today for you

"Your Majesty! My master and senior brother have come to the capital?" Feng Xiaolan appeared in front of me panting, her long, meticulously tied hair was blown into a frantic shape by the wind.I don't think he came all the way here with ease, did he?It's only been a few days and I'm back.

"I just received the news that you rushed back to the capital, and I will see you soon," I walked over with a smile, and wiped his face with my sleeves, "This sweat is all over your face, even if you slow down Hurry up, I won't blame you either."

Feng Xiaolan let me move with her head up and her eyes closed, murmuring vaguely: "Didn't you want me to come back as soon as possible? Besides, my master and senior brother came to Beijing. Hiss, please be gentle!" Feng Xiaolan grabbed my wrist , staring at me a little depressed.

I took a look, and there was really a red spot under the corner of my left eye: "Oh? It turned out to be a mole, no wonder it couldn't be wiped off."

Feng Xiaolan raised a finger and rubbed the red spot: "Is there a mole here? Why don't I know?"

"Yes, it's just," I moved closer and couldn't help reaching out to touch it, "It's very light, I didn't notice it before."

"Your Majesty..." Feng Xiaolan met my eyes, hesitant to speak.

At this time, the distance between me and him was only five centimeters. Feng Xiaolan's light-colored pupils seemed to be shimmering, and her unexpectedly bright lips were slightly parted, as if she was asking a silent question, wondering why I, a mentally handicapped person, wanted to get so close to him.

Trembling suddenly, I took a few steps back one after another, covered my face in annoyance under his surprised gaze, and turned my back.

Although Feng Xiaolan is very beautiful, why should I stare at others?Although Feng Xiaolan is very close to me, what do I do to take advantage of others and eat tofu?Although I like him too, why did he act so out of bounds?In this way, what will Feng Xiaolan think of me?

No, no, no, something went wrong.My thinking is very problematic.Why do I feel that being intimate with him is taking advantage of him?Normal pure men often have this kind of psychology?Isn't my liking the kind of liking that I appreciate very much?Fuck, I'm terrified when I think about it carefully, I'm so scared!

"Your Majesty?" Someone patted my shoulder, and goosebumps immediately covered my whole body, and I couldn't help shaking twice.

Turning back slowly, as if the joints on the neck were rusted, I saw Feng Xiaolan's puzzled and worried expression, I took a deep breath, encouraged myself, and then turned back decisively: "Xiaolan, stand still. "I said seriously.

Feng Xiaolan was at a loss, not knowing what I was going to do.Sorry, I'm the one who doesn't know what I'm going to do, and I'm the one who wants to cry so much.

"Stand still, let me hug you." I forced myself to calm down.

"Hug? Okay, you can hug me." Feng Xiaolan didn't understand the ups and downs in my heart, and opened her arms in front of me defenselessly.

Boy, I hug you, not you hug me.Ah, forget it, don't care, just hug it.I went forward and tentatively pulled Feng Xiaolan into my arms. After some hesitation, I hugged Feng Xiaolan into my arms with one arm around the other's waist and the other supporting the other's head.

I'm pretty much holding my breath doing this.

This feeling, how should I put it.It’s like an empty semicircle found another semicircle, and it turned into a Q-bouncy and round mochi, rolled around and covered with frosting sugar. Come.

I am a person who does not like sweets very much, but the most profound taste in my memory is the sweetness of the mochi I ate by chance when I was young.At the age of three or five, I went to another village to go to the market with my parents, got lost on the way, cried so much that I stumbled back home, but General Tie was standing at the door of the house.

I remember that I was about to cry at that time, and I was so sad. The old lady who married from the south of my neighbor took pity on me, and led me to sit in her house, and took out the mochi that only my grandson would bring out when he came to the house. feed me.The little mochi just filled a child's hand.

When I grew up, I searched for this delicacy in my childhood more than once, but even the most authentic method is not as sweet and soft as the one made by the neighbor's grandma. It is a bit too sweet, and it is even heartburning.

It may be the unique memories in childhood that make the taste in memory transcend time and space, surpass reality, and become a magical taste that can never be replicated.This taste has turned into an emotion, maybe only the same emotion can make this dreamlike sweetness appear again?

I opened my eyes abruptly, and withdrew from the memory.A feeling of not being able to look directly at myself welled up in my heart, and I, unable to immerse myself in this hug any longer, relaxed a little.I feel like I can't go on like this, something subtle is changing.

However, Feng Xiaolan suddenly hugged me back at this time, and I was startled for a moment, the sense of touch on the back became much more sensitive than that on the front chest, the heat of Feng Xiaolan's palm and the strength of the arm, all passed through the nerve fibers at a speed of more than [-] meters per second The speed is transmitted to the brain, and the brain also faithfully feeds back the emotion to my body.

I was so frightened that I slammed Feng Xiaolan's hand away and staggered back: "You, you, what are you doing holding me!" I couldn't even speak coherently.

