If You Don't Fall In Love, You'll Die

After graduation, Gu Xi became extremely busy. Although he still lives with Shen Jiaze, the time to see each other seems to be locked at night.

Gu Xi was still very tired at night, Shen Jiaze pestered him, and he just wanted to rest early.

Shen Jiaze felt sorry for him, and didn't mess around too much, most of them just kissed him, and then hugged him to sleep.

Gu Xi joined the Gu Group, he worked very hard to make achievements, and to prove himself to his father.

Why are you in such a hurry?

Because he wanted to come out, he wanted to take responsibility for his future with Shen Jiaze.

He tried his best to do what his father hoped, and tried his best to take on Gu's burden. He hoped that when he confessed to his parents, they would be easier to accept.

With such thoughts in mind, Gu Xi gave up her own interests, abandoned the things she had learned for many years, and worked steadily in the company to do some boring and completely uninteresting things.

But he is not bored or tired, but full of energy.

As long as he returns home and sees Shen Jiaze, he feels that everything is worthwhile.

Shen Jiaze knew that he was tired, so he would help tidy up this and that, and even give him great help in his work.

Although he has not stepped into the society, Shen Jiaze's living environment is there, which makes him have almost instinctive talents in these aspects.

During this period of time, although there is less gathering and more separation, although it is hard, Gu Xi is still full and satisfied. In order to outline their common future, Gu Xi is happy.

Until a move.

Shen Jiaze was distressed that he had to be stuck in traffic for nearly an hour every morning before arriving at the company, so he proposed to move to a place close to Gu Xi's company.

Gu Xi said: "This way you will be late for school."

Shen Jiaze said: "I'm not in a hurry to go to school, what are you afraid of?"

He insisted on moving, and even took the initiative to choose a house, and tidied it up after busy work, Gu Xi also followed him.

Because of his busy work, most of the moving matters were handled by Shen Jiaze.

Shen Jiaze's young master's temper has been restrained a lot by Gu Xi in the past two years.

Although he is still self-willed and loves to mess around, but in front of Gu Xi, he can do everything well when he is alone.

He carefully tidied up their memories, the two years were sweet and warm, full of them seemed to be all good.

Shen Jiaze accidentally found a photo album while moving a box.

He had never seen it before, and he was sure it wasn't his own, so it must be Gu Xi's.

He flipped through the photo album with some enthusiasm and anticipation, wanting to see Gu Xi.

After opening it, he saw a fat man who was familiar yet slightly unfamiliar.

Gu Xi's appearance can still be seen through his facial features, but that chubby face, round arms...

Shen Jiaze smiled, amused by the white and tender little fat man in the photo.

It turned out that Gu Xi had gained weight before.

It's unimaginable that Gu Xi, who lives in an extremely regular life and pays attention to orderliness, who is extremely demanding of himself, will become fat and cute like this.

Shen Jiaze looked at them one by one, the more he looked at them, the more he liked them.

This is probably the case when loving someone. The aesthetics will become two parts, one part is others, and the other part is him.

So no matter what Gu Xi is like, in Shen Jiaze's eyes, she is always good-looking.

After reading it, he still felt that the current Gu Xi was a bit too thin, his waist was too thin, but his butt was very fleshy... Mmm... Shen Jiaze hurriedly withdrew his thoughts, not daring to think about it.

This photo album is probably Gu Xi's "secret", Shen Jiaze doesn't want Gu Xi to know that he has seen it.

He carefully pulled out a single photo of Gu Xiaopang and put it in his wallet.

Turning to the end of the album, he actually saw a familiar person...

Uncle?

Shen Jiaze was slightly taken aback, in the photo was a man whose facial features were very similar to Shen Jiaze's, but his aura was completely different, he smiled slightly, mature, stable, elegant and charming.

Beside him is the chubby Gu Xi, he seems a little nervous, his eyes are twinkling, and the smile at the corner of his mouth is nervous and cute.

Shen Jiaze's heart skipped a beat, he couldn't tell what it was like, in short...not very comfortable.

It was just a photo, Shen Jiaze vaguely remembered that my uncle and grandpa got angry and went to their school to be a lecturer for a year.

It should have happened to teach Gu Xi...

What a coincidence.

Shen Jiaze closed the album, inexplicably depressed.

