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There was a dark scene in front of her, only a faint yellow light in front of her. Lin Mu walked forward along the light, and saw an open scene, as if she had come to the edge of a cliff, and the howling cold wind blew across her cheeks, bringing a biting touch .

Su Qinghan was right in front of her eyes, the wind blew her loose long hair like a blooming eternal flower, behind her was a bottomless cliff, she turned her back like this, and smiled shallowly at Lin Mu, It's breathtakingly beautiful.

She waved hands with Lin Mu and said to her, "Mu, goodbye."

Then Su Qinghan jumped off the cliff under Lin Mu's horrified gaze. Lin Mu ran frantically to try to hold her back, but he could only catch a strand of hair slipping through his palm.

"do not want!"

Lin Mu woke up from the dream, only felt that his back was wet with cold sweat, looking at his palm, the real touch just now was still in his ears, the palm seemed to still carry her warmth, that kind of heart-piercing fear , still lingering in my heart for a long time.

Is it really a dream?

Lin Mu was in a daze, when Lin Xi came in from the ward, seeing that she woke up, she was about to cry with joy, and quickly sat on the edge of her bed, holding her shoulder, "Xiao Mu, you finally woke up, feel Are you okay? Do you want me to call the doctor?"

Lin Mu was woken up by her bead-curtain shell-like question, and couldn't help being startled, he held Lin Xi's hands instead, as if grabbing a life-saving straw, with anxiety and worry on his still pale face look, voice hoarse: "What about her?"

When Lin Xi heard this question, she brushed her loose hair from her temples with her hand, and looked away unnaturally, "She's fine, she's... fully recovered."

There was joy in Lin Mu's red eyes.

"You have been in a coma for three days, do you know? Fortunately, I had time to visit you that day, and when I entered the door, I found both you and Qing Han lying on the ground. I was almost scared to death, so I quickly asked someone to take you to the hospital. "Lin Xi recalled the scene that day, still with lingering fears.

"Qinghan woke up soon and fully recovered. The doctor said that she was a blessing in disguise. She was stimulated again and she woke up. But she was injured after all, so she stayed in the hospital for observation for a few days. Until today You can leave the hospital now." He added.

"Then I'll go and see her." Lin Mu said as he was about to get out of bed, regardless of the back of his hand that was still drenched in water.

Lin Xi hurriedly stopped her, frowning and patiently dissuaded her: "Don't be in such a hurry, Qinghan is fine, and you will have plenty of time to spend together in the future, so don't rush this moment, but you, the doctor said that your body is too weak, the last It’s good to have a full-body examination, if you do this again, I’ll tell my aunt and uncle, you know?”

Lin Mu paused for a moment before he stopped wanting to get out of bed, "Well, that's fine."

Only then did Lin Xi feel relieved, and after a few words of advice, she left.

In the afternoon, after Lin Mu finished hanging the water, the doctor came to check her up again. Lin Mu lay on the bed thinking for a while, but still felt uneasy, so he put on a coat and got out of bed. His limbs, which had not walked for a long time, were limp. She stroked the wall reluctantly and walked to the office of Su Qinghan's attending doctor on the second floor.

The doctor was a little surprised to see her wearing a hospital gown, and hurried over to help her sit on the chair. Lin Mu politely said thank you, and he said with a smile: "Miss Lin, you are here to ask about Miss Su's condition, right?" ?”

Lin Mu nodded, feeling that her throat was a little itchy, she coughed a few times uncontrollably, calmed down her breathing, and said a little seriously: "Yes, doctor, I want to ask whether Qing Han's illness will recur. Is it possible?"

"I didn't expect Miss Su to recover so quickly this time. It seems that Miss Su is completely normal now, but I can't guarantee whether it will relapse, because mental and psychological diseases are The hardest to predict and cure."

"Is there no way to cure it?" Lin Xi frowned, and was very worried about this situation. According to the doctor, such a disease is like a diarrhoea, and he doesn't know when it will explode.

"It's not impossible." The doctor stroked his beard and pondered for a while before speaking, "It's best that Ms. Su can abandon the past and start a new life, then generally there will be no relapse."

Abandon the past and start over?

Lin Mu walked on the long corridor of the hospital, lowered his head and thought quietly, and unknowingly came to the ward area where Su Qinghan was. She was discharged from the hospital today, and she didn't know if she left.

She didn't know why she had to come here. Lin Xi told her not to worry, but she still wanted to go and see her, even if it was just a glance, to make sure she was safe and well and fully recovered, so she could rest assured .

The door of the ward was not closed, but was wide open. Lin Mu saw that Su Qinghan and Chu Chen were cuddling together, laughing and talking, very intimate. How long had it been since he saw such a bright smile on her face?

There was a bit of bitterness in my heart, I had been in the ward for so long, and she had never visited me once, Lin Mu shook his head, trying to get rid of those complicated and negative emotions, since when did he become so jealous and narrow-minded up?

Knocking on the door, the two looked at Lin Mu at the same time. Su Qinghan's face stiffened for a moment, but it lasted less than a second. Lin Mu was always careful, but her physical weakness and mental exhaustion made her unusual. So keen, there is no detection at all.

