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Su Qinghan sat on the plane for more than ten hours with a feverish mind, and when he arrived at the Ottawa airport, he realized that he hadn't prepared anything and didn't know what to do next.

Looking at the empty and unfamiliar airport, she bit her lip, thought for a while, and dialed Lin Xi's cell phone number.

She didn't dare to call Lin Mu directly yet, so she had to talk to Lin Xi first.

Lin Xi was both surprised and delighted by her behavior. She was shocked on the other end of the phone for several seconds before she realized it. She was efficient and immediately arranged for a local driver to take Su Qinghan to where Lin Mu was.

"I asked. Xiao Mu is still entertaining clients at the moment. I'll give you an address. You can go directly to the hotel to find her." Lin Xi told Su Qinghan the information she had just asked about Lin Mu's assistant, and smiled for her The friend cheered, "Xiaomu will be very happy to see you."

Heaven pays off, Xiao Mu finally waited.

Lin Xi was sincerely happy for the two of them.

Su Qinghan hung up the phone, looking out the car window with a somewhat complicated expression, her fingers twisted together revealed her restless mood at the moment, she pursed her lips, and let out a deep breath.

At the thought of seeing Lin Mu soon, her heart pounded with nervousness.

At the same time, her mind was also very messed up. She admitted that such a decision was just a result of a momentary fever and adrenaline rush. She didn't have time to think about the consequences, so she came here recklessly.

But when she actually got here, the city where Lin Mu lived since childhood, she was a little timid.

She didn't know how Lin Mu would react when he saw her.

Is it like the ecstasy in Lin Xi's mouth, or the disgust and revulsion shown after the shock? After all, according to common sense, no one will maintain their original mood after experiencing such heartless and cruel breakup remarks.

If Lin Mu saw that expression in her eyes, Su Qinghan didn't even dare to think about it. When he thought about it, it would be heart-piercing pain and pain, and it would be the boundless darkness and abyss.

But who can blame this?

All of this is a product of her own making.

It was she who cut off all the feelings between the two with her own hands. It was she who cut the deepest bloodstain on the heart of the person who loved her deeply. It was her own hands that snuffed out Lin Mu's eyes looking at her. a flame of hope.

Once a person detours into a dead end, he can't see the situation he is in at all, but once he detours out, he will see very clearly some of the things he has done.

At this moment, when Su Qinghan looked back on everything in the past, she only felt that her heart was tightly grasped, numb and aching, with endless remorse, as if the dark night outside the car window enveloped her heart.

How on earth did she treat her?

Thinking of the difficulties at work in the company when we just met again, the unscrupulous indifference, sarcasm and moodiness; thinking of the out-of-control possession and taking of the drunken night, the teasing and insulting the next day; thinking of the slap in the court; thinking of the nervous disorder The torment and injury that I didn't realize were real; when I thought of the day in the hospital, I was as resolute and indifferent as poison.

Those memories, even when I looked at them, were extremely desperate and chilling memories. Obviously, apart from the so-called love, everything was hurt. How did that person bear it silently without saying a word?

Suddenly, Lin Muqing's cold and indifferent gaze, the faint smile on his lips, and the unique loving and expressive tone when calling her name came to mind.

Along the way, she seems to have been tolerant of all her unreasonable troubles, her so-called hatred and revenge.

"Qing Han, I will always protect you, unless I die."

The youthful and immature promise, that tenacious and persistent woman like a severe cold pine, has been using her thin and thin shoulders to resist all the storms for her, and has been doing her best to guard that promise.

She never changed.

It was her who changed, her suspicion, timidity and cowardice, so that she was finally missed.

No matter what the outcome is, no matter whether she rejects her or ignores her, she must go and keep her, try once, desperately, without asking about the past, without thinking about the future, and only focus on pursuing the person she loves with all her heart.

She has made up her mind.

When they arrived at the hotel, Su Qinghan asked the driver to park the car on the side of the street, and got out of the car to find Lin Mu. For the reunion of the two, Su Qinghan imagined countless scenarios on the plane.

However, she never thought of this.