This was just a small pimple that had grown on Shen Jiaze's heart, and it hadn't multiplied into a cancer.

In the following days, Gu Xi was still busy, and Shen Jiaze was still waiting for him every night.

Every time she came back too late, Gu Xi would say: "Go to bed earlier, don't wait for me."

Shen Jiaze asked him: "I haven't seen you for a day, don't you miss me?"

Gu Xi has always been a stubborn one, he would say no if he thinks about it, he teased him: "What do you want?"

In the past, Shen Jiaze didn't think there was anything wrong with this statement, and would kiss him so much that he insisted that he missed him, but recently he felt uncomfortable for some reason.

He didn't make a sound, and Gu Xi continued to tease him: "Would you cook something to blow up the kitchen? Or would you like to wash your clothes and put them in the washing machine without drying them for a day?"

Shen Jiaze frowned: "That was before."

Gu Xi saw that he was really unhappy, so she coaxed him: "Mmm, the current Shen Jiaze is great, he can cook, he can do laundry... he can do everything!"

After speaking, he kissed him again, Shen Jiaze became happier, and the haze in his heart dissipated a lot, but the lump was still hidden in the dark.

A month later, Shen Jiaze went to a birthday party.

It was promised by his uncle Shen Qing.

He and Shen Qingxu are not much different in age, and they call him Uncle, but they are actually more like brothers.

However, Shen Qingxu has always been calm and outstanding at a young age. He is the best of their generation, the kind of "other people's child" that every parent will say a few words.

Shen Jiaze has a good relationship with his uncle, so he naturally wants to attend his birthday.

He didn't pay attention to it before, but now that he looked closely, he felt more and more that he and his uncle looked alike, and their facial features were very similar.

A relative just happened to compliment him: "Jia Ze and his little uncle are becoming more and more like each other, they have matured a lot, and there will be great achievements in the future."

Shen's mother said modestly: "This child has a temper since he was a child, and he has restrained himself a little in the past two years, but he is still far from Qing Xu."

Listening to these pleasantries, Shen Jiaze's discomfort escalated in a straight line.

He was impatient to deal with these seven aunts and eight aunts, so he simply hid aside to be lazy.

He flipped through his phone boredly. It's time, Gu Xi is still busy, and he doesn't want to disturb him by sending messages.

Having nothing to do, he remembered the little fat man in his wallet, and Shen Jiaze couldn't help but take it out and look at it.

Recently, he would always take out this photo, look at a Gu Xi who he is familiar with but not familiar with, and imagine his previous life.

Like him, will like his present and future also like his past.

Shen Jiaze also knew that he was really hopeless.

But it's okay, for liking Gu Xi, he gave up treatment a long time ago.

"Hey... is this Gu Xiaopang?" A frivolous voice sounded from behind him.

Shen Jiaze hastily closed his wallet.

The man holding the red wine behind him blinked and said, "What are you hiding?"

Shen Jiaze said calmly, "Brother Miao is good."

This is Shen Qingxu's friend and current partner, Chen Miao.

Chen Miao smiled and said, "Okay."

Shen Jiaze exchanged some polite words with him.

Chen Miao was not very interested in the banquet, and wanted to find a place to hide, so he happened to come here.

They had known each other before, and had a good chat.

While talking, for some reason, it came to Gu Xi.

Shen Jiaze didn't want to ask, but couldn't help it, he asked him: "Brother Miao knows Gu Xi?"

"I know you." Chen Miao said, "Your uncle taught him."

Shen Jiaze smiled dryly, and suddenly didn't want to ask any more questions.

However, Chen Miao seemed to bring back memories, he smiled and said: "That kid is very interesting, for your uncle to lose weight, he changed from a little fat man to a big beauty."

There was a bang, and the sound of the wine glass falling on the carpet was as dull as a drum hammer.

Chen Miao looked at Shen Jiaze in astonishment: "What's wrong?"

Shen Jiaze's face was frosty, and he asked Chen Miao: "For my uncle to lose weight?"

Chen Miao said: "Uh... this..." He realized that he had said something wrong, but he didn't know the relationship between Shen Jiaze and Gu Xi, he only thought that he had exposed Gu Xi's sexual orientation.

Shen Jiaze said directly: "I know Gu Xi likes men, does he like my uncle?"

"You know." Chen Miao breathed a sigh of relief, but soon he realized again: "You...you are not dating, are you?"

