest problem for modern people is that a little care makes them feel warm, and a little setback makes them feel hopeless."

Tuchun didn't make a sound, Qiu Mingchuan raised the corner of his mouth, patted him, and let him go: "I wish you and your boyfriend break up peacefully before you hate each other!"

Tuchun was embarrassed for a while, and Qiu Mingchuan slapped him sharply, and said: "Not all people are like this. They love each other and then hate each other. Some people fall in love with each other in one second and loathe in the next second. Some people fall in love with each other for seven years. Afterwards, Tong Linniao became Feiyan. Everyone is no different."

Tuchun said: "There are also many people who live together forever."

"Of course, of course there are people who grow old all their lives. Have you heard the story of the narcissist? He is not narcissistic, he is love itself. Love is self-pity, looking for your own shadow in others. It is impossible for a person Those who hate themselves can of course stay together for a lifetime."

Tuchun said: "It's not like that. There are also people whose other half is completely different from themselves."

Qiu Mingchuan said: "Then he must have been moved by his own tolerance. He has to put a question mark on whether he loves the other half who is completely different. In the final analysis, people are confused about love. If you want to have sex with someone, it is love." Is it love to think about someone day and night? As soon as the heart beats fast, I feel that God of Cupid is knocking on the door. I love this and that, and in the end I don’t love this and I don’t love that. I look at my phone and find games After clearing the customs, my heart still beats faster."

Tuchun smiled and said, "We seem to discuss this topic every time."

Qiu Mingchuan asked Tuchun, "Do you love your boyfriend?"

Tu Chun said: "I don't think I'm narcissistic..."

Qiu Mingchuan laughed, the more he laughed, the more exaggerated he was. He laughed enough, and said: "Love is still a very good thing. If there is no love to love, you say, there will only be one person left in this life to watch what you want to see." Movies, favorite TV shows, listening to favorite songs, traveling where you want to go, reading a book quietly, visiting the store you want to go to, eating and drinking, how boring is that? Don’t you think so? Come alone , torturing and torturing your strength, testing and testing your tolerance, flirting with you, filling your time with meaningless trash talk, wasting you with unsatisfactory sex, and being entangled with you, it’s quite exciting Bar?"

Tuchun touched his nose and said carefully: "You..."

"What about me?" Qiu Mingchuan ate a cigarette and looked at Tuchun, "Do you know the story of Kuparisos?"

Tuchun said: "Xiuxiu gave me two tickets to the art exhibition that day."

Qiu Mingchuan complained excitedly: "My junior sister! Okay! You have seen my naked portrait!" He lowered his head, took two puffs of cigarettes, and said, "One day, I will go to my mother, and I say, Master , I have something to tell you, she was editing the photo, she ignored me, I said, take a photo of me."

Qiu Mingchuan laughed, smoked again, and said to Tuchun: "When we were in elementary school, there was a classmate in our class, and no one talked to him. I don't remember his name. A while ago, I met A classmate of mine in elementary school, he asked me, Qiu Mingchuan, do you remember so-and-so, I said who, he said that no one talked to him, I said, oh, am I at the same table? I am not a human being Huh? My primary school classmate just laughed, and he said, actually, I have nothing to do with him, even if everyone doesn’t talk to him, I won’t talk to him anymore. Now that I think about it, did I do something wrong? Does that count as campus bullying?"

Tuchun looked at Qiu Mingchuan, and Qiu Mingchuan frowned: "I said, your mouth is really stinky, stay away from me."

Tuchun shook his head, forced out a smile, and Qiu Mingchuan smiled too, and then he fell into a rare silence.

"Jazz Spring and Autumn" is over.Tuchun went to change the discs, and they watched "The Spy Next Door".

After watching the movie, Tuchun went home and got on the subway. He took out his mobile phone and saw that the phone was out of battery and turned off automatically.Tuchun got off the car at Leqiao and took a bus to the library.He looked up the story of Kuparithos.

He saw the end of this beautiful boy. Because he accidentally killed his beloved deer, he couldn't live in grief. He was turned into a cypress tree by the gods.

Later, the Greeks planted cypress trees in the cemetery, which is their mourning.

