last shizuku

You, are a person, aren't you? "

"You are unwanted."

I used wind spells to defend myself, but it never worked.This one doesn't seem to work for them all.

"Flau!"

Just when I was at a loss, you arrived, hugged me, and fled the scene as quickly as possible.

"Sorry, this child is still under someone's control, so I can't give it to you!"

Being held in your hand, for a moment, I was at a loss.

"Let... let go of me!"

I started slapping you on the shoulder indiscriminately.Don't you like those kids better?Those who said are all lies, right?I don't believe it anymore!If you think it's a burden, then just throw me away like trash, why give me hope so hypocritically.

What do I want?I don't even know.There is a voice in my heart that keeps shouting, I hope you don't give up on me, don't ignore me, I don't want to become their kind.But that being the case, why do I still tell you to let go?Why can't I say that sentence?what's wrong with me?Why can I only say the opposite?I am more and more afraid in my heart, afraid that you will let go suddenly. I want to hold you tightly, but I find that you are so ethereal and I can't grasp it. Only when you are willing to reach out can I hold your hand.I want to be stronger, I want to be able to catch you without relying on anyone.

My eye sockets are getting hotter and hotter, and I don't know when a lot of fluid has left.How long has it been since you felt this way?I have forgotten when was the last time I felt this liquid, and my hand also began to become weak, gradually getting lighter and lighter, and finally hanging down against your back, unconsciously grasping your loose waist coat.His head was pressed tightly against your shoulder, and he said softly to let go, shaking his shoulders violently.I don't know when you have changed from running to walking, and we have returned to the familiar church.

After returning to the room, you threw me on my bed, with obvious anger in your eyes.I shrank into a ball like a kitten, clenched my fists, put my arms together, put my hands in front of my nose, and looked at you in horror, motionless, my whole body was shaking, and my throat couldn't help but make some strange sounds

You stretched out your right hand, and I closed my eyes in fear, waiting for the punishment to come.But what I'm waiting for is your tender embrace.When I opened my eyes again, I found myself lying in your arms, and you hugged me gently.I stretched out my hands in trepidation, grabbed one side of your clothes, and pressed my head tightly against your chest.Your arms slowly tightened, and your right hand slowly stroked my head and back.Your hands are always so big and always so comfortable.

In my gradually blurred consciousness, what I felt was your heat. You kissed my forehead lightly, and I couldn't hear what you said.However, it must be an important word.

I am very important

"Flau!"

I was in a hurry to catch up.

"Even if you catch up now, what can you do?"

Geo's words stopped me in my tracks.Yes, what can I do even if I catch up?Will you still believe what I say?Why do I always do things that hurt you?Obviously the last thing I want to hurt is you.

"Bastian, do you really think that death is enough to apologize?" His words were meaningful, "What will Flau do if I lose you?"

"He is no longer a child, he is a high-ranking ghost, and I am a black mage who is addicted to darkness. If I don't do this, he will not be able to wash away the stigma of the black mage and will bring huge losses to this church. .”

Although I really want to be by his side, it's always impossible, right?

"Let him be in that room and tell those people which are your relics? Watch them wipe out the traces of your existence in this world one by one? Because he is one of the seven ghosts and gods, Sehaier, the soul-slayer, Do you deny that he has the heart and feelings of a human Flau?"

His words made my heart twitch hard.If I really died, you should be very sad, but you have to do this in this extraordinary period, how hurt it is to you!

"Then, spend the rest of your life in a room full of your happy memories? Regret every day why you revealed your identity and killed your favorite person with your own hands? Live like years, live in regret all day long, and wash your face with tears every night? You Do you think there will be a second you to comfort him? Even if there is, is he willing to open his heart to accept this new relationship after being so traumatized?"

"Don't say it."

My breathing began to become irregular, and the pain in my chest became stronger and stronger.To you, how cruel I am.Obviously you have done nothing wrong, but I want you to bear everything and go on carrying all this, how selfish I am.