Shen Jiaze's expression turned extremely ugly, and he asked him, "Brother Miao, tell me, does he like my uncle?"

Chen Miao paused, but still said everything he knew.

Gu Xi likes Shen Qingxu.

Gu Xi promised to lose weight for Shen Qing.

After losing weight, Shen Qingxu left the school.

Immediately afterwards... a Shen Jiaze who looked exactly like Shen Qingxu appeared.

Shen Jiaze left without saying goodbye, blowing the cold wind outside for most of the night.

He told himself, don't think about it, don't think about it!

However, the thoughts don't stop.

How could it be such a coincidence?

Gu Xi has changed so much for Shen Qingxu, is it easy to forget him?

If not, what is he?

Shen Jiaze thought of their encounter. Every time before, that dramatic scene would make him feel happy, but now... everything has changed.

What was Gu Xi thinking at that time?Why would you make such a joke with a man who has lived a normal life?

If he didn't look very similar to Shen Qingxu, would Gu Xi still have that "mistake" relationship with him?

At first Gu Xi didn't like him, she was just teasing him, Shen Jiaze knew this very well.

But after that, Shen Jiaze thought that Gu Xi had gradually fallen in love with him, and the two of them were in love with each other.

But now...everything is question mark.

Shen Jiaze didn't sleep all night, dissected all the time of these two years, thinking little by little, watching little by little, the more he watched, the colder his heart became.

He and Shen Qingxu only have facial features, and their personalities are completely different.

But what Gu Xi likes is Shen Qingxu's character.

Mature... Steady... Meticulous...

Gu Xi's mantra suddenly entered his mind.

"Shen Jiaze, can you be more mature!"

In an instant, Shen Jiaze's heart was so cold that he looked blankly at the pitch-black sky, feeling overwhelmed by the huge darkness.

Shen Jiaze "disappeared" for two days.

The past two days have driven many people crazy. Grandma Shen can't sleep at night, her mind is full of her good grandson, she is so anxious that she beats her chest and stamps her feet.

Gu Xi was able to hold on on the first day, but on the second day he was so anxious that he couldn't stay in the company and left a lot of things to go around looking for Shen Jiaze.

This annoyed Gu's father, he ordered Gu Xi to be brought back, and he reprimanded him straight away.

Gu Xi didn't sleep all day and night, plus he was worried about Shen Jiaze, his nerves were extremely tense, and he confessed like this.

He came out at the worst possible time.

Father Gu went mad on the spot and kicked him out of the house.

Gu Xi couldn't care about these anymore, he looked for Shen Jiaze everywhere, and finally found him in his own home.

Shen Jiaze came back by himself. After two days and two nights of thinking, he finally figured it out.

The past... let's go.

It doesn't matter if Gu Xi likes Shen Qingxu, it doesn't matter if Gu Xi regards him as Shen Qingxu's substitute, he has time, a lot of time.

As long as she is with Gu Xi, as long as the time is long, Gu Xi will only see him and only like him.

Shen Jiaze didn't want to lose Gu Xi, even if he knew that the sweetness of the past two years might be an illusion, he still couldn't lose it.

It will be fine, Shen Jiaze told himself, everything will be fine, Gu Xi will definitely like him.

Gu Xi looked at him tiredly: "What happened? Where have you been for the past two years?"

Shen Jiaze apologized, and said: "It's nothing, something happened at home, I know you are busy, so I didn't want to disturb you."

Gu Xi paused.

Shen Jiaze said, "Are you hungry? I'll go cook."

Walking into the kitchen, Shen Jiaze skillfully used these things that he didn't know how to cook. Looking at the dishes on the disk, Shen Jiaze's heart was shrouded in great sadness - Shen Qingxu was very good at cooking.

After that, they lived peacefully together for several months.

In the past few months, the two of them appeared to be calm on the surface, but they were actually exhausted physically and mentally.

Shen Jiaze was always shrouded in the shadow of Shen Qingxu.

Gu Xi and his family have completely fallen out, Gu's father really kicked him out of the house, the company can no longer go, all funds are frozen, he has no money, and he doesn't know what to do next.

He didn't tell Shen Jiaze about this, the main reason was that Shen Jiaze was about to graduate soon, and he knew Shen Jiaze's character, if he knew that he had come out, he might also confess to his parents, and when the time came... it would be even more chaotic.