When Tuchun arrived home, Shao Zhen was already at home. He was eating apples and watching TV. When he saw Tuchun, he asked, "Have you eaten yet? Turn off your phone if you call me."

Tuchun took off his coat and shoes, walked towards Shao Zhen, and said apologetically, "The phone is out of battery and turned off automatically. Have you eaten yet?"

Shao Zhen nodded: "I ordered some wontons." He smiled and bit an apple, sitting cross-legged on the sofa, wearing sleepy clothes and short hair, and said to Tu Chun, "You are a bit out of the world The smell of fireworks is gone, so don’t bring a power bank.”

Tuchun said: "I didn't expect that it took so long to go to Eslite to buy a book, and you took a bath?"

Shao Zhen said: "Do you want to go out to eat something? Or order a takeaway? I can change clothes quickly."

Talking that he was about to stand up, Tuchun looked at the kitchen, stopped him, and said, "It's okay, I'll order some wontons too, you are tired from work, take a rest."

The TV screen stopped on a variety show, and the two watched it together for a while. Shao Zhen sniffed her nose and asked strangely, "What's the smell?"

Tuchun hurriedly pulled up his collar and smelled it. There was a strong smell of durian on his hands and clothes. Tuchun laughed dryly and said, "An aunt on the subway brought a durian up, and the whole car smelled like it." , I'm going to take a shower."

Shao Zhen said, "Then shall I serve you a bowl of wontons?"

Tu Chun agreed repeatedly, got into the bathroom, turned on the shower, took off his clothes, and washed himself from head to toe, especially his forehead and the back of his hands.Tuchun didn't go out until the lemon mint smell was all over her body after washing. Shao Zhen was standing at the junction of the kitchen and the dining room looking at her mobile phone. Tuchun walked over while wiping her hair. Shao Zhen raised her eyes, smiled at him, and put Put the phone on the dining table, turn around and go into the kitchen.His mobile phone screen was unlocked, and Tuchun immediately saw a message from Li Lanxiu's circle of friends.

As soon as the brother came back, it was durian hell.

There are two accompanying pictures, one is a selfie of Li Lanxiu covering her nose and rolling her eyes, and the other is a profile photo of Qiu Mingchuan, who is cutting a whole durian cake.The release time of this circle of friends was yesterday morning.

Shao Zhen came out with a bowl of hot wontons, put them down on the table, and prepared chopsticks and spoons, and asked Tuchun, "Do you want to dip it in something? Or some side dishes? There are pickled cucumbers at home."

Tuchun shook his head, looked at him, and pursed his lips.

Shao Zhen pinched his shoulder, picked up the phone and went back to the living room, saying, "Eat, I will continue to empty my mind."

The variety show was at a stage that made the audience laugh, a smile appeared on Shao Zhen's face, and he sat down on the sofa again.Tuchun scooped up a wonton, took a bite, chewed for a long time before taking the second bite, he looked at Shao Zhen, he changed the channel, and stopped watching the lively variety show.Tuchun asked, "Don't you want to continue watching? It's quite funny."

Shao Zhen said, "I checked, and Central Six will be broadcasting "The Age of Innocence" soon."

Tuchun buried his head in eating wontons, Shao Zhen put the remote control on the glass coffee table with a click, Tuchun was startled, looked up at him, put down the spoon, and silently swallowed the stuffed vegetables and meat in his mouth.

Central No. [-] is still broadcasting advertisements, one after another, what about Coke, flexible hair, and Dove.

Shao Zhen suddenly said: "Daniel Day-Lewis has never acted in "Tess"."

"Ah?" Tuchun was stunned, staring at Shao Zhen.Shao Zhen turned her face, looked at him, still smiled, and said: "I said you remembered wrongly, he never acted in "Tess". Look confident."

Tuchun touched the towel hanging around his neck, grabbed it and wiped the hair on the back of his head: "Why are you talking about this all of a sudden?"

"Wait, "The Age of Innocence" is going to be broadcast, did you confuse "Tess" with "The Age of Innocence"?" Shao Zhen said casually.

Tuchun didn't ring, the TV station popped up a preview, and it will be broadcast for you soon, "The Age of Innocence", and then continue to perform commercials.