"I don't think he's going to move out of your home because he wants to escape your death. He's not that kind of kid."

Jio's words made me sober up a lot.Yes, I can't die, and I absolutely can't let you have such heavy memories again.Even with all this on my back, I must go on and stay by your side.

"Let me accompany this child to the end, okay?" I turned around, and my tone was full of seriousness, "When this child no longer needs me and can leave me to live alone, I will naturally be concerned about this matter." There is an explanation."

Asking for the right to live and asking him to spare my life is not because I am greedy for life and afraid of death, but because I cannot die now.

"As long as there is one person in this world who needs you, your life will be temporarily stored with you."

He finally showed a long-lost smile.

"Ah, I'm really stupid and hopeless!"

"So you're still just an assistant, and it's not yet time to formally take over from me." He leaned back on the table with his hands behind his back, looking very relaxed, "Hurry up, I want to retire early and enjoy the blessings. "

"Ah, I will. Please teach me."

This sentence is what I said when I first became an assistant.

"My name is Bastian. I am honored to be your assistant from today on. I will do my best to do a good job. Please give me your advice."

At that time, I bowed deeply to him.

Everything seems to be back to the original point, back to the beginning.I'm such a fool, I thought of myself so humble, I always only thought about how to atone for my sins, and never thought about how much grief I would bring to the people around me.

I changed from walking to running, I must never let you cry at night again, I will give you warm arms until you don't need me anymore.

I found you in front of the statue of Sehail.This is really a wonderful coincidence. At that time, you also came here to cry every night. It was this kind of you that made my heart hurt and made me unable to let go.You became Sai Haier, is it because you come here so often?

"You're not a child anymore, it's not good to cry all the time." I stroked your hair lightly, "You'll be a laughing stock if you're seen by the nuns."

"..."

You turn your head to the side, seeming angry again.

"It's necessary to tell him the truth. I can't let you go to the execution ground for this crime." I gently hugged you, "But I didn't plan to meet the king of heaven so early."

"Really?"

You turned your head and asked me seriously.

"I never lied to you, did I?"

I still pat your head habitually and narrow my eyes.

"Yes." Your answer was unexpected, "I'm lying now!"

Your anger is even stronger.

"When?"

I quickly searched in my mind what I did wrong, but I couldn't find the crux.

"If you really didn't intend that, why would you have this."

You took out the envelope, which is my suicide note.The corners have been torn off, so you've already seen it.

"sorry."

Having been caught by you with decisive evidence, I have nothing to say.Sighing lightly, he had no choice but to tell everything.

"Flau, I can't forgive myself for what I did." I put my hand on your chest, where there are scars from my wind curse, "Although I was not careful, but I hurt you you."

Before I knew it, my hand was clenched into a fist, and I leaned against your chest, my arm trembling slightly, and I lowered my head.This is really not something that can be solved by just saying sorry. I hurt God, and even hurt the child I love the most, but I really don't know what to do for you.

"If you really want to do something for me, don't worry about these things anymore."

You held my right hand and moved it to the heart.

"It's not here that it's hurt, it's okay."

I suddenly felt a chill, your body is icy cold, without a trace of warmth.

"A long time ago."

My surprise is all written on my face, you naturally know what I'm thinking.

"House of God, do you know?"

You suddenly asked this.

"I know that behind the empire, it controls the existence of the entire empire, a place where even the army cannot intervene. They will elect the pope, the emperor, and the head of each family has considerable power. They control the lifeline of the entire empire."

I memorized the knowledge in the book verbatim.

"The seven ghosts and gods are all dead people."

You smiled and told the shocking secret and told me everything about you.It turns out that you are the head of the House of Gods in the first district, the former king of this country, who died in that war.When the war begins, you quickly discover that you are being used by a villain who wants to stop it.There, you saw the innocent children who were bullied by the war, but a stray bullet shot you and ended your short life.After death, your soul awakens as a ghost and has a new body, age