Gu Xi still goes out on time every day, pretending to go to work, but in fact he is completely confused.

At this time Ye Chen found him.

He asked him, "Didn't you always want to be a director?"

Gu Xi was startled, yes, this is something he likes.Before meeting Shen Jiaze, he always wanted to leave the Gu family and do his own thing.

But after getting to know Shen Jiaze, he knew that he couldn't be willful, he had to shoulder the responsibility of the Gu family and let his father recognize him, only in this way could he and Shen Jiaze be recognized.He also needs to prove himself to the Shen family, that he is worthy of Shen Jiaze's liking.

And these, there is no way to be a director.

It's just that everything is over now, he was impulsive and pushed himself to the edge of desperation.

Ye Chen encouraged him and said, "Shall we cooperate? You will be the director, and I... I will be the actor! Yes, I will be the leading role for you!"

It took Gu Xi a long time to react: "You...can act?"

Ye Chen said: "I can learn it if I don't know it! It's not difficult... besides, I'm very bored, let's go to the entertainment industry together!"

Gu Xi: "..."

Ye Chen cleared his throat and said again: "I can still advance money... We both graduated, don't worry about what we do at home, earning some private money first is a serious matter."

Gu Xi finally came around the bend.

Where did Ye Chen want to act?He just tried to help him in different ways, trying to pull him from an angle that he could accept.

Gu Xi's heart was warm, and his whole body became motivated.

Ye Chen is right, the most urgent thing is to make money.

What is more profitable than this line of work?Really hard to find.

Besides, he is good at and likes it, and he can do it well!

Gu Xi is busy again, and her mental state has improved a lot. Although the road ahead is still confused, but with a lover and friends, no matter how difficult the road is, she can go on!

This situation continued until Shen Jiaze graduated.

After he graduated, Grandma Shen couldn't sit still.

She knew about Shen Jiaze and Gu Xi early in the morning, how could she let her grandson go on this road of no return?

It's fine to play around when you're young, but it can't affect lifelong events.

So... there was the scene in the hotel.

Gu Xi watched Shen Jiaze sleeping with a strange girl.

This picture, no matter how long it has passed, no matter how clear the truth is afterward, at that moment, Gu Xi's feeling is only top-heavy.

Tired as if the sky had fallen, he didn't know how he left, how he walked home, or even how he calmed down.

Perhaps it was the natural self-help instinct that played a role, he did not believe that Shen Jiaze would betray him, absolutely not.

As long as you don't believe it, you will become more and more unbelieving.

What a coincidence...why are you in that hotel?Why did someone send him a message?

Obviously deliberately lured him over.

Gu Xi calmed down, found Yu Xinghai, and asked him to help investigate.

Afterwards, the truth came out, it was a "good show" co-operated by his father and Shen Jiaze's grandma.

Shen Jiaze was innocent, Gu Xi heaved a sigh of relief and calmed down completely.

He couldn't quarrel with Shen Jiaze because of this matter, he couldn't ruin their relationship because of this matter, and he couldn't fall into their trap.

This is just the beginning, and there will only be more things they have to face, so...he and Shen Jiaze can't have any problems.

But at Shen Jiaze's place, after waking up, the world really fell apart.

He slept with a strange woman, and Gu Xi saw it...

It's over, it's over, it's over.

Gu Xi won't want him anymore, definitely won't want him anymore, even if he has such a face.

Shen Jiaze went to Gu Xi with great panic, he was eager to explain, but Gu Xi was very calm, and only said lightly: "I know you won't do that kind of thing."

Shen Jiaze was startled, and it took a long time to come back to his senses.

But his heart didn't sink, and his fear didn't dissipate, instead they gathered together, becoming utter despair.

Gu Xi...not angry, Gu Xi...don't care.

After such a thing happened, Gu Xi unexpectedly passed it on in such a calm manner.

why?

The reason was gnawing at his internal organs like a poisonous snake.

no love.

There is no room for a grain of sand in love. Unless you don't love, how can you let go?

Shen Jiaze finally couldn't suppress the emotions he had been holding back for more than half a year.

He was actually still delusional, delusional that Gu Xi had fallen in love with him a long time ago, delusional that Gu Xi was looking at Shen Jiaze, but now...he didn't dare to think anymore.