Lin Mu was at the entrance of the hotel, supported by a waiter. Her face was flushed and her steps were sloppy, obviously drunk, but even so, she still tried her best to keep her body straight, pushing and shoving the waiter, rejecting strangers. people's approach.

The waiter looked very helpless, he didn't dare to approach, and he didn't dare to just leave the customer and leave, so he had to stand at a very close distance. Vomit.

The lights at night are very bright, just like daytime. The winter in Ottawa is not as cold as in the south of the country.

And she was standing there, with a half hunched body, a thin and slender figure, hidden in the shadow of the halo cast by the street lamp.

Abnormal loneliness and depression.

Su Qinghan's tears just fell down like no one else, there was no need for emotional exaggeration at all, as soon as she saw her, the lacrimal glands were like a conditioned reflex, hot teardrops fell drop by drop on the snow, melting circle after circle Circle of snow.

She had never seen Lin Mu in such a distraught manner.

She should always be, in memory, that calm and gentle appearance, how could it be, how could it be... like now, so frustrated, so desperate and humble, like a loser!

Su Qinghan found that Lin Mu's fragility stimulated her far more than her stubbornness and perseverance. It was as if she put her scarred heart into a hot oil pan and repeated Ling Chi's love with Ling Chi over and over again. tortured.

Lin Mu's legs went limp, and her bewildered and chaotic brain had no sense of defense at all. In the bewilderment, she thought she was about to touch the cold and hard earth, but unexpectedly, she fell into a familiar and warm embrace.

The bosom has a rich and fresh breath, it is a taste that makes people indulge in obsession, and it is the temperature that she knows so well and wants to get close to.

Is that you, Qing Han?

In fact, Lin Mu doesn't drink often. On the one hand, drinking is a mistake, even though she has a good capacity for alcohol. On the other hand, her stomach disease does not allow her to drink often. is a difficult thing.

But tonight is different, tonight, she doesn't want to bear it anymore.

Tonight is exactly one year since the farewell that night.

So, get rid of his restraint, get rid of his patience, get rid of his body, she just wants to get drunk, to forget those desperate and painful memories, forget those cruel and indifferent memories.

Before the waiter could catch up, Su Qinghan rushed over, picked up the fallen Lin Mu, locked her tightly in his arms, and hugged her tightly with all his strength.

Su Qinghan glanced at the stunned waiter with a livid face, and said coldly: "Leave her to me, you can go."

After speaking, he picked up Lin Mu, carried her all the way back to the car, carefully placed her on the car seat, and then sat beside her, leaning her head gently on his shoulder.

Su Qinghan watched Lin Mu sleep soundly with his eyes closed, looking so peaceful, but his eyes were sore and astringent uncontrollably.

She noticed it the first time she saw her. She hadn't seen her for a year, and she almost lost weight again. Her appearance was not so extreme because of the cover of the large suit, but when she was hugged, she could feel it personally. I saw how thin she was, her cheeks were deeply sunken, her protruding ribs were painful, and her slender arms seemed to be broken by the slightest wind. When held in her arms, she could hardly feel the weight of an adult.

Su Qinghan was very angry, angry that this person always thought about others so much, but often forgot to take care of himself, but after the anger, there was more distress and self-blame.

If it wasn't for her, how could she be what she is today?

Thinking of this, Su Qinghan hugged Lin Mu tightly, and the person in his arms seemed to feel her breath, and unconsciously shrank back into her arms. Su Qinghan couldn't help crying again after seeing such a move.

Fortunately, you did not contradict me.

Fortunately, I can still hug you like this.

The driver took them to the small villa where Lin Mu often lived. Su Qinghan thanked the driver, carried Lin Mu back home, opened the door, the lights turned on automatically, and the heating started. Su Qinghan hugged Lin Mu and wanted to go to the bedroom , when walking through the living room, suddenly kicked a ball of furry objects.

Su Qinghan looked down suspiciously, and saw the snow-white little rabbit staring at her with red eyes, as if expressing his dissatisfaction with being kicked.

Is this raised by Lin Mu?

Su Qinghan didn't have time to think too much, so she went straight to the bedroom. Her first task now is to settle Lin Mu well, and I'll talk about other things later.

