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It was completely dark, and the whole city seemed to be injected with heavy lead water, pouring down without leaving any room.The north wind in the cold winter whistled, and the withered and withered branches shook violently. In the thick night, it seemed like the trembling back of an old man.

Under the warm yellow street lamp, in that corner of the light, there are dots of snowflakes floating down along the north wind, slowly falling on the asphalt road, and disappearing in an instant, as if they have never existed.

Coming out of the playground, Lin Mu sent Su Qinghan home as usual, and the figures of the two were stretched very long under the light.

Lin Mu stretched out his hand, watching the snowflakes gradually melt in his warm palm, then turned his head and said gently to Su Qinghan, "Look, it's snowing. I remember you used to like watching snow the most. Once..."

Looking back on the past, Lin Mu's expression always became more gentle.

"That's enough!" Su Qinghan yelled out of control. She had been in a bad mood since she got off the Ferris wheel. Her guilt towards Lin Mu, her reluctance to part, her helplessness and resentment towards reality, all kinds of complicated things... Emotions were like a lingering nightmare, covering her heart layer upon layer, "I don't want to hear about the past anymore!"

Perhaps it was the overly beautiful past that stimulated her, and the emotions she had been suppressing so hard finally broke out.

Seeing Lin Mu's expression froze, and the raised corners of his mouth awkwardly staying in mid-air, Su Qinghan's guilt was even heavier. She realized that something was wrong with her, and tried her best to calm down her negative emotions, and apologized a little helplessly: "I'm sorry. ,I……"

"It's okay." Lin Mu just smiled gently, as if she didn't care about the situation just now, she put down her outstretched hand, looked at Su Qinghan with gentle and meaningful eyes, "Qinghan, you're home."

Su Qinghan's heart sank, and she quickly looked around, only to realize that she had unknowingly reached the gate of the community, and a feeling of fear and panic about parting suddenly surged in her chest, her throat seemed to be choked, and she said for a moment She couldn't speak, her eyes were sore and astringent, she tried her best to hold back the tears.

After a long time, she tried her best to pretend that nothing had happened and said, "When are you going back to Canada?"

"Tomorrow morning." Lin Mu replied, feeling the heavy atmosphere again, and asked jokingly, "Will you come see me off?"

There was an expectation in his voice that he didn't even realize.

"I... I have a meeting tomorrow morning." Su Qinghan explained intermittently. She kept her head down, because she didn't dare to look at Lin Mu's dark eyes that seemed to be able to capture people's hearts. Can't hold back all emotions.

"It's okay." Lin Mu saw her dodging and her fear, so how could he be willing to make things difficult for her? Even though his heart was already numb from the pain, seeing Su Qinghan's head down and looking a little helpless, he still couldn't help it He reached out and touched her head lovingly.

In normal times, she would not have such an action, because after all, they are too close, and the relationship between the two is awkward, so it is inappropriate.

But tonight, she didn't want to have so many worries anymore.

She wants to indulge once.

Su Qinghan felt the warm touch on the top of her head, with a very familiar warmth, so easy to sink and nostalgic, I really want, I really want to feel it forever, and never let go.

As soon as she raised her head, she bumped into Lin Mu's eyes, which were as bright as a clear stream. Under the cover of the night, her dark eyes seemed to be shattered with golden light, dazzling and bright, but she looked at her as warmly and tolerantly as ever, Su Qinghan Feeling sore in my heart, I hurriedly rolled my eyes away in a panic, and said those words: "I'm going in."

Lin Mu nodded silently.

"Goodbye." After saying goodbye, Su Qinghan ignored Lin Mu's reaction, turned around and walked into the community. She bit her lips fiercely, trying to relieve the pain in her heart with the pain in her body.

She had to go, if she didn't go, she was afraid that she would not be able to go.

The snow fell more and more heavily, and the whole city was covered with a thin layer of white snow. Su Qinghan walked forward without looking back, leaving a series of shallow footprints behind her.

"Qinghan." Lin Mu called out suddenly. Although her voice was not loud, Su Qinghan heard it clearly. Her footsteps stopped uncontrollably. She didn't turn around, but just froze in place.

Then Su Qinghan heard slightly hurried footsteps, approaching her little by little, her heart was about to jump out of her heart thumping, a huge expectation surged up in Su Qinghan's heart, she didn't even know that she was so Looking forward to her retention.

But she didn't know how to respond to her. Just when Su Qinghan was struggling, she felt her body fall into a soft embrace with a familiar atmosphere, making her forget all the struggle and resistance for a moment.

