Captain's Road to Attack

After taking it, he took a sip, and the feeling of sand made him tremble immediately.

"Let's talk about it." Luo Hongbo then opened a can himself, collided with Zhu Ci'an, and took several sips with a smile.

Zhu Ci'an took a few glances at Luo Hongbo, sighed and said, "It's very easy to chat with you, without any pressure."

"I think so too." Luo Hongbo propped his chin with one hand and looked at Zhu Ci'an with a smile on his face.

Zhu Ci'an knew that Luo Hongbo could not have other thoughts about him, but he was still a little embarrassed seeing this look, and couldn't help but smiled shyly.

"Does Cheng Gong often praise you?" Luo Hongbo asked.

Zhu Ci'an thought for a while, curled his lips, he didn't want to deny it, but the facts made him ashamed to lie.

Memories Gong seems to really rarely praise him. At first, Zhu Ci'an didn't take it too seriously, but when Luo Hongbo asked it like a "grading standard", Zhu Ci'an immediately felt a little embarrassed and disappointed.

He never cared about these, but when he really paid attention, he found that he was really a little pitiful.

It's like a girl who fell in love with a poor boy. She didn't care about the boy's lack of money, but was asked if the boy bought you any gifts?The girl found that the boy rarely gave her even cheap gifts.

"I'm afraid you have something to say when you talk like this, so I don't want to say it." Zhu Ci'an smiled wryly.

When Luo Hongbo heard it, he immediately understood and said: "Sorry, I won't ask anymore, just say what you want to say."

Having said that, Luo Hongbo felt that Zhu Ci'an was so resistant, at least to explain one point, that is, Zhu Ci'an received so little love that he didn't even have the courage to refute him.

Perhaps Zhu Ci'an also noticed this, before she could open her mouth, tears rolled down from the corners of her eyes.

Zhu Ci'an immediately raised his head and wiped away his tears, pretending that nothing happened, but all this was reflected in Luo Hongbo's eyes, and he even saw the tears that Zhu Ci'an hadn't wiped away falling from his chin into his collar.

At this moment, Zhu Ci'an didn't say anything, but Luo Hongbo seemed to hear the silent cry from the depths of his heart.

What kind of grievance does a person suffer, and tears flow out before he can speak?

Zhu Ci'an pursed his lips, pretending to be indifferent and said, "Sorry, I made you laugh."

"Are you laughing? Did you see me laughing?" Luo Hongbo looked at Zhu Ci'an seriously.

Seeing this, Zhu Ci'an smiled and said, "It is said that men don't shed tears easily, but sometimes I just can't help it."

"A man doesn't flick his tears lightly, but it doesn't reach the point of sadness. It's nothing. I've cried before. Isn't there a song called "It's not a crime for a man to cry, it's not a crime". Sometimes there's nothing wrong with crying." Luo Hongbo comforted road.

When Zhu Ci'an heard it, he burst out laughing immediately, and then remembered the cruel words he had said in front of Cheng Gong, and couldn't help crying again, covering his face.

Zhu Ci'an didn't know what was wrong with him, but in front of an outsider, he always found himself miserable again and again, and precisely because Luo Hongbo was an outsider, Zhu Ci'an cried without any scruples.

Zhu Ci'an covered his eyes with his hands, lowered his head, and made a very low voice, and could only see tears falling on his chin.

At this moment, Zhu Ci'an realized that he had been deceiving himself for too long, so long that he didn't realize that he was so lacking in love, and even a little stimulation could make him cry bitterly.

He thought that the ordinary life with Cheng Gong would be very happy, but this was only a calm surface, there was a hole deep in his heart that had been empty all the time, just waiting for the time to come, and it would swallow his emotions like a scourge.

After a long time, Zhu Ci'an finally controlled his emotions, and Luo Hongbo handed him a pack of tissues.

Zhu Ci'an dried his nose and wiped away the tears on his face.

Fortunately, it was late at night, Zhu Ci'an felt that Luo Hongbo would not be able to see his face too clearly.

In fact, on the contrary, Luo Hongbo could clearly see Zhu Ci'an's wet eyelashes.

"I..." Zhu Ci'an laughed to himself as soon as he opened his mouth, with some self-deprecating taste, and said, "I liked Cheng Gong a little bit wishful thinking at the beginning, and I never thought that there would be today, so I don't know if you can understand my feelings."

"I can try to understand." Luo Hongbo said.

"In the beginning, I liked him a little blindly. I knew that he stopped liking me, but I couldn't wait to be with him. As a result, when I was wronged, I just wanted to bear it, because I really didn't want to Let go, I have been waiting for too long, when I get it, I only think about how to cherish it, as long as I feel a little bit bad about what I did, I will forgive everything Cheng Gong said, what he did is right, it must be me What’s wrong with it, that’s my mindset from the beginning.”

Zhu Ci'an summed up while recalling.