Finally arrived at the bedroom, Su Qinghan gently put Lin Mu on the bed, reached out and touched her forehead, fortunately, it wasn't hot, she didn't have a fever, Su Qinghan breathed a sigh of relief, looked at her slightly flushed face, long eyelashes Like a small fan, trembling slightly, Su Qinghan's heart moved, and he couldn't help touching her cheek, and brushed her messy hair to her ear.

After staring at her for a long time, Su Qinghan came back to his senses and remembered that he should make hangover tea for her and wipe his body with a towel, so that he would be more comfortable when he woke up the next day.

She thought again in a trance that Lin Mu seemed to be taking care of her all the time, and she had very little experience of taking care of Lin Mu.

Feeling pain in her heart, Su Qinghan was about to turn around and leave reluctantly, when her right hand was grabbed, Su Qinghan's footsteps stopped, and when she turned her head, she saw Lin Mu holding her hand.

"Don't go..." Lin Mu closed his eyes tightly, frowned slightly, and his pale lips moved slightly. Su Qinghan couldn't hear clearly, so he bent down and approached her, trying to hear what she was saying, but Lin Mu's voice was still so gentle Clear, because of the drunkenness, the usual clearness is a little more hoarse and fragile.

This time she heard clearly, she heard her say: "Don't leave me...Qing Han..."

"Please……"

Su Qinghan was startled. At that moment, her throat seemed to be choked. She couldn't say a word. Her heart suddenly ached beyond borders. Sour and crystal clear tears once again filled her eyes.

Lin Mu was still murmuring unconsciously, but his voice gradually became softer, but he still refused to let go of the hand he was holding.

Only when she was drunk and groaning like this, would she reveal the most vulnerable side of her heart, and she would subconsciously say those things that she dared not say when she was sober, and beg her so humblely not to leave .

It suddenly occurred to her mind that on the night of parting, Lin Mu looked at her eyes for the last time, which was obviously unusually hot, affectionate and reluctant, but in the next second, all emotions faded away, and she opened her mouth, wanting to say something What, but in the end, she still didn't say anything.

Because she knew that keeping her would make things difficult for her, but how could she be willing to make things difficult for her.

What a gentle person she is, gentle and forbearing, so forbearing that it makes people feel distressed.

Su Qinghan was finally defeated, she didn't want any face or shame, she hugged Lin Mu tightly, sobbing out of breath, while confessing: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... I will never leave you again, I will never leave you again..."

After crying for a long time, Su Qinghan stopped. Her legs were a little weak, but she still endured and went to the kitchen. Following the steps on the phone, she hurriedly cooked a bowl of hangover soup.

After cooking, she poured the soup into a bowl and put it on the sink to cool for a while. She went to the bathroom to get a towel, wet it, and went to the bedroom to gently wipe Lin Mu's cheeks, neck and arms. , she took a sip of hangover soup, the temperature was just right, then gently lifted Lin Mu, let her lean in her arms, and carefully fed her to drink.

But Lin Mu gritted her teeth tightly and refused to drink. The soup flowed down the corner of her mouth and wet the clothes on her chest.

Su Qinghan had no choice but to change her clothes again, went to the kitchen and poured another bowl, sat by the bed, looked at Lin Mu's thin and dry lips, Su Qinghan's mind moved, took a sip of hangover soup, and lowered her head to Lin Mu's. Mu's soft lips, she resisted the heat on her face and the shyness in her heart, stretched out her small tongue, pressed against Lin Mu's teeth, slowly licked her teeth, and lightly traced her lips Lip shape.

Lin Mu frowned, and subconsciously loosened his jaw. The warm and slightly astringent liquid flowed down Su Qinghan's mouth into Lin Mu's mouth, and Lin Mu swallowed it subconsciously.

Only then did Su Qinghan heave a sigh of relief, reluctantly left her soft and sweet lips, and fed the rest of the hangover soup to Lin Mu spoon by spoon.

After finishing everything, she took the bowl and spoon out of the bedroom, and lay down on the sofa a little tired. Only today did she realize that taking care of others is not an easy task.

Su Qinghan suddenly heard a slap at her feet, and Su Qinghan lowered her head, and found that it was still the little white rabbit, biting her trousers.