Feng Xiaolan was very surprised, and looked at me sideways: "Can't you hug me? I just want to do this."

I put my hands on my hips and put my forehead on my forehead: "No, it's not that I can't, it's why you hug me? Why do you have to hug me? How do you feel after hugging me? You don't know these things and why do you hug me so confidently?" And me?"

"Then do you understand?"

"Of course I..." Suddenly I got stuck, I hurriedly covered my mouth, avoiding Feng Xiaolan's question abruptly.

"Tell me, why are you hugging me?" Feng Xiaolan leaned closer and asked.

I retreated one after another, with my face sideways and my head down, my hand still covering my mouth.I dare not look at him, let alone meet his gaze.

"Your Majesty?" Feng Xiaolan was still pressing.what can I do?I can't organize my words anymore, I just want this matter to pass quickly, but as the second party involved, Feng Xiaolan doesn't want this matter to pass like this.

Feng Xiaolan suddenly reached out and hugged me again. He also said, "Since you haven't figured out why, let's hug you for a while. Besides, I also want to figure out why I hugged you."

Ahhhhhhhhh, I'm going to explode!Why is this kid so self-willed, so inconsiderate of me, who is old and frail, with weakened mental function!

I froze there, on the one hand, the seconds seemed like years, and on the other hand, I was secretly happy, and my mind was so chaotic.At this time, Feng Xiaolan suddenly said: "Your Majesty, your heart beats so fast, why does it feel so comfortable to hold you?"

Very comfortable, comfortable, comfortable... I heard the sound of the planet exploding and the universe collapsing, I saw the flames of falling stars all over the sky, I smelled the smell of gunpowder smoke and flowers, I fell suddenly from a height of 8844 meters, and I fell into the tumbling magma again Breaking through the waves, I fly side by side with the sun in the sky, I dive into the bottom of the sea and talk to bastards, I...

Your Majesty!" Feng Xiaolan shouted.

My eardrums were pricked, and I finally came back to my senses, dizzy and weak in limbs: "Huh?" I hummed softly, as thin as a mosquito.

Feng Xiaolan stared: "What are you thinking?"

"I didn't think about anything." I said dazedly.

"Then what did I just say?" Feng Xiaolan asked again.

"Say it, what did you say?" How would I know what he said again?I just remember one sentence.

Feng Xiaolan started to stare again, looking very angry. Seeing this, I hurriedly said: "Then what, don't be angry, tell me again, this time I will definitely remember every word you said, and I will never be distracted!"

When I said this, Feng Xiaolan was immediately discouraged, looking at me with helpless eyes, he sighed and said, "It's like this again, you're pampering me again."

As he said that, he let go of me, turned around and stopped looking at me: "Your Majesty, I have been thinking these days why you treat me differently from others."

"What's the difference?" I was stunned, did I do something out of the ordinary?Is it so obvious?

"You'll let me get close to you without defense."

"I have physical contact with many people, like the queen and the imperial concubine, even Chen Fu often gives me a hand."

"You gave me the privilege to enter the palace without summons."

"Shi Qiang and Luo Chun don't need to notify me if they want to see me."

"You always pamper me, even though I never keep the courtesy of a monarch and minister in front of you."

"Hey, I don't care about those formalities."

"Then how can you explain sleeping with you and eating at the same table!" Feng Xiaolan turned around quickly and almost yelled at me.

I curled my neck and shivered: "Fu, Futuan also sleeps in a room with me every night and keeps watch for me."

"Your Majesty!" Feng Xiaolan became furious, rushed up and kicked me to the ground, then leaned over and stretched out her hand, grabbing my collar viciously, everything happened in a blink of an eye, and he and I had become one and the same In a posture of being above and below, I only heard Feng Xiaolan say, "Do you need to go to such lengths to prove that you have no intentions for me?"

What?What is he saying?did i hear somethingIs it hallucination?It must be an illusion.

"Hehe, Xiaolan, you haven't visited your master and senior brother yet, have you? They, they are waiting for you. Go, go, it's in the Ministry of Shangshu, you go to the room of the Ministry of War to look for it."

As soon as these words came out, the air was a little colder. Feng Xiaolan looked at me for a long time before getting up. He turned around bitterly and raised his legs to leave. Before he said: "How do you feel about me, you should think about it for yourself. .”

When I was the only one left in the Qinzheng Pavilion, the huge space was empty and quiet, only the sound of my own breathing could be heard, I let out a long sigh, and lay down directly on the floor, as far as I could see was the high roof with mortise and tenon structure. The wooden roof has both artistic delicacy and geometric beauty. The floor is black marble, which has been cut and polished by skilled craftsmen. It is bright and cool.

I feel very depressed, my heart is empty, and even a beast called fear is strangling my throat.I don't even know what I'm afraid of.I think I need help.

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Ahhh, I also have a headache, don't let them come slowly, I'm going to make a big move!