Find him in the crowd

After leaving the office, Chu Zifan asked Shen Yi

"Do you not like that person too much? I mean that He Fei."

"Why should I like him." Shen Yi asked back, "Do you know him?"

"I don't know each other," Chu Zifan said, "I only met once when Mr. Shen was on his 60th birthday."

"60th birthday?" Shen Yi frowned and thought for a while, "That was several years ago, you remember now?"

Chu Zifan didn't want him to know his purpose, "I have a good memory."

But Shen Yi still guessed it. "You came to Yanda today to find him."

Statements, not questions.

Chu Zifan had no choice but to admit, "Yes."

Shen Yi was even more puzzled, "You came to Yanda at this time, in order to find someone you met a few years ago?"

"Yeah." Chu Zifan guessed that he might be thinking wrong, but he didn't intend to explain.

Shen Yi didn't continue to guess along this wrong silk road, but said firmly, "It's because of Xiang Sixi."

"How do you know?" Can you guess this?

"Guess." Shen Yi pretended to be deep and said, "I also know that He Fei and Xiang Sixi have had a relationship, so I came to look for He Fei... What are you doubting Xiang Sixi?"

Chu Zifan shook his head and denied, "I didn't doubt him, that is, I just encountered some things... and people recently, so I'm a little curious about what kind of people he liked before."

"If you want to know Xiang Sixi's past, you should ask Xiang Sixi directly. Why, are you afraid that he will lie to you?"

"How could it be?" In fact, I didn't know the bottom line.

"You are the closest people to each other. Why do you go around and find out from other places?"

"Didn't I just do this on a whim, without any premeditation. If I hadn't met you, I wouldn't have met that He Fei. By the way, why do you hate that person? I think Mr. Shen still thinks highly of him."

Shen Yi thought for a while before saying, "Actually, I don't have any complaints about He Fei. Although I despise some of his actions, they are also reasonable. They just reflect the inferiority of human nature."

Is this still called no opinion?Chu Zifan complained silently, "Then what did he do?"

"Ask Xiang Sixi."

"..."

Although he was obviously dissatisfied with the answer and continued to ask, Shen Yi didn't want to satisfy him at all, and sent Chu Zifan away with the sentence "I never gossip about people behind their backs".

"However, why are you always curious about other people's affairs, don't you want to know about your own affairs?"

"My...what's the matter?"

"For example, Xiang Sixi once told me about you."

I really want to know that, okay? "He... what did he say!"

"Oh ~ aren't you afraid that I will lie to you and say something that is not good for you?"

"How could you."

"Why wouldn't I."

……

"So, if you want to know about Xiang Sixi, just ask Xiang Sixi, he will not lie to you."

"Thank you. But is this your ex's advice to your current one?"

"Predecessor?" Shen Yi was puzzled at first, and then laughed.Seeing him smile, Chu Zifan knew that he must be stupid again. "You are really... Since I am also one of the parties involved, then as the party concerned, the reply to your matter is - no, no. Xiang Sixi and I are not in the relationship you imagined, and we have never had any friendship external relationship."

Chu Zifan was embarrassed now.Wish I could go back in time and delete that part.Shen Yi is also a reasonable person, in order to ease his embarrassment, he changed the subject, "Have you eaten yet?"

"Nope"

"Let's go together then, I'm hungry. I just want to take you to taste the delicious food that Xiang Sixi has eaten for four years."

Chu Zifan's meal was tasteless, and he had such a big embarrassment today, so he probably couldn't get over it without any comfort.So he sent a message to Xiang Sixi aggressively.

Xiang Sixi found a quiet place by the window in the tea room of the hotel. As soon as he opened the menu, he received a message from Chu Zifan and a series of exclamation points. It's up.But when Shen Yi was mentioned, Xiang Sixi gave up the coffee and asked for a pot of jasmine.

As soon as the tea was served, An Mingye came.Sit down opposite "Sorry, I'm late."

Xiang Sixi put down her phone, "It's not too late, I just arrived too."

"Why do you have time to invite me to drink tea today? I thought I was a scourge in your heart, so you couldn't avoid it."

Xiang Sixi liked the aroma of tea, but could not accept the bitterness of tea, and always kept tea at a respectful distance.Occasionally, when I want to drink tea, I will make some scented tea, which is approachable and delicious.

"That's probably because you misunderstood." Xiang Sixi denied it flatly, and poured tea for him by the way, "Although it's not a good tea, it tastes pretty good."

"I hope it's a misunderstanding." An Mingye actually doesn't know how to taste tea, but the fragrance of flowers is always very attractive. "Then this misunderstanding is resolved?"