This embrace was so tight that it made Su Qinghan's bones ache all over. Lin Mu rarely had such a gentle moment. Her strength was so strong that it seemed that she wanted to integrate her into the bone marrow and flesh and blood, and never be separated from her.

"Promise me." From the expression of the person behind Su Qinghan, she could only hear her unusual, slightly hoarse voice, like a bell that had been out of tune for a long time, dim and deep, but still knocking on people's hearts Deep down, "You must be fine."

In the days without me, you must be fine.

Since this is your choice, and this is the best ending for you, then, no matter what, I will accept it frankly.

Lin Mu gently turned Su Qinghan's body over, Su Qinghan had no choice but to look directly into her eyes, Lin Mu's dark eyes showed a burning emotion that had never been seen before, and all the usual indifference faded away, It was replaced by a scorching fire, burning blazingly, burning into Su Qinghan's heart.

She lowered her head and slowly approached Su Qinghan. Su Qinghan only felt that her heart had already been pulled out of her mouth, and her soul was almost separated from her body. Her breath hit her nostrils shallowly, causing a numb itching. She was about to accept this untimely kiss, but she felt warm softness on her forehead.

Su Qinghan opened her eyes in a daze, only to realize that Lin Mu had just kissed her forehead, and felt an indescribable loss in her heart. She looked up at Lin Mu, and the other's eyes had returned to their usual calmness and indifference. It seemed that the flame just now was just a flash in the pan.

Lin Mu smiled at her, and then said, "Goodbye, Su Qinghan."

This is the real farewell.

Su Qinghan's heart suddenly fell into an endless black abyss, a thick darkness engulfed her, and there were countless beasts in the darkness, tearing at her body and her heart.

The two were separated, one to the left and the other to the right, separated by a vast chasm, separated by mountains, separated by oceans, separated by the distance of a galaxy.

As Su Qinghan walked back, she covered her mouth and shed tears. The tears seemed to pour down a torrential river, falling down her cheeks, and falling on the snow-covered ground, melting the ice and snow in circles.

She only has one point, and she can't figure it out.

Lin Mu, that goodbye, how can you say it with a smile.

Lin Mu only took a few steps, then stopped and turned around, looked at Su Qinghan's back, and moved away from her little by little, little by little, disappeared from her sight, never to be seen again place, disappearing into the snowy night.

She stood there for a long, long time.

It wasn't until the bone-piercing pain hit her lower body that she moved her already cold and stiff legs and walked back step by step.

There is a long distance from home, but she doesn't want to call a car, she just wants to walk one step at a time, and the snowflakes all over the sky will fall down one after another, and fall into the embrace of the earth silently.

The night is getting darker and thicker, and the snowflakes are getting fiercer and faster.

Lin Mu's shoulders were quickly covered with a layer of hoarfrost. The cold and wet snowflakes wet his shoulders and also wet Lin Mu's heart.

She used to think that Su Qinghan was her direction, her end point, her only ending in this life, so even during those five years of torment, she had never been so at a loss as she is now.

Now, that end has disappeared.

The end point that once gritted its teeth, persisted, worked hard, struggled for it, and endured it is gone.

Lin Mu only felt that her heart suddenly lost its direction and was suspended in the air erratically. She didn't know where to go.

In the withered snowflakes all over the sky, she seemed to have lost her heart.

I don't know how long I walked, at least three or four hours. When I got home, Lin Mu felt that her whole lower body was going to be numb, almost unconscious, but she ignored it and turned on the lights, so she walked slowly. In front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the living room, I sank into the sofa.

In the dark and quiet living room, Lin Mu silently looked at the neon city outside the window, her bangs on her forehead covered her face, and her expression was all hidden in the boundless ink.

Just like this, I sat until the morning sun rose.

Illuminated by the less dazzling sunlight, her eyes that had not been closed all night were still sore and painful. Lin Mu stood up, her stiff legs made her stagger unconsciously, and her back hit the hard corner of the table. Lin Mu frowned slightly.

It took a while for her to recover, reluctantly took off her heavy body and went to the bathroom, removed her makeup, revealing her haggard and pale face, Lin Mu looked at her bloodshot red eyes in the mirror, and sighed , went to take a shower, freshened up and cleaned himself up, and then put on a light makeup.

The luggage had been packed a long time ago. Originally, there were not many things. Lin Mu took one last look at this house full of vivid and beautiful memories, opened the door, and went downstairs to go to the airport.

When they got downstairs, when they were about to call a car, they saw Lin Xi's silver Bentley parked in front of her.

Lin Xi rolled down the car window, poked his head out and shouted at her: "Get in the car, I'll take you to the airport."

Lin Mu sat in the passenger seat silently.

