guardian gl

At the beginning of the next year, Su's annual income was very good. Su Qinghan gave all the employees annual leave as a reward. In fact, the reason was also because she wanted to go out for a walk to refresh her mood.

She chose a self-driving tour in a water town not far from Songqi City. There are not many people, but it is very clean. She likes this kind of atmosphere very much. It is not as noisy and noisy as in the city.

Booked an antique hotel-style inn online, went out for a walk during the day, had dinner at night, went back to the room to take a shower, Su Qinghan came to the open lobby of the inn, and there was a beach outside the lobby.

The weather in early spring is still a bit cold, but it is not as biting as the cold wind in winter. There are many people gathered on the beach in the evening, there are children chasing and playing, and there are couples snuggling together and looking into the distance At sunset, time has encountered the slow pace of life here, and it seems to have stopped in a hurry.

Slow down, there is also a kind of beauty.

Su Qinghan leaned on the wooden railing, facing the sea breeze, staring at the lively people in the distance, but his mind drifted to another time and space.

I remember one time when she asked Lin Mu what her ideal life would be like in the future. Lin Mu put down the book in his hand and said to her seriously: "Choose a city to die in old age, and meet someone with a white head."

"I've already chosen the city and the people. Would you like to come with me?" Her bright black eyes seemed to crush the sun's rays, and she looked at her seriously and intently, with only her reflection in her eyes.

"What if I say, don't want to?" At that time, Su Qinghan loved to play, just to tease her intentionally.

Lin Mu hooked the corners of his mouth, rushed forward and pressed her under him, then leaned over to her ear deliberately, his scorching breath hit her ear, causing a tingling shudder, her warm voice was a little magnetic , there was an unstoppable smile in the crooked eyebrows, "But you can't escape."

Memories are always fresh and beautiful, but reality is always real and cruel.

Su Qinghan frowned and looked at the distance intently, with unresolved melancholy and loss in her heart.

"Anything on your mind?" A woman walked towards Su Qinghan, leaned aside to strike up a conversation with her familiarly, she was wearing a long skirt, the skirt was blown by the wind, and she looked so fluttering, the woman seemed to have reached a certain age , but it is well maintained, and every gesture is inseparable.

Su Qinghan recognized her, she was the proprietress of this inn.

"Is it emotional?" Seeing that Su Qinghan didn't speak, the proprietress didn't care.

Su Qinghan was surprised by her glance, and nodded slightly.

"You don't have to be surprised. I came here alone, depressed, probably because of love." The proprietress's bright red lips looked unusually coquettish under the night, "I am older than you. I have opened this inn for many years. See you If there are more people, they will naturally see it more clearly than ordinary people.”

"If you don't mind, you can tell me your story. You can rest assured that your story is with me, just like changing sea water. It ebbs and flows and disappears in the blink of an eye."

Maybe it's because the atmosphere tonight is too good, maybe it's hard to vent the depression that has been going on for a long time, or maybe it's the stranger's proprietress who made Su Qinghan let go of her worries and guards, and she actually told her all the troubles and annoyances.

The proprietress listened patiently and earnestly, and did not speak until Su Qinghan finished speaking: "It's a great honor to be able to listen to your story."

"Actually, as an outsider, I shouldn't comment on and question your choice. But out of my own experience, I still want to ask you, have you ever asked her how she feels?"

Su Qinghan was startled.

"You keep saying that you don't want to drag her down, don't want her to be hurt again, but have you asked her about her choice?"

"Have you asked her, do you think this is a drag?"

Seeing Su Qinghan's contemplative expression, the proprietress sighed, she was bored alone, she would never get out of a dead end, she hesitated for a while, and then said: "Actually, before I married my husband, there was a Three marriages."

Shocked, Su Qinghan looked at her dumbfounded.

The proprietress faced the sea breeze, her side face looked soft and beautiful in the halo, she slowly told her story: "My first two husbands both passed away due to illness, and after the third husband married me, the company went bankrupt. , agreed to a divorce with me."

"People say that I am Kefu, that I am a disaster star, and no one will end well with me. I thought so too until I met him."

"He treated me very well and never believed those rumors. He loved me without hesitation. He even insisted on marrying me despite the obstruction and opposition of his family and relatives. But I was afraid, I flinched, and I dared not marry him Together, I am afraid that I will drag him down."