Are you hungry?

Su Qinghan looked around, found the rabbit feed under the coffee table in the living room, and found the rabbit's cot and bowl in the corner, poured some feed into the bowl, and the little white rabbit buried himself in the food.

The fluffy ears turned towards Su Qinghan. It was so cute that Su Qinghan couldn't help but patted its head.

When I touched it, I suddenly remembered that scene.

When she was in college, Lin Mu especially liked to touch her head, and said to her with a smile, "It's so cute, it really looks like a little white rabbit."

At that time, she dodged Lin Mu's hand in dissatisfaction, and shouted at Lin Mu angrily: "I'm not a little white rabbit!"

Lin Mu smiled without saying a word.

That was such a distant memory, so far away that Su Qinghan almost forgot it.

Her eyes became deeper, watching the rabbit's eyes soften, mixed with a bit of love and distress, she murmured to herself in a low voice:

"Are you the one who stays with her when I'm not around?"

After settling the little white rabbit, Su Qinghan went to the bathroom to tidy herself up again, because she came in a hurry and didn't bring any clothes, so she could only wrap up in a bathrobe, quietly came to Lin Mu's bedroom, and opened the closet , I want to find a piece of clothing to change into.

On the innermost floor of the closet, Su Qinghan saw a few familiar styles. They didn't look like Lin Mu's style, but rather... She took them out curiously, but suddenly found that they were in college. When living with Lin Mu, the clothes left at her house for convenience.

The clothes still have the fragrance of laundry detergent, obviously washed frequently.

Su Qinghan's hand holding the clothes tightened suddenly.

Did she always carry it with her from home to abroad?

Do you keep an expectation and wait for her arrival, or do you want to keep a piece of thoughts related to her?

No matter which one it was, it made Su Qinghan feel distressed and apologetic.

She found a pair of pajamas to change into, and gently climbed onto the bed. Since she had just washed her hands and feet were still cold, she tried her best to stay away from Lin Mu, not wanting to make him cold.

However, as if sensing her aura, Lin Mu turned over and hugged her tightly. His warm body dispelled the coldness all at once. Su Qinghan wanted to avoid her embrace, but found that she was hugging her very tightly. , can't break free at all.

Her breathing was right next to her ears, as always, so reassuring.

I remember a long time ago, in winter, Su Qinghan had always had cold hands and feet. Every time after taking a bath, she would shrink into Lin Mu's arms to keep warm, and put her hands into her clothes like a prank. He had a helpless look on his face, but he never pushed her away. Instead, he hugged her even tighter, wrapped her cold little hands with his warm palm, and smiled dotingly at her.

From then on, it became a habit. Every winter when she was sleeping, Su Qinghan always lay in Lin Mu's arms, unwilling to come out.

Until now, she still remembers this habit.

In the silent darkness, Su Qinghan's eyes moistened again.

Her love is everywhere and never changes.

And she, what virtue and ability, is worthy of her love.

After sleeping in such a hug all night, Su Qinghan woke up very early, raised her body slightly and looked at Lin Mu who was still sleeping, kissed her fair cheek again, and then got up lightly.

After washing up, he opened the refrigerator, took out bacon and eggs, and wanted to make a hearty breakfast.

At the same time, Lin Mu also woke up leisurely. She had a severe headache and a faint pain in her stomach. She drank too much wine and didn't eat anything last night. Her old illness had relapsed.

She stayed on the bed for a long time, remembering last night in a trance, she vaguely remembered that before she fainted last night, it seemed that a warm embrace caught her, and that person took her home again, wiped her body, and fed her Hangover Soup took good care of her.

What was even more unbelievable was that that embrace looked very much like Su Qinghan.

Thinking of this, Lin Mu couldn't help laughing at himself, did he miss her too much recently?Even dreams are so realistic.

Realistically, as if it really existed.

But it was a dream after all, after waking up from the dream, she would return to this cruel and indifferent real world after all, and continue to live after all.

We can't go on like this, otherwise we will really go insane, Lin Mu warned himself.

I really can't drink anymore.

