It turns out that no one survives in love

This is a rare good weather. I can still see the blue sky and white clouds. The sun shines through the glass window and falls on the coffee cup in the window seat. It is warm but not too strong.It's a pity that at this moment, the two people sitting in front of the coffee table are not in the mood to appreciate such a precious scenery.

Lin Rui lowered his head, staring at the coffee cup on the table, slowly stirring the spoon with his right hand.

Haiming looked at him with mixed feelings in his heart.

The hasty side just now made him notice the tough facial lines of the other party.After ten years, the somewhat mellow but vigorous boy back then has finally transformed into the mature and steady man he is today.His eyes strayed across Lin Rui's shoulders, the thin shoulders under the thin shirt seemed to poke through the shirt, he felt sore, and his eyes returned to the top of Lin Rui's head, this person still liked him in front of him He lowered his head, revealing only the stubborn curls.

After a long time, he asked in a dry voice, "How have you been all these years?"

The stirring spoon stopped for a moment, then continued to stir again, Lin Rui heard himself say, "Okay, how about you?"

Haiming said helplessly, "I'm fine too."

Hearing the answer, Lin Rui frowned for a moment, wondering if this is just called "awkward chat."

He sat there like a shriveled wooden sculpture, and the vigor he maintained in front of others disappeared the moment he saw Haiming.Haiming is like his nemesis. Ten years ago, he removed his mask of pride and self-restraint, made him act like a middle school boy, and then suffered a crushing defeat.

When he first came to the United States, he often woke up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night, dreaming that he took off his clothes and stood in front of Haiming, but the other party did not speak, and a face with a gentle smile suddenly turned into countless pale faces surrounding him The disdain and hatred on his face were so obvious.

Later, he went to a psychotherapist and followed the other person's advice to learn to deliberately forget the other person's appearance, so that when he thinks of the name, he only thinks of a tall back.Seeing this face ten years later, he felt deep fear in his heart.

He didn't dare to look at the other party, he didn't want to see those thin lips say "the mountains are high and the water is far away, and there will be no future." He didn't want to see the other party frowning and saying, "Don't like me, I beg you."

That would make him feel that the self-confidence and confidence accumulated in the past ten years were instantly dissipated with the wind, like a fart.

The coffee was already cold, and his right hand was still stirring the spoon unconsciously, and cold sweat slowly began to ooze from his forehead.

Haiming didn't see anything wrong with him, he just thought it was awkward to see him again, and after thinking about it, he said, "You are over there, are you used to it? Studying is hard, right?"

Lin Rui suddenly felt a huge grievance without warning.

When Qin Yue asked him this question, he only felt warm and comforting, avoiding the serious and taking the light, just like treating parents.Jin Yu asked him that he could vividly talk about what he had seen and heard, and he could also tell two jokes from his own experience to enliven the atmosphere.But when Haiming asked him, he suddenly felt wronged.What is his answer?No, I don't work hard, I am happy?Still, I am very hard, but is there any way, I asked for it?

He sat there with his neck straight and blushing, not saying a word.

Haiming misunderstood what he meant, and said half coquettishly and half familiarly, "Okay, okay, my fault, I was also impulsive back then, and then I said the words of breaking up the relationship like that. But in fact, I didn't think so in my heart. Yes, I treat you as a brother. I apologize to you, forgive me?"

Lin Rui suddenly felt discouraged, angry?How could he be angry?What can you do with someone who is determined to "know nothing"?anger?Theorize with him?No, that's meaningless, what's more, the other party did nothing wrong, and it was always me who was wrong.

What's the difference between your 20s and your 30s?Two people sitting face to face always understand each other's thoughts. People in their 20s can't help but expose it, while people in their 30s can pretend to be confused with a clear mind, and then enter the play in their respective roles. Maintain each other's personality, but also praise each other in your heart when performing, "This is good!"

Lin Rui moved his left hand away from the edge of the cup, put it on his leg, pinched his leg hard, then slowly raised his head, pulled the corner of his mouth, and said calmly, "I was ignorant back then, and I caused you trouble. Troubled, I should be the one apologizing.”

Once you start telling the first lie, the next thing will be much easier. Lin Rui smiled successfully, and then asked seemingly casually, "By the way, I remember that you were going to be a civil servant back then? Why did you suddenly Did you start a consulting company?"

Haiming asked back, "Who said I should be a civil servant?"