"And then?" Su Qinghan saw herself in her story and asked eagerly.

"Then he swore by cutting his wrists that he would not marry unless I was the only one. After waking up, no one dared to oppose him, including me." In Su Qinghan's shocked expression, the landlady's smile was a bit bitter. The past that had been silent for a long time, Thinking about it now still has lingering fears.

"I've been with him for so many years, and the past seems like a lifetime ago. I used to think that I would drag him down and hurt him, but in fact, escaping itself is a huge harm."

"He once told me that what he is most afraid of is not life and death, not rumors from outsiders, nor the so-called drag and hurt, but my retreat, the ending of not being able to be with me."

The proprietress smiled very gently, and in that kind of tenderness, there was pride in her lover, "So, I still lost to him in the end, instead of running away and retreating, I might as well stay by his side, whether it is heaven or hell, life and death depend on each other. "

"Now it seems that we are living very well, don't we?"

After finishing speaking, the landlady's eyes fell on Su Qinghan, and her eyes were somewhat meaningful.

Su Qinghan understood what she meant, but still avoided her eyes, "We are different."

She knew that the proprietress was using her own story to persuade herself, but, but, she still couldn't make up her mind and muster up the courage, she was still too timid.

"I know that no one's experience is exactly the same." The proprietress looked at Su Qinghan patiently and lovingly. She liked her very much. From the first sight, maybe her breath was too similar to her in the past, so, She understands her difficulty, and at the same time, she wants to help her more than anyone else.

"But different routes lead to the same goal, don't you? Don't wait until something irreversible happens in the end to regret it."

Su Qinghan's face turned pale all of a sudden, and the proprietress couldn't bear it anymore, she knew that she might be pushing too hard, she had experienced too much herself, and she especially didn't want her to take another detour, so she felt urgent for a while.

"Sorry, I talked too much. As compensation, I will accompany you to take a stroll around this town tomorrow. Don't think about anything, just enjoy the journey, how about it?" The proprietress patted her on the shoulder and suggested.

Su Qinghan nodded, knowing that the other party was doing it for her own good, so why would she mind?She just hated herself, hated herself for being so timid and escaping, "Thank you, lady boss."

While talking, the wind chime at the gate of the inn rang, and a tall and handsome man walked in, holding some vegetables and food in one hand, and a bouquet of flowers in the other, smiling gently at them.

The proprietress's eyes lit up immediately, and her smile became brighter and more charming. She apologized to Su Qinghan and said, "Have a good rest, and I will take you to play tomorrow." Su Qinghan smiled and said it was okay, and she hurried to the man's side, complaining : "Why do you buy flowers again?"

While talking, he took it over, and the happiness and joy in his eyes were all satisfied.

The man just looked at her tenderly and smiled without speaking.

They looked so happy, so right, as if they had never experienced any disasters or troubles, but Su Qinghan saw the hideous scar on the wrist that the man half-hidden in his sleeve.

"Don't wait until something irreversible happens in the end to regret it."

Su Qinghan suddenly felt an indescribable fear, like a curled and swollen vine, tightly locked her heart. She turned over and over while holding the phone, and finally, she still didn't have the courage to dial the number.

Stumbling back to the room, he fell into the soft bed and hugged the pillow tightly, as if he wanted to find a little bit of warmth and comfort.

The next day, the proprietress took Su Qinghan for a good tour of the town as promised. With the authentic tour guide and company, the journey was naturally much easier and more enjoyable. She and the proprietress hit it off and became friends soon.

When Su Qinghan returned to Songqi City, he was still a little bit reluctant, after all, it was rare to find such a close friend.

"Xiao Su, come back to play next time when you have time, and keep in touch with your mobile phone when you get back. Be careful on the way." The proprietress took several boxes of local specialties and asked Su Qinghan to take them back.

"Well, sister, I'll see you another day." In just two days, they were already considered sisters.

"Be brave, sister supports you." Before leaving, the proprietress approached Su Qinghan and whispered something to her.

Su Qinghan nodded silently, and saw the proprietress and his wife cuddling together in the rearview mirror of the car, his eyes became deeper and deeper.

I hope that one day, you can also have the courage to pursue happiness like you.