Tuchun said: "I know Xiuxiu's brother. He went to Paris before. I want to say that he came back recently, so I went to catch up on the old days. I didn't say that I just came from his studio. He The studio is at Li Gongdi."

Shao Zhen's arm was across the back of the sofa, she leaned on the sofa, propped her chin and said to Tu Chun, "Why are you so careless? If you go out to catch up with others, I will be more careless?"

Tuchun smiled, scooped up a wonton to eat, and said, "I think too much."

Shao Zhen also laughed, and said again: "If you go to the high school reunion, what should I do? Drown in the vinegar vat?"

Tuchun was still holding the spoon, so he didn't look at Shao Zhen, but looked at the piles of wontons in the bowl, and said, "Why did you mention your high school classmates all of a sudden..." He murmured again, "Let's not talk about this, I don't know I told you..."

Shao Zhen said, "What did you say?"

Tuchun said: "I said I told you, I told you about Di Qiu, let's not talk about it."

Shao Zhen curled her lips: "I already said it, I just mentioned it, why are you so nervous."

"I'm not nervous. You said you didn't mind. Suddenly mentioning him..." Tuchun put down the spoon, put his hands on his lap, wiped his palms, pressed his knees, and said with his head down.

Shao Zhen said rationally: "Does it mean that I mind? If I really mind, I don't even want to think about it, right? Besides, who hasn't had an enlightenment partner, who hasn't had unrequited love? I think it's common."

Tuchun frowned: "Let's not talk about this."

The Age of Innocence begins.

Shao Zhen stopped talking, he played Tetris, Tu Chun watched him, Shao Zhen played with his mobile phone, and only took a look at the TV when he had time, looked at Tu Chun, his eyes met, Tu Chun asked: "Does Lawyer Gao really Have you immigrated?"

Shao Zhen looked at the phone: "Who knew, his English is so poor, why did he immigrate, wash dishes in a Chinese restaurant?"

Tu Chun said: "He sold the house here, so he can enjoy his life there too..."

Shao Zhen still lowered her head: "Why do you care so much about Lawyer Gao? You don't need to find something to say."

Tu Chunrou said: "No, don't say that..."

Shao Zhen raised her eyes and looked at Tuchun closely: "What's wrong? Isn't it? If you don't mention Di Qiu, okay, if you don't mention it, then you don't say anything. I don’t want to talk about a topic, but if I insist on talking, it’s not interesting, is it?”

Tuchun wiped his face and ears with a towel.Shao Zhen also chased him and said, "You think I'm mean now? Oh, you said I was eloquent before, but now you think I'm mean?"

Tuchun said: "About Di Qiu and Xiuxiu's brother, what else do you want to ask, what do you want to know?"

He lowered his voice and put the towel on the table.

Shao Zhen shrugged her shoulders, looked at her phone, and the sound effect of Tetris rang again.

The foreigners in "The Age of Innocence" speak Chinese, with perfect Mandarin.

After a long while, Shao Zhen said, "You said you had been dreaming about Di Qiu before, have you ever dreamed about him now?"

Tuchun shook his head, Shao Zhen threw away the phone and looked at Tuchun with a smile: "Then what have you ever dreamed about him? Chunmeng?"

Tuchun said: "I dreamed that he was far away from me, dreamed that he ran away, ran away, dreamed of his back, many times."

Shao Zhen grabbed two sofa cushions and put them behind her waist, patted the sofa, and said, "Oh, that's it, maybe he is really far away from you, and now he doesn't know how to be happy here, and he has long forgotten you. , he may not even remember your appearance, your voice, what you like, what you hate, maybe he especially likes durian and stinky tofu now. Next time you meet, he will give you a box of durian cakes and say indefinite."

Tuchun laughed, Shao Zhen laughed too, but Tuchun didn't make a sound.

Shao Zhen looked at Tu Chun leisurely, and asked him quietly: "Actually, have you been waiting for him?"

Tuchun hastily denied: "Of course not! Where are you thinking! He can leave as soon as he leaves. What should I do waiting for him? It's unnecessary."

Shao Zhen said: "Can a person think about someone in his heart, and at the same time flirt with others?"