Su Qinghan glanced at Chu Chen, who twitched the corners of his mouth and smiled very coquettishly. She picked up the luggage bag on the table, kissed Su Qinghan's forehead, leaned into her ear and said in a moderate voice: "Honey, then I'll go back first and wait for you tonight~"

Such a hint was too obvious, instead of pushing her away, Su Qinghan stroked her short fluffy hair, smiled at her, and then Chu Chen left very satisfied, this time without even looking at Lin Mu.

Lin Mu stood stiffly on the spot. The clothes on her body were already thin, but now she felt colder and colder. Such a scene was no stranger to her. She had experienced it just a few months ago. At that time, she felt heartbroken. The despair, but at this moment I feel nothing, my heart has long been numb with pain.

What's more, now is not the time to care about these issues.

"Qinghan, are you in good health?" Lin Mu approached Su Qinghan, looked her up and down, and found that her complexion looked good, her complexion was also very rosy, and her eyes were not as hollow as before. Chaos, but sharp and spirited.

Su Qinghan silently stepped back a few steps, keeping a distance from Lin Mu, with a polite smile on his face, and said calmly: "Well, a while ago, thank you for taking care of me."

Lin Mu frowned, Su Qinghan seemed to have returned to the indifference when the two reunited, but the hatred and arrogance of that time were less, and more alienated and polite, as if they had become strangers who had nothing to do with each other.

Such a change made Lin Mu's heart sink.

"What are you talking about? Taking care of you is what I should do." Lin Mu said seriously.

Su Qinghan just smiled, as if she didn't care, she glanced at the sunlight outside the window, and said lightly: "I heard that you are going back to Canada, when are you leaving?"

"Since you have recovered, you should be leaving in a few days." Lin Mu didn't know why Su Qinghan asked about this matter, but he explained, "However, I'll be back soon."

"Why do you want to come back?" Su Qinghan turned around and looked straight into Lin Mu's eyes. His dark and deep pupils made her heart tremble, but she still gritted her teeth and continued: "Your parents are there, why You want to come back? Isn't it good to settle down directly?"

"What do you mean?" Lin Mu's heart tightened and he asked in a deep voice.

"Don't you understand what I mean?" Su Qinghan smiled softly, with a mocking smile, "Lin Mu, you don't think there is any possibility between us, do you?"

Lin Mu's eyes flickered, and she suddenly felt a little unstable. She supported the wall with her hands, and managed to stabilize her figure.

"You lied to me so much, do you know that the most important thing between lovers is trust?" Su Qinghan's eyes became sharper, piercing into Lin Mu's heart like a gleaming dagger, "Actually, it's in your heart , I have never been a person who can share weal and woe with you, have I?"

Lin Mu was dumbfounded, the usual indifference and tranquility in her eyes were shattered, and circles of bitterness were pierced. She was silent for a long time before she said in a hoarse voice: "I'm sorry... I just..."

I just want to protect you.

"You don't need to say any more, I've heard your apology too many times." Su Qinghan turned her head away from Lin Mu's expression, her tone was blunt and indifferent, "I know I owe you a lot, and I can't afford it in this life , and I don’t want to pay it back.”

"I broke up with you five years ago, and I admit that it was just a moment of anger on my part, so I'll tell you seriously again today." Su Qinghan tried to keep her voice steady, but if she listened carefully, she would still hear those words There was a choked tremor inside, "Lin Mu, let's break up."

This sentence was obviously very calm, but it was like a thunderbolt, which slashed straight on the top of Lin Mu's head. It was split from head to toe. The hands were tearing at each other, there was a pain of shattering, and the sweet blood flowed up from the stomach again, Lin Mu wiped the corner of his mouth, and there were traces of blood in the palm of his hand.

She put her hands behind her back calmly, not letting Su Qinghan notice her strangeness. After a long time, she calmed down the turbulent emotions in her heart, her bright black eyes showed pleading retention, her voice was muffled, It seemed to be wrapped in a nasal voice, "Is it really impossible for us...?"

Although Su Qinghan's words made it very clear that anyone with self-respect should stop here, but, but... Lin Mu still wanted to make the last struggle, bow his head for the last time, and persuade him to stay.

There were tears in Su Qinghan's eyes. She pursed her lips, as if trying to hide her ups and downs. Then, she looked into Lin Mu's eyes and said word by word: "Lin Mu, Seeing you reminds me of the past, and those are things I want to forget."

"I don't need you anymore."

The last sentence was like a horrific nightmare. It opened its terrifying mouth and attacked Lin Mu suddenly, swallowing the heart that was already full of scars. Lin Mu only felt that his heart was empty, as if Does not exist anymore in general.

Those fragmentary and noisy human voices, like devil-like curses, rang in my mind over and over again.

"I won't leave you again...as long as you need me."

"It's best that Ms. Su can abandon the past and start a new life."

"Lin Mu, let's break up."

"I hate you."

"I don't need you anymore."

…………

Lin Mu's mind seemed to be flooded with a raging black torrent, drowning her last hope and happiness.

