It turns out that no one survives in love

By the time Li Tian arrived home, it was already an hour later.As soon as he turned on the light, he suddenly found Lin Rui sitting on the sofa. He was startled, "I thought you weren't home yet...why didn't you turn on the light?"

Lin Rui squeezed out a smile, "Oh, I'm a little tired, so I just wanted to take a rest first."

Li Tian changed his shoes, took off his suit, sat next to Lin Rui, and put his arms around his shoulders, "Tired? Tell me, what do you want to eat tonight?"

Lin Rui leaned in his arms, weakly, "I'm not very hungry. You decide."

In fact, Li Tian also felt very tired. In order to have a good weekend with Lin Rui, he worked overtime for three consecutive days. , "What's the matter? Are you so tired? Don't push yourself too hard. Otherwise, let's eat first, and tell me after dinner, and I'll see if I can help."

Lin Rui felt that his heart and stomach were congested, and his head was aching. He raised his head and looked at Li Tian's obviously tired expression. The words "I don't want to eat" turned around in his throat, and swallowed it back , "Okay. Let's eat noodles."

Li Tian laughed now, "Okay! Produced by Li's noodle shop, the quality is guaranteed! Just look at it!"

He stood up, rolled up his sleeves and walked into the kitchen.

Soon, two bowls of beef noodles were ready. Li Tian put the noodles on the dining table. Seeing that Lin Rui was still lying on the sofa as if he didn't want to get up, he couldn't help laughing, "Master, the noodles are ready, please eat with clean hands."

Lin Rui finally smiled, washed his hands, and sat down at the dinner table.

The two ate face to face, Lin Rui didn't speak, Li Tian told him about the company's recent situation, Haiming went to Hainan on a business trip, and it was the first time they accepted an international IT company's marketing plan in Beijing, Xiao Liang and The girlfriend proposes successfully, and the wedding is set for the New Year. . .

Speaking of the New Year, Li Tian suddenly asked, "Is your semester almost over?"

Lin Rui lowered his head and poked the beef in the noodles without looking up, "Well, the week of the New Year."

Li Tian organized his language and asked carefully, "After this semester is over, what will you do next? Will you teach another semester?"

Lin Rui felt a "thump" in his heart, and his voice was dry, "Oh, I only signed for one semester at that time. My sabbatical is only for this year."

Li Tian stopped his chopsticks and looked at Lin Rui. He suddenly felt a little nervous, and smiled subtly, "Then, what do you plan to do next? Do you want to stay at P University?"

Lin Rui couldn't pretend anymore, he could only raise his head and look at Li Tian.Li Tian's eyes were bright, with obvious anticipation.He looked at Li Tian quietly, and after a while, he finally opened his mouth. He felt that every word that followed was like a sharp knife cutting through his throat, causing him bloody pain, "No Stay in P University."

For a moment just now, he wanted to tell Li Tian so much, I've made up my mind, to stay for you, even if it's not a P university, I can try other schools.Even if it doesn't work in Beijing, I can try other cities.Now that the high-speed rail is so convenient, we can still see each other often.

But he couldn't say it.

How is he going to tell Li Tian that the fact that I am gay has been found out by the department, I probably have already lost the offer.

Besides, he knows too well that once he leaves P University, it will only be more difficult for other schools.

A professor from a famous foreign school returned to China and gave a lecture at his alma mater for a semester, but did not stay. The reason for this is too thought-provoking, and it is too easy to arouse the interest of "minded people".Once he went to other schools to inquire about job hunting, he completely confirmed the fact that "he couldn't stay because of his personal style of life".

This circle looks big, but it's actually pitifully small. Once such explosive gossip gets out, all schools in Beijing will know about it within a few days.The more schools he asks, the faster he spreads it, which is tantamount to suicide.

Li Tian frowned, staring at Lin Rui with disbelief in his eyes.