Tuchun's voice rose: "I'm not thinking about him, I think you and I are fine now."

"Then what if we are not good? Will you think of him? You will think, if you are with Di Qiu, will you be happier and happier than we are together, and will he be more suitable for you than me. "Shao Zhen locked Tuchun's sight, and Tuchun said anxiously: "We are now... it's me and you, I can't tell, I can talk without you, but when I'm with you, what I think is Me and you, I think what Di Qiu is doing, it's none of his business, can you stop dragging him into it?"

But Shao Zhen didn't listen, ignored him, and chased after him fiercely: "If you want to wait for him, you just wait. If I hear such a story, I will feel very infatuated, and maybe I will sigh, being moved, you It’s been more than ten years since you graduated from high school. For ten years, you have been dreaming about someone, thinking about someone, thinking about someone, someone you have never seen again, maybe you will never see someone again..."

Tuchun interrupted him: "Can you stop talking about him!"

Shao Zhen smiled softly: "That's right, there is no law that stipulates that if you love someone, you can't pursue another person, and you can't spend the rest of your life with another person. It doesn't matter if Di Qiu is your red rose or white rose." Well, a rose is a flower, and it will wither sooner or later, unless it is a plastic flower, do you wait for it to wither or wait for your life to end?"

Tu Chun said: "I will be tired of waiting too!"

"Then am I the condiment you're tired of waiting for?" Shao Zhen turned and sat down, poured out a cigarette from the cigarette case, lit it, and turned to look at Tuchun, "It's a bowl of wonton, white rice , or a bowl of red bean cake, a pot of Maoxuewang?"

Tu Chun grabbed the towel and wiped her hair vigorously, covering Shao Zhen's gaze, Tu Chun said, "I never mentioned to you the editor-in-chief of your university magazine."

Tu Chun added: "You never told your family about me, did you?"

"My family is not here, and I don't plan to go back." Shao Zhen said.

Tuchun grabbed the towel, threw it aside, and said with lowered eyes, "Di Qiu is not here, and I don't intend to go find him, or wait for him, or whatever."

Shao Zhen asked him: "Who told you about the editor-in-chief of the school magazine?"

"No one told me."

"Is it Zhao Zhao?"

Tuchun didn't make any noise, he ate the cold wontons in the bowl and went to the kitchen to wash the dishes.The sound of the water faded away, and he heard Shao Zhen's voice very close, and he said to him: "You are like this every time, either you don't talk, or talk again, think again, procrastinate as much as you can, is there ever a time when you don't procrastinate? when?"

Tuchun looked back, he saw Shao Zhen standing behind him, Tuchun said affirmatively: "Yes, when I told my mother that I would move out to live with you."

Shao Zhen's breathing was stagnant, she stood with her hands down, the cigarette was burning between his fingers, and he fell silent.Tuchun tried to get close to him, tried to touch his hand with his hand, tried to touch him with his eyes.He held Shao Zhen's hand.Shao Zhen trembled, her eyes were trembling, Tuchun hugged him, and kissed his hair lightly.

They hugged for a while, Shao Zhen drew back and poured a glass of water, he drank the water, took a deep breath on the cigarette, and threw away the butt.He and Tuchun went out.

They sat side by side on the sofa, Tuchun covered Shao Zhen with a blanket, Shao Zhen smiled and said, "It's very hot, it's unnecessary."

Tuchun smiled, but said nothing.Shao Zhen pointed to the piles of real estate advertisements on the coffee table: "Do you still want these? If you don't want them, I will throw them away."

Tuchun said, "Let's keep it." After a break, he said, "Why don't we go eat ramen tomorrow?"

"Whatever." Shao Zhen yawned, and the TV station was interrupting commercials again. The two of them were watching the TV, but they didn't ring. At this moment, the doorbell rang, and Tuchun ran to open the door. There was a courier standing outside the door.

"Please sign here." The courier held a large cardboard box, handed over a pen, and pointed to the receipt place and said to Tuchun.

Tu Chun signed for the courier, took the big cardboard box and entered the house, Shao Zhen asked him, "What is it?"

Tuchun unpacked the outer packaging, and what was in the box was the Labor Day gift he bought for Shao Zhen, an electric oven.