Then, looking at Lin Rui's expression, he finally became a little surprised, and smiled with satisfaction, "The family had this idea at the time, but my personality didn't suit me. What's more, my father just wanted me to stay by his side. It’s not so persistent to do that line of work.”

As he spoke, he took a sip of coffee, and then continued to tell Lin Rui about his experience, "I stayed at McKinsey for a while after graduation, and then I came up with the idea of ​​starting my own consulting company. A friend just happened to be planning to start a business. We partnered up. Oh, by the way, Haitian's "sky" refers to him. He is in Shanghai for a meeting these days, and when he comes back, I will introduce you."

Lin Rui nodded indifferently, and thought to himself, "This is the first friend you introduced to me." Thinking of this, he felt that he was pushing an inch, and he slapped himself in his heart.

Haiming didn't know about his series of mental activities, and then asked, "So you moved back permanently?"

Lin Rui said ambiguously, "Now the plan is to teach a class for one semester. If I do this project with you now, I will inevitably come back often in the future. Who knows what will happen in the future."

Haiming nodded to express his understanding, "This is not a small decision, and we really need to think it over."

Lin Rui was staring at the pattern on the cup in a daze, but when he heard this sentence, his posture did not change, but he suddenly raised his eyes and glanced at Haiming. He thought, "It may not be an easy decision for you. But I It was that simple decision."

Haiming was stirring the coffee with his head down, and didn't see his gaze, but Lin Rui suddenly realized that his expression was too sharp now, and quickly withdrew his gaze.

The two of them sat in the coffee shop for more than two hours, chatting with each other, and the atmosphere was harmonious, but they didn't mention a single distracting question.

Lin Rui didn't ask Haiming, "Your father wanted you to start a family. You have already established a family. When did you start a family?" He noticed that Haiming didn't wear a ring. Did he already have a girlfriend?What is that girl like?I have been away for ten years, do you think of me for a moment?How do you think of me? Is it disgusting, disgusting, or pity?He didn't ask these questions, because no matter what the other party answered, he would be hurt.

Haiming also didn't ask Lin Rui, "For so many years, do you have someone reliable by your side? It is said that people will be very lonely in a foreign country, do you have any friends to accompany you?" He also wanted to ask Lin Rui, you love sweets so much, Did you eat moon cakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival, did you eat rice dumplings during the Dragon Boat Festival, and did you eat hot pot when you were greedy?But he didn't ask anything, because no matter whether he had it or not, Lin Rui had gone through this period of time alone. He didn't participate in that period of time at the beginning, and he is not qualified to ask about it now.

So the two of them only talked about the experience of struggle and the cooperation intention of the project, which was very efficient. If Zhou Yan and Haiming's partners knew about it, they should be relieved.

Because he and Haiming hadn't reunited for a long time, Zhou Yan went back to school as soon as Fu met, leaving them the opportunity to chat and reminisce about the old days.Now it's noon, originally Haiming wanted to invite Lin Rui to dinner to show the friendship of the landlord, but he had no choice but to have a meal at noon and a meeting in the afternoon, so he simply drove Haiming to P University and made an appointment to invite Lin Rui and Zhou in the evening Rock to eat together.

Lin Rui didn't make any pretentious excuses, since we met, let's settle down as soon as we come.What's more, he knows Haiming's personality too well. As long as he doesn't cross the line, Haiming will always stay in the position of good friend and good collaborator with peace of mind.And he is no longer the single-minded brat he used to be. He knows that the other party doesn't like him, and he has learned not to be delusional or forceful. Apart from being sad every time he meets, he can't see anything else. The downside is cost-performance analysis, and of course this cooperation is a win-win situation.

As for mentality. . .As for mentality, being sad can’t kill anyone, ten years have passed, why are you afraid of these few months?

Doing this mental construction, the car has already driven to the gate of P, Haiming laughed, "Hey, I miss you! At that time, I often came here to find you for dinner!"

Lin Rui hated his look of reminiscing about the past without any grievances, the mental construction he had just made collapsed immediately, and he couldn't help showing his fangs, "Yeah, I used to take a taxi all the way back from China World Trade Center to catch your dinner .” Then get out of the car calmly.

Sitting in the car, Haiming watched Lin Rui walk into the school gate without looking back, couldn't help laughing, touched the slap marks on his face that didn't exist, "Well, it's quite loud."