It doesn't matter if you try to comfort yourself as a substitute, try to tell yourself that time can heal everything...

But it can't be done, really can't be done.

The sugar water has become sulfuric acid, how does the heart beat when soaked in it?

Shen Jiaze didn't know what to do.

I can't let it go, I can't let it go, I want to hold it tightly, but my hands are already bloody.

This is probably the most painful period of time for them.

In Gu Xi's eyes, Shen Jiaze has changed.

Shen Jiaze didn't know what he was doing either.

He wants to be different from Shen Qingxu, he doesn't want to be a substitute anymore, he wants Gu Xi to be angry, as long as he is angry, does it mean that he cares about himself?

Like a belated puberty, the already docile wolfhound has become rebellious, even extreme.

He drank heavily and was very drunk.

He stays out at night and doesn't answer a single phone call.

He did a lot of things that he had never done before. He expected Gu Xi to be angry and was afraid that he would be angry.

But Gu Xi wasn't angry: he was drunk, and he took care of him; if he didn't come back, he looked for him everywhere; if he didn't answer his phone, he would send him a message...

In fact, Gu Xi was also wrong at this time.

He didn't know Shen Jiaze's true mood, he thought Shen Jiaze was provoked by his family members.The feeling of coming out of the closet was not pleasant, he knew better than anyone else that Shen Jiaze must be under tremendous pressure, it was normal for him to want to vent.

Gu Xi felt that she should tolerate him, comfort him, and give him time to adjust himself.

What a big mistake.

His tolerance only pushed Shen Jiaze to a deeper level of hell.

Is this a normal way for lovers to get along?

No, this is not normal.

To Shen Jiaze, this was too abnormal.

Facing Gu Xi who was so calm, so unrequited, so unimportant, Shen Jiaze felt more and more that they were not lovers.

At least Gu Xi never regarded him as a lover.

Maybe Gu Xi just wanted his face, so it didn't matter what he did, as long as he had this face, everything would be fine.

Shen Jiaze didn't even dare to look in the mirror for a long time.

In such a sick situation, Shen Jiaze didn't even know what he had done.

tortured.

Apart from these four words, there is nothing that can describe them.

Gu Xi was very busy outside, but when he got home, he saw a bunch of people stumbling around.

Shen Jiaze brought him home...

Shen Jiaze, who never let any friend set foot in their home, brought a group of strangers back to drink.

Gu Xi's head buzzed, and he stood for a long time before slowly calming down.

He has to talk to Shen Jiaze, they need to have a good talk.

But Shen Jiaze couldn't talk to him.

The two opened their mouths and had a big argument.

Gu Xi slammed the door and left, going to Ye Chen's place.

Ye Chen didn't know how to comfort him.

This chaotic situation lasted for three full months.

Three months like a nightmare.

In the end, Gu Xi finally began to doubt whether they were suitable to be together.

In fact, Shen Jiaze didn't do anything too extreme, nor violated any bottom line, but...but...

Gu Xi didn't want to quarrel with him anymore.

What are two people in love most afraid of?

Cruel betrayal?Life and death?

neither.

The former can wake up and forget it from now on; the latter will have a beautiful love for a lifetime.

What I am most afraid of is the two people who love each other. Because of the passing of reality, they will watch the most beautiful love gradually disappear.

Gu Xi couldn't take it anymore, he realized like never before that he and Shen Jiaze were not suitable.

He loves him, but they are not suitable.

But even so, he was still reluctant to part, he wanted to make amends, to restore, to get back the old days.

But he couldn't find the crux.

And what broke Shen Jiaze completely was when he saw Gu Xi who had a great conversation with Shen Qingxu.

Only then did he know that... Shen Qingxu invested in the film directed by Gu Xi.

They... met again.

Thinking about the constant quarrel between Gu Xi and him these days, he finally understood.

It turned out that he had found the real master, and he didn't need him as a substitute anymore.

Shen Jiaze's suppressed emotions broke out completely, and he proposed to Gu Xi: "Let's break up."

After saying these five words, Shen Jiaze felt ashamed.

He hoped that Gu Xi would refuse, he hoped that Gu Xi would say not to break up.As long as Gu Xi says, he is willing to be a deaf man, a blind man, another Shen Qingxu, he will become what he likes, and he will be willing to be a substitute. As long as Gu Xi.