"Later when I heard about his past, I suddenly came to my senses. I realized something, and it was something I didn't want to admit and deceived myself. Cheng Gong didn't love me at all. That day I had a showdown with him, and that day I saw Cheng Gong's sincerity, so I feel that even if Cheng Gong wakes up a bit late, as long as he still has me in his heart, I am willing to wait for him."

When Zhu Ci'an said this, the expression on his face was still indifferent, and he took a deep breath and said: "I said that I have nothing to do with Cheng Gong. It's true. His heart is harder than mine. I said it lightly. I was more sad than him, he was just the opposite, when it came to tit for tat, he almost regarded me as an enemy, and in the end I was speechless in embarrassment, he never saw or thought that what he said would have an impact on me. What kind of influence I have caused, maybe he imagines me as rock-solid like him, I dare not pretend to be strong, so as not to show my weak side and make him look down even more."

"Do you think he ever looked down on you?" Luo Hongbo asked sensitively.

"That's not true, but I will look down on myself." Zhu Ci'an continued: "I have said harsh words in front of him and will never cry again."

He looked at Luo Hongbo and said, "Can you tell me why my heart hurts so much when I tell you this now?"

Luo Hongbo's eyelids sank, he thought for a while and said, "If the person you love the most can only bring you sadness, but can't help you release it, forgive me, this kind of love will only make you more painful, I am someone who has experienced it, Although I can’t be called a relationship expert, I think you have to think about it carefully. What kind of life do you want? It’s impossible for two people to be together without conflicts, but if you have grievances like you, you dare not mention it to the person concerned. Is there any need to continue this relationship? Have you really thought it through?"

Zhu Ci'an smiled helplessly and said, "But...except for this point, I am very satisfied with Cheng Gong. My heart beats faster when I see him."

"Heh..." Luo Hongbo shook his head and said with a smile, "I finally know why you were hurt so badly. You asked for it."

When Zhu Ci'an heard this, he naturally didn't like to hear it, and asked, "What do you mean?"

"Think about it carefully, don't you?" Luo Hongbo asked back.

Zhu Ci'an bit her lower lip, although she was very unconvinced, she still acquiesced.

Immediately Zhu Ci'an smiled wryly and said: "You are right, the blisters on the feet are all rubbed by myself, and I can't blame anyone."

"I didn't mean that. I mean, you can't change Cheng Gong, but you can change your own thoughts. Let alone Cheng Gong's stubbornness and toughness. I guess he might not be able to change it in his life. I'm not saying He's not good, I mean you don't have to wrong yourself to get used to his faults, you just sent me a sentence, I'll send you a sentence now, you deserve better."

Hearing this, Zhu Ci'an took a deep breath and let it out again.

He never thought about changing to a better one, but he thought that if he broke up with Cheng Gong, he would never want to look for it again, he was exhausted physically and mentally from love.

"Better? Hehe..." Zhu Ci'an shook his head and said, "I don't want to think about better ones anymore."

Time passed in a blink of an eye, and when Zhu Ci'an's cell phone rang, he was surprised to find that it was Cheng Gong who came.

Zhu Ci'an continued: "What's wrong?"

Cheng Gong asked, "Where are you?"

Zhu Ci'an was stunned for a moment, and said, "Let's have dinner with Captain Luo outside."

"Haven't you finished eating yet?" Cheng Gong's voice was cold, as if he was holding back his anger.

Zhu Ci'an frowned and said: "After eating, go back immediately."

Cheng Gong said, "Tell me the place, and I will pick you up."

"No need, I'll go back right away." Zhu Ci'an said.

"I'll say it again, tell me the place, and I'll pick you up." Cheng Gong said the last word very strongly, as if his anger was about to explode.

Zhu Ci'an glanced around, but he was very helpless because he didn't know how to describe where this place was.

"I don't know the place, why don't you wait for me somewhere, and I'll go find you." Zhu Ci'an also tried his best to control his emotions, pretending to be calm and said.

"Give the phone to Luo Hongbo!" Cheng Gong's commanding tone was unquestionable.

When Zhu Ci'an heard this, his head exploded. Cheng Gong didn't give him any face. At this moment, Zhu Ci'an felt like a slave of Cheng Gong. Not only did he not have any freedom, but he also lost his dignity.

"If you continue to talk to me in this tone, then I'll hang up and talk about it when you figure out how to speak human words well." Zhu Ci'an's face also turned cold, but his emotions were still a little excited, and his tone was a bit agitated. changed.

"That's all I'm going to say, I'll say it again, either tell me where you are now, or give Luo Hongbo the phone and let him tell me, it's as simple as that." Cheng Gong didn't give in at all.

Zhu Ci'an took a deep breath and said, "You don't need to pick me up, I won't go back tonight."

After Zhu Ci'an finished speaking, he hung up the phone and turned it off immediately.

Luo Hongbo frowned and looked at Zhu Ci'an and asked, "What?"

Zhu Ci'an squeezed out a blunt smile and said, "It's nothing."

The author has something to say: Tomorrow is June [-]st, a year and a half is almost over, it’s really fast, but when I think about my end date, I feel that there is no end in sight, our place is still cold, and the children are not Happy too!