Nowhere to belong

But Luo Fei is still alive!A person who had been dead for three years now came back to life and stood in front of Yu Lin.

Yu Lin hugged the person in front of him tightly, the needle on the back of his hand was pulled out of shape, the blood on the infusion tube was climbing up, Yu Lin knelt on the hospital bed and pulled Luo Fei's arm, and buried his head deep in his chest , listening to his steady and powerful heartbeat.

"What horse piss do you bleed? Weeping!"

"I waited in the house alone for a week for the news that you were dead. I couldn't go to the mortuary to identify the body. I couldn't contact anyone who could break the rumor. The news on TV repeated, but for you His death is always an understatement, Luo Fei disappeared in this world! It’s not because he was too busy to come back, it’s not because he doesn’t want to go home because of a whim, it’s not because he doesn’t want to see me and he won’t come back, it’s because he will never come back again! Don’t come! No matter how similar others are to you and know you better, it’s not you. There is only one Luo Fei in this world, but Luo Fei is dead! You can’t find Luo Fei in any corner of this world!”

"Later I thought, it doesn't matter if you leave me, don't want to be with me, or even go to jail, you live well, live in a place I don't know, I can always find you again! Thank God! Luo You are alive, you are really alive, nothing else matters, I just want you to breathe the air like me in this world, and your heart beats powerfully..."

"It doesn't matter if you are a policeman, it doesn't matter if you are a gangster, it doesn't matter if you don't love me, as long as you are Luo Fei and you live well in this world, I will be happy for a long time!"

Yu Lin couldn't stop rambling on for a long time, Luo Fei didn't dare to move half a step and kept listening...

"What are you doing?" The doctor opened the door and saw a mess on the ground, the drip was pulled to the side, and the patient didn't care about his condition at all.

"Sir, the patient is currently suffering from mild pneumonia and high fever, please don't disturb the patient's rest!" He said, picking up the quilt on the ground and covering the patient on the bed, "If you can, please go out first!" The doctor He beckoned the nurse to take Luo Fei away.

I don't know if I finally felt the pain or if Luo Fei was suddenly dragged away by the doctor and felt uneasy. Yu Lin couldn't restrain the fluid from his eyes gushing out. in the ward.

Yu Lin couldn't tell the reason, and covering his eyes with his hands couldn't stop the liquid from overflowing. It might have been accumulated in his body for too long, and he couldn't hold it anymore this time.The whole room is very quiet, and I can't tell what mood I am in, happy or angry, depressed or worried?

Luo Fei is here, he is alive, even if he changed his face, and told the reason why he disappeared in the past three years, Yu Lin can firmly believe that Luo Fei can be found somewhere in this world, he also breathes the same air, standing alive In front of him, being able to speak and have a heartbeat, nothing is more important than being alive alone, Yu Lin should be happy.

It doesn't matter if you are sick, it can be treated;

It doesn't matter if the appearance is changed, Luo Fei like that is still Luo Fei;

It probably doesn't matter if he disappeared for three years, isn't he back?

He has never loved Yu Lin. Everything is Yu Lin's one-man show. It shouldn't matter, he is still alive!

"Doctor, my friend is sick. It's a mental illness. He always talks to himself, saying two names..." Yu Lin found a psychiatrist in the hospital for consultation. Talking about this to Luo Fei, he was afraid that Luo Fei would not be able to accept this fact.

However, the doctor told Yu Lin that Luo Fei had to realize his own problems, Luo Fei had to accept the facts, and only after receiving treatment could he be able to judge his mental state, and he had to be treated as soon as possible, otherwise the two personalities who lived together in the same body and did not recognize each other would interact with each other. Harm, and may even produce another brand-new third personality to reconcile contradictory personalities and recognize oneself.

Yu Lin has already seen the tit-for-tat confrontation between Luo Fei and Luo Lie. It may be because there are too many contradictions in Luo Fei, Luo Fei needs such two personalities to balance, otherwise how to tear the individual to convince the completely contradictory environment and beliefs , behavior and attitude.

Yu Lin didn't disturb his parents when he was hospitalized, and naturally only Luo Fei took care of him when he was discharged from the hospital.

"Luo Fei?" Not sure who the current state is, Yu Lin tentatively confirmed.

"Huh?" Luo Fei stared straight ahead, but leaned slightly to the right to listen to what Yu Lin had to say, and it was indeed Luo Fei now.Luo Fei is always stronger, and has been around for much longer than Luo Lie, and now Yu Lin can roughly distinguish the two.

The most intuitive thing is that Luo Lie will never say a word of foul language, while Luo Fei doesn't care about everything; Luo Lie will not do things that violate the law and discipline, and he hates people who don't follow the rules, so he also hates Luo Fei, and Luo Fei Do whatever he wants, in his eyes only what he wants to do and is willing to do, he likes to be self-centered, and hates rules and police.