Xiang Sixi asked, "What do you think?"

An Mingye frowned, pondering the meaning behind his words, "You have really changed a lot, I can't understand what you are saying, and I don't know how to reply."

"It's not just me. Everything is changing. It's terrible to remain the same. Besides... Our identities are very different from before. You shouldn't look at me like before. "

An Mingye smiled wryly and shook his head, "It seems that today is not as simple as drinking a cup of tea."

"Sorry." Realizing that his words were a little too aggressive, he drank two more cups of tea. It was always difficult for him to be truly calm when facing An Mingye.

"Actually, I'm avoiding you. I'm afraid of seeing you. Do you know why?"

An Mingye shook his head, "I want to hear why."

"I used to be afraid of you. I came from the mountains and have never seen the world. You are the first 'big man' I met in this city. In fact, there has always been a distance between us, the class gap, the gap between the rich and the poor...you After I came back, I was even more afraid of you. I found that even though I tried my best and worked hard for so long, I thought I was enough to get ahead, but the gap between us has not narrowed at all. I am actually quite afraid that you will say, to Get back with me, start over, and I'm afraid I'll say yes to you—am I being self-indulgent?"

"No. When I planned to go back to China, I never gave up on this idea. Even after I came back, the first thing I did was to find you and invest in your script, just to be with you again. Later I found out that you were hiding I, I didn't force you either. Whether you are afraid of me or you have a new love, so what. Then—" An Mingye looked into his eyes, "Would you like to be with me? Let's start again. "

Xiang Sixi shook his head without hesitation, "I don't want to."

An Mingye didn't seem surprised by the answer at all, instead he smiled and said, "Look, don't you have the answer, so what are you afraid of?"

"Actually, I'm not as obedient as you imagined. To be honest, when I was with you, apart from liking from the bottom of my heart, I had something for you. I didn't even want to face this, but I was Understand, I can go to school, have food, and don't have to worry about making a living with you. I also feel guilty because I have such mean thoughts, so I always want to make money quickly and pay back what I owe you You, in this way, I can like you openly. But I thought later, if we didn’t have these gaps at that time, then the person who broke up must be me. I am not a well-behaved and sensible person, and I am even a bit rebellious. Relying on your support to live, no need to watch your face carefully, then you will definitely see me who is willful and narrow-minded, has a bad temper, and loves to care about every detail. In the end, we have to separate."

An Mingye watched him hesitant to speak several times, and finally he didn't know whether to let go or sighed helplessly, "It's not that exaggerated. Could it be that your current boyfriend is with you like this?"

Xiang Sixi's eyes were firm all afternoon, and the face of the person in front of him became red and misty instantly, "I really miss the time we were together, but I never thought about going back, and I can't go back. Parting is regrettable, I think the way I was alone in the apartment crying with snot all over my face was the best parting, for you and me. I'm sorry."

"Why are you crying? I should be the one who said I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I left so hastily, as if I couldn't wait to get rid of you. But please believe that, that's not my original intention. I just feel ashamed and don't know what to do. How to face you."

Xiang Sixi cried and shook his head, this time it really passed.

"Okay, let's go back."

He complained and hated it, and later pretended to be calm and calm, and didn't mention it anymore, only thinking about it occasionally, and he had no choice but to endure it silently.But now, that person has become a barb on his fingertips. It doesn't hurt very much, but he can't ignore that he still has such a wound. The pain is annoying, and he presses down hard, but finds that the wound is still small after all. The pain caused was nothing more than that.

Chu Zifan played the piano all night in the piano room, playing it messily, just to vent.

Xiang Sixi didn't reply to him, the assistant answered the call, saying that he was discussing with the crew to change the lines.Being asked to change the lines temporarily was probably the worst thing for Xiang Sixi, and Chu Zifan didn't want to bother him anymore.

In addition to the piano, there is also a violin in the piano room, which has been with him since he was a child, but later he was abandoned when he focused on the piano.I practiced chasing my first love in college for a while, and my level is not very good, but it's okay to fool a layman, such as Xiang Sixi.He didn't know much about these musical instruments, but he simply thought that knowing them was quite tall, and besides, whether Chu Zifan played the piano or played the piano, he was very charming.

In addition to the violin, there is also a guqin, which belongs to Xiang Sixi.It was the royalties earned from Xiang Sixi's first novel published in college, and he asked Shen Yi to find an expert to make a piano for him.Although it is not the best, it can be called Zhang Haoqin.

