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When Chen Feiyang opened his eyes, Xiao Jingran was lying on the side and fell asleep.

There are several hideous scars on the naked back, and healed gunshot wounds on the shoulders. If the lines are not beautiful enough, it looks really nauseating.

Chen Feiyang stared at the ceiling for a moment, got up from the bed lightly, then quietly picked up the clothes on the ground, and fled here in a hurry before waking him up.

I don't know why I did this, obviously this is his home, and it used to be the place where he felt most at ease and comfortable, but now it has become like those high-end suites in hotels.

You should leave after finishing your work. This must be because of professional habits.

He was afraid that if he stayed for a long time, he would feel like vomiting.

Chen Feiyang wandered around the street aimlessly.

It's a bit cloudy today, and in the afternoon, although the temperature is high, there is no scorching sun.

There are people coming and going everywhere around me, there are passers-by in a hurry, and there are also couples holding hands on a date. Everyone has different expressions on their faces, but no one is as at a loss like Chen Feiyang.

Not in a daze, nor like a wandering soul, Chen Feiyang stared at the rows of shop windows, and would stop and look around when he saw beautiful things. There was no special expression on his face, but he just said no Feeling dazed, like a child who has lost his way, staring at the strange and noisy street in a daze.

Later, I couldn't walk anymore, and my body was in pain, so I wanted to find a place to sit down and rest.However, a certain position in the back was uncomfortable and awkward, and it was uncomfortable to stand, and it was impossible to sit down. In the end, I could only find a place with fewer people, and simply squatted on the edge of the flower bed to catch my breath.

Chen Feiyang can be said to be in a mess now, he didn't even take a shower before he came out, maybe it's better to find a hotel to rest, but he didn't dare to do that.Because he knows that the more this is the case, the more he can't stay by himself. He is afraid that the surrounding will be too quiet, and he will take his whole body to just want to indulge in the silence, which is too much to think about.

So it’s better to be on the street, because there are more people and it’s more lively. You can see that the surroundings are messy, everywhere is messy, everyone is messy, can you also bring him to become messy?

Chen Feiyang told himself to stand up, as a man, his knees should not be soft, he should kneel down and kneel down to his parents, but he couldn't kneel down to himself, he had to support himself.

It's just that this time Chen Feiyang gritted his teeth a hundred times, slapped his knees, and couldn't stand up even if he was alive and kicking. I'm not afraid of wanting to laugh cheaply again, it's okay, it's okay, but after working hard for a long time, the usual hippie smile can no longer hold up. camouflage.

It should be said that he is desperate or disappointed. In short, he is very hard to think about it. Sexual things should be regarded as normal for him, and he should not care about what happened yesterday. Whether it was forced or bad, he did not fight to death anyway. If he had resisted, if he was really a chaste man, shouldn't he find a well and jump into it now?

But he just doesn't understand, doesn't understand, really doesn't understand.

He doesn't understand why a friend who is sincere will do this to him, obviously he rescued him at a dangerous moment, and obviously he sang to him the little frog before, why is this the one who said because we are friends , will press him on the bed until...

Chen Feiyang couldn't think anymore.

He really regarded Ah Ran as a friend, and he couldn't help but want to treat him well when he cared about it.Just like Xiaoyu, he doesn't care about how bad the other party is, and doesn't care about the status of the other party. They are good brothers, so they must show loyalty.

But he was wrong.

A Ran's words kept rolling in his mind, "You should be better at this kind of thing than me, right?"

Those words were too harsh, and they suddenly merged with a deep and gentle voice from a long time ago.

"You have done such a thing, who would think you are clean? Even if you don't care about your reputation, but I do. In the eyes of others, you are like this... In short, people are like this, I can't not dislike it .”

Chen Feiyang closed his eyes, buried his head in his knees, and kept pulling his hair, feeling that his head was about to burst from pain, his soul was about to split from pain, everything was about to split, he wanted to hold on Can't stop.

Chen Feiyang was not what he is now in the past, at least compared with him a few years ago, he is not what he is now, like a complete little lunatic.

At the age of 16, Chen Feiyang stepped out of the mountains in his hometown for the first time and was sent to the town to study in high school.

At that time, Chen Feiyang was very outstanding, just like all the green teenagers. Not only did he have excellent grades, but also he was born with a pure and lively personality. Wherever he went, he looked like a little angel covered in sunshine. like him.

As the eldest son of the family, he is also given very high expectations by his family. Maybe he will be the first college student to come out of the whole mountain. Not only can he honor his ancestors, but he is also the only hope for the whole family.

Until one day, he met that person.

On the dusty playground and in front of the teaching building covered with ivy, a tall and handsome senior walked slowly in front of him, stood in the crowd, and looked over from a distance.

Chen Feiyang lowered his head for some reason, and when he looked over again, the senior who was talking to someone looked over again and smiled at him, that was their first meeting.

The senior is very good, he is the type who looks mature, steady, gentle and considerate, with a touch of melancholy in his eyes.

For girls of that age, such a boy is undoubtedly very lethal. Even Chen Feiyang admires him very much, and often thinks in his heart, if only he could have the temperament of a senior at some point .

But the senior liked Chen Feiyang's character very much, not only favored him, but even took care of Chen Feiyang in every possible way.When the two were together, the senior would often tell him many things that Chen Feiyang never knew, and would also lend him various books to read.As the eldest son of the family, Chen Feiyang felt the care of his elder brother for the first time, and at the same time, he developed an inexplicable admiration and closeness to the senior. He used to really regard the senior as his own brother. look at.