Su Qinghan watched Lin Mu disappear at the end of the hospital corridor with her own eyes. She was wearing a thin disinfectant suit with only a thin coat on top. She was so thin that she seemed about to fall to the ground anytime, anywhere.

Su Qinghan stared at the spot for a long time, her heart was aching, and then she entered the ward, locked the door, drew the thick blackout curtains, curled up in the corner, hugged her knees with her hands, Bury your head deep in it.

The emotions that had been suppressed just now finally erupted. Tears gushed out like a waterfall, and wet the light-colored trouser legs in a short while. Su Qinghan cried, shaking her head and murmuring: "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... do not blame me……"

Those merciless words just now that seemed to poke a few big holes in Lin Mu's heart were all deliberately said by Su Qinghan, including the arrival of Chu Chen, which was also deliberately arranged by Su Qinghan.

If he didn't do this...if he wasn't so cruel...Su Qinghan couldn't think of any way to push Lin Mu away from her.

She had woken up three days ago, and after waking up, and all her memories, she had completely recovered.

Su Qinghan sat beside Lin Mu's hospital bed, who was still unconscious at the time, crying uncontrollably. The doctor said that she was overworked due to long-term sleep and lack of rest. Fortunately, she was discovered early, otherwise the consequences would be disastrous.

Lin Mu on the hospital bed lost weight for a few times, as if only a lifeless shell was left. During the time when Su Qinghan was mentally disabled, she was ignorant and never noticed it. It was only when she woke up that she realized her weakness. How much has changed.

In the past, Lin Mu was very healthy even though she was slim. When she was in college, she was the captain of the school tennis team. She was also good at other sports, fencing, close defense, taekwondo...everything. , she stood in the sun, wearing a white sportswear and a tall figure with a ponytail, which once remained in Su Qinghan's heart for a long, long time.

But now?

The car accident five years ago took away most of her health. Su Qinghan clearly felt that her body and physical strength were not as good as before. After returning to China five years later, Lin Mu went to the hospital countless times. Fever, overwork...it's all because of her.

It was all her fault.

If it wasn't for her, if...she hadn't met her, she would have lived a good life. There wouldn't be the indiscriminate disaster five years ago, and there wouldn't be the torture and pain five years later.

The memory was flipped, and Su Qinghan could still clearly recall every detail of how Lin Mu took care of her during the nearly month-long mental disorder.

She accompanied her almost every step of the way, dressing, feeding, bathing... Lin Mu tried his best to be meticulous and patient in all the details of daily life.

She was like a child at that time, unwilling to eat normal meals. Lin Mu learned the recipes and tried his best to make some colorful and strange-shaped foods, just to make her eat more. She couldn't live without it during the day. Leaving her and relying on her all the time, Lin Mu moved all the matters in Su's family to his home, let the staff deliver all the ingredients to his home, and stayed with her wholeheartedly.

Lin Mu accompanies her during the day and can only work at night. However, as long as she makes any movement at night and cannot sleep because of nightmares, she will immediately put down the work in hand, hug her tightly, and comfort her over and over again. The thin and thin shoulders were so warm and gentle when they hugged her, until she fell asleep peacefully again, and then went back to work in the study.

The few times she went mad and lost control, it was dangerous enough to kill Lin Mu. She obviously had the opportunity to push herself away, but she endured it silently because she didn't want to hurt her, and hugged her tightly after she recovered. Loved her, as if if she fell into hell, she would stay with her without hesitation and bear all the torture and suffering for her.

Her bright and clear eyes like obsidian always contain so much affection and focus when looking at her. She has always been indifferent and rarely shows a temperament of sadness and joy. When facing the person who hurt her, she will appear She showed such an angry side, and when facing her, she was always tolerant and pampered.

Such a good Lin Mu, after he has done so many unforgivable things, how can he be worthy of her?

With her, she will only suffer endless injuries, and will only become more and more tired and tired.

Su Qinghan was afraid that Lin Mu would get hurt, and even more afraid that after being hurt again and again, Lin Mu would gradually give up and be disappointed in her.

Therefore, Su Qinghan decided to let go, using that cruel and decisive method to cut off the last entanglement between the two of them.

Don't blame me, I just want you to be better off.

Rather than seeing you leave me in the end, the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain, and it is better to let go.

Forgive my selfishness.

Su Qinghan was at home that night and was about to go to bed when the phone rang and the word "Lin Mu" appeared on the screen. She was startled, hesitated for a while, and connected.

There was a brief silence on the other end of the phone, and then she heard Lin Mu's hoarse and deep voice, like a thick fog in the night, she said: "I agree with your breakup."

Su Qinghan's heart suddenly fell into an endless abyss of darkness. She did not expect that hearing her say this with her own ears would be so sad, like being stabbed, bloody pain, so, after she said so much hurt What kind of mood does she feel when she hears people's words?

"But I have one condition."

"what?"

"Stay with me for a day."

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The next chapter is still being written, and it will be published tomorrow or the day after tomorrow. I am slow in typing, please forgive me.