The first time Chu Zifan heard Xiang Sixi play this piano, he suffered from gastritis and rolled on the bed, insisting that Xiang Sixi play the piano for him, saying that only music can heal his pain.Xiang Sixi bit the bullet and played the only song he knew, "Autumn Wind Ci", intermittently, and some of the tunes were not accurate.Although Xiang Sixi said he was unwilling, he still woke up Chu Zifan with his piano sound in the next few days, just because Chu Zifan said he liked to listen.

From then on, if anyone among them is sick, they can enjoy this exclusive service of waking up with the sound of the piano.

Chu Zifan's father can play the guqin. The old man has been playing the piano at home to relieve boredom since he retired. Chu Zifan has also followed suit for a few days. His level is about the same as that of Xiang Sixi.He flipped through the piano score that he hadn't used for a long time, played it a few times, and almost got it down. After that, he recorded a video and posted it in Moments, and even pretended to add lyrics.

"Long-term lovesickness, long-term lovesickness, short-term lovesickness, endlessness, I knew it was so confusing, why didn't I know each other at the beginning."

It was already one o'clock in the morning when Xiang Sixi returned to the hotel, and planned to return Chu Zifan's call before going to bed, but saw the video sent by Chu Zifan, which was inexplicably funny.I clicked "Childish" in the comments, hesitated for a while or deleted it, and replaced it with "After a few careful considerations, it's better to love each other" and then went to take a shower refreshed.

Chu Zifan came out of the bathroom and saw Xiang Sixi's reply, rolling on the bed with his mobile phone in his arms and giggling.Even teacher tony's angry cry "you two get out of the circle of friends!" was ignored.

The day Xiang Sixi came back was on Christmas Eve, it was just dark, the airport was brightly lit and decorated in a festive atmosphere, I don’t know which school’s band was playing Christmas music in the hall, attracting crowds of onlookers, Xiang Sixi I also leaned on the railing and listened for a while.Thinking of Christmas the year before last, Chu Zifan took him to the Christmas concert, which was said to be a concert by a royal orchestra, and tickets were hard to come by. Unfortunately, Xiang Sixi really couldn't appreciate classical music, except for a few familiar songs at the beginning. Apart from the repertoire, the latter became a lullaby.At that time, they had just been dating, and Xiang Sixi felt quite embarrassed, but Chu Zifan said, "I am very happy if you are willing to come with me."

In fact, he really likes concerts. The music he hears from electronic devices is not the same as the music played live. However, if it is Chu Zifan's music concert, it will be perfect.While thinking this way, Xiang Sixi flipped through the recent concert performances on his mobile phone.

Chu Zifan's car was limited today, and he drove Xiang Sixi's big jeep.It was Xiang Sixi's new car, a boxy Jeep, coquettish red, taller than it, not as coquettish, and even parked in a corner, it is still conspicuous.

Xiang Sixi suddenly thought that maybe he was not afraid of facing An Mingye's choice, but that his choice would make him lose Chu Zifan.In the past few years, he has long been used to changing lovers frequently, getting used to different temperatures and different atmospheres, coming and going in front of each different door, he once thought it was freedom.

Maybe he confessed suddenly in the bar, maybe he woke himself up with the gentle sound of the piano, maybe he wrote their names on the big red invitation card, or maybe now, he parked at the farthest place from the airport lights In the declining place, he could see and know at a glance that someone was waiting for him there.

Chu Zifan put down the car window, watched Xiang Sixi walk over, pouted with a smile and begged for a kiss as soon as he walked in, Xiang Sixi looked around and pecked him lightly on the lips.

"Trunk open."

Christmas Eve in the bustling city was as crowded as ever. They followed the navigation's prompts and walked half a circle around the city before finally returning home.By the way, I packed a bunch of late-night snacks downstairs, and watched a movie while eating late-night snacks.Later, the movie became the background music, and the two patronized and ate.When the food was almost finished, Xiang Sixi remembered the message that he hadn't replied to.

"What do you mean when you post without beginning or end?"

Asked by Xiang Sixi, Chu Zifan remembered that there was such a thing, "Why don't you answer me."

"Busy and forgot." Xiang Sixi replied without guilt, "Besides, it's not a serious matter."

Chu Zifan retorted, "What is not a serious matter, it is obviously a very serious matter"

"Then what did you tell Shen Yi?"

"Actually... Shen Yi said, if you want to know something about you, let me ask you. Instead of asking about it from other places. They all know it, but I don't know anything."

"Then what do you want to know about me?"

The smile on Xiang Sixi's face disappeared, and Chu Zifan hesitated.

"You're angry."

Xiang Sixi was indeed a little angry, but he couldn't get angry when facing Chu Zifan's pitiful look.