The days passed quickly, and it was autumn again in a blink of an eye. The yellow leaves were withered, the cool wind was blowing, and my eyes were full of golden and rich scenery. Before I knew it, nearly a year had passed.

Su's performance is getting better and better. It can be said that it is thriving. Su Qinghan is also one of the top entrepreneurs in Songqi City. He is interviewed and appearing on TV more and more times, and more and more people are pursuing him. .

At a fundraising reception, Su Qinghan just rejected the confession of her admirer, feeling a little disturbed, turned around, and saw Lin Xi and Xu Wan coming, a little surprised, but after thinking about it, it's not surprising that Lin Xi was already Song Qi He is a successful person, and Xu Wanlai is the chief physician of a well-known tertiary hospital, so he is naturally also invited.

Due to Lin Mu's relationship, Su Qinghan hadn't contacted these two for a long time.

This time the situation was a little different. Su Qinghan saw that Lin Xi and Xu Wanlai were very close together, as if they were unscrupulous lovers. Lin Xi brushed Xu Wanlai's hair and parted the loose hair. After reaching behind her ear, he quickly kissed her. Dr. Xu, who was always restrained and serious, blushed all over his face at this time, and hit Lin Xi reproachfully, but Lin Xi smiled without hesitation. With pride and cunning.

Su Qinghan stood there in shock.

At first I thought I was overthinking it, but now, it seems that this is really the case.

At this moment, the two noticed her direct gaze, and walked towards her together.

"You..." Su Qinghan looked at the two of them in disbelief.

"We are together." Lin Xi said seriously, holding Xu Wanlai's hand firmly.

"I thought you..." Su Qinghan hesitated to speak to Xu Wanlai. She thought that Xu Wanlai liked Lin Mu. After all, the way she looked at her was so gentle and admiring.

She even thought that Lin Mu liked Xu Wanlai a little bit, maybe the two of them would be together.

Although she was very unwilling and felt extremely sad when she thought about it, she had to admit that Dr. Xu was a very good woman.

She had thought about it so deeply, but the reality turned out to be like this.

"I used to like Xiao Mu, but she rejected me." Xu Wanlai said frankly, and smiled at Lin Xi, the knot in her heart has been resolved, and naturally there is no need to avoid taboos and worries about the past.

Su Qinghan was speechless for a moment.

I don't know why, when she heard the phrase "she rejected me", she felt very sad in her heart.

Lin Xi glanced at Xu Wanlai, who nodded to express his understanding, so the doctor politely greeted Su Qinghan: "I'll go over there and have a look, you two talk first."

He walked away, leaving only Lin Xi and Su Qinghan behind.

Seeing Su Qinghan's pensive expression, Lin Xi sighed, and as he did a long time ago, he took her arm and suggested, "Qinghan, let's have a drink together."

The two came to the bar in the hotel. Because the fundraising reception was reserved, the bar was relatively quiet. In fact, Lin Xi and Su Qinghan had been good friends for the past five years, and they talked almost everything, but because of concealment Because of Lin Mu's identity, the two are not as close as before, but they still retain the tacit understanding between friends.

They all love bars.

Like old friends, they exchanged pleasantries, and then the atmosphere became a little awkward. Su Qinghan glanced at Lin Xi who was drinking, hesitated and hesitated, and couldn't help but said: "Is... is she okay?"

Needless to say the name, both of them knew who this she was referring to.

Now that the topic was raised, Lin Xi put away her playful side and put on a serious expression. Looking at Su Qinghan, she replied, "She's not good."

These three words, like a bomb, exploded all the indifference and indifference that Su Qinghan had tried so hard to pretend. She thought that she would almost not care about it for so long, but now, it is so easy to collapse. The high wall built in her heart.

Su Qinghan only felt that her whole heart was pulled, worry, distressed, and at a loss, these emotions poured into her mind, making her almost stand up and hold Lin Xi's shoulders, and asked her loudly about Lin Xi's problems. What happened to Twilight.

"Although on the surface, she is still the same as before, even better than before. She has taken over the family business and managed the company well. She will go home on weekends to visit her aunt and uncle and have dinner with them. Will also send me an email to tell how she is doing."

"In front of people, she smiled so decently, without any flaws, and tried her best to pretend that she was living a happy life." Lin Xi looked straight at Su Qinghan, as if she wanted to see something from her.