"Luo Fei, do you know where Li Lie is?"

"Damn it! You care about him so much? Why didn't you see him come to pick you up and leave the hospital?" Luo Fei kept looking at the road ahead, until the car slowly stopped at the side of the road, he pinched Yu Lin's face and questioned him.

"Where is it listed?" Yu Lin directly slapped off the restraining hand, and twisted his jaw left and right to make sure there was no dislocation.

"Hmph~ He's just a coward, he just dares to hide inside and never come out. He has always been, why are you so disappointed? He won't be able to come out in the future. Luo Fei is the only one in this world!"

Luo Fei obviously knew the way of existence of Luo Lie, and hated him very much.

"Do you know you're sick?"

"Are you trying to say that I'm crazy? I'm not crazy, I'm not sick, but I don't know if Lie is sick or not."

"Luo Fei! You are also Luo Lie, and so is Luo Lie..."

"I'm not! Yu Lin, Luo Lie won't have a chance to come out again! I used to always hide behind others, but this time it's his turn, isn't it fair? Isn't the fucking talking about fairness and justice every day? The police couldn’t catch me, so they locked me in a dark room. I’ve had enough of these years! My time limit for punishment has expired! It’s him who ruined everything about me. He sentenced him to death, all the trust I had accumulated was turned into ashes, and even my name Luo Fei would be erased from this reality by him, and I would pay the price for what I did. Jing? Is he the hero those hypocritical cops talk about?"

Luo Fei took the cigarettes in Yu Lin's car, and after a while the smoke began to fill the car, Yu Lin was choked up and coughed, and even opened the window, but it didn't help, so he suddenly took a few deep breaths of cold air outside the window, and felt that the cold air was coming straight to him. Getting into the clothes, I couldn't help shivering.Looking back, Luo Fei had already opened the car window on his side, and the cigarette in his hand was gone.

"He relied on me for everything, and in the end he put all the crimes on me? Look, it's only been three years, so what if he has a riding bamboo? There are many associations on the road that want to fight for the top. , the days of peace will not be too long. Everyone knows that Luo Fei is a traitor. As soon as I come out, I will be chopped into meat paste by the people on the road. Those people sitting in the restaurant, who? Who can keep me? Except the file There is the record of that idiot, where is he? Humph! It still says my name, Luo Fei! But that undercover Luo Fei is dead! No one will admit to Luo Lie!"

"Even if I don't control this body, Luo Lie won't dare to appear in front of you. I said he is a coward!"

"Okay! Luo Fei, if this continues, you will not only be using this body with Lie, your condition will worsen, a new personality will appear, and it will become more and more serious! Let's see a doctor, shall we? "Yu Lin seemed to be able to understand Luo Fei's hatred for Luo Lie, as if he had strangled everything about Luo Fei, obliterated everything about Luo Fei.

This indirectly caused Luo Fei to disappear from this world, and also made Yu Lin grieve for three years.Yu Lin can't imagine how Luo Lie spent eight years living among a group of people completely different from himself, gradually gaining their trust, gradually living like Luo Fei, without a friend, without a family, in loneliness Step by step approaching the center of the community.For this reason, how many things he has to do against his will, how much suspicion and suffering he has to endure, but all the trust won by blood and sweat fighting back to back will eventually face betrayal and betrayal.

Presumably, the pretentiousness of the past has become a deep-rooted habit by now. How can the righteous and dignified Lie bear it, and how can the righteous Luo Fei, who regards freedom as the top priority, bear the accusation of a traitor?

But he can't say these things, Luo Fei is always Luo Lie, and Luo Lie is Luo Fei!

"You want Luo Lie back?"

"No, I just want you to be cured!"

"Since you don't want him to come back, as long as I kill him, I will be the only one left. Wouldn't my illness be cured?"

"Luo Fei, can you really do it? You hate Luo Lie so much, if you can, why is he always there? You need a doctor!" Yu Lin didn't dare to judge lightly, he is not a doctor.

"Little Yu'er, you've become smarter! The two of us do coexist. I can't kill his existence, and he can't squeeze me away, but I think I'm getting stronger. From being suppressed to sharing with him now. A body, I feel that he can't find the meaning of existence! It is true that he finally perceives my existence is an improvement, but he can't get over your barrier! I don't need a doctor!"

"But······"

"Okay! Yu Lin, you are Yu Shuangmu. I believe it from the beginning to the end, but he doesn't believe it. He is not qualified to face you. I will make him disappear! Let's go home, it's cold outside!"

Yu Lin didn't say anything else, just glanced at the nearby hospital. There was no rush for this matter. If he didn't want to receive treatment, it would be useless and he could only wait for the list.