"Are you really leaving?" Lin Xi took off his sunglasses, frowned and looked at Lin Mu who was incredibly calm.

Lin Mu nodded and looked out the car window indifferently.

"Did you just give up like this? Xiao Mu, it's not like you." Lin Xi has seen Lin Mu walk along the way. During those painful five years, no matter how desperate he was, Lin Mu never gave up. She never thought of giving up, so she really didn't understand her current behavior.

"Then how can I be like me?" Lin Mu's voice was low and hoarse, as if stuffed with a ball of cotton, "Continue to stay by her side, completely disregarding her mood, her future?"

"She doesn't need me anymore." In the miserable and helpless voice, there was another self-mockery, "Even the doctor said that she is suitable to abandon the past and start a new life. How can I restrain her footsteps?" Woolen cloth?"

Persistence is brave, but what is even braver is letting go.

In the early morning, the airport was still full of people in a hurry, and there was a standard sweet notification sounding in the huge place. Waves of people came back, and waves of people left.

Life is made up of parting and meeting again and again.

"Give me a text message when you arrive, and I will find time to see you." Lin Xi patted Lin Mu on the shoulder and told him, "Bon voyage."

While talking, Lin Xi saw Xu Wanlai hurrying over. She patted Lin Mu's hand and froze immediately, exchanged a look with Lin Mu, and left.

When Xu Wanlai saw Lin Xi passing by her with a cold face, without even saying hello, her heart ached, but she didn't have time to worry about it, and rushed to Lin Mu's side.

"Why do you want to leave suddenly? Don't tell me." Xu Wanlai's tone was a little aggrieved.

"Things in Canada are more urgent. You have been busy, so I didn't bother you."

"will you come back?"

"Probably not for the time being." Seeing the reluctance in Xu Wanlai's eyes, Lin Mu smiled and patted her head, "I'll send you an email for this expression."

Glancing at his watch, Lin Mu had no choice but to say, "I'm going to go to the security check."

The moment Lin Mu turned around, Xu Wanlai suddenly grabbed the corner of her clothes, her heart was full of tension, but unexpectedly, she was also full of courage, she tremblingly said: "Xiao Mu, if you ..."

Would you like me without Su Qinghan?

This is the question she has always wanted to ask in her mind.

It was also stuck in her heart, an insurmountable wall, an inextricable knot.

If she doesn't speak out, she will not be able to make it through, the obsession in her heart.

However, Lin Mu interrupted what she was going to say next, and his serious eyes fell directly on her body, as if to penetrate her, she said: "There is no if."

Xu Wanlai froze in place.

It turned out that she knew her mood all along, didn't she?

It turned out that she had already given the answer.

Seeing her thoughtful look, Lin Mu sighed, and added: "Come late, cherish the person in front of you."

The confusion in his heart suddenly became clear. Xu Wanlai did not feel sad and sad as he thought, but unexpectedly breathed a sigh of relief. He only felt that all the burdens in his heart were gone. Lin Mu's answer and advice , Let her clear her heart for a moment.

It turned out that he had already let go of her long ago, but the obsession with not getting it was at work.

She can no longer make the one she loves sad.

Thinking of Lin Xi's condensed face, she felt her heart ache.

Xu Wanlai glanced at Lin Mu gratefully, then turned around and walked towards the direction Lin Xi left.

Looking at Xu Wanlai's firm figure, Lin Mu felt a little relieved in his heart. At least, there are still people who can finally get married, right?One is her cousin whose blood is thicker than water, and the other is her most grateful and important friend. After going around for so many years, they are finally getting together.

Sensing a familiar gaze on her body, Lin Mu raised her head and looked around, but found that there was no figure she expected at all. She lowered her head and smiled self-deprecatingly.

Then I pushed the suitcase and walked to the security checkpoint.

The moment Su Qinghan looked over at Lin Mu, he felt that his heart was going to explode, but luckily he reacted in time to avoid it.

Yes, she came, and she still followed uncontrollably, even if she couldn't go see her off in person, even if she just hid in the dark and looked at her from a distance like now.

Watching her pass through the security checkpoint, the tall and straight figure wrapped in a beige windbreaker is so conspicuous among the passing crowd. Looking at her, she gradually disappeared from my sight.

Su Qinghan covered her mouth and kept wiping away the tears she couldn't restrain. The vast and empty airport echoed her sobbing sobs.

You should be fine too, Lin Mu.

The author has something to say:

Yesterday, recurring urticaria + no inspiration, no update, and I apologize to you again.

Today is a little better, so I added a chapter.

The update time of the next chapter is uncertain, I will try my best to write, and there are two more chapters to finish.