Lin Rui knew that Li Tian was giving him the last chance, and he was waiting for an explanation from himself.But he couldn't utter a single word, he was stuck there, and the chopsticks in his hands had already left two deep red marks on his hands.

In such a silent confrontation, Li Tian's eyes dimmed little by little, the surprise at the beginning turned into anger, and finally fixed in deep disappointment.

He slowly put down his chopsticks, and his back, which was always straight, seemed to be deflated at this moment.He put his elbows on the dining table and propped it on his temples, and he repeated the sentence several times in his mouth, holding it back and holding it back, but in the end he couldn't hold it back.

"Lin Rui, is it true that everyone except Haiming is not worth changing the trajectory of your life?"

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Li Tian knew that he must have stabbed Lin Rui.He is really reluctant, but he just can't help it, his tolerance, his devotion, and his carefulness are regarded as treasures, so he is let down for nothing, without even an explanation, his disappointment and grievance must be found at this moment an exit.

Lin Rui stared blankly at Li Tian, ​​he actually didn't know what he was thinking at this moment, maybe he wanted to lose his temper, maybe he felt wronged, maybe he wanted to explain, but his mind was buzzing all the time, very chaotic .

Then, Li Tian saw big tears welling up from Lin Rui's eyes.

Li Tian's heart ached so badly that he was about to scold himself to death, "He cried, I made him cry."

But another voice in his heart came from a dark corner, "Don't coax him. He gave up on you first. He didn't want to be with you for a long time. He even set a time limit. One semester, see Li Tian, ​​you are just Lin Rui's companion for this semester in China. When the time comes, he will pat his ass and leave without taking a piece of cloud with him. What are you? He was beaten by you even to say hello."

Li Tian felt chest tightness, "I thought I was the exception, but unfortunately I'm not. Lin Rui, last time you said that you were afraid of being passionate, heh, what are you afraid of? It's obviously me who is being passionate."

He took a deep breath, and felt that he had to leave before his emotions exploded completely, and he would definitely not be able to control himself if he stayed.He tried his best to control the volume, "I'll go out for a while."

Walking to the door, I endured it several times, but I still couldn't hold back, "You, you eat the noodles, and go to sleep when you are tired."

After speaking, he opened the door and strode out.

Lin Rui wanted to rush up and hug Li Tian to keep him from leaving, but his whole body seemed to be frozen and he couldn't move.He just sat there blankly, watching the face in front of him cool down little by little and form a ball.

Li Tian went out of the building, took out a cigarette from his pocket, but found that the lighter was forgotten in his coat.He thought to himself mockingly, "It's a good thing I brought a pistol, otherwise it would be really embarrassing to turn around and go back." He turned back and crushed the unlit cigarettes and threw them into the trash can, walked to the road and took a taxi to the bar.He really needs to calm down.

Choosing a relatively quiet bar, Li Tian ordered a glass of whiskey, sat at the bar and began to drink slowly.He knew from the very beginning that this would be an arduous battle, and he was mentally prepared for it, but he didn't understand, it seemed that everything was going in a good direction, and he already felt that Lin Rui began to like him, why? Once back to before liberation?He wasn't so patient even when he first fell in love, why couldn't he?Could it be that Lin Rui will never be able to warm up this rock?

For the first time, he felt that he hated Haiming a little bit.He kept admonishing himself in his heart, "You can't vent your anger, you can't vent your anger, it has nothing to do with Haiming", while he drank the wine in the glass in annoyance.Then he tapped on the table, "Have another drink."

After drinking three glasses of wine, Li Tian finally began to calm down slowly. If he doesn't do the crazy thing by drinking, it won't help.Now that his mood had calmed down, he began to think about what to do.

Lin Rui is leaving at the end of the semester, so should he stop his losses in time?He doesn't want to find a PY with a time limit, since you are ruthless, I will leave.But no matter what, he still had to go back and talk to Lin Rui clearly so that they could get together and leave.

