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The door was knocked.

Wang Ziyue stood up immediately: "It's the hotel waiter, I'll go and open the door."

Like a drowning man catching a rope, he hurried to the door.

Shen Weiqi quietly looked at his fleeing back, his deep eyes were as black as night.

The hurried figure disappeared quickly, and Shen Weiqi looked away, seeing lights outside the window.

Light up the lights, like countless pairs of eyes. Countless pairs of eyes stare at him at the same time, pity him, and laugh at him.Laugh at his recklessness, laugh at his impulsiveness, and laugh at what he can't ask for.

Shen Weiqi smiled at the glass window, the cold glass reflected his cold face, that stiff smile was definitely not warm.

He thought what happened to me tonight?Why did you say so many words uncontrollably?It must have scared him.I obviously want him to be happy when he is with me, but I can't even do such a simple thing.

Shen Weiqi stroked his hair in frustration, and lowered his head to stop looking at his reflection.

He hasn't fallen in love with me yet, but I said so many silly things in front of him.This posture is too ugly, like kneeling on one knee and raising both hands above the head to offer a heart, but the other party is scared back again and again.

Shen Wei is a 22-year-old wizard who would rather die than embarrass himself in front of the person he likes.But when a person is chasing another person with all his strength, like a marathon runner, his face must be hideous, his muscles must be tense, and his chasing posture must be extremely embarrassing.

What should I do?I can't calm down in front of you, always embarrassed.

Heartache, frustration, unwillingness... All kinds of emotions turn the blood into thick pitch, slowly clogging the meridians of the whole body.The air and self-confidence were all taken away, love turned into a vast ocean, and Shen Weiqi felt suffocated like drowning.

"...Just give me the things, thank you..."

There was a polite farewell from the waiter at the door, followed by the sound of closing the door.

Soon, the prince was carrying the thick bedding and pillows, and walked back to the house with difficulty.Shen Weiqi was always eager to please Prince Yue, but he didn't get up to help.So the prince staggered over to the bed, bent down and put the quilt on the floor.Shen Weiqi was still sitting on the edge of the bed, his gaze was elsewhere.

He didn't dare to speak, for fear of opening his mouth to say something embarrassing to both of them; he dared not move, for fear of making an irreversible impulsive move; The love and true hate are all exposed.

He still remembered that he had several girlfriends when he was a teenager, and they said he was too paranoid and selfish, so they came and went, none of them stayed long in his lonely and young life.Shen Weiqi has regrets but no nostalgia.Sentimental teenage love is a fragile rhizome, which rarely bears full fruit.

As a person grows up, his ability to love himself and others matures.

Shen Weiqi began to become cautious, and no longer fell in love casually.He knows his temper well, he is a stubborn person, and he will get what he wants at any cost.Such a stubborn person meets the same stubborn love, that is, he wants to go all the way to the dark, and he will not give up even if he hits his head and bleeds.It was like a lone wolf wandering in the vast snow field, only the stars in the sky followed him for a long time, shining on him with that shallow and gentle light, and comforting him.

Shen Weiqi began to worry about gains and losses, fearing that Wang Ziyue would not be able to accept his character like those girls.He couldn't imagine that the prince belonged to him first and then left him, so that he would never have any courage to chase after him in this life.So he chose to pretend and suppress, and the lone wolf just hid its fangs and pretended to be a tame dog and begged for mercy.

don't run away from me.Don't reject me, he thought.

The prince knelt on the floor while spreading out the bedding, while secretly looking at Shen Weiqi.

Shen Weiqi looked solemn, lowered his head and remained silent.Through the messy dull blue hair, the prince saw more and more a sad water color in his dark eyes.

Shen Weiqi's loss caused Wang Ziyue's heart to tug.

He put the pillows neatly on the bedding, then sat down cross-legged, rubbing the corners of the quilt awkwardly.

He wanted Shen Weiqi to be happy again. He knew what to say and do to make Shen Weiqi happy, but he didn't dare to say or do it.It is a kind of subconscious self-protection, as if hot water drips on the back of the hand and the hand will be withdrawn reflexively. The first reaction of ordinary people when encountering danger is to avoid it instead of facing it.

He could only ignore the elephant standing in the room and bypass the core of the problem: "You must think I'm ridiculous. A person who has never really experienced love is talking about love."

Shen Weiqi remained silent, looking down at the folded hands.

The prince struggled for a long time, and finally said: "By the way, I remember why you entered the entertainment industry."