Later, because Chen Feiyang lived in the school at that time, in order to save travel expenses, he always spent the holidays alone in the school dormitory.When the senior learned about this, he invited him to spend the weekend at his home as a matter of course, and helped him with his homework by the way.

The senior's family background is good, the adults are not at home during the day, the two of them gather around the desk in front of the window, listening to the cicadas singing outside the window to do their homework.

It was very sunny that day, and the electric fan kept blowing, shaking, and blowing, but it couldn't take away the smoky heat.

The senior handed Chen Feiyang a piece of watermelon, and Chen Feiyang, who was busy doing the questions, stared at the paper intently, took a bite of the watermelon, and didn't care about the juice running all over his hand.

That look is really too much, black hair and black eyes, white and clean and handsome young man, Chen Feiyang who is serious and focused is really handsome, with a slight sweat on his forehead, he is pretty and attractive.

The senior looked at him and smiled, didn't say anything, just posted it from the side silently, and kissed the corner of Chen Feiyang's lips.

The watermelon in my hand fell, and it slammed onto my clothes and onto the floor.

Chen Feiyang turned his head in a daze, and the senior smiled at him again, but the affection in his eyes could no longer be hidden.

The senior held his hand so tightly that it was sticky.

Chen Feiyang didn't know what kind of mood it was, but he knew that he didn't hate such seniors.

So when the senior came over with his arms around his shoulders, Chen Feiyang closed his eyes nervously, but he didn't refuse.

The breeze came in along the window, messing up the books and papers on the desk, and messing up the corners of the two people's clothes.

For Chen Feiyang, the taste of the first kiss has always been the early summer of that year, the cold watermelon chilled in summer.

The senior is really a very gentle man, objectively speaking, he is really good to Chen Feiyang.

Boys at that age are in the period when their hormones are strong, and after they are in love, it is inevitable that they will misfire.

They tried clumsily, but the senior is the one who won't lose his mind at that kind of juncture. The only night when he wanted to do it to the end, Chen Feiyang only cried and said it hurt, the senior quickly backed out, and hugged him. Watching him gently comfort him, it's okay, don't do it, just touch it.

The senior really loves him very much, and he is not willing to let Chen Feiyang suffer a little grievance.Chen Feiyang thought that they might be able to stay together like this for a lifetime.

It's just that the next year's senior graduated, and a plane ticket was sent abroad by his family.

Before leaving, the senior hugged Chen Feiyang and kissed his forehead and eyebrows over and over again, telling him that no matter how long or how far apart they were, he would always love him.

Chen Feiyang wrote the letter, and the occasional letter sent back from abroad is the only motivation for a person to continue to persevere when he is suffering from lovesickness.

That year, he finally lived up to expectations and entered the engineering department of S University.

In the summer vacation of that year, the senior came back from abroad. Of course it was affectionate for the long-lost lovers to get together again, but Chen Feiyang still found a trace of fatigue in the senior's eyes.

It was a long time later that Chen Feiyang realized where the exhaustion came from.

The senior's mind is very simple, and there is no such thing as empathy.

The outside world is bigger than imagined. In the past, the senior thought that his qualifications were among the best in the town. Only when he went abroad did he realize that rich people from all over the world seemed to come to him.

Chen Feiyang also came from a small place, and was blinded by the prosperity of the big city, but he seemed to be born with a missing string in his mind, no matter how better the food and clothes of others were than him, he didn't feel anything, he could still do it Had a great time with everyone.It's not that he can't feel the so-called gap between rich and poor and vanity, but while envious of others, he is always planning how to work hard in his future life.

But Chen Feiyang could resist the temptation of the outside world, but he couldn't resist the lonely eyes of his beloved.In fact, it's not that the senior's family can't afford him to study, it's just that it's really difficult to meet those extra material needs in addition to maintaining his life.

So when all the freshmen are busy experiencing a new chapter in their lives, Chen Feiyang is busy with his studies and researching various ways of working.

Chen Feiyang's thinking is very simple, he is also a man, a man, how can he make the person he likes unhappy.At that time, he really did all kinds of jobs, handing out leaflets, delivering newspapers, washing dishes in small restaurants as a waiter, and even tutoring high school students. money order.

It's just that the money is too little. After the bright red bills are replaced with green notes, the numbers always look so small.

Later, someone saw that Chen Feiyang seemed to be short of money, and introduced him to a part-time job in a nightclub that he could not tell others.

Chen Feiyang hesitated for a long time. He knew that such a job should not be done, but he was reluctant to see the senior over the video call who was busy with studying and working part-time like him. It is very hard to study abroad, senior It looks like it's all skinny.

So he went there, and at first he was just an ordinary waiter, but because of his outstanding looks, he was called by the manager to have a conversation twice, and he patted his chest and told him, just drink some wine, neither sell nor dirty Yes, if you finish it in a month, you can earn much more than you do now, but I won't force you, it all depends on the individual.

Chen Feiyang agreed.

When he saw the senior who received the money smile at him on the other end of the video next time, Chen Feiyang, who was suppressing the stomachache, curled up on the bed in the dormitory, and smiled happily at him, really happy, he felt He really loves this man.