Yes, that's it! . . . .Alas, such a fart!

He can't let go. . .

Li Tian buried his face in his palms, thinking, he really failed to live up to expectations!

He knocked on the table helplessly, "Have another drink."

After receiving the wine and gulping it down, Li Tian felt a little dizzy, but his consciousness was strangely clear.He wanted to fight for one last time, just one last time.If it doesn't work this time, then give up, at least there will be no regrets.If the mountain does not come, I will go to the mountain.it's not a big deal.

Li Tian took out his wallet, took out a few banknotes and put them on the bar, nodded to the bartender, and got off the chair.When his feet first touched the ground, he wobbled, and immediately reached out to support the chair to stabilize himself.He waited for a few seconds, and when he thought it was all right, he walked out of the bar, stretched out his hand to hail a car, got in the car and reported the address to the master, then leaned his head back on the back of the chair, closed his eyes and began to draft, thinking How to say this to Lin Rui.

When he arrived at the door of the house, Li Tian took a few deep breaths, and did another mental construction,

"I'm shameless, I want Lin Rui. I'm shameless! I want Lin Rui!"

Rubbing his face, he took out the key and opened the door.

Hearing the sound of the door, Lin Rui shook violently, as if he had been awakened, he immediately looked towards the door.

As soon as Li Tian came in, he saw Lin Rui was still sitting at the dining table in the same posture as when he left, with two bowls of completely dried noodles in front of him.The bowl in front of Lin Rui hadn't been touched at all, and the water glass next to it was also full.

Li Tian thought, "Very good, I didn't eat or drink, this is the rhythm that will piss me off every minute."

Then he looked at Lin Rui's face. Lin Rui's eyes were already swollen and his nose was red, "Well, it's better. I cried for a long time. I won't stop until I'm mad."

Li Tian changed his shoes, put the keys on the shoe rack, and walked towards Lin Rui as straight as possible.

When he got closer, he found that Lin Rui's eyes were full of uneasiness, and Li Tian felt sore.

In front of Lin Rui, Li Tian pulled up a chair and sat down, "Let's talk."

As soon as Li Tian said the words, he saw Lin Rui's hands on his knees grabbing his pants tightly.He sighed inwardly, and his heart softened completely.

"Lin Rui, I only ask this question once. After you hear it clearly, you can answer after thinking about it."

Seeing that Lin Rui immediately looked at him tremblingly, as if he would faint once he heard "break up", Li Tian frowned in his heart, thinking secretly, "Why are you so nervous, you are shameless now It's me." On the surface, he said with a blank expression, saying every word,

"I'll go back to the United States with you, do you want to? A word."

Lin Rui was stunned for a moment, he thought he had heard wrong for a moment.After a long time, he finally came to his senses, hugged Li Tian, ​​and burst into tears again.

Li Tian patted him on the back lightly, "Hey, don't think I'll let you go just because you cry! You have to give me a clear explanation this time, or if you don't admit it someday, I'll find you Who will judge?"

Lin Rui hugged him tightly, and said in a crying voice, "Okay. Okay."

That night, Li Tian coaxed Lin Rui for a long time but failed to coax Lin Rui well. Instead, he continued to coax him and cried more and more, tears falling down as if he didn't want money.Until Li Tian begged for forgiveness, "Hey, Lao Lin, really, don't cry, I drank a little too much, and I feel dizzy. Pour me a glass of water, I have to lean on the sofa."

Only then did Lin Rui calm down, and hurriedly poured honey water for him.

The two drank a glass each, and both of them collapsed tiredly on the sofa and hugged each other. Li Tian didn't forget to laugh at him, "You said, I thought you were an iceberg, so I wanted to cover you up. But this is really Come on, almost drowned me again. Boy, this meal is full of gold."

With his swollen eyes, Lin Rui finally laughed out loud, without saying a word, and lay in Li Tian's arms.