But Gu Xi was tired.

Gu Xi was stunned for a long time, then slowly said: "Okay, let's separate for a while."

Nightmare come true.

Shen Jiaze finally stood in the deepest part of hell.

The two separated.Whether it's sweet or painful, it's gone.

Gu Xi looked back, and found that after Shen Jiaze left, his life lost all color and became a dull gray.

He worked hard to film for Ye Chen, and the occasional happiness came from Shen Qingxu.

He had never discovered that Shen Qingxu was similar to Shen Jiaze before, but now, he saw Shen Jiaze through Shen Qingxu, saw the familiar facial features, and he could barely find a little happiness.

But this is just drinking poison to quench thirst, Shen Qingxu is not Shen Jiaze, and no one is Shen Jiaze.

After the movie finished, Gu Xi also lost all motivation.

He missed Shen Jiaze, wanted to see him, and couldn't wait for even a minute.

Funny how he couldn't find him.

Shen Qingxu, right!Shen Qingxu is his younger uncle.

Gu Xi went to find Shen Qingxu and asked him to take him to meet Shen Jiaze.

Shen Qingxu helped him make an appointment with Shen Jiaze.

Seeing the person who was thinking day and night, one had a smile in his eyes, while the other was full of despair and pain.

Gu Xi said to Shen Qingxu: "Can I have a private talk with Shen Jiaze?"

Shen Qingxu smiled gently: "Okay."

Gu Xi also smiled after a long absence.

His smile pierced into Shen Jiaze's heart like a thorn, he thought he wouldn't feel the pain anymore, but now his heart seemed to be in a mess, and he couldn't breathe from the pain.

What are they doing here?What is he here for?

Show off?Or laugh at him?

Shen Jiaze looked at them, and the darkness in his chest exploded completely: "I will go on a blind date."

Both Shen Qingxu and Gu Xi were stunned.

Shen Jiaze had completely lost his mind, he said: "Uncle, don't use it to persuade me, I will go on a blind date, and I will marry a beautiful wife."

It took Shen Qing a long time to react, and he said: "You don't have to force it, Mom, I will help you..."

"No need!" Shen Jiaze said loudly, "I figured it out, grandma is right, I should find a girl to marry, I should get married."

Gu Xi stayed for a long time, and finally came back to his senses. He forced a smile, and said in a low voice, "I...I'll go first."

Shen Qingxu took his hand and said: "You..."

Gu Xi waved his hand and said, "No need, no need!"

Gu Xi left, as if she had lost her soul.

Four years.

I gave all my affection and this is what I got.

Gu Xi didn't know where to go.

A few days ago, on Gu's father's birthday, Gu Xi went home. Gu's father was furious and made a mess of the birthday party. He pointed at his nose and scolded him: "I don't have a son like you, get out!"

"Did I raise you just to make you mad at me?"

"If I could choose, I really hope I didn't give birth to you back then!"

A home is not a home, a lover is not a lover, and everything you have worked so hard to achieve is lost.

Gu Xi lay on the bed, thinking of the last thing she should not think about.

Since you don't want me to be born, then disappear.

No one wanted him, what was he doing alive?

The stronger a person is, the weaker he is at a certain moment.

Gu Xi is actually a person who needs to be recognized and needed very much.

He is willing to take care of people, willing to give, willing to bear everything.

The pressure cannot overwhelm him, and not being needed is the real death sentence for him.

Without Ye Chen, he might really be dead.

When the consciousness gradually blurred, a person cried and called his name: "Gu Xi...Gu Xi, you...don't do this, you...you..."

Ye Chen...it's Ye Chen.

Does he still need him?

Waking up in the ward, looking at the crying Ye Chen and the worried Ye Father and Ye Mu...

Gu Xi survived.

He still has things to cherish.

Friends, dreams, he has many more...

***

"Don't cry..." The man's voice was full of panic, he wiped his tears clumsily, and said anxiously, "What did you dream about? Don't cry, don't cry..."

Gu Xi opened his eyes, traveled across the long river of time, and saw Shen Jiaze who was still familiar, missed and still unforgettable.

Suddenly, all emotions could not be contained, his tears flowed fiercely, and his voice was so choked that he could hardly finish his sentence.

"Shen Jiaze..." He pressed his forehead into his arms and cried, "I'm very scared."