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Su Rong is not weak, although if it was Pei Yin, he would definitely drive Li Shang out on the spot, even if it was Lin Sa, he would not let Xiao Su have a chance to see him again.

But he was out of strength.

After more than two months of traveling, the little strength I had managed to cultivate, seemed to have disappeared the moment I came in and saw Li Shang.That deep sense of powerlessness, pain, and struggle began to surge up again, like a fire, and he didn't even look at Li Shang's face from the beginning to the end, as if this person would not exist for him.He has never been as open-minded as Lin Sa. He just freezes this part of his life and does not touch it. However, the part related to Li Shang occupies a large part of his soul. His chest seems to have been hollowed out, and now he can't even be called Su Rong, he is just some pieces put together, maintaining the human form called Su Rong.

But Li Shangguang called his name like this, and then sat down at the table, even if it was a wheat away, he felt that the things that maintained his shape were crumbling.Mai Mai was still clamoring to order food, how could he think that he could give him back a perfect and normal father?When Xiaomai finds out that his father has become like this, he will be very sad.

In the torment of every second, a hand reached out and gently held his hand. He turned his face slowly and saw Bo Yan.The young man in a thin shirt just smiled at him and nodded gently.

Even the strength of his handshake is light, like a reliance within reach, whether you can rely on it is entirely up to you, he doesn't comment, just waits quietly.

If you can hold it back, it will probably be a lot easier.

But that would be so unfair.

The flower scene I saw with myself was sorry for his two years of annual leave, just like the current self, I am sorry for anyone, let alone Bo Yan, who is as bright as the sun and the moon in his arms.Like Zhan Xingzhou, not responding, not provoking, and waiting for him to cool down slowly, is the best way to deal with it.

But Su Rong didn't expect that Li Shang could actually see their handshake. He was so keen, how could he not see the change of Su Rong's expression at that moment.

Lin Sa never lied to him, it was never Zhan Xingzhou who was threatening, but Bo Yan.

And Lin Sa, who said this, actually saw it.Daya never took the usual path, she didn't say anything when she saw it, she ordered food seriously, and asked Yi Zhan, "Is your friend here to eat?"

There were five people at the table, and "Yi Zhan's friend" naturally refers to Li Shang. He was convinced that the current Li Shang could be provoked from the first meeting. Come and eat."

He has always had a kind of attitude towards wheat, which is a miniature version of himself. He dislikes it, but it is an intimate dislike, and children are the most sensitive to things like this.What's more, the relationship between the two has improved a lot recently. After hearing this, Mai Mai let out an arrogant "hum" and continued to focus on the menu.

Lin Sa didn't let him go, and said, "Can you eat the food here?"

Although Li Shang is not as crazy as Xia Yi, he completely cuts off carbs, and basically bid farewell to refined carbs, and eats oats and quinoa that were used to feed horses.It's also because Lin Sa is really too elegant, like a good guy playing a villain, he can't even embarrass him.Compared with Li Shang's previous famous sayings and aphorisms, these words are too gentle.

But Li Shang also answered seriously: "I can eat."

I can eat, as long as it is for Su Rong, Lin Sa can hear the second half of his sentence.

Lin Sa really couldn't be a bad guy by nature, so he could only give up playing this role, and looked at Yi Zhan, who made an expression of "Look, you're not like me", Lin Sa thought for a while, and seriously sighed: "Really I don't know where Pei Yin has gone, but I raise soldiers for a thousand days and use them for a while."

Normally, when he was not needed to pick things up, he could turn the meetings of brothers and sisters into big debates, and this was the time when he was needed, so he disappeared.It's true that God is on Li Shang's side.

Fortunately, the protagonist who asked him to do this was listening to Bo Yan ordering. The young master Bo is still very powerful, and he has the elite education of Li Shang, but he is not a pervert like him. He is gentle and personable. Ask Su Rong : "I remember you don't eat fish?"

At the LA restaurant, when he teased himself that he had to order fish, he might not have thought of today.But Su Rong felt guilty even at such a thought, which insulted Bo Yan's intentions and insulted herself.

He didn't know that Li Shang was actually thinking about that day too.

"Well, if you do well, you can actually do anything." He said softly.

In fact, ordering dishes seems to be ordered by low-status according to the workplace practice. He is still thinking whether it is inappropriate for Bo Yan to do this. Over there, Bo Yan has carefully ordered a table of dishes, handed over the menu, and paid attention to the service. Say thank you.The place Yi Zhan chose was not very good, and the waiter was still a little happy with the people at the table, and couldn't really be indifferent.Maybe in a blink of an eye, he would go online and report that Li Shang and Bo Yan had a private friendship, but that was something Rita had to worry about.

