I love you for the rest of my life

Xiang Xiu was not angry with Shantao, she still happily appeared at the door of Shantao's classroom, waiting for her to go to the cafeteria to get dinner together.After waiting for a while, Shan Tao came out, and there was another person beside her, her roommate, who was also her deskmate.Shan Tao took the initiative to walk out of the classroom holding the hand of her deskmate. After seeing Xiang Xiu, she didn't show much expression.

"Xiang Xiu, you're here."

Xiang Xiu nodded a little apprehensively: "Yes."

"That's just right. Xiao Ran wants to be with us. It will be more lively if there are more people. Xiang Xiu, don't you mind?"

Xiang Xiu smiled foolishly: "No, I don't mind."

"Well, that's good, let's go."

Shan Tao took the hand of her tablemate, and the two of them walked side by side, Xiang Xiu followed behind them silently, after walking a few steps, Xiang Xiu stopped.

"Shan Tao, you go, I don't want to go now."

Shan Tao turned around and looked at Xiang Xiu: "What's wrong?"

"It's nothing, suddenly I'm not hungry, I'm leaving."

"okay."

Xiangxiu walked back to the dormitory, her feet were a little floating, like a heart, hanging in a real way, but it was uncomfortable with incomparable clarity.

Xiang Xiu walked back to the dormitory, she was the only one in the dormitory, and everyone else went to the cafeteria to eat.Xiang Xiu's stomach was growling with hunger. She dug out a bag of potato chips and sat by the bed and started eating. She stared blankly at the small window next to the sink.

After eating for a while, Xiang Xiu took a sip of water, then she picked up her phone and started calling Shi Yang's number over and over again.She wanted to ask where he was, and she wanted to ask him, what should Shantao do in this state.She wanted to ask him...a lot...a lot...

Sun Li was the first person to walk back to the dormitory besides Xiang Xiu. She went to the sink to wash the lunch box and put it away.Seeing Xiang Xiu sitting there alone in a daze, she spread her palm and waved in front of Xiang Xiu.

"What are you thinking about? So engrossed!"

Xiang Xiu's eyelashes were half down, and she asked Sun Li leisurely: "You go to the cafeteria to line up, cook, eat, and then come back alone?"

"Ah."

"Why are you always alone?"

"Comfortable, besides, what's so strange about it? Didn't she often be alone at the beginning?"

Xiang Xiu thought about it, isn't that boring?No one talks.

"Really? Comfortable?"

"Well, at the very least, it can save some troubles. After all, no matter how you say it, there are always some roads that can only be walked by yourself. Everyone is actually very lonely. Some people's loneliness lies in the silence , Some people's loneliness is in the excitement, I like the former."

Insightful!Sigh~ Xiang Xiu sighed silently in her heart, maybe Sun Li's words were right.Maybe, I am too dependent on others, and it is easy to worry about gains and losses.

"Why are you so early today?"

"Is it early?"

"It's very early compared to before."

"why?"

"You eat very slowly. In the past, you were almost the last one to arrive every time you came back. Today is very abnormal. You were the first one to arrive."

"Sun Li, your heart is as delicate as a cow's hair."

"It's okay, it's because I'm boring and not very good at talking, so listen more and watch more. So, what's wrong with you today?"

"I don't know, it's just that my chest is tight, so I came back earlier. I think I went to bed earlier, and I should be fine when I wake up."

"Then you should have a good rest."

"Ah."

Xiang Xiu put down her phone, then lay down on the bed, but her eyes were always open, she stared at the bed board in a daze.Shantao's current state really made people feel at a loss.There is obviously no major problem between the two of them, but why are they so tired?It always feels like there is an invisible gap between the two.Xiang Xiu didn't know what that was.

After an hour's lunch break, Xiang Xiu and Sun Li walked back to the classroom together.Xiang Xiu, who was not yet fully awake, felt that the blackboard was shaking when she looked at it.

Halfway through the first class, the head teacher appeared at the door of the classroom. After communicating with the teacher, he called Xiang Xiu out.

Xiang Xiufa was stunned, it was so sudden.The head teacher actually asked her to go out at this time, Xiang Xiu was still a little scared at the moment.But there is no way, she has to go out.

Full of doubts, Xiang Xiu walked out of the classroom tremblingly, thinking that she might have caused some trouble again.Come to think of it, I haven't done anything recently.

"Your mother is waiting for you at the school gate. I've approved the leave slip for you. Your mother told me all about it, so don't be too sad."

The head teacher's remarks made Xiang Xiu feel very incomprehensible and mysterious.But when I think about it carefully, the focus should be on my mother.After bidding farewell to Xiu and the class teacher, she walked towards the school gate.

After the Spring Festival, Xiang Jiufeng took the train to go to other places to work.He hasn't left for a long time, but now he's back.At this moment, Xiang Xiu was both looking forward to and worried, because she didn't know what happened.

As soon as Xiang Xiu walked out of the school gate, she saw Xiang Jiufeng at a glance.

"mom!"

Xiang Xiu ran towards Jiufeng: "Mom, you're back."

Seeing her mother's serious expression, the smile on Xiang Xiu's face gradually faded away.

"Mom, what's wrong?"

"Xiang Xiu, let me take you back to your hometown."

"Hometown?"

"Li Chang's hometown."

"What are you going to do?"

"Someone has passed away, so I'm here to take you there, and that's my kindness."

"Someone died? Mom, who is that person?"

"When you wait, you will naturally know."

"Ok."

Xiang Xiu followed Xiang Jiufeng to transfer to Li Chang's hometown, a place Xiang Xiu had never been to before.If nothing changed, if Li Chang wasn't what he was, then this place would be Xiang Xiu's home.Things are impermanent.

When Xiang Xiu passed through the wailing suona, what she was facing was a mourning hall.In front of the coffin was a black and white photo. The person in the photo was very young, but Xiang Xiu could tell at a glance that he was Li Chang, a Li Chang in his early twenties.

Xiang Jiufeng was holding Xiang Xiu's hand all the time, as if she was afraid that she would get lost.But when the two of them stood in front of Li Chang's coffin, no matter what he brought them during his lifetime, it was all gone.

Li Chang is dead... Li Chang is dead... Li Chang is dead...

Xiang Xiu kept repeating this sentence in her heart, she couldn't believe it, she didn't even want to believe it.During the Chinese New Year, Li Chang still appeared in front of him. He put a silver bracelet into Xiang Xiu's hand, and Xiang Xiu put it in a small box in front of the vanity mirror. She didn't lose it, but she didn't wear it either.

"Mom... he actually... died?"

Xiang Jiufeng shook Xiang Xiu's hand vigorously, as if to comfort her.