Lin Mu sighed, she was exhausted and weak, but she still struggled to stand up, there was a social engagement this afternoon, so she couldn't lie down anymore, didn't work on weekends?She has no weekends for a long time, only countless jobs and entertainments, other than that, she really can't find the meaning of living.

She took a shower, washed off the stickiness from last night, casually tied her hair in a bun, and pushed open the bedroom door, but unexpectedly heard movement in the kitchen.

Is the housekeeping aunt here?But at this point in time, she should not have come yet, is it early?

Lin Muzheng was wondering, when he raised his head, he saw Su Qinghan holding a basin and looking at her with some helplessness.

In the air, there is still a faint aroma of food wafting.

Is this a dream?

Is she still awake?

If this is a dream, can she never wake up again.

The moment Su Qinghan opened the door, her heart was so nervous that it rose to her throat. When she turned around, she saw Lin Mu staring straight at her. In her eyes, it seemed as if she had traveled through thousands of mountains and rivers. Layers upon layers, folds of time, she looked at her so deeply, with complexities in her eyes that she couldn't understand, without blinking, as if she was confirming whether she was really here.

Su Qinghan's hand holding the basin trembled uncontrollably. She put the basin on the dining table, gathered her fingers together, and tightly grasped the edge of the wooden dining table, as if she wanted to use this to gain some strength.

"I, I'm back...do you...do you still want me?" She had so many things she wanted to say to her, so many things she wanted to explain to her, but when thousands of words came to her lips, they became After saying such a sentence, even Su Qinghan didn't know why he said such a sentence.

But once the words have been spoken, it will be difficult to undo it. Su Qinghan lowered his head and braced himself, waiting for Lin Mu's response.

After a long time, like a century, Lin Mu didn't respond, and the air seemed to be still. The anxiety and fear in Su Qinghan's heart grew bigger and bigger. She didn't know what Lin Mu's silence meant. She was afraid of the result in her mind.

Unable to bear it any longer, Su Qinghan raised her head, and she saw Lin Mu standing there stiffly, still watching her silently as she did ten minutes ago, the only thing that changed was the corners of her eyes , came out a touch, very light red.

With the passage of time, the blush gradually deepened and spread all the way to the eye sockets. Lin Muhong looked at her with water in his eyes, but it didn't go down for a long time.

All Su Qinghan's uneasiness and fear disappeared, replaced by heartache and guilt. She obviously hadn't shed tears yet, but she felt that the tears that were lingering in her eyes were like hot magma , drop by drop, all fell close to her heart.

A burning pain spread deep in his heart.

Su Qinghan clutched her chest and was about to walk over, wanting to hug the person who made her worry, but Lin Mu took a step ahead of her and strode over. It was obvious that the distance between them was only a few meters, but Su Qinghan felt that she It seems to have traveled thousands of rivers and mountains.

At this moment, the person who took the first step was still Lin Mu.

Su Qinghan only felt that her heart was sore and numb, and she almost lost consciousness from the pain. Her tears burst out again, and she couldn't stop. The next second she cried bitterly, she felt that her whole body was being embraced forcefully. Yes, that familiar and warm embrace.

The embrace that she once had, missed, and now has again.

The beauty lost and found again is always joyful and joyful, making people do not know what to do.

That person's voice was as warm and clear as ever, and it was different from before. At this moment, there was some uncontrollable happiness and smile.

She whispered in her ear: "Welcome home, Qinghan."

Where you are, is my eternal harbor.

After so many years, I hold you tightly again.

Finish.

The author has something to say:

It's finally over, Sahua~

This is the first article I wrote. It is jerky and crude. The text has a total of more than [-] characters. In fact, I didn’t intend to write that much. After writing, it is what it is today. I am really moved.

Thank you friends for your support, dear friends who are willing to leave a message for collection, if it is not for your support, you may not be able to write now.

There will be an extra episode, I will probably write some sweet daily routines to make up for some lack of text, there should be a car (//▽//) (but let me brew it), and it will be posted on Weibo as usual, follow-up There will be an announcement, and if you have anything else you want to see and any regrets, you can leave a message and tell me, I will consider writing it.

The update time is uncertain, let me delay for a few days, and I will go on a trip in two days.

Finally, I would like to wish you all a happy National Day~