last shizuku

"Fuck him!"

The children rushed forward in disregard of the church's regulations.After a while, you are crushed below.

"Go away!"

I just wanted to stop it, but found that you seem to be really angry.

"Please forgive me!"

Those children are getting more and more proud when you don't fight back, but I know that things are not good.

"court death!"

Before I could stop it, you activated the wind curse.They are not experienced bishops, they are all a group of children, naturally defenseless, they were ejected far away by you.

"Flau! Why are you doing this?"

I am the first to reprimand you reflexively.Although it was their fault, you shouldn't hit so hard.How can these children stand it.

"It's their fault!"

Your hoarse rebuttal.

"I know, but you are more powerful, you shouldn't be like this."

Even though I said so, your eyes are full of dissatisfaction.

"Let's go home first?"

I knelt down and patted your shoulder, hoping not to hurt you.I can't attend class today, so I have to take them to treatment.

"Oh."

You nodded and walked towards home.I hurriedly picked up those children and took them to heal their injuries.

When I returned to the room, I found that you were gone.I searched the whole church and found no sign of you. I asked Arudo, the gatekeeper, and finally found that you ran out.And none of the other bishops asked, let alone blocked them. I'm afraid they were secretly happy in their hearts.

"help me!"

In a very remote alley, I found you.You ran around in fright, and behind you was a dark assailant.Now you are obviously not his opponent.

"Give me... your soul..."

He approached you step by step, but I didn't bring a staff, so I had to rush to your side, hug you, and quickly fled the scene.

"Let go of me! Why do you want to control me!"

You beat my shoulder hard, and I quickened my pace while enduring the severe pain.I know, I must have been blacked out by you.Now you are angry, but more sad.Why then did I send you home to take care of those children.You must have thought I was lying.I gave you a promise, but hurt you. You must be more uncomfortable now than before.

Listening to your hoarse screams, my heart feels like it was cut by a knife.Every time you yell, my self-blame deepens.Is this promise too early for you and me?Am I not ready to be responsible to you?

I saw you who had completely calmed down and slept soundly in my arms, and felt very uncomfortable.This is the second time this has happened, right?You can make excuses for yourself the first time, it was a misunderstanding, but what about this time?Can you really forgive yourself so easily?You are so sad, uncover your clothes, have the scars I caused.Although it is a ghost, it must be very painful, right?But you didn't mention a single word from beginning to end.It's a lie to say it doesn't hurt, and it's even more a lie to say you don't mind. You are just forcing yourself to minimize the harm to me.I don't know how to heal the wound on your body, let alone the wound in your heart?

Sighing slightly, I put you on the bed, kissed your forehead lightly, covered you with the quilt, and walked out quietly.It was already dawn, and all the darkness would eventually be exposed to the sun. I went to the archbishop's room to welcome my future.

My suicide note is on the table. If it's really unfortunate that I can't come back, I hope you won't see the saddest scene.I have only one word for you: no matter what happens, don't hold grudges against anyone.

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"Sure enough"

Across the entire church, there are memories of you and me in every corner. 200 meters away, I walked for as much as 1 hour.Finally, I came to the room that was so familiar that I couldn't be more familiar with it. Jio was already waiting for me.It turned out that he already knew everything, right?He said that when there was a thief in the church, he already knew that person was me, right?That's why he deliberately told me that you can no longer use a staff. He hopes that I can wake up and have human emotions, so I can save you, right?But now, as he wishes, I am willing to give up everything about me for you.

"Sure enough."

I said the same thing, with a strange smile on my face, waiting to be dealt with.

Is there anything else I can look forward to now?I am the assistant to the archbishop, so I am naturally familiar with all the rules of this church.If it was an ordinary apostasy, it would be nothing more than excommunication, but not only did I apostate, but I also had an affair with a black mage. For a church known for its benevolence and righteousness, this is even more serious than outside murderers.This is the only capital crime.If there is a mirror at this time, I really hope to take a picture, what expression do I have now?Even I can't imagine it myself.

"I've spoken to Flaau, and he's gone to bed."

Pretending to know nothing is because he has been caring about your feelings, right?Saying this now, I am fully prepared, just use the wind spell to penetrate my heart, at least, I can believe that he will not cause me too much pain, right?For the sake of my friends for many years.

"Is that child really asleep?"

He turned around and stared at me.I suddenly felt that besides us, there was a third person in this room.I clearly put you to sleep!Obviously I covered you with the quilt!It's just that I overlooked that you have the habit of getting up at night.It should be said that there used to be.You haven't had this habit for years, it's only at an age when you haven't gotten over the loss of a partner.But now, this habit has appeared again. Sure enough, the damage I caused you has not healed yet?

I looked at the door, although there was no one there, but I could feel the familiar atmosphere, you, my favorite, were hiding there.

no one's child

"When I woke up, you were no longer with me."

Where did it go?

I got up, but found a letter you wrote in red pen to Archbishop Jiou on the table.It is impossible for you not to know what it means to write your name with a red pen, my heart twitched violently, and I took out the letter with trembling hands.Sure enough, you still intend to do it all along.

"I just want to be a good father to that kid."

You know how I felt when I read the last sentence.Since you want to be my good father, why do you choose this path?Do you know why I deliberately took you away from the scene?I don't want anyone to know that you are a black mage, and I don't want any damage to your reputation.

You hurried out of the door and rushed there. As expected, you told Archbishop Jiou everything.

Is it all over?Am I going to be a human again?My breathing involuntarily became rapid.

"Flau, why is it you?"

You look surprised.So, until now, do you still blame yourself so much?Are you still unwilling to forgive yourself even after what I said?

I try my best to suppress my feelings and stand in front of you.My eyes must be very red now, I don't need you to tell me.Since coming to church, my tears have fallen for you alone.

"It's not what you think..."

You quickly changed your mind.

"Fool!"

I yelled at you as loud as I could, then turned around and ran away.Where can I go?what do I do?I have no idea.Shouldn't I beg Archbishop Geo for mercy?Why did I run away?Why is my heart so confused?Why does my heart hurt so much?I don't know, I don't want to know anything, I don't want to think about anything, I just keep running.Finally tired from running, I found that I had actually run out of the church and went to a different place.This place seems familiar, I have indeed been there.

"Haha, are you an unattended child too?"

"It's helpless to be betrayed by those adults, isn't it?"

"Come on, let us make your wish come true!"

At that time too, I just kept running with my head down, and got lost without knowing it.All I am familiar with are the battlefield and the church. If I go out of there, I will get lost no matter where I go.

"Are you just discarded? No one cares about you, right? Then come together."

They stretched out their hands and ran towards me.

"Give us your soul."

After hearing this sentence, I finally realized what it was.They are all shadows - servants who granted 3 wishes.After reacting, I ran away desperately.The demons I have seen before are all immobile, more precisely, they are all trapped by you. I don’t think it’s scary. It’s different now. It’s the first time I know that they are such scary things .

"You know? My mother lost me, so we are all people who are left alone." A child suddenly ran up in front of me, "Did I do something wrong? Mom found another father, and I have Other younger brothers and sisters don't care about me. What did I do wrong?"

I have your shadow in my mind.Now you must be with those children, right?Saying that you like me is all a lie, right?I wounded them with a wind curse, it was obviously their fault, obviously they were jealous and came to trouble me, but you still stood by their side and told me to go back to the room.

"Come on, stretch out your hand, become our kind, and avenge those who abandoned you."

"Make a wish."

I have been surrounded by them, with no way out.Reason tells me no, but what they say is not true?

"No one will remember you because he doesn't care about you anymore, does he?"

"Now