last shizuku

out, I don't know how to answer this question.

But, I can't help but say.

"About 10 years."

I am vague.I don't want you to know the details. Since you asked about the time, I'll just tell you the time.Please forgive my concealment, I don't want to hurt you, my favorite child.

Deja vu

Gradually, your breathing becomes even again.You finally made it through on your own, and I'm so happy for your growth.In the future, even without me, you can face everything alone, right?Thinking of this, I feel a little sad again. In the future, I should not be by your side, right?

"I'm sorry, I'm talking big without thinking about anything. In fact, I have also considered that issue."

You straightened your legs, put your hands on your legs, supported your body, and lowered your head deeply.

"Anyway, it's right to want to save someone, no matter who the other person is." My tone became a little more relaxed. "Whether it's worth saving is another question."

"Is it worth saving?"

"Do you think there is redemption value for those who have no repentance, only want to escape from the guilt, and think about themselves?" I put my left hand on your face, and wiped away the tears on your face, "If their souls are reincarnated again, will they still do evil and harm more souls? Should such souls really be sent to the elders of the heavens? Can death offset their sins in life? What is death to men, even to those whom they kill?"

"That's why you send them to hell?"

"I think it's necessary."

"Really?" You smiled slightly, "That's because you haven't seen the souls that really deserve to go to hell. Those souls hurt not only the body, but even the human soul."

"Can they touch people's souls?"

I'm at a loss as to what you're saying.

"Flau, can you see human souls?"

I never knew you had this ability.

"Well, even if I don't appear in the form of a ghost, I can clearly see the color of everyone's soul." Your eyes became gentle, but you said something that surprised me, "You know? Your soul is golden Yo."

"gold?"

"Well, golden." You raised your head and looked at the night sky outside the window, "So, even if you want to touch, you will never be able to touch those dark souls that deserve to go to hell. When golden souls approach, they will instinctively avoid them, To prevent it from being purified. By the way, the souls of black mages are pitch black."

"I see."

I sighed slightly.It turns out that the so-called murderers in my mouth are not the worst people at all. Now I am just a frog in the bottom of a well. I am too entangled in the topic of life and death, care too much about the feelings of those people, and unknowingly go the wrong way. ?

"Under this blue sky, normal souls appear in pairs. Souls of the same color will definitely meet and sparks will be sparked." You said something I haven't read in the scriptures, "Whether this What will be the result of the same spark, in the vast world, only two souls will have the same color, there will never be a third."

"Only two people?"

"Who is my soul the same color as?"

I can't help but think about this question.It's you?Is it Geo?Or someone from those armies?

"Our souls are exactly the same color."

Hearing this sentence, my eyes widened.It turns out that there is no chance in this world, there is only a well-arranged necessity.Everything about me is under the arrangement of the elders of the heavens, and so is meeting you on the battlefield.

"That day, I really thank you. If you betrayed me at that time, I would definitely die."

"You all know?!"

I never told anyone, how do you know? !

"Just now, when you touched my face, I secretly read your memory." You apologized a little, "You said it was a deal with the army 10 years ago, and I want to know why? Follow this Find your memory for clues, and you will know the truth."

"Ah, then you knew that I was a black mage and you knew it at that time, right?" I smiled self-deprecatingly, "In prison, I touched your forehead, so you know, right?"

"Yeah." You nodded undeniably, "As long as I touch my head, I can read the other person's memory as I like. I'm really sorry without your consent."

"It's nothing, there shouldn't be any secrets between us." I sighed and shook my head, "Ten years of hard work to keep it from you is still in vain."

In the future, I'm afraid I can't hide anything from you anymore, right?Touching your head is my habit, you can peek into my thoughts and memories.

"At that time, you were not used to it? For my breath."

You have completely calmed down and accepted everything.Now that you know everything, I don't have to hide it anymore.I put my right hand around your waist and back, my left hand on your shoulder, and you also snuggled up to my shoulder very cooperatively, with your hands gently wrapping around my waist and closing your eyes.This is the position you are most used to, and it is also the most frequent position between us.This has not changed since childhood.

"At the beginning, it was really choking."

Looking at you who returned to comfort in my arms, my voice gradually softened.The scene at that time was attached to my heart, and the truth was gradually revealed from my mouth.

I, who was implanted in the shadow, fell asleep with you in my arms, but woke up from the nightmare from time to time.I can feel your darkness far better than those dark men, and I've noticed it since I first came into contact with you.I suppressed this discomfort and held you in my arms, while praying that I would still be me when I woke up next time, and would not be engulfed by your darkness.

The next day the road opened and I took you back to the church.As expected, you have an aversion to God.

"Look, it's the kid."

"What kind of look is this!"

"There is a demon in his eyes!"

"He radiated darkness."

"How did Bastian bring such a child into the church!"

Everyone may also feel your darkness, and they are particularly disgusted with you, and often talk about us.

"It's a lot of pressure, right? Why do you have to pay so much for a strange child? You don't want your life to end here, do you? Give up that child and go back to a normal life."

There is this voice calling inside me all the time, and it still does to this day.Although I try my best to control and endure this discomfort, there are times when I lose control a little.The shadow inside me has been tempting me, tempting me to give up on you.Sometimes when I see you being so stubborn, I also wonder if it is really the right choice for me to pay so much for you?

"I'm sorry, I don't know anything." You lowered your head deeply, "We've been together all this time, but I don't know anything, and I can't help you with anything."

"It's okay, it's the path I chose."

I know that your memory is tragic, the bloody homeland, the hoarse calls, and the companions who will never return, all of which have been lost in this era because of the Ragus War.Everything disappeared without a trace, only you survived.But what can this prove?You obviously said you were friends, but they all left. Is the promise still meaningful?No matter where it is, you want them to take you with them.Your calm dark blue eyes hide a great sadness all day long.

"So, get up, okay?" Your eyes are full of apology, "Anyway, I am the child who was saved by you and raised by you. Not only me, but also Sehail in me. Alone Based on this, no matter who you are, the sharing you have made is extremely huge. I am not qualified to accept this apology."

"Thank you so much for your forgiveness, Flaau."

I slowly stood up with my hands on the ground.After kneeling for 7 hours, her legs were already numb and she staggered slightly.Sit back on the bed again, straighten your legs, you sit on my lap, snuggling in my arms, we miss the past quietly.

the color of the soul

Gradually, your breathing becomes even again.You finally made it through on your own, and I'm so happy for your growth.In the future, even without me, you can face everything alone, right?Thinking of this, I feel a little sad again. In the future, I should not be by your side, right?

"I'm sorry, I'm talking big without thinking about anything. In fact, I have also considered that issue."

You straightened your legs, put your hands on your legs, supported your body, and lowered your head deeply.

"Anyway, it's right to want to save someone, no matter who the other person is." My tone became a little more relaxed. "Whether it's worth saving is another question."

"Is it worth saving?"

"Do you think there is redemption value for those who have no repentance, only want to escape from the guilt, and think about themselves?" I put my left hand on your face, and wiped away the tears on your face, "If their souls are reincarnated again, will they still do evil and harm more souls? Should such souls really be sent to the elders of the heavens? Can death offset their sins in life? What is death to men, even to those whom they kill?"

"That's why you send them to hell?"

"I think it's necessary."

"Really?" You smiled slightly, "That's because you haven't seen the souls that really deserve to go to hell. Those souls hurt not only the body, but even the human soul."

"Can they touch people's souls?"

I'm at a loss as to what you're saying.

"Flau, can you