Shen Weiqi raised his head and looked at him fixedly.

The more the prince wants to ask Shen Weiqi, is the person you like me?But he dared not ask.

He was afraid that he would answer "no", and he was also afraid that he would answer "yes".

He had the courage to ask questions but not the courage to listen to the answers.

The prince looked away and said, "Aren't you really going to tell me? Maybe I can help."

Shen Weiqi said: "If this answer makes you feel embarrassed, I can hide it in my heart forever."

Prince Yue almost blurted out: "It will be very hard for you then."

"It's better for one person than two people... just pretend I didn't say these words tonight."

"It can't be done."

Shen Weiqi's tone suddenly became cold: "Don't you understand? If you will be happy to hear the answer, I will tell you; if you find it difficult to hear, I will not tell you. The initiative is in your hands. Not with me - never with me."

The prince stopped talking.

"I understand." Shen Weiqi stared at him and repeated, "Just pretend I didn't say these words."

The more the prince did not speak, the silence had already answered everything.

Shen Weiqi's eyes were unstoppably moist.

Prince Yue chose to escape.

Shen Weiqi suddenly realized that he was wrong, and he was wrong from the very beginning.

How could Wang Ziyue not accept his character?At the age of 17, Wang Ziyue had a falling out with his family and chose to debut. After the band disbanded, everyone gave up. Only he stayed in the entertainment industry and worked hard.They are equally straightforward and paranoid, and Wang Ziyue is even more stubborn and self-centered than Shen Weiqi.However, in the face of Shen Weiqi's veiled show of love, the prince chose to escape the more he thought about it.

The reason for this...do I need to explain more clearly?

Shen Weiqi felt his heart twitching. It turns out that heartache can accumulate without upper limit.

There was nothing he could do.

How could he be so careless and fail to notice this?

The prince is more like a star in the sky, but he is a lone wolf on the snow field, and he can't grow wings even if he tries his best.

"Just pretend I didn't say those words."

These words pardoned Wang Ziyue, and he fell on the floor as if exhausted.He felt that Shen Weiqi was staring at him, so he opened the script to block in front of him, the infinitely magnified shape of the text stayed on the retina and could not be transmitted to the brain.

He is not a fool. If Shen Weiqi argued with him about love, it could be regarded as a spiritual exchange between friends. Then later, when he was silent and Shen Weiqi hid his eyes and dared not look at him, the meaning could not have been more obvious. up.

An invisible thread connected his heart to Shen Weiqi's heart, and the thread was tightly entwined, making him so uncomfortable that he couldn't breathe.

There is no doubt that he likes Shen Weiqi, but is this liking the same as Shen Weiqi's liking?He couldn't be sure.

Wang Ziyue devoted himself to the band work at the age of 17, and has never been in a relationship since he was a child.He doesn't know what love is like, so he can't respond to Shen Weiqi irresponsibly, and he can't lie to Shen Weiqi just to make Shen Weiqi happy for a while, that will only bring more harm to Shen Weiqi.

Suddenly, the prince felt more and more confused.

He who feels the same with Shen Weiqi, and who sincerely plans for Shen Weiqi, has love sprouted without knowing it?

What a precious treasure love is, how many people can only find one cohabitant to live with in their whole life, and cannot experience the true love that attracts souls to each other.

Have I found love and run away from him myself?

The more the prince looked at the ceiling in a daze, he suddenly understood.The tightly wound silk thread drew bloodstains from Prince Yue's heart.

Even if he really likes Shen Weiqi and the two really date, their story will never be as happy and happy as in an idol drama.Relatives and friends are fortunate to say that the most terrible public opinion.They are all well-known figures, and their every move is infinitely magnified by the lens.If the relationship between the two is exposed, there will be voices of blessing, tolerant eyes, and friendly hugs, and there will definitely be.But doesn't excessive thoughtfulness just show that "you are special and different from most people"?

Not to mention those eyes with genuine malice, those who are curious, joking, and mocking... like ghosts in the dark night.

The prince knows very well that Shen Weiqi's character will definitely not admit defeat.It is precisely because of knowing this that the prince is more hesitant.How could he be willing to push his lover to the battlefield of bullets?Impossible.

He conceded.

What he doesn't want to admit defeat is that he is still a passionate young man, what he hates the most is to bow his head and admit defeat in front of such boring things as "worldliness", "reality", and "most people".However, as long as Shen Weiqi endured the storms and storms of the world for himself, and endured the pain and sorrow that he didn't have to endure for himself, a young man who didn't want to admit defeat gave up and suffered a crushing defeat.