"But, Qinghan, do you know? She is not happy at all. There is no happiness and joy in her eyes! She is just pretending to be happy, pretending that she is having a good life, let us not worry."

Thinking of Lin Mu, Lin Xi's eyes were full of pity and helplessness, so she couldn't help it anymore, took Su Qinghan's hands, and asked again sincerely: "Qinghan, I know that Xiao Mu used to have There are many things that are wrong, but, can you really not give her another chance? Do you really have no feelings for her at all in your heart? If this continues, I'm really afraid that she will become depressed. "

On Su Qinghan's face, she could no longer pretend that she was indifferent and indifferent. She covered her forehead with her hands, and tightly pinched her palms with her hands under the table, full of pain and sorrow.

After bidding farewell to Lin Xi, Su Qinghan drove away in the car. Instead of going home immediately, she parked the car beside a secluded street, took off her seat belt, opened the window, and burst into tears uncontrollably. stand up.

She couldn't help crying, as if she wanted to shed all the tears she had shed in the past year. The cool autumn wind blew across her cheeks. Her face was covered with tear stains, her hair was messy, and her makeup was all gone. , looked extremely embarrassed, but she didn't want to take care of anything, she just wanted to have a good cry.

She was too sad and in too much pain. Abandoning her beloved was like cutting off a piece of flesh abruptly. The wound never healed, and as time went by, it festered and hurt even more.

Why, Lin Mu, why I walked away long ago, but you still stayed where you were.

What do you want me to do with you like this.

Being close to you will hurt you, leaving you will make you sad, what should I do to you.

Time flies, winter came quietly like in previous years, it snowed quietly last night, this morning the bare treetops and branches were all bent down by the thick white snow, Su Qinghan looked at the snowy sky, He couldn't help but think of Lin Mu's smile behind his back at this time last year.

Her heart has long been numb with pain, her eyes are dry and painful, and she has shed too many tears recently, and she can't cry anymore.

As usual, I worked another day. Tomorrow is a rest day. After get off work, Su Qinghan went to the shopping mall. Next week, he was going to visit an important customer. That customer liked silver jewelry very much, so he wanted to visit the counter and choose gifts.

In the selection room, a counter lady came over and said to her with a smile: "Miss, your husband must love you very much."

"Why do you say that?" Su Qinghan didn't take it seriously, and continued to look at it, thinking it was a polite way of selling.

"The silver jewelry on your wrist can be seen as a custom-made one at a glance. The flower language of platycodon flower, with such a romantic lover, you must live a very happy life." The cabinet lady said with emotion.

"What did you say? What flower language?" Su Qinghan looked at the silver jewelry in her hand, it was the birthday present that Lin Mu gave her in advance on the playground last year.

She always thought it was an ordinary bracelet, but she seemed to have missed something.

"Don't you know?" The cabinet sister was obviously surprised when she saw her bewildered expression, "The engraving on your bracelet is bellflower. I've been selling silver jewelry for many years, so I can't mistake it. And the flower language of bellflower is Yes, eternal love, so I said, your husband must love you very much, and engraved love on the bracelet for you."

Eternal Love.

Suddenly, Lin Mu's appearance that day appeared in his mind, her smile, her blood-colored red lips, and when she looked at her, she was as gentle and pampering as ever.

What kind of mood did that person, that fool, give this necklace when she didn't understand anything.

There was a tense nerve in my heart, which seemed to be broken in an instant.

The knot that was bothering her was suddenly loosened.

Su Qinghan's whole body was shaking uncontrollably.

She was too dull, she understood too late, she was so stupid!

There has never been a moment, like now, that I want to see her so urgently.

The counter lady watched in shock as Su Qinghan threw away her high heels, rolled up her long hair, and rushed out of the shopping mall without a trace.

She is going to find her.

To find her long-lost lover.

Nothing can stop her.

The author has something to say:

I finally finished writing, and I am about to vomit blood, haha, please actively leave a message.

The next chapter is over, Susu is going to chase his wife, and the class is full tomorrow and the day after tomorrow, so see you on the weekend! (covers face and runs away)

I wrote it too hastily, and there are typos and wrong sentences. Everyone is welcome to correct me!