"Yeah, I'm a little angry. I don't know what you are asking about me from others. But Shen Yi is right. If you want to know about me, I will tell you. I never thought of hiding anything from you. It's just that many old things have passed, so I don't bother to mention them. Let me guess, you probably want to know An Mingye."

"Yeah." Chu Zifan suddenly regretted it, but——

"It's no secret that he's on the same crew as you. But the first time I heard about this man was the night we met at the bar, the name you called in your dreams. I can't forget it, and I can't help it. Especially , he came back to you again. Can you understand how I feel."

Xiang Sixi was shocked. Although he has many lovers, he has always been very principled. He never thought that he would do such a scumbag thing, and Chu Zifan never said it. If it wasn't this time, probably he wouldn't will mention.

"I'm sorry, I don't know, I haven't seen him for a long time at that time. I don't know why...uh...sorry."

"It's okay. It's all over. I didn't want to question you, nor did I want to hear your apology. But, that person came back again. He came to look for you, right? He specifically wanted your script to get close to you. What is his purpose?" What about you, will you leave me because of this?"

The TV screen flickered on and off, reflecting the two people's expressions also flickering on and off, Xiang Sixi bit his lower lip, feeling a little sad in his heart, he was used to the independent relationship, coming and going without worries, he wandered used to it.Even though they have been dating for two years, the longest of all romantic relationships, they have failed to give their lover a sense of security.He was still angry at first, but thinking about it now, Chu Zifan must have struggled for a long time and mustered up a lot of courage to say this to himself.The closer the relationship is, the harder it is sometimes to be honest with each other.

"No." Xiang Sixi said, "He is the first person I like. Even many of my habits in life are derived from him, such as dressing style, favorite perfume, favorite brand... He is going to get married , broke up with me. But I can't hate him, because I still owe his tuition. I should like him very much, but since he left, those things he gave me have become debts , I don't have the mood to look at things and think about others, I just want to return all these to him, and it's best not to owe anything.

I have questioned myself countless times whether I love his money or his people.Such doubts made me very frustrated, and I even felt disappointed in myself.I'm not supposed to be that kind of person, my education doesn't allow me to be that kind of person.Only by paying back all his money can I feel at ease and be at ease.

I can't forget him, just like I can't forget the classmates who grew up together, the teacher who played the guitar, and the fellow villagers who found a job for me. Although I remember it, there is nothing special about it.I will not leave you because of this. "

Chu Zifan asked again, "Then why is He Fei? The last time I saw this person in Mr. Shen, Shen Yi seemed to dislike him."

"He Fei, he was my guqin teacher. I liked him at the time, but later he got married and was the niece of one of our deans. Then he got a place to stay in school, and I gave up the postgraduate entrance examination in order to stay away from him. Probably because of this, Shen Yi has always looked down on him."

Chu Zifan also felt aggrieved, "Give up your studies for this kind of person? You are stupid! Don't Mr. Shen know that he is such a person, and still work with him."

"Speaking out this kind of thing will only hurt the enemy one thousand and self-damage eight hundred, and no one may believe it. His professional ability is still very strong, and it is good for Mr. Shen to have a helper. Anyway, they are not in touch with each other anyway, It’s not going to be extinct.”

Chu Zifan said angrily, "It's not worth it. No wonder Shen Yi hates him, he is a hypocrite."

But Xiang Sixi is like this, she looks very powerful, but in fact she is just a paper tiger.Those who are hurt will walk away, hide alone, and then pretend to be nothing, and continue to live.Pretty useless, but otherwise, so what.

"So when he found out that I was with you, Shen Yi didn't agree. He said that if I broke up with you again, I might have to give up my career and even stay away from him as a friend, otherwise everything in my life you."

"It's quite lenient." Shen Yi was instantly reduced to the same level as Luo Rui in Chu Zifan's heart.

"Then I said, I have the final say on whether it's suitable or not. But at that time, I thought, even if I broke up with you, I should still be friends with Rory, so it wouldn't be so miserable. But..." Xiang Si hoped On Chu Zifan's shoulder "Will you get married without saying a word?"

"If I get married, I must prepare a big diamond ring to propose to you. How can I keep silent."

Chu Zifan kissed his forehead, smelled the fragrance on his body, "Is this the fragrance that An Mingye likes?"

……

"I'll change it tomorrow. I think the one I usually use tastes better than this one."

"No, that musky smell is too strong, I like sandalwood."

"Then change to another sandalwood fragrance. At the bar, the ginseng and plum blossom smell was very good, so let's just go with that."

Xiang Sixi said helplessly, "Okay."

In fact, he also liked the taste.But I can't remember where I bought that perfume.