The food came out quickly, surprisingly good, Bo Yan even ordered a salad for Li Shang.He has always been an upright gentleman, and the previous conflict in the corridor has never been because of this cause of retaliation against Li Shang, and he must win with integrity.

But Su Rong has never been someone who is willing to win or lose.

After eating and returning home, Bo Yan wanted to see Su Rong off, but Su Rong smiled: "You still don't go back to work, Yan Shuo is going to die of anxiety."

Looking at it from Li Shang's perspective, this scene shows Su Rong smiling at Bo Yan, and seems to be talking softly, as if the person who never gave him a look from the moment he saw him, and was indifferent when he was called him is not him Same.

If his memory is good enough, he will actually find that this scene seems familiar.

Lin Sa was standing closest to him at that time, feeling the air pressure in his body drop, he instinctively took two steps back, and Yi Zhan, who was bumped by him, laughed: "He is really much easier to get along with now, if you don't believe me, try it. "

Of course it is possible to try it, but I am afraid that I will become addicted to playing it. I really believe that tigers will become vegetarians.

After seeing off Bo Yan, Su Rong got into Lin Sa's car, Mai Mai followed, Li Shang knocked on the car window, Su Rong only regarded him as a ghost, couldn't see his body, couldn't hear his voice.Instead, it was Mai Mai who leaned over and pushed down the car window, listening to him, and didn't know when he developed a relationship with Li Shang.

Li Shang was not in a hurry to speak, and put his hand on the top of the car window. The ghost recently changed his perfume, like a snow-covered forest. Su Rong could feel that his eyes were looking at her almost greedily, as if checking every inch for confirmation, but the look in his eyes was like It is with a little sadness, and it seems to be just my own illusion.

"What are you going to say?" Wheat asked impatiently.

"I'll help you move the safety seat." He actually found a reason.

Su Rong was sure that he was just looking for a reason to stop the car. Child safety seats have always been difficult to install and dismantle. The back seat of his car is always there, but that car is still parked in the parking garage of Baile Festival.Just thinking of the words Baile Grand Ceremony made him watch Li Shang move the safety seat with a blank expression.

Mai Mai immediately crawled into Su Rong's arms, watching from the first perspective, he admired Li Shang a little boy, because Li Shang has strong hands-on ability, pretending to be fast and good at everything.The ISOFIX interface of the safety seat, Su Rong was about to lose his temper for the first time, but he also fixed it very quickly, as if he wanted to use this to procrastinate for time.Wearing JK's high-end ready-to-wear seats is also considered ingenious.When he was making a buckle, he almost got close to Su Rong's face, as if a strand of hair brushed against his face.

But Su Rong was always indifferent.

"Okay." Li Shang actually showed a smile, maybe because the distance is so close, or maybe because of his amazing acting skills, this smile is really different from the previous ones, it seems to save some steps in the middle to mock the world, just frank I was so happy, the car was lit up for a moment.

Su Rong turned her head away.

Li Shang didn't say anything, and didn't get angry immediately, he just glanced at him, and then backed out.Mai Mai consciously ran to sit on the seat and fastened the seat belt.Su Rongdang Li Shang couldn't pretend anymore and turned his face away, who knew that he directly opened the passenger door and sat down in the car.

"Going home?" he even asked in the rearview mirror.

Of course he was going home, but not his own home. The lights in the elevator were bright, and Li Shang was staring at him all the time. He probably thought that this would make him think he had changed.

Su Rong packed his things as soon as he entered the door. He didn't want many of them. He directly took out the two suitcases he had prepared and filled them with wheat things, and he didn't want his own.The meaning was too obvious, and Mai Mai asked next to him, "Dad, are we moving?"

When he was packing his things, Li Shang was watching by the door. Su Rong shuttled through the door countless times, knowing that at any time, he might reach out a hand to stop him, taunt him, or grab him back, not letting him go Anyway, blocking doors has always been what he is best at.

But Li Shang never stretched out his hand to stop him this time, he just stood there quietly.His eyes followed him, only when Su Rong was about to finish cleaning up, he asked him: "Can you stay?"

From the sentence pattern to the tone of voice, none of the words are like the previous Li Shang.He has not spoken well for many years, it is no wonder that Su Rong has psychological shadows.

Su Rong didn't take the bait, and continued to tidy up, when she heard Li Shang say: "I hope you can stay."

"what?"

Li Shang never spoke like this, he would just say, "You think I want you to stay?" "Why, finally let me be quiet?" "Your dog training school has opened again?"

"I hope you can stay and continue to live with me..."

Su Rong gave a short laugh as if listening to a joke, and then said, "Xiaomai, get ready to go."