Don't love me anymore.

Rather than two people being wounded by the hail of bullets and bleeding profusely, it is better to miss each other and forget each other.

Don't love me anymore.

Love is a luxury, not a necessity of life.There is no one in this world who cannot live without another.In the vastness of beings, people are both different and similar, and you can always find something better.

Don't love me anymore.

Don't face up to difficulties, don't ask for trouble, don't ask for trouble, don't bump into a broken head, and don't walk on this thorny road without looking back.

Shen Weiqi said, "Sweetness and pain go hand in hand, and the two sides of the contradiction are the truth of love." This is so true, almost at the moment when the prince realized love, overwhelming pain roared, mercilessly crushing his affectionate soul.He can no longer say those free and easy confident words.

I fell in love with him.

I can't love him.

I really fell in love with him.

So I really can't love him anymore.

The prince put the script on his face more.

The corner of the book vibrated slowly with breathing, and a small dark gray circle suddenly appeared in the middle of the page.The range of the small circle expands a little bit and gets wet a little bit.

His shoulders were shaking.

The script was lifted.

The prince lay on his back on the floor, and through the misty eyes, he saw Shen Weiqi leaning over.So he blocked his eyes with the back of his hand, Shen Weiqi turned his head slightly, closed his eyes and approached him.

Then, his lips kissed his lips.

Cold, quivering, soft lips.

A light, painful, beautiful kiss.

When the lips parted, Wang Ziyue still covered his face with his hands, and there were transparent water marks on his fair cheeks.

Shen Weiqi gently wiped it away with his thumb, and heard him say: "You said it, just pretend that these things never happened."

As if you had never kissed me so tenderly, as if I had never accepted your kiss tamely.Just pretend you never said those words, just pretend I never listened carefully.Just when you're in love with a selfish coward, just pretend I'm a mean coward.Just pretend that your heart has never been broken for me, just pretend that I have never, never been moved for you.

Shen Weiqi smiled, but his eyes were filled with sadness.

He said: "You also said that it can't be done."

Shen Weiqi stood up and tried to keep the volume steady: "I'm going to wash up."

Wang Ziyue's voice came over muffled: "You go first, I'll read the script later."

Shen Weiqi turned and walked into the bathroom.

The sound of rushing water soon sounded in the bathroom, and the heavy air seemed to be washed away by the heavy rain.

Shen Weiqi turned on the shower, cold water drops fell on his face, and along with tears, slid down his handsome facial features.Clothes were uncomfortable sticking to him, but he didn't feel any physical pain anymore.Love is a vast ocean, and hatred equal to love is a raging turbulence in the sea, mercilessly drowning the affectionate soul.

Shen Weiqiduo hoped that the prince would respond to him more.Tonight, he took off all his disguises without any precautions, and he hoped that the prince would give him a hand so that he would not be so embarrassed.

But the more the prince did not.

Shen Weiqi bit his lower lip tightly, his heart was bleeding.

He could understand Prince Yue's escape.

Both of them are drowning, the difference is that he fell into a vast ocean, and the rapid vortex tore and roared and dragged him into the bottom of the sea, swallowing him up in an instant without leaving any room for reaction.Prince Yue fell into the swamp.His sinking was an extremely slow process, during which, as long as he stretched out his hand in any direction, he could escape at any time.

He couldn't understand Prince Yue's escape.

The prince ran away more, thinking that this would bring the future of both of them back on track.He is correct.Human emotions are extremely fragile rhizomes.Time, like a trickle, will penetrate all passion and impulse. If love is not responded to, it will eventually collapse irresistibly.The saddest thing is, would you rather watch my love fall apart piece by piece than accept it?This is your kindness?your sympathy?Or is it your love?

I would rather think that you can't love me because you love me. Love is such a contradiction.

He thought, I was so determined that you would be mine and I would be yours, so firmly believed that the end of the story would soon come, so firmly believed that my pain would eventually be over.But the back of you turning away announced my life sentence.I used to think that you and I were a match made in heaven, the prince and princess destined to be together in fairy tales.I am too naive.It turned out that I was not walking alone in the snow field, but wandering aimlessly.

So, just act like none of this happened.I will continue to follow behind you, continue to chase you, and continue to make you happy, until the ordinary life consumes my love and courage.At that time, I will turn around and leave, as you wish.A person who is not willing to admit defeat bows his head and throws in the towel, as you wish.

Silent all night.