When Li Shang stretched out his hand, Su Rong thought that he was grabbing himself and pressing him against the wall as before, so he dodged instinctively, probably this action also stabbed him, because Li Shang also stopped because of his reaction, after a while After a while, he said, "I'm sorry."

"why?"

"For everything that happened."

It's just an apology with superb acting skills, Su Rong naturally won't be fooled, and she won't have any urge to cry.This is also Li Shang's usual routine. The last time he was beaten too hard, he couldn't recover, so he let himself rest for a while, so as to prepare for the next violent beating.After all, a sandbag without emotions is the most uninteresting thing.

Su Rong finished packing his things without stress. The last thing was wheat conch. He has been talking about his conch adventures since eating today. How did he find Teacher Amao and how to save the conch? He would take the conch with him, but Mai Mai said, "I want to keep the conch."

"why?"

"I have my father to accompany me, let Conch accompany Li Shang."

Su Rong's face changed dramatically, this was the first time he looked at Li Shang directly today, and at this moment his eyes were full of anger, obviously he felt that he had seen this scene before.

Li Shang felt something tugging in his chest, as if a very thin wire was pulling at his heart. This is how it feels to be misunderstood by someone he loves.

"I didn't teach him to say that." He told Su Rong seriously.

Su Rong didn't speak, he was too lazy to say anything, and wanted to leave, Li Shang directly grabbed him, looked him in the eyes and said, "You can at least trust your understanding of me, I won't use little monsters as tools."

learn?Have you really understood him?

"Auntie, you take the wheat into the car first." He said.

Although Mai wanted to stay and see the situation, he was still taken away. He was still very worried and turned around every step of the way.

"Is it because I don't love you now?" This was the first sentence he said to Li Shang today: "Is it because of Bo Yan? Because you are not used to not having someone next to me, or because you are possessive, and you can't keep your own things. Touch someone?"

He referred to himself as a "thing", and he looked as if he had said this to himself a thousand times in his mind, so commonplace.But Li Shang only felt the pain of his heart being twisted. His sharp words lost their effectiveness at this moment, so he could only explain with a pale smile, "No."

But Su Rong was completely irritated, and still said aggressively: "Why is that? Is it because of your eccentricity? Or is it a drama where the prodigal son turns his head back and knows how to cherish it when he loses it? Why, Huang Lei said that scumbags are scumbags, and I am the one." Is it a bitch?"

These words can have a huge lethal effect even on the former Li Shang, let alone now.Li Shang instantly showed a stinging expression. So many times, out of revenge, Su Rong wanted to see this expression on his face, but when she saw it, she didn't think about it that way. If you are late, you are late.

"Don't say that." Li Shang stopped him.

"Can't you say that? Why, am I not a licking dog? Or are you a prodigal son? You go and take your boat, no one is stopping you now, please go and take your boat, don't come again bother me!"

"You know we are not what you said!" Li Shang finally showed his anger, his blue eyes were almost on fire.

For a moment, Su Rong saw Li Shang in the past, as if he was locked in a cage, and he saw that scene through Li Shang's eyes, what a pitiful tiger in a cage.So feed him with yourself, gnaw off your own bones, and he might be happier.

Li Shang seemed to be trying his best to restrain himself, the world would have been turned upside down long ago, Su Rong knew it, but he himself could not forget the essence of this person for a moment.He's like a veteran with PTSD who feels like a trench when he goes out there, trying to make himself feel safer by shooting randomly.So what if he was accidentally injured, he was in too much pain.

Su Rong brought the things down with Mai Mai, Li Shang even helped out when carrying the suitcase, it was incredible that Li Shang would help.He even watched Su Rong leave, and repeated again: "Can you stay, sister."

He called his sister in a different tone than before, without any sarcasm.How ridiculous, all the details are used as evidence by myself, but what are you going to do after staying, will you be eaten by a tiger again?

Mai Mai suddenly became worried. Su Rong didn't know why, but when he was about to drive out of the parking lot, Mai Mai suddenly asked: "Father, will I be like Li Shang in the future? I live alone in a big house, and only Conch can accompany him." .”

So what, he can play and sing every night, and if he is happy, he can even call Qin Jianjia and Cheng Man to come together.

But Su Rong was too honest, he couldn't even promise to say "No, Mai Mai will not become a Li merchant", he could only pat his head and say "Dad will always be with Mai Mai."

"But Dad won't forgive Li Shang anymore, will he?" Mai Mai has a kind of belief and fear that he will become like Li Shang when he grows up. Li Shang is his missing father role.Su Rong knew his logic, because Su Rong could leave Li Shang, who was very similar to him, so naturally one day he would leave him too.

Su Rong managed to squeeze out a smile and said, "This one is different."

"What's different?" Mai Mai continued to ask, "